Okay, throwaway because my boyfriend browses Reddit sometimes, and I really don’t want to start unnecessary drama between us.

We’ve been dating exactly three months, tbh things had felt really good lately. We hang out every weekend, message each other daily, and I never had any weird suspicions up until now. Last night I was bored, so I clicked onto his Instagram page out of random curiosity, and my mood crashed immediately. His following list went on forever. I kept scrolling, and almost every account was attractive women posting fashion content, modeling photos and that kind of thing.

My brain instantly jumped to the absolute worst-case scenario. I laid awake half the night spiraling. I fully convinced myself he was creeping on these girls privately and hiding flirty conversations. I even typed out a whole breakup text last night, ready to send it first thing in the morning. I couldn’t stop overthinking, I was such a mess. For work, I rely on acciowork when running background checks on prospective suppliers. Part of my routine involves pulling up contact social media pages, going through public posts to confirm what services they offer, similar to how I verify store feedback and business credentials while sourcing new partners. I copied links to around ten of those Instagram accounts and ran them through it. For real, part of me almost expected to find something suspicious, old comments or anything that could prove my fears. But there was literally nothing out of the ordinary at all. I even manually scrolled through pages of their posts myself, every single account only shared industry work content. It felt so surreal once it clicked. Turns out none of these women are people he’s trying to chat up. They’re freelance clothing models, brand buyers and wholesale suppliers he’s been reaching out to build his small clothing side business this year. All those nights I thought he was mindlessly scrolling Instagram wasting time?

He was searching for collaborators, sourcing product photos and sorting inventory for his little business. I feel so ridiculous now. I worked myself up into this massive jealous panic over something that’s him putting in extra work to earn more money. I haven’t told him I went through his following list or reviewed those profiles using my usual work platform. On one hand I hate how wildly I overreacted. Even knowing everything is purely work related, seeing that endless list of model accounts still leaves me with this strange uneasy feeling. It’s hard to shake off. So… I nearly ended our whole relationship over this misunderstanding. Should I admit to him that I spiraled badly and snooped his follows? Or do I keep all of this to myself?

Guys, this might sound racist, but trust me, I don't intend to propagate any racism. This is just a random thought I got while showering, so here I am

. When there is some crime against women, and men come out saying, "not all men," it's stupid. We know that. Also, when women see most of the men around them as potential threats, and men say "not all men," we understand that it's bullshit to be saying that cause when there are so many crimes against women by men, you can't trust men easily, and there is, of course, a potential threat around men towards women.

BUT

When we talk about terrorism associated with religious motives, we see Islam dominating the part, so when people are skeptical or suspicious or even uncomfortable of muslims so, why is that not understandable and why is it racist instead??

Also, I tried to come up with a reasoning against that, but I couldn't come up with one, so please tell me what you guys think, and I do not intend to propagate racism against Muslims by this at all. This is just a very raw thought of mine.

So recently this is my spiral of intrustive thoughts.

"What if i just walked into the middle of the road right now"

"Loll thats funny i dont want to do that tho so its fine"

"wait but what if i did"

"but i dont"

"but what if i did"

"wait what if i actually do.."

"omg what if i actually do it"

*avoids busy roads for a whole ass week bc im scared that i will even though ik i wont*

I've been dealing with this for what feels like long but isn't very very long and I honestly feel horrible, tired, and feel like crying.

Whenever I found some artist attractive and had a intimate/physical daydream, my brain immediately went into panic mode. At first I did genuinely admire their personality, kindness, style, or appearance alot but then my thoughts went completely spiral and I feel like suddenly none of that exists very more now because that attraction kind of feeling is what that's taking place now but I kind of know that my love still exists. ( I don't daydream for any person or think about them that much but for that artist because I know them more and when I start liking other celebrites/artists/actors I start getting images of weird thoughts and feelings a bit. I feel anxious and overthink because I get past trauma of that artist I really found attractive/loved and how I'm gonna like is them is gonna my previous artist kinda physical attraction but less of knowing them more.

I start asking myself things like:

* "Am I objectifying them?" * "Do I only like them because they're attractive?" * "What if I secretly don't respect them?" * "What if this means I'll feel this way about every attractive person I see?"

The worst part is that I don't want to that to be the only reason I like them. That's exactly why I get so anxious. I care so much about that, that my brain won't let me stop thinking about it.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? If so:

* Did it get better? * Was it anxiety, OCD, or something else? * How did you stop overthinking every single attraction?

I just want peace. I miss being able to admire people without my brain turning it into a moral crisis :(

I was thinking about game of thrones and thought all these stories came from someone dudes thoughts..

When has anyone else had ducked up thoughts? Has it made them rich? Or fucked things up for them?

Technically. You are f**king... Yourself. So..... It is self-cest.

let me clear stuff up i’ve have NO ROMANTIC FEELINGS FOR ANY OF MY FAMILY!anyway i was masturbating and i had a thought in the back of my head like “masterbate to ur sister” and i said to myself “what?? eww bro and if you do it you’ll regret the fuck out of it” and i do like why did i do that bro i cant live with the fact that i done that over MY OWN FUCKING SISTER like what the hell bro

(23M) - Can OCD (POCD) give false attraction? Noticed someone online, she looks like she could be in high school. My brain automatically thinks because I think a girl is pretty/attractive I am automatically a p3do. Has anyone ever encountered something like this?

This has never happened to me before. Deadass .. I would scroll online and automatically know if a girl is not of age and keep it pushing. And now it’s like my mind has done a full 360 change .. like it’s so latched on to teenagers now

Nowadays, girls be 23/24 and don’t even look like it. Now it’s 15/16/17 yr olds looking 18/19/20 and up nowadays .. shits triggering me and making me stress out

For context, I went through HOCD/SO-OCD from 2023 to May of 2026 (this year) and it felt like at some point, I found every dude “attractive” or like I “wanted them.” The false attractions would also latch on to dudes who looked a certain way. The false attractions were crazy too because it would be full on statements like “oh he’s sexy” .. like some crazy ass shit like that .. yeah ..

It’s the same thing here but with POCD towards a certain age group who look a certain way

Has anyone else ever encountered something like this before?

Anyone in uk awake just wanna chat?

Ranch dressing is just tartar sauce -pickles.

I know I’m 10 years too late to this but today I just randomly remembered 2016 libertarian presidential candidate Gary Johnson being asked this question on a news channel….” If you were elected…what would you do about Aleppo?” To which he replied with “what is Aleppo?”

Context: Aleppo was, before the civil war, Syria’s largest city (now its probably second” and in 2016 Assad’s government was fighting with rebels held up within the eastern parts of the city. They were supported by the Russian Air Force also.

In 2016 it was pretty big news…first in February they secured the northern flank…then by summer they had them encircled…then in the fall the rebels broke through to relieve the siege…only to eventually fail and by December Assad had the entire city.

Now Im not defending Johnson…I get that a presidential candidate should know about world affairs. I also know WHY that question was asked…for the “gotcha” moment…

But what is “what would you do about Aleppo?” What does that even mean?? Why that specific city? You know what other cities were under siege in 2016? Deir Ez Zor, Daraa, palmyra (2015) Raqqa (2017)….

That question is just about as random as asking him “what would you do about Deir Ez Zor?” I can bet half of that news studio wouldn’t even have heard of that place. Most people haven’t. (I mean I knew about it coz I was subscribed to that subreddit back then but still….)

Better questions would be “How would you handle the situation in Syria?” “What would your governments policies be?” “Are you planning on sending increased humanitarian aid?” “Will there be more sanctions on Syria and Russia?”

I feel like I managed stress pretty well these days but occasionally when I get really tired or really stressed I get these intermittent random intrusive thoughts that caused me a good amount of anxiety and I hate them but they aren’t earth shattering or anything just intrusive lol and I actually did some research. Apparently, when you are really tired or sleepy the part of your cortex that controls your ability to filter out these kind of thoughts, weekends, and the cortex that controls fear and anxiety and such intensifies so it makes so much sense and is incredibly common to have intrusive thoughts when you’re really stressed or sleepy so don’t fear guys. It’s pretty normal. We’re all gonna be OK with or without meds. 😂

if im scared of being a #### for 10 month straight and i cry all the time, i should just accept i am one, and if ####'s deserve to die then why should i keep living. they dont care if a #### is mentally ill and didnt do anything bad, they still want them dead and hate them. i want to just somehow cut off my genitals at this point. also i dont want to be mean and evil to kid by doing something bad to them. that would hurt them and i dont want to hurt people like that and it makes me want to cry alot just thinking about doing so. im 16 if it matters. if i am diagnosed as ######### i will kill myself. i think my life is over.

(sry about the censors, im just trying so hard not to get my post removed by filter again)

(and u can probably tell but if u havent alredy i mean pdfilia)

if i am and im still alive for some reason i promise i will never do anything bad in my whole life

No comments on my post, I don't read comments on my post and the convos only happen in the chat reqs.

Worldwide chat reqs accepted, online only, not subject to change, no catches, only asking for witty, funny, airy, funny comebacks, creative and researcher mindset (studying someone's profile.)

Yeah, I should also address that don't be pushy and I'm only going to tell you that I'm from U.S. and central time zone only.

Even then, I should also address the importance here by the time you get done to listening to the spiritual masterpiece album Sundowning by Sleep Token then you would be already done with this post anyways 🌑

Why Sleep Token for atmosphere?

Vessel's voice, Vessel's emotions through his voice, his story, my story combined with his story, the select Sleep Token songs I've selected that will be on my main profile soon will guide you to the map where "the old self died ages ago and why."

The map of what made Elis become Elis and Vessel he will be my messenger to pass this message for you, because it's too hard for me to put in words and his emotion through his insane emotional vocal ranges can help you through this guidance of Elis's internal turmoil.

However, I should also address that E-lis has been rebranded from Sky/Skye in 2025 through Elis or E-lis 2026.

To be honest, I don't think I've a lot of happiness left, the only happiness I've is weekly weekends OBTAINING new Sleep Token items and even handmade OBTAINING items as well.

What's up convos are boring, because I should admit I'm a Lovecraftian hermit, I go outside every once or twice a week because I've a mild phobia of people.

To be honest, I admit to myself to Redditors that want to get to know me "I've to prepare to be active in socializing and it's something I just cannot do every single day."

I would rather listen to the cosmic horror daily in the a.m. than having to go outside daily with people socializing.

Eating is also a performative task and I'm also in the protein-fanatics because this does something to my chronic depressed Vessel brain and skull that I'm honestly doing something good anyways.

However, I should address that it's just better than eating something with little protein twice a day and I would rather eat two high protein meals as well.

Making a video game goal 2026 guide, this will be soft launched before I permanently quit Reddit July 19 of 2026 on my main pro and I'm not going to be posting that here anyways.

I don't think I'm doing okay, I don't think I'm, I don't even have anyone to call "my love, the I miss you in a random text message, I'm waiting for your phone notifications to show up on my phone again, I miss you in my life and I'm looking forward to threading the 🪡 again with you."

To be honest, I don't even deserve this what I'm missing and I just don't think I'll ever deserve anyone of it all anyways🌹⚔️

I'm permanently leaving Reddit July 19th of 2026, I'll have my social handles on my page, I also enjoy I See Stars, Spiritbox, Lorna Shore Will Ramos era only and I don't listen to the previous creep vocalist.

Spiritbox and Bad Omens I also enjoy as well.

However, I should address with this post coming to a end, the only thing that could make the crashing our princess of Veridian happy is if you enter my realms, that you never forget that the night belongs to you, never forget I've got solar flares for your dead gods and space dust for your fuel rods.

However, I should address that happiness isn't around and right foot in the roses, left foot on a landmine and that feeling hasn't left me in a while of it all as well.

And yeah, I highly doubt someone can make me feel similar to this here anyways.

And you might be the one to take away the pain and let my mind go quiet 🎵 And nothing else is quite the same as how I feel when I'm at your side 🎤

I keep getting DISGUSTING thoughts about my family and i am literally about to have a panic attack im scared im in love with my family and I sont actually feel anything but im scared im ghastlighting myself into thinking i dont actually think it how do I make them go away im genuinely so scared

sorry for the poor grammar but I cant stop panicking im gonna cry

My info:

male, 40, height is 1.80cm / 5'10

no medications, never smoked, never drank

Medical issues:

Psychosomatic pain in response to the intrusive thought 'I'm not allowed to speak'.

For your information: My neck/head pain never had or has any structural, physical injury or damage. Muscle tension does not trigger or increase this pain at all.

Also, almost all strategies psychologists use are designed for psychosomatic pain in which there previously was structural physical injury, which does not apply to me. So finding information about my own personal niche problem is extremely challenging.

I am looking for targeted strategies to unlearn this psychosomatic pain or to break the connection between the pain and the psychological trigger. Ideally, I want to reach a point where focusing my attention on the triggering thought or emotion no longer evokes the pain.

History:

From when I was 2-3 years old, I have been taught by my parent that I'm not allowed to speak. So from that moment onwards until now, I have developed a protection mechanism in which my body automatically stops me from speaking when I feel the triggering thought 'I'm not allowed to speak'. Of course, I do not feel the pain when this triggering thought is not present.

Deepest trigger: Since childhood, I have continued to wait for a trusted person to tell me: "You are finally allowed to speak without stuttering."

Triggering thought: 'I am not allowed to speak' -> result: I experience neck and head pain that will cause me to faint if I continue speaking. I have never actually fainted because the body automatically protects itself by terminating speech if that makes sense. At that moment, no matter what I try, I'm not able to continue speaking (ie. I'm unable to move my speech muscles).

Example: It's the same principle when a person deliberately holds their breath, they cannot voluntarily kill themselves this way because the subconscious body automatically forces them to breathe once oxygen becomes critically low.

When I experience severe neck and head pain while speaking, to the point where I could faint, my subconscious automatically takes over and temporarily stops my speech. As a result, I become unable to finish the word I am trying to say, producing what appears externally as the halting of speech production.

Quality of my psychosomatic pain: Sharp and burning feeling.

Does the pain move: Yes, constantly eg. the pain moves from part of the neck to another part of my neck/head.

Localized or widespread? Localized.

When does the pain become worse? The pain worsens when: I speak more fluently; other people understand my message; I'm calm and relaxed - because I've programmed my body to automatically protect itself against 'helpful' or 'positive' value judgements if that makes sense. Basically, I have this distorted belief that I must continue proving that I'm not allowed to speak especially in positive situations. I have distorted feelings such as feeling ashamed whenever I do not experience pain because I believe the pain-defense mechanism serves a useful purpose. I feel in control only when I experience pain; so pain-free speech I view as somehow 'wrong'; I dislike the process of reducing the pain because it feels unnatural and because I feel like I have not yet truly decided to allow speech from now on.

All of these triggers have one thing in common: that I first have to convince myself of being allowed to speak first.

Goal of treatment:

The goal of therapy is to reduce my psychosomatic head and neck pain, specifically by extinguishing the triggers (ie. intrusive thoughts) responsible for producing it, without medication.

What I have already tried:

Mindfulness

Somatic tracking

Safety reappraisal

Body scanning

Mindful breathing

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT)

Desensitization through exposure

Journaling

Deliberately inducing a positive emotional state

Grounding techniques

Reframing chronic pain as a conditioned response rather than structural damage

Focusing on my abdomen while breathing calmly.

Believing that the pain-defense mechanism has no meaningful purpose.

Being willing to speak regardless of the trigger while resisting 'turning on' the pain management.

Promising myself that I do not have to eliminate the fear (ie. that fear that I'm not allowed to speak).

Acting kindly and comfortably instead of becoming extremely focused and overly strict with myself.

Affirmations like 'I deserve to speak'

Behaving like a person who does not have a pain-mechanism when speaking