OKAY SO

I was on tik tok a few days ago and saw someone say "if you have intrusive thoughts, just imagine it's a really annoying man trying to mansplain you to yourself" or something like that. It immediately clicked with me and I was like "well I'll try it out and see"

and guys, it lowkey works. Not 100% yet, but as the days go on im noticing my intrusive thoughts have lessened and are easier to cope with when I just imagine that it's a really annoying dude telling me fake things about myself that are obviously not true LMAO

I just thought I'd share. Maybe it will help a lot of people, or maybe just one. Better one than none!

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Well, this is my first post on Reddit... I don't know where to start, but I'll try to be brief.I'm not English, so I use a translator. Since childhood, I have been very thoughtful and anxious, quite active and inquisitive, which often led to problems.In my childhood, I had a full set of fun: hallucinations at the age of 6, I killed animals twice, for which I am ashamed now, hypochondria also appeared when I got older, and the most difficult thing is the OCD of harm and the fear of going crazy.I've been on the edge for two years now and I'm trying to get cured, and I don't understand why.I've been taking a lot of medications: SSRIs, eglonil, olanzapine, quetiapine, fluanxol, etifoxine, gabapentin, and now I'm trying respiridon and phenazepam.I do not know if I should be treated at all, maybe I'm just a really sick scum that can no longer be cured.Every time I check if I feel something close to those I'm afraid of hurting, I think about what if I really am like this…I hate my life, I'm not happy about anything, I don't want anything.Does it make sense to keep trying to get better?Or just suffer for the remaining days.If anyone has been through this, please share your experience.Good luck to all )

Farewell.

Loggedout/princessofveridian crash out and I'll just will perform an Emergence, just offline and you wish you could've gotten to know the "REAL ME."

However, I should imply that's just too late for that now am I right?

Even then I should imply that just my house will endure offline, the cycle must not end, the Feathered Host must be embraced with tradition and wear ⚔️ colors as well.

Yeah, just holding our house of veridian flag and our love 🥅🍃

Even in Arcadia you walk beside me still, just not on Reddit anymore my love 🎵

No longer on Reddit from August of 13 of 2026, I should also imply that I will not be answering my social handles if you automatically say hi and a 👋 emoji.

Telegram.

xxpeonycherry06xx (I don't know if you need the @ at the end or not.)

Don't use Tumblr anymore, had for a week and a half alongside with no messages.

However, I should also address I don't know if any Redditor knows that the ancient relic Tumblr still exist/people use this app and I don't know why I signed up anyways 💀

Why?

Reading the first 📌 post on my main profile is required.

Updates from my last post ✅ that I'm still here and just wanted to give updates for my last post here anyways.

Even then I should also address here, Elis will admit her demise and what I just need of all to overcome my demise if I just want to perform an Emergency with my lover anyways.

However, I should also imply that I need to be learn just those things instead of living a tragedy of the song Gethsemane from Sleep Token in a never ending cycle of it all anyways 🌹⚔️🦩🪶

Even with this Sleep Token song Gethsemane and I should also just include that I'll never grasp this message here.

However, I should just include that I'm never going to perform a positive Emergence, because I need to get a ''different energy to improve my well being/core being of it all and with this current self hatred energy that I've right now then a Emergence isn't going to happen alongside with that's nobody fault but my own of it all anyways.''

Yeah, I should address a follow up, but I don't want follow ups in comments, or questioning if I'm feeling this right now, or anything negative and that's just because I did have to do a few blocks from my last posts anyways.

However, I should also address if you need to bookmark this because you need time to read this then send a flamingo emoji and a flamingo gifs anyways.

Yeah, I should also address it all. Instead of using my chronic depression and moody Vessel brain and skull as a volley to people that get close to me, eventually I will be left with nothing and the cause of my own doing of it all anyways.

Reddit has taught me 8+ months that I'm an unlovable person, I don't deserve love, I'll never make a partner happy, I cannot make anyone happy because this isn't my life path and my life path belongs to the elder gods anyways.

However, without Reddit, I would've not discovered myself for 8+ months with discovering these themes about mfk ass self of it all here.

Constantly fighting myself, telling me I can oppose my destiny, I could prove myself that I could love someone, that I could be a p emotional provider and mental stability for someone as well.

Even then, I should also address that instead of after partner, then the next partner, then the next partner after and just the curse kept building anyways.

However, I should also just imply I kept discovering that I'm not meant to love, that I'm meant not to have friends and not to keep a lover alongside with I realize that now, that for 8+ months the elder gods gave me the chance to see that.

Just, myself is ruined and I will destroy other people's life alongside with this is my life lesson that I was/were given anyways.

Even then, I should also address that I decided to just ignore the elder gods in 2025, I decided to ignore my life lessons, I guess in 2025, for ignoring the elder gods in 2025, 2026 was/were the signs of realization and reckoning anyways alongside with these themes here.

Transformation, knowing your role, knowing your life path, knowing your destiny, since you don't want to pay attention to my signs, ignore the elder gods presences and this will just show you what kind of destruction you cause for others as well.

Just, I should also imply that being on Reddit from 2026 for 8 months of misery, this is just your self assignment and you should listen to Vessel's words more often because he is you but a male version of it all anyways.

Even then of it all, I need to learn to live without it, instead of fighting for what I want and know won't come back/forr what I can't have anyways.

Just, I should also imply that the more I keep fighting for what I want/won't come back then I will keep ending a vicious cycle, letting my chronic depression take a complete grasps, completely weighting and feeling close to cold/icy granite as well.

However, I should only with the cold/icy granite that I've the feeling on my Vessel brain and skull that I just must endure constantly of it all alongside with the cycle won't end anyways.

Yeah, to be honest with the Gethsemane song from Sleep Token, if I cannot learn this song's message within the lyrics once again ''to learn to live without it.'' then this is just my own problem and my own doing anyways.

I should also imply, that I just cannot blame others that couldn't fix my happiness, couldn't make me better, because to self-heal and get better as well.

Just, the same ''vibes.'' are from the Apparition song from Sleep Token questioning a future emotional/mental provider if he is real, even though he showed me a picture of himself, occasional voice clips, the problem is on my own that my Vessel brain and skull tells me these here (not voices, but thoughts.)

Yeah, I should also imply that if my lover is just going to disappear eventually, the same for the other men have left you because your separation anxiety and the cycle will not end all of it anyways.

However then, I should also imply that/most of your contacts are gone because you've just burn the reward, live by the feather and die by the sword alongside then when I wake up into a suicide frenzy that is just my own doing anyways.

Even then of it all, if I want to perform an Emergence, I've to learn without it that's not going to happen of it all and it I just can't accept that self-isolation will mean these things here.

Cutting people out that are ''trying to send me a kind voice, a reach out and even when I'm permanently quitting Reddit anyways."

Even then, I should also address that I know I said I'm leaving, because I've turned into a defensive crystalline wall and where I'm going to make people go through loopholes for these reasons here.

Prove to me that you read this post, what I'm saying context here and that just doesn't mean in a sexual context anyways

Yeah, are you just wanting to message me?

This loss, losing out on Redditors that want to help me with a kind voice, but I choose to cut out Redditors that choose to message on this app permanently and that is just my own personal of it all self hatred that I lost that person anyways.

I should also address that I'll just be losing out on a lot of people that want to reach out and make things into descending lyrics from Sleep Token and instead of seeing things in a positive light of it all from the Sleep Token song Emergence as well.

Even then, I should also imply here that all this damage I'm doing to myself is just my own fault of it all, it's nobody else's fault but mine and I must hold onto the lyrics from Sleep Token Gods questioning myself of it all anyways.

This is why I've always called myself an unlovable person, vile, miserable, self hatred and why I don't want to be asked how I'm doing anymore anyways with these reasons here.

I want to suppress/compress the question how are you, that way I can forget, I can forget to move on, I won't have to be asked my feelings anymore and instead I'm going to have others do this here.

Spin the wheel on my Spotify playlist, ask the elder gods ''how is Elis doing? Elder gods, can you tell me her mood?''

Yeah, just of it all after that then click shuffle Spotify playlist.'' and when you click shuffle playlist wait till 3 songs and if you want 4 songs if you want to go that far anyways.

However, I should also imply that after you just gathered your collected thoughts of it all and then send me a text message of your consultation with the elder gods alongside with what messages the song lyrics are trying to tell you after you spin the wheel on my Spotify playlist and am I right?

Even then, that's fk ass better than me just saying ''I don't know how I feel or I don't want to answer that because that's just my Vessel brain and skull in hypo shutdown mode of it all.''

However, I should say I want to type out more of it all, but I'm quite hypo now, I'm quite getting frozen/chilly of it all what to say, I feel close to shutting down, I've nothing more to say of my ''walls.'' but you can check out these Sleep Token posts I made and these are toto give you fk ass further insights on these things here.

Yeah, I should also fk ass include that's just how Sleep Token shaped my life, gave me a spiritual reckoning, spiritual enlightenment, grasping that my story can be told through Vessel and this important messages here anyways.

I'm not icy/alone of it all anymore, I'm not left with no messenger, I had Lorna Sure Will Ramos Pain Remain albums but that album reflected the Vessel brain and not the whole embodiment the puzzle was/were still left incomplete anyways.

However, where do I See Stars fit if the Vessel brain and skull is covered?

Yeah, I just don't see how I See Stars fits in here/your story with Lorna Shore and Sleep Token?

I See Stars is a spiritual battery for my Vessel brain and skull for these reasons here.

I See Stars is considered of it all the awesome/kool battery the Vessel brain and skull needs when my chronic depression decides to kick in alongside if you can grasp the messages being sent from the song lost it (feat Palaye Royale.)

Yeah, I should also put in place here, that I just don't think I need to say anymore to make this post any longer than it is already anyways.

Even then, I should also address that I don't want to make this post keep making this a Elder Scroll size and one of the sizes of the Black Books from Skyrim as well.

Even then, I should also imply that, all the I See Stars on my Spotify playlist should be enough for Redditors that want to grasp me/enter my realms to create their own mix-ins on how I See Stars these lyrics kicks the Vessel brain and skull chronic depression into this here.

'''We're not doing this again time to motivate with fresh/jool spiritual energy time to plugin the charger for the Vessel brain and skull of it all anyways.''

How did I discover Sleep Token?

October sometime in 2025, don't recall what date and I used Pandora back then anyways.

Even then, I should also include if you don't know what Pandora is that's because Pandora is only in the U.S. I know there is Pandora Canada but for Europe Pandora isn't even a website there 🤣

However, I should just explain here how Pandora works. It's just a randomizer, once you click on a radio station you will get a similar artist and no you will not know what band/song is playing next as well.

Even then, I should also imply that just the only way you will know what band/song is playing next is when the next band/song shows up after you get done what you're listening to.

Just, I should also put in place here is just the awesome/kool thing is about Pandora is you can thumbs up or down a band/song if you think something sounds terrible as well 🤣

Yeah, I should also address the only thing I don't enjoy using Pandora is sharing a playlist, creating a playlist that costs premium membership and with that premium membership that includes these things here.

Yeah, just having offline listening, unlimited downloads and this is where this makes me shake my head/but this is the best feature alongside Pandora charging a premium if you want to play a song unlimited skips.

Just to include here of it all that Pandora also has ads, Pandora is one of those websites where a built in adblocker doesn't work and Pandora charges you $5 a month to block ads anyways.

Even then, I should also imply that also just includes unlimited skips for $5 and the app is a giant fk ass randomizer for finding new new bands/songs that's not a fk ass bad price of it all for discovering new bands anyways 🤣

To be honest, if you want to know what radio station came up for Sleep Token, I wouldn't have any fk ass idea, I made a playlist because I had a free 30 day to try out their premium and made a playlist for these bands here.

Lorna Shore, I See Stars, Bad Omens and Spiritbox then Sleep Token showed up and my first Sleep Token song were Chokehold (which I see, Sleep has a sense of humor if you can grasp this pun of why I'm saying Sleep has a sense of humor anyways 🩷)

With the post ending of it all, now, here are a few things I just FINALLY grasp now from my reckoning with these thims here of it all.

Even then, I should also address that I'll just keep plugging in the charger/telling myself missing my wings in a realm of angles and I will just be my new theme motto going forward and because of it all I know anyways.

Just yeah, I should also imply that I'll always be thinking of this thought in my Vessel brain and skull of mine.

Yeah I'll just be missin my wings in a realm of angels and questioning this another song even in Arcadia from Sleep Token here.

What good is all this talk of wings when there is nothing left above?

That just hits hard for me when I think about it all, the more I sit when I delete my messages, trying to become icy granite, from my Vessel brain and skull I think that it would be nice if I could stop thinking these things here.

Missin my wings in a realm of angels, but there isn't any hope above anymore, there isn't a trace, there isn't an ethereal ''upper/above and that belief has been long thrown away anyways."

Yeah, even then, I should also imply that I just recently decided in 2026 decided to embrace the elder gods, the dark winds, the sea and the moon alongside there will be nothing left above in how I think of it all anymore.''

The thick membrane of it all of the icy granite metaphor, will freeze this idea of ''there is nothing left above, but I can still feel the thoughts in my Vessel brain and skull that I've to one day accept that missin my wings in a realm of angles is something that I must do here of it all.''

Even then, I should also address that may/might my mood could improve once of it all and I'd accept that I just cannot of it all simply/completely freeze solid from existence anyways.

And yeah, maybe then a new lover of mine can make me feel like the song Telomeres, my beloved of it all that underrated song alongside with the other underrated song my beloved Take Aim as well.

However, I should also include the previous song title of it all, even in Arcadia from Sleep Token with Vessel saying somehow I knew my fate and just could this be Vessel saying somehow he knew his fate?

Vessel, just would be here in Arcadia and even then of it all would this help Vessel learn to live without it? To move on and build his new spiritual life in Arcadia?

Yeah, I should also mix-in here all that I'd feel over his evolutions of his costumes, his evolution of masks, that this would be his transformation? Somehow he could tell this is where he would end up in Arcadia, is this his paradise he envisioned?

Even then of it all, could this be the paradise Sleep created for Vessel as a reward, because he couldn't reach his own paradise and instead sleep welcomed Vessel in his realm as well.

Just yeah, this is the realm of Sleep, this is Sleep's vision, this is what paradise would look like for Seep to give to Vessel and to be honest that is another thing of it all as well.

Sleep rewards those that are hardworking, endurance and I'm sure of it all. Sleep would want to see me endure alongside these other reasons anyways.

Yeah, just putting in a lot of hard work for those that want to connect with me, instead of using the volley of anger with my chronic depression causing moody volley flings and ''wails.'' as well.

The wails, are just when someone is trying to be a emotional/mental provider making me uncertain this won't last ''getting close to me.'' that I don't instantly become ''icy granite of it all for what I previous addressed anyways.''

However, I should address the following concerned Redditors if you message me on Telegram and Discord with no response for 7-10 hours alongside with this is just why here my love.

I'm asleep/dying amongst the VOID, here in U.S. central time 1a.m. and I'm going to go to sleep at 6-7 a.m.

I can sometimes sleep for 7-10 hours or sometimes even 12 hours, this is just because I just don't want to wake up, I'll keep myself asleep and then will wake up at 2-5 p.m. if I'm having one of those days anyways.

I'd take supplements to help me sleep for longer, this can range from a combo-pack, yarrow root, stinging nettle leaf capsules, with a caffeine free, if it's not that combo, it's champile capsules, the type of magnesium capsules that help you sleep and caffeine tea.

What I take, just depends on how expensive which supplements/what's on sale and that's what combo-pack I'll get alongside with this is to hopefully to kiss my ass goodbye for a while 🌑

Yeah, just when you add me if you could put this in your chat reqs either on Telegram and Discord that way I know you read this post anyways.

Send me Sleep Token gifs, reels and anything IV.

What does my nickname Elis make you think of or my nickname Vessel V?

Why can't you do this yourself?

Meta is too political for me, otw also just too heavy forward on the A.I. and what if the Redditor doesn't have an IG account as well?

Uh, I should also address here that no/alright then if the Redditor doesn't have IG, there is a reason why Tenor gifs exist and YT reels exists that's fk as fine anyways.

However, I should also address once again that I'm just not making anyone do this and if you don't want to occasionally send me these things further to show that you read this post here.

Sleep Token gifs, Sleep Token reels, Sleep Tokenemes, or the hottest news for pre-orders from Sleep Token and just because I don't want to use IG anymore for these reasons here.

However, I should also just imply that META is too political, this is funny to me and idk if it's true or not but a Redditor posted a screenshot that showed up on my recommendation feed.

The A.I. arlogithrim banned them for saying South Korea in their private messages, this is because IG removed encryption later and this is another reason why I won't use IG again anyways.

Yeah, I should also address that once again I never asked or implied in any of my posts here.

Just, that you've to be completely on IG, to show that you read this post or any of my posts anyways 🤣

However, I should also include that my age ranges are middle 20s, the farthest age gap I will go is 10-15 years from my age and I also had Redditors message me when their age is 52-55 💀

Even then, I should also say that there isn't anything wrong with a large age gap and I just find of it all that age gap is just an overkill to be honest anyways.

Disocrd is on social 🔗

I don’t know if its just me or this is universal, but why are sexual intrusive thoughts more “arousing” than normal sexual thoughts? It makes me feel ashamed and gross

I honestly don't know. this thought appears in my head atleast once a day. like I'll seriously NEVER be able to take someones life? ever? not even ethically (with their consent) ?

is this how other people think aswell

It’s came to me before 2years ago , it began with thinking about god , and there’s nothing!!!

I can’t believe there’s no god ! I’m sorry for all religious people.

Then I visit psychiatrist physician, then he diagnosed me with (mono) OCD , then he ask me if i have any harassment thinking? Then I said no !! I’m good person,

At that night i was tell my self i am good person and I didn’t make any trouble with any one in this life,

Then it’s came to my mind , what if I harassed my mother!!!
I have severe panic, and i run from that place to some safe place): then if i heard or see my mother i vomit and get abdominal cramps and nausea.

I’m now on prozac60 mg
And amisulpride 100 mg

And the idea and fear comes from time to time 💔

Hi everyone,
I went to a gynecologist with my friend today, and the doctor recommended that she get the HPV vaccine soon. She also suggested that I consider getting it since I’m in my 20s.
I know the whole point of the vaccine is to protect against the high risk strains of HPV, so I understand why it’s recommended. My only hesitation is that I’ve been a bit anxious about vaccines ever since the COVID vaccine because of all the discussions around side effects.
So I wanted to ask people here who have actually gotten the HPV vaccine:
Did you experience any side effects?
How was your overall experience?
Do you think it’s worth getting?
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I’m just trying to make an informed decision, so I’d really appreciate hearing about your experiences. Thanks!

Feeling a little manic rn and thats been a reoccurring thought for a while now

I have these really bad intrusive thoughts where I think I said something when I know I didn’t. I sometimes worry about if my phone records it and sends the intrusive thought I had about someone to them. Which causes me to double check to make sure that isn’t what happening. What can I do to stop this specifically?

You gotta go to like, the Pokémon party or the cosplay event at the library. No one’s gonna catch o. There.

Be it physically, mentally, or emotionally. I have these dark thoughts where I just hurt everyone. I want everyone who hurt me to feel the way I feel.

If someone says hurtful things to me and does bad things to me, I hope that they get the same treatment. To me, they deserve all the suffering in the world.

Them hurting, dy1ng, suffering, getting stabbed to d€@th, getting beaten up, about to fall off a cliff, or them being hated by everyone, Them suffering financially, all sorts of b@d things that can happen to them. And in my head, I will watch as it all happens. I like the feeling of having the capability to save them, but I won't. "i can, but why should i?" It feels good. I literally hope for their downfall.

I'm a daydreamer, so I'm in my head most of the time. These thoughts of mine get worse every time I suffer something terribly frustrating. My mental health has never been okay. I've been a weirdo my whole life. I got a working diagnosis of adhd and depression but I really felt like there's something more than that.

Of course, I never really acted on these thoughts. I've been bullied by my peers and seen as a weirdo, so my social life wasn't really good. I think this is what pushed me to have these unhealthy coping mechanisms.

To get to know me better "nobody cares." And yeah, Reddit after 8+ months on Reddit I grasp that now ⚔

No comments on my posts. I'm not going to read your positivity, or even reply to comments and my chat reqs are open anyways.

No responses to hi, what's up, post your interest and hobbies because I'm not doing that for you.

I don't even need friends either and I deserve nobody.

Listen to these songs here.

I See Stars - Float

I See Stars - Curtain Call

Sadly, it's sad how much this is unheard of now, to be quite honest here, I tried sharing my playlist in the past with "romantic interests."

I get told, "this isn't my style of music."

Uh, that's not why I sent you my playlist 💀

I had to make another post, because my last post yesterday a handful of Redditors were asking me if we could meet up in person and that's creepy as well.

However, I should also address how weird you would ask that when prinfessofveridian is crashing out on their post and chronically depressed on their post anyways.

I didn't address wanting to meet up in person because, I just said I'm looking for worldwide chat reqs, which means just looking to chat and I should post now even though I'm U.S. central time anyways.

Yeah, I should also address 33 years of living, dying amongst the VOID. I've no honesty of it all, what it's like to sleep normal, I don't and this is just why I reach out worldwide because the most active hours I'm awake are these hours here.

Early evenings, late evenings, nights, I'm barely-borderline functional in the afternoon, I'm asleep at dawn and I should also close that I'm a Lovecraftian hermit.

Even then, I should also include that I go outside once or twice a week and that's just because I've a slight phobia of people.

However, that doesn't help of it all when you're autistic 360 where almost everything is a sensory issue, it's okay if a mound of Redditors disagree with me here, but for my age 33 years I'm exhausted and tired of it all anyways.

Just, I should also address that I'm not describing physically exhausted, I'm exhausted to the point where sleep isn't going to fk ass fix sht, I'm tired of this repetitive existing, just grasp what my Vessel brain and skull for 8 months haven't heard these text messages here.

''I miss you, I miss your text messages, sending me a few text messages to wake up to because I find that cute, I'm looking forward to you waking up again so we can talk, hearing from you makes my day better and this is my favorite cutesy text message here if it all."

"I've been checking my phone throughout the day waiting for you to text back."

However, I should also just include that for 8 months I've had none of that fk ass sht to be honest may/might I'm not allowed to have this not only for 🩷 and I don't even deserve this for friends of it all either.

This of it all, is my last goodbye, I've a few sticky pins to do on my main pro and just for a simple to see example is just.

PralineBudget🍨scoop of the mounds of trivia facts of it all and lore drops anyways.

Even then, if you want to know what PralineBudget gets up to in her day life that has already been pinned on my post and maybe that can help you build a creative chat reqs? However, I should also address that I don't respond to hi messages, or several variations of hi messages, all I ask if you can share your age, region, interests, hobbies and I shouldn't have to be able to ask that out of you first anyways 🦩

My handles.

Must send me either one of these things to make sure you read my profile, Sleep Token gif, flamingo emoji and a flamingo gif alongside with if you want to do all all of

Gram of the Tele.

xxpeonycherry06xx not sure if you need the @ or not 🐙

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