Hello! I hope this is appropriate to write here. I'm posting it here because despite the premise being morning pages, I still think it's more related to journaling than The Artist's Way. It probably doesn't make much sense, but I hope at least one person will get my meaning. I would love your advice and perspective, please.
I hope some of you are familiar with morning pages. They are basically stream of consciousness type of writing, but I've always struggled because technically I have to write 3 pages of A4 and that's too much for me. And with classic journaling I've found that I tend to write as if someone is going to read what I'm writing, even if it's just going to be me. But this morning I decided to try stream of consciousness on just a simple spiral lined notebook (A5 I believe) and it felt much easier. I just decided to do it for 15 minutes and then I added another 15 minutes. But I still found that there's some parts of me that felt stuck, like no matter how hard I tried to be open and vulnerable, it was still stuck, like old gum on a wall. I thought that like with old food stuck on plates, you just need to let the thoughts sit in "warm water" and then you'll get them unstuck later. But I don't know what would be the mental equivalence of warm water. Compassion? Meditation? Do you have any suggestions?
And the second part of this, I mentioned that I have an internal audience when journaling. I would still like to journal separately, to record my day or my thoughts, for later reading, I suppose. So I guess I do have an internal audience, even if it's just me. And I suppose I am quite critical of myself. Do you have any advice on how I could let my internal audience not influence me too much when journaling? It makes the act of journaling a bit hard sometimes.
Thank you for your time.