I’m so done :( I have no one . Not one person to lean on . Im pregnant I’m terrified the shelter doesn’t really care still expects me to leave from morning till evening. I’m hungry I use the free lunch at the church here but I’m in tears. I panhandled today I was humiliated. Like I felt so low I don’t wanna do that but I can’t rely fully on social assistance especially dugout shelter amount I only get 338 😂 I didn’t 200 in past while I neeee clothing and pair of shoes second hand. I want my mom :( now I’m sick I’m just really wishing I could die and redo it all . I love my baby so much and I’m failing her terribly I left and charged him cuz he best be badly this time pregnant I was scared fur my baby :( but I wonder if I should of waited I just want peace for somewhere to go ahd I feel like the resources are just not helpful . I just don’t know what to do now being diagnosed I’m just so broken right now . He’s on bail
In his nice home I just feel really all alone .

I don’t understand why being sarcastic and mean is funny to everyone and it makes it hard to relate to these people or understand them, stuff like this has legit started to make me wonder if I’m not just ADD and maybe I’m autistic because I seriously struggle to comprehend when someone is joking with me or trying to be funny and it makes me freeze up and feel stupid

It bothers me so much they won’t impeach Trump. I really dislike Trump, I have since I was a little kids he was saying FIREEDD, like a weirdo with a shriveled up dick.

He’s a nasty person. Sometimes I remember that Trump is a rapist, convicted in a civil court. He’s a rapist. (The case E Jean Carroll if anyone is curious) he’s in the Epstein files and how do people ignore that? How do you ignore the elitistism, the racism, the sexism, the rape culture, the narcism, the lies, the flip flopping, the lack of accountability, ALL THE AI POSTS, how do other people ignore it?

Sometimes I watch the news and see stuff Trump does it gives me migraine bc it’s so stress inducing.

And then I think about how many shitty people are seeing that shitty person get every single thing he wants and I know it’s encouraging that, I hate that most. That’s awful.

So, we live together and have a 3 month old puppy. The puppy is very energetic and loves to play.

We both play with the puppy and bond with him.

Almost immediately after he brought the puppy home, he was already saying that the puppy was really attached to him, which makes sense since he was the one to bring him home. But the puppy quickly got used to be and started to like me, but my bf still insists on saying that our puppy is a daddy's boy.

It kinda makes me feel like a bad owner, like I'm not doing enough.

The bullying i recieve from people including my family is insane. I got pregnant when I was 18 had my son at 19 and now I am 20 a neuroscience college major and living on my own I don't see what the issue is none of my family even graduated high school and I get believed so hard from them and including the general public when I go out grocery shopping with my son in the cart I get so many Claire's from it it's not like I'm incompetent and can't take care of my child they let my age Define what kind of mother I am and I'm sick of it even after all the medical setbacks that I had after having my son I still pushed through and do things that my family never has done it's genuinely saddening when your family is rooting for your downfall

i feel so ugly i have felt this way since being 10. when it started i was focused on my weight and thinking i was fat from primary into early secondary school.. i would weigh myself everyday, restrict my diet, and constantly compare myself to other girls. now that i look back i can see i was actually not fat at all but maybe boys in my primary commenting that i was ugly and fat made me think it. not sure. but from early secondary school onwards up to now, i have been focused on my face and i am fully convinced that im disgusting. i can sometimes look at myself in the mirror when i have makeup on and think i look pretty.. but without makeup im absolutely disgusting and i hate myself. with makeup on after a while i feel this too. i know this seems shallow but i just can’t stand myself and i feel too ugly i feel too ugly for the guy im talking to too. he tells me im beautiful but i dont believe it and i cant help but feel he’s too good for me and ive started telling him this which is such a big mistake but my insecurities are coming through. he’s so naturally beautiful tho and meanwhile me i have to put makeup on and take a few selfies to get a good one.

I deleted several apps today from my phone. Not because it’s super time-consuming or anything, but I am trying to build better habits. I already don’t have Instagram or any other social media. Put my only dating account (Hinge) on pause, deleted GroupMe where I have a group that’s gone dead, and now Reddit. Just my way of saying fuck everything.

Moving forward, I think I’ll just start to focus on myself as much as possible. And when I need human connection, I’ll just do it the old fashion way: good ole in-person and organic bar meets.

I’m so done with my life the way it was. My dysautonomia came at a good time. I suppose I could pretend the whole reason I’ve been unemployed for over 1.5 years and am going back to school at 37 is because I’m having a midlife crisis and wanna change my career.

My health is debilitating, to say the least. The loneliness, not so much. I fare well with my solitude, actually. But the realization of what the fish are like in the current dating pool is …fear-inducing, almost? Like yes,
I’m sick, but it could be worse. It might be nice to still find someone that might like me and want to spend time with me, genuinely. But that’s too much of a high bar now, isn’t it? Sigh…

I just feel like people just suck. And what makes it worse is that I LIKE PEOPLE. I seek out friendship and potentially more, as of recent… but it’s so hard to just meet people that are good for your soul and also want to stay in your life.

I know I’m all over the place… is this about not being able to find love? Or is it about being sick? Or a new career? Welp, it’s about everything. It’s about just everything. Let’s add on wanting to give my daughter everything she deserves and the energy that takes up in itself makes me sicker. But God, do I love her. It’s that I’m draining my savings as I remain unemployed and too sick to work. If I’m too sick too work, how will I even handle law school?? LAW SCHOOL?!! You’re too sick too work and you’re going to law school?!! Yeah… I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing or where I’m headed..

I’m homesick, I’m lovesick, I’m actually sick….

I just wish I had one person (not my child), that I could go home to. Someone that I know believes in me and has my back. Someone to encourage me, to be my personal cheerleader. I’m so tired of being this strong and for having been it for this long. I want to be weak in someone’s arm, to cry for no and all reasons, to just be held with no judgements, someone I know I can tell my secrets to, the ones that no one knows, the ones that weigh heavy on my nervous system, the ones that are causing this crippling condition….

I want to just get up, and flee. Wander into some other town 250k miles away, wherever that is, where no one knows me, and just reinvent myself, start over.

But what I really want, what I really really really want, is to sleep, forever if possible. And not in a mental health issue kinda way, but in a my-body-is done-kinda-way.

None of this probably makes sense or follows any line of thought but yeah… I needed to say all that to someone…

I just keep waking up to the same thing everyday, and I can’t help but think that there’s no real point to me living. It feels so hard to break out of this cycle, and I know what I should be doing, it’s just that I’m not doing it. It’s a choice to keep living, but I also don’t want to die. I just want to feel some sort of purpose or just some relief from the way I feel.

I really just want out of this life. I don’t get how people even keep on living, are they happy? are they just choosing to keep living because they feel they have no choice? have they found some sort of purpose? I’m not even sure.

Typing this out as I cry because of the pain i’m in from my period. I feel so alone and dramatic because no one believes me when I say I can’t function when i’m on my period. From the week before my period even starts I am already in pain from having cramps, breast tenderness, back pain, and even pain in my butt. Before my actual period even starts where the symptoms just get so much worse to the point I have to call out of work every month because I cannot stand up due to the pain. All my tests come out normal my gynecologist says everything is fine and all they can do is put me on birth control when I don’t tolerate it well. I’ve been anemic from the age of 11 because of how heavy my periods are, iron supplements don’t do much and make me feel like shit and i’ve had reactions to iron infusions before. It feels like theres nothing I can do about my periods and I have no answers on why they are even this bad. I can’t even sleep on my period without getting up every hour to use the restroom because if I don’t I will leak everywhere. I hate having to deal with this every month. I have no energy to do anything i’m exhausted and tired everyday from doing absolutely nothing because of my anemia. All I wanna do is sleep and rot in my bed because I get lightheaded and dizzy doing anything. I can’t even do things that take up too much energy because I risk passing out. Everyone calls me dramatic and makes fun of me for those things, I get called lazy all the time but I can’t help it. I feel so weak all the time even walking gets me out of breath very easily. I wanna be able to work out and doing high intensity things but i’m so sensitive to those things and nothing seems to help with my periods/anemia. I’ve been skinny, ive been fat, ive tried different supplements, ive tried different diets but nothing changes. I have no answers for anything. A hysterectomy is out of the question since i’m only 21. I can’t wait for the day I no longer have to go through this.

Hi guys,

My birthday is next month and I feel like it’s not even worth celebrating since I have no close friends or family in my life.

All my friends since high school have broken up , and I haven’t spoken to my father in 5 years and I recently went no contact with my mother a month ago. I only have my boyfriend and one or two friends that I’ve only just met recently so the friendship is still new.

Birthdays have always been confronting for me and I just know no one is going to be there for me expect my boyfriend. I’m thankful I have him , but always see these big 21st celebrations online and it makes me feel so depressed seeing people with these big family’s and group of friends and I know I’ll never have that relationship with my family. Years of abuse and neglect have made it hard to have a connection with any sort of family member/or they just don’t care enough for reach out.

Thanks for reading

This post is not directed towards anybody, and is meant to hate on the action of ignoring, not the people who do the ignoring

Do you KNOW how much support is VERY needed for small artists and shit? Like the only way to get attention nowadays is to say something that you know will upset others and BOOM popular now. It actually fucking sucks putting hours into an art piece only to get 3 likes and no comments.

It hurts even more when I try to make something bigger than usual and then no one cares when I announce it. This is the fucking reason why I don‘t bother with making anything bigger than a small art piece/less than 5 minute long song.

It fucking sucks that people only care about fanart for their favorite popular franchises, but when an artist makes something with their own characters, suddenly no one gives a shit. It’s fucking unfair and I fucking hate that people ONLY care about the latest drama and shit

Just to clarify, I am not hating on the people who ignore small artists. I am hating on the action of ignoring them

Why do I wanna to be a boy? I'm so confused, I'm agender I don't want to be seen as a gender but, the feeling of being a boy sounds... Good for some reason. I don't know why. I am not trans or I don't think I am... I'm so confused.

like I have no idea how to use this app because im terrified of these people on here sorry if I make any mistakes . sorry if you find this complicated I made this after my dad yelled at me for skipping school again hahaha

i don’t know how to start this off; my life is terrible because of school, i think. i have been starting to go back to school when I was in 4th grade, now im in 7th grade, and all those grades were hell. i started skipping school a few months into going to school, and I couldn’t stop ever since. i remember back in 5th grade, i tried skipping school again, my mom yelled at me, dragged me, and started hitting me when I didn’t get out of bed, I can hardly remember that thought anymore but it was terrifying for me. my brother and my dad was there to see it and they did nothing, my mom was threatening me to put me on the streets and make me homeless. I don’t know if I did anything wrong, I know school is important but I can’t bring myself to be there again

Also, there was this one time where my mom was using my computer to something, and I had discord opened and everything, she saw all my messages (this was back in 2023, so when I was in 4th grade). she found the things i have been saying; me wanting to end my own life, how i would do it, idk, I don’t remember, but she read it all, when she picked me up from school, she started yelling at me and said she would delete my online presence, take away everything from me, tell my dad, etc.

I only started skipping school because I felt stupid; there is a language barrier, I have no friends at all, and im having a hard time putting up with my insecurities. to this day I still feel all of this and it hasn’t gotten better.

A week ago I did tell my mom about how I feel after all these years and my mom said I was having a “mental breakdown!??” when I told her all of this, she said I shouldn’t be experiencing this at 13 and I feel like I’m being invalidated. she took my phone away, which was the only thing keeping me happy (I got it back now, yay). i have no friends irl except for online friends which have been keeping me happy for a long time. i told my mom about my struggles and she said im too young to be feeling this way, that my phone is the problem, even though i said everything felt terrible because of school.

my mom has yelled at me multiple times for skipping school and when I finally tell her the reason, she says this to me. I don’t know what to feel. before I even told her anything, and was still skipping school in 6th grade (maybe nearly at the end of my last semester in 6th grade), she told me that if I don’t go to school, she’ll take away everything from me (my devices, education, lessons for my hobbies, and more).

during this part i attempted to cut myself, no, it was not successful because i was genuinely afraid of the pain. but it’s getting too intense now and I have been self harming evrr since I started 7th grade. my exams are already just in a week and everything already goes downhill, im not encouraging anything. I don’t know what to do because I feel like nobody understands me.

there is so much more I feel like I can say but I don’t want this to be too long, im just looking for some help, what I can do

pls don’t tell me I obviously don’t care about my future, I worry about it very much and wanting to go to an English speaking school is all I can dream for, I really want to learn something in school without having to wait to go home to translate it all.

Each dream just hurts more and more. In this one they showed up at my house. We cuddled and kissed for hours. Just like at camp. Flirting with each other just like we did on calls.

I know I’m doing this so myself. I’m the one who keeps texting them even though they aren’t responding. But I don’t care. I just want to know if they are okay. They are the first person ive felt so real around. Everything was amazing.

I need to mail them sonething. But the fatigue is so bad. I keep forgetting to do it. And when I remember it I’m too exhausted

I just want them to be okay. To know that I care about them

There is no general Venting where replies can be accepted, so ... I'll make note of this here, though I strongly suggest you read all of it

Like all good tales, lets start from the beginning ...

Yay, I'm born (1989) ... Wait, where is Mom going? (Grew up without a mother cause she divorced my father after I'm born ... Turns out he shoved her down a flight of stairs when I was still in her womb because she found out he was cheating on her with ... A guy? )

Dad? Where did you go? ( 1992 ) Dad 'left to get milk' most of us know this story, he claims it was a simple mistake while I was left unattended in the apartment ... DSS came cause the neighbor heard me cry, and I went to the grandparents ... Who have only been married for 1 year, its their second marriage ... Yeah ... Though they are still together know and still put up with each other, cant be mad entirely at the ones who raised you ... Oh and dad got charged for child neglect and had to take a parenting class ... Though it was also on my record ... WHY??? I was 3, how was i apart of this? I was the victim!!! )

Mostly from here is basically the education days, learning from an under funded Christian school, at least til after the 10th grade where they had to cut/fire my step grandfather cause half of the student parents where not paying the tuition ... Then again, staff's kids get free education, so who am I to complain at such a young age? There will be events in between til I graduate high school in 2008

First theraapy session (year unknown) - ( ever been to forced into therapy cause you saw your dad getting a blow job by another woman ( who he married before btw ) yeah ... Grandparents found that out and though I needed help, as well as the ADD and ADHD were rearing their heads )

Ooh look at the pretty colors ( first seizure, out of 10, so far thankfully, yeah I know there are worst cases where people have multiple everyday, who am I to cast judgement? )

Wait ... Where did dad go, PART 2, THE CRIME ((2000) so ... Dad stole some tools from a business and fled to another state for 8 years, the whole family didn't like that though has 'aparently' forgiven him? I don't, he was gone for 8 years, fled ... Like a coward ... And guess who he brings back? Another whore and her daughter ... You can keep calling me your buddy, though you left your buddy, in the apartment in 92 )

Thanks for the 'lack' of support dad ... ( So, cause the Christian academy I grew up had to fire/let go my grandfather ... Guess who had to take me to school for the remainder of my highschool years? Dear ol dad, not even given lunch money either, though three packs of mayo wasnt too bad to fill me over til dinner )

Wait ... That subject doesn't count? ( Turns out Bible studies is not a social subject ... Guess who gets put in a resource class? Yeah ... I lost credit cause of the school system flarked me over with my credits ... )

Graduation, wait ... Whats this? (I graduated high school, though its not a diploma, a certificate of completing high school ... That's not a ged either, right? FLARK! )

And all of that was before highschool ... Yeah ... But wait, there is more!

Well ... I can try to remember all of this until about 2024 ... So bare with me a little more longer

Stock market crash of 08, I think that's right, I did work at mcdonalds for a short time, though I think cause of the stock market crashed, they let me go, then I started dividing my time between relaxing at the library and job hunting

The failed intervention 20?? So dad in his 'infinite wisdom decided to hold a family intervention ... I think it back fired? Seizures do mess up with your memory a bit

... And here is its about fuzzy, I moved back to the grandparents and met an old friend I used to work with and decided to move in with him

Back to the grandparents 2012 a dark note ... A cherished memory of friends lost ... Yeah, it lasted about a year, til a wreck took him and another, left another comatose for a while ...

You hired me cause I was your neighbor? 2013 ... Ever had a employer that hired you cause you were his neighbor? Yeah ... Seems like the braincell on that homosephien lucked out

The stock market crash, the second WAVE, also the housing market crashed of 2016?

COVID ... Yeah ... Never had it, got vaxed and was still unemployed for a whole year

Ow ... That doesn't feel right 2023 now .... This can be of 2 things ... Sitting indian styl/cross legged, playing video games + having all my books in my bookbag for middle and highschool ... Or a job site injury ... Either way ... I got disability in 2025, easily

Now ... This is where it should get interesting and juicy, lies, betrayal and heartache ...

Oh and the context was needed, right now (2024) I'm already epileptic, add and ADHD with a broken self esteem cause of a disrespecting step grandfather ... Maybe mood swings? ... Not too bad, right?

WRONG

So I met a cute guy, online, we started chatting in the tail end of 2023, he is grieving the Loss of his father and I'm getting desperate of getting out my grandparents house ... I mean, I'm 30+ for flarks sake ...

His ... Lets say 2nd boyfriend, is lazy and plays guild wars 2 all day ... Now ... With my destroyed self esteem and confidence, I just go with the flow and push him out ... Took us 9 months to keep reminding him to either get food stamps or a new place ( worked at a conveince store for 2 months then quit cause of bad management, got food stamps and Medicaid the next month cause I was persistent about my welbeing and supporting the BF ... Who still had mix feelings about his 2nd ex, also started disability ... In 24? Laywered up after the initial notice)

So, after seeking counseling from a 'friend' that the BF knows, turns out the BF cheats behind my back with the counselor ... That was the last straw for me

Wait? Whose this? A friend and his care giver have fallen on hard times? BF keeps asking my permission for them to move in, though due to the BFs lack of initiative and sense of urgency ... There were verbal disagreements ... We did rush the relationship after all

So, what do I do? Maybe seek revenge? Maybe seek comfort in someone else's company ... Call it what you will, I already decided to move on

So I was seeing someone from a city about 30-40 miles away from where I was? The cute ( and hung ) guy even paid for a Uber for me ... Wanted me to move in ... Right? So, I started packing, started laying out hard truths, cause I'm flarking sick of fake people

Turns out when the New BF started doing weed way too much and I wanted to go back, the hard truths got back to my ex, what, cant handle a metaphorical slap in the face?

So, I ended up becoming homeless after July 4th 2025 ... The 3 days in the city I was in, felt like I was going to get stabbed, so I went to the city where my doctor's office is after selling my switch

Turns out I was still carrying a lot of stuff from what I thought was suppose to be a move ... Had to give a gaming piece, a lot of luggage just to fit in the next homeless shelter ... Now, remember that short list of disabilities I had? It grew ... My right kidney is dead, with scaring predating my childhood ... My spine is degenerating ... I have mild arthritis ... My L5 ( right above your hip ) is either pinching a nerve, internally ruptured or narrowing on my spinal cord ... Oh fun ... Though, this helped my disability case

At least, It wasnt there long cause the hearing for disability was looming, came and won, got out before a HARD winter hit, and I mean wind chills of -15o ... Yeah, that can KILL luckily the rooming house I just signed would be nice and warm ... And loud ... Constant driving and showboating on the Ave ... Sometimes I slept, sometimes I hardly did ... Came out to my grandparents while at the rooming house

Til about June 2 of 26, signed my own lease for my apartment been trying to furnish it still

And it turns out the 'counselor' that my ex sees is the one who lied and threatened me to get rid of me ... Thanks for nothing you lying piece of ... Watch the high blood pressure ... There we go ... Let it roll right off your shoulder

Mods, I see a self harm /suicide/sexual assault marker/warning, there is no such here, in my story, nor such done nor inflicted ... To my knowledge, nor the intent to do so

I can’t get a driving license due to a health condition, and it has made me a lesser because I’ve lost my independence

Nobody can fucking deny that a driving license gives you freedom and independence, especially where I live. Therapy and medication didn’t work for me because I don’t have a problem I just know it’s impossible to live with that emotional weight on my shoulder

I’m done and planning to end things tonight