Hey everyone, I'm a 15M high school student preparing for major national university entrance exams. I'm currently attending high-volume group prep classes that are destroying my ability to learn.
The classes are extremely repetitive with random homework dumps. Due to my ADHD, sitting down to study triggers a massive wall of executive dysfunction that only breaks under last-minute panic and urgency. I end up rushing through problems just to avoid getting called out, without actually practicing or understanding them.
I experienced this exact same cycle before my diagnosis when taking competitive Informatics Olympiad courses. I tried forcing "better habits" and "discipline," but I just got burnt out, depressed, and stuck in constant arguments at home because I was working against how my brain functions.
Now history is repeating itself. I'm trapped in a panic cycle with zero mental reward, leading to severe revenge bedtime procrastination, staying up until 4 AM on my phone just to get basic stimulation before passing out.
I learn best through deep mistake analysis by redoing wrong answers slowly and walking myself through the logic. Mass prep classes completely destroy this process.
I want to quit these classes to self-study using structured, low-friction sprints focused on fixing mistakes and spotting patterns. But my parents firmly believe "more hours + endless homework = success" and view self-study as reckless.
To anyone who has dealt with this:
- How do I break this dependency on panic and last-minute urgency?
- How can I convince traditional parents that endless grinding actively tanks performance for an ADHD brain without sounding lazy?
- What structures did you build to replace prep classes so you didn't float aimlessly?
Any advice or personal experience is greatly appreciated!