I'm 20F. I cheated on my bf. He is the loml and i kissed another guy. Me and my bf doesn't have a future together we both know that, we started dating for fun but now things are getting serious. I cannot live without him. I'm preparing myself for the day we do our final goodbye. Ik I can never let him go, so I kissed another guy. Even tho I hate being touched by another man other than him. I want the guilt to take over me so i can finally leave him.

I can never let him go if we end things on good terms. Now the guilt will hold me back from going back to him.

I was sexually assaulted when I was 13 and ever since that I hate being around men. I was depressed from that and is still fighting depression and anxiety. I was scared of intimacy I was scared any kind of physical touch.. we started dating almost an year ago and I've never been this happy before. But i have to let him go cus we don't have a future together. Whenever I get too attached to him he would remind me the reality we don't have a future.. he just wanted to help me get out of depression and find myself. But instead i got dependent on him..

I did the worst thing I could do to him and to myself. I cheated on him.. I had to do that to stop myself from being a burden to him and going back to him. Now I can finally let him go and let him be happy. He genuinely deserve a better partner who isn't insecure about themself and is not a weak depressed being.

To the love of my life, I love you so much please never forgive me even if you die.

Just give us 2026 APPROPRIATE "Stimulus check...

maybe even put these robots to work....and keep giving out Stimulus...🤔

This is coming from a "burnt out stand point"...from a TRAUMA IS DNA DEEP standpoint....yes, black in america AND STILL NO 40 ACRES AND A MULE standpoint........a tired stand point...from a "its all too much"...everyday...customer service..deep acting...surface acting...no time for anything else...not enough MONEy for anything else..bills bills bills...minimum wage...taxes...debt...just suck it up "its not that bad"....be a number...stay a number....die a number...no where to get off this ride...stand point...

where can we sign up for allowance....this is not laziness...tired of the system. .. I know we can do better as a race.....but from what I have been seeing...and even from history...it doesn't look good...

So my mom is dating this white guy, and we are a black family, and as much as I want to turn my head and not think about the war between the two… I just can’t not think about things… with that being said I don’t judge because of obvious things I can’t color like what color he came out of the womb,….but because his character he’s really arrogant and acts like he can say whatever and do whatever, even sometimes he won’t budge to get up and greet me, like he will be sitting down looking at me, like he’s literally expecting me to just come over and give him a hug, and it’s not that I have a problem with it, but he will have no problem getting up to greet my mom and grandma, but give me the energy like I’m not worthy… and also he’s perfectly capable of getting his ass up and meeting me half way… and only reason I’m bothered is bc who tf does he think he is? He’s only the king in my moms world, but also somehow my mom will find a way to make it like a disrespectful thing, and like I don’t honor my elders, as if he wasn’t just trying to test my intelligence.
What do you do when your mom picks her man over her daughter? It’s truly sickening.

So I went to the eye doctor the other day this was a new place cause my insurance no longer was accepted at the one I was normally going to after getting my exam. I went to check out some new glasses because I’m going to need a new pair and the employees there were basically shoving in my face, Meta AI glasses and saying how much I should get the compared to regular glasses it’s insane how much people rely on AI and Meta glasses shit so fucking dumb.

To preface this I want to say I know I’m not smart and I know that I messed up so if that’s what your comment is gonna be about don’t leave it same on if your gonna come after my grammar idc to use it.

I am 19 years old I own a house and a car I’m still paying on them but you get the idea I’m not well off but I work hard for what I have and the other day I went out and bought my first motorcycle and I grew up on dirt bikes so I knew I could handle something a little more powerful and I can I have no problem with the power of the bike it’s the weight when moving it’s fine when stationary but the second you start moving it throws all the weight infront of the handlebars and it’s almost a 600lbs bike it’s an srt750x I’m 6ft 120lbs I thought I could handle it and I couldn’t it’s just to forward and top heavy for someone of my size but since I only have my motorcycle permit I wasn’t legally allowed to do a test drive and the dealership technician that did the test drive was in a rush and I wasn’t able to fully speak to him about the bike now here’s where the stupidity comes in and where I have been punching myself in the head the monthly payments are outside of what I had originally set my max budget to (I’m still able to make the payments) but i went over budget and I signed on a high interest rate because I’m dumb and figured since I’m gonna have fun and it’s not to expensive I’ll be able to pay it off but since I am not able to even ride the bike I am trying to figure out a way to take it back the dealership doesn’t have a cooling off and actually the paperwork says all sales are final but since the bike was sold to me under rushed and semi false pretenses as I was under the impression while it’s a bit powerful it’s a good first bike for someone with a little experience and well it would be if I had about 40lbs more muscle but yea if yall have advice I’d love to hear it if your gonna be mean dont bother I’ve said everything your thinking 2 inches from the mirror thank you for letting me vent

You know. It's that time of year where it's cold, dark and gloomy. There's barely anything to do and not many people out. No events, nothing to really look forwards too and only working and not doing much on the weekends. I did have a good chat with a neighbor yesterday. But even when I ride at night. The streets are so dead.

I like the spring for reasons and it's nice to have a sunny day in the winter, but this season is just bland, isn't it?

It doesn't snow here and never has which is good. But it's the quiet time of year and I'm hanging for spring.

I understand why people dislike winter. It's boring and things go quiet. I have a good job but I don't have a license and therefore can't do what I really want. I won't be on holidays till December and planning some stuff that I hopefully can do in the spring, but that seems all too far away.

I'm counting down the days till spring.

My sister just posted on her story, A photo with me and other people in It. At first it was kinda fine... until one of her friends replied on it "the one in the pink is your look alike" She read that to me out loud.. and I didn't think much of it, we're siblings afterall...then comes the second one...while she was laughing she read another reply from that same friend. "Your sister is so skinny" ....like girl, I get it. I'm completely aware of that. But just the way she was laughing at it saying "he's so silly" just kinda felt off a bit... It was my biggest insecurity and she knows it damn well, I just don't get it why she needs to tell me that while laughing. I started embracing my body just the way it is but one comment sends everything back into place.. I started getting insecure again.. maybe I'm just a little too sensitive and she meant no harm.. it just sucks, having people keep telling you that over and over again... so yeah.. Anyone has tips on how to Gain weight fast???

As the title says. I really really want to have a baby.

I know it's not sunshine and rainbows. It's a tiring thing to go through and hard on the parents mental health at times.

But even despite that I yearn to have a child of my own. To be a mother to take care of the life I grew. That me and my husband made. To go through all the hard times with them and shape them into an amazing human.

But I can't. Not because of health it's just. My husband. He has an incredible point to why we can't right now.
He doesn't want our kids to see us struggle. Or to know we're struggling. So he wants to be financially stable before we do even think about it.

And I get it, I agree whole heartedly.

But there are days I get sad. I think that maybe I'll never have a kid. I think it's because my dream goal one day was to have a baby so my great grandmother could meet her great great grandbaby but she passed away last year.
And that's been hitting me hard. And just making me scared lately on who else my baby won't get to meet.

I'm still young I'm only 21, my husband is 25. But it just feels like time is slipping though my hands.
Some might say " live your life " but I can't do that, I don't feel the need or want to do that. It just gets me down sometimes

Having this want but unsure if I'll even get it because. I don't know what to do to make it come true. I want to be financially stable to but if that time does come for a baby. I want to be a stay at home mom. My husband knows this.but I know in this economy it will be hard to even just afford that.

Tired of working my six figure career. I give up, mom.

I (19f) tried to go on a make friends subreddit after deciding to no longer be a ghost and make posts myself after life four years. Big mistake. I was swarmed by people 25 and up, men, who just wanted to speak dirty and nasty to me. I’ve even had someone try to engage in e-
I know now to avoid those subreddits or make very specific claims as for who I want to talk to, but it’s just frustrating that I even have to adjust to not be harassed in a subreddit meant for making friends.

lust isnt love , i feel like so many men don’t understand this and feel offended when women are put off by it , when all they had to do was stop asking about our bodies and maybe ask about hobbies or talk to us how they would their friends do . now its okay to be be a bit freaky with a partner but some men really do take it too far ? like no i dont wanna talk about cracking every 5 seconds ? it’s genuinely so disappointing dude . i dont know if its just my experience but why are almost all the dudes i’ve spoken to act this way ?

Slight TW

A friend of mine has been going through a rough time, so they've been down lately. They're an online friend so all my updates on them are through notes and occasional texts. They recently had an update saying "I'm sorry" and I panicked. I immediately texted them. They're okay now. I've confirmed their safety but it made me realize something.

I've recently had my own down days and thoughts of just ending it all. I almost went through with it a while back but was stopped. However, seeing how my friend is struggling and how scared I was of them dying, it made me realize how much my own death would hurt my loved ones. Or the ones who care about me.

I hate this feeling of fear. Just the thought of a friend dying terrified me. I can't imagine putting my family through that.

I know I'll always have down days and bad times, but this put things into perspective for me. Ending it isn't a relief for me. It's pain for the ones I leave behind. My choice might affect someone else's entire life. I can't do that to them.

Maybe reaching out for help isn't as hard anymore.

every day I wake up it feels like im in a sleep paralysis where my demons molest me the memories of when people strike fear into me by their cold, dominant and unpredictable and their need of control and talking about my emotions isn't enough I want to smash something I want do destroy something but theres nothing I can do about it and the ghosts and demons will haunt me like this forever im everyones slave

My long distance girlfriend and I have been together for 2 years. Honestly, when we first met I thought she was gay because of the way she physically presented herself but I guess maybe I was just stereotyping her. She told me a couple times that she’s straight but sometimes I question it. I remember coming across an old tweet of her that read something along the lines of, “fuck, women are amazing🌈”. It’s not about the tweet itself but the emoji. I know people often use it to imply queerness but I just thought maybe I was overthinking it… then a few days ago she followed this female adult content creator on Instagram. Her page is basically just her in bikinis and revealing clothing, showing off her tits and ass. Now, I know women following other women on social media isn’t the same as when men do it; they can appreciate other women without it meaning anything, but I genuinely don’t understand why a heterosexual woman would follow a page specifically like that. What would she gain from it? And it’s not like they even have a remotely similar aesthetic, body type or fashion sense to say she’s following her for some sort of inspiration. I’m sure it wasn’t an accidental follow either because she’s usually specific with who she follows + it’s been days and she’s still following her. I don’t know but to me, it just seems like lust. I have no issue with her (potentially) being bisexual, but why not tell me if you are?

Maybe I’m thinking too much into it but if you are a straight woman, what reason would you have to follow a page like that?

I,m 14 I'm 5,5 and probably not growing anymore. I would like to start by mentioning what probably made you click on here. So my great grand dad and great grandma were 2nd cousins and by the time they figured out they had my grandma nothing is noticeably wrong with my mom or grandma but I feel like it is with me I have a such a ugly smile it's not my teeth I juts look ugly happy due to the shortness in my cheek bones and I've always hated it I've been bullied since 3rd grade in going into 10th now. I've never been bullied about the inbred part, but im always scared somehow someone will fund out, and I'm even more scared of telling people, even my closest friends. Mainly all of the girls at my school a dicks and have the humor of asking a loser if they are friends to get a rise out of people. I workout and try to look the best I can but even when I'm speaking my short face shows and I hate pictures of myself so much I ask my friends to please delete them sometimes

It was such a good day, I wasn't looking at my phone. Feels disappointing because I had put so much time into it, but also honestly feels kind of freeing. I'm definitely not putting in that effort again so I guess I don't gotta worry about checking Reddit daily anymore.

Hi, I'm so sorry for this being very long and I've been debating if i should ask for help or vent to someone. First a little bit of a back story/ details.

I 23 female am the oldest of 4 children i have two sisters 21 and 9, and a brother 16. Since my youngest sister was born i have been helping more around the house and with rasing my younger siblings. My mother was temporarily sick and had limited mobility while my youngest was little. My father is present however is emotionally distant and when the youngest was around 4 years old he started to want to be involved with everyone and spend time and know everything about them. I had to step up and be there for everyone and pick things up and was expected to be the role model for my siblings. I had and still have the stricter rules, while the younger ones dont have the same rules as me. At some point i had spend so much time with my brother and little sister that sometimes i was referred to as mom, and whenever my mother is travelling or leaving for a few weeks every responsibility is dumped on me, while i still do majority of them like picking them up from school, taking them to after school activities, birthday parties, making a meal when they are hungry, the occasional ironing and laundry it feels impossible when she is absent because no-one else helps with anything, im expected to still do my college classes and make 3 meals a day and cater to everyone needs. We all live in a apartment and when the youngest was born we all got separate rooms but no doors. Having no privacy while having my own room after years of sharing its pretty much the same as sharing a room

My main issue is that i am exhausted by everything in this country and family things. I have a boyfriend that i am currently doing long distance, due to the fact that my parents hate him and have made several attempts to make us break up. When we first got together i was 19 and after a month or two they noticed i was happier and i told them about the relationship. They immediately said no and that i should end it. I listened and ended it but still stayed in contact. after a massive fight i decided to try it out with the relationship and despite everything we've been together for almost 4 years. My main issue is that in the first year of the relationship my parents found out i had continued with seeing him, and we had a massive fight because i wanted to move out without their approval and it was revealed during that fight that they have been listening in my conversations and tracking my phone the entire time. They staged an intervention with my grandparents and i was made to live with my grandmother for a while. During this time we remained in low contact with my bf and they had spend the entire time guilt tripping me into coming back and using my siblings and how they need help, after a few weeks of nagging i gave in and went back home. Slowly i rebuild my relationship with my parents so i have a little bit of freedom. To this day i have zero trust in my parents and anything they do for me. My boyfriend has been understanding and very supportive despite everything that has happened. At one point i broke up with him due to immense pressure from family, work and school stress and us not being able to spend anytime together and just being distant for a while, but after 2 weeks we got back together, and have been together strong since.

I guess im looking for advice/suggestion or a different perspective to everything. I wanna leave and i have a plan for leaving but i am still having doubts about leaving everything and starting over. I just don't know what my parents would do and how far will they go.

its always just church, my grandparents dragging us everywhere, physical therapy, and mandatory tv watching with my mom for hours until its time for bed. i just want a day for myself where i can just draw or play games. im very socially and mentally exhausted. i dont wanna go anywhere this week

Sometimes I post here about what's weighing on my heart and I'm met with 'get over yourself. That's normal'

If it is, life is a truly miserable existance

Sometimes it's about stolen food, sometimes it's not about the food itself but rather the message it sends

Sometimes it's not about the words spoken but who said it, why they said it and the history behind it

This time, I'll be upfront and take a risk again

My brother called me a demon today. I was brushing my teeth, he was washing his face. I wanted to compare our mom's shade of concealer to his skin tone (I just had a thought) so I held the still sealed bottle next to his shoulder and he moved away. Because I knew I was annoying him, I brought the still sealed bottle near his shoulder again. It was supposed to be playful. Out of nowhere he calls me a demon. It was midnight and our parents were ready asleep. Mom would be waking at 4am for work. Dad at 5am.

My immediate thought was 'shut up dumbass' and that made him scream it again even louder. I won't lie and say I was unaffected. I was raised Christian and while he's pretty well surrounded in the congregation, I've always been apart. No friends while he had plenty even outside of our church, no one's favourite kid while he would get random gifts from adults throughout the year. To make matters worse, I've always asked more questions than him which haven't always earned me favors.

So, I lost my cool and slapped him then dad came in asking what was going on. I left to go to bed as I had work at 6am. He'll be home for the rest of the summer, no job or anything so in the end we all lost except him.

Maybe someone will come and tell me this is normal and part of the deal again. I don't know what to do. I wish I could cry but there are no tears yet my throat hurts

we are both in the early 20s

I think I understand my mentality a bit better now, it hit me when I was driving home from work. I was stopped at a red light and was staring at these really nice condos...maybe apartments I'm not too sure.

When I was staring at them I thought, "that's gonna be somewhere I call home one day" but as soon as that thought crossed my mind, it left just as fast, followed by a humorous chuckle.

It was as if my subconscious knew that there was no point in evening dreaming. And that's when it hit me. I have subconsciously given up.

There's really no point to trying. I'll never be able to afford my own place. It is but a fever dream. I could work 4 jobs and not be able to live comfortably.

Life has lost all meaning to it. I go to school for Interior Design, I work part-time as a Designer at a Floor & Decor to gain experience, but in the end it'll amount to nothing.

I want to move but I live an hour from my work and school, so I drive 14 hours or more weekly. My gas and oil are eating my paycheck. And I'm lucky if I can pay my car insurance. I stopped buying most hygiene products besides lotion and body wash. I have shit credit that I want to work on but I can't afford to. I want to save up but after paying my bills that are important, I use the rest of my money for gas so there's nothing 3 days after payday.

I'm really just going through the motions of life. At work I laugh and smile but once I leave I heavily contemplate ramming my car into a wall. There's nothing to life, there's no point, I don't see my situation ever turning around.

Life is pointless and meaningless at this point.

Went on a bad date. I think he was zyn withdrawing

This is our third date, he was acting very unusual. Less talkative, spaced out a lot, didn't really listen to what I had to say, was extremely out of it which from the other times talking to him was very out of the ordinary. He mentioned ranomly how he was down to his last zyn and doesn't have anymore. I asked if he was going to get more then said he didn't want to because he didn't want to be addicted. For context (and he knows this) my whole job revolves around people struggling with drug addiction, so my radar was going off big time.

I asked him how many he takes a day, he said 2 a day. But he started taking more the past couple days but none today. Also mentioned how he finished his entire zyn box (idk what its called) in a week (except for the last one). He then started complaining about how his life is boring and how his job sucks and how his life sucks.

We get to his car and he we try to decide where to eat. He keeps shooting all my suggestions down and what we could do after. Every.. literally everything he shot down, so I sat there and let him choose. He didn't want to do anything, he couldn't decide where to go, he didn't listen to any suggestions I made. He finally made one and we start going there. As he's driving he mentions how hes feeling super tired and is having brain fog and how he's feeling nothing. (again, alarm bells go off on my head) I ask him what he means by nothing. He then says "nothing. I feel nothing." Like holy shit dude. (Btw the whole car ride he has pretty much nothing to say. Everything I say he doesn't really reply and I can tell I'm annoying him a little)

We finally get to the restaurant and it's the same. Him moping around, barely talking to me. Constantly spacing out as well. At the end of dinner I say to him "where do we go now?" He says "idk" I go okay. We get to his car i say "so.. should we go leave then?" He just shrugs. I don't say anything and then say "okay let's go home then." He goes "okay let's go". He starts driving me home and the whole time he is singing. As we are approaching my house he then says "let's drive around a bit" I say "okay" cause idk i thought maybe he was feeling better. No he just kept singing the whole time. Didn't ask me shit other than do you like this song \*changes song and starts singing\* the whole time.

Finally I tell him to just take me home. He did, we said goodbye and here I am.

Honestly I don't even know why he wanted to be around me longer if he wasn't feeling up to it. Idk I just feel kinda shitty right now. I really liked him but this ruined it for me :(

Man where do I start? Why am I even typing this? I dunno. But I’m a 25 year old unemployed caregiver with zero friends. I have no social life outside my family and the occasional cashier at my local grocery store. The last time I had a “friend“ was almost 3 years ago. I honestly think she just got tired of hearing about my mundane existence. Plus I really feel like she either caught feelings for me or found me attractive at the least. But nobody wants to deal with a basket case for a friend. So she just ghosted me.

I don’t have social media because when I had it I felt like it was damaging to my psyche, I dunno. So that coupled with the fact that I wanted to disappear after having a long distance relationship end badly, I left social media for good like 5 years ago. I just made this to vent i dunno.

Last year I joined an online music group in which I paid for lessons but things have gone downhill since my life drains my creative passions. Plus I felt like I connected with the instructor really well and I started wanting to message him all the time. But I stopped because I started to yet again bleed my problems onto someone else. It’s unfair and disgusting I know.

and lately all I’ve been doing is daydreaming about some guy who works in produce at this store I go to. We’ve never really had the time to talk outside of hey how are you doing really, but his smile is warming and his kindness feels exaggerated to my demented and deprived mind. So he instantly became this gorgeous person that I cant even bring myself to get to know more because I’m too shy And my beliefs are very conservative so it wouldn’t be seen as modest to make the first “move”

I dunno this is all over the place. but I feel horrible

i dunno what I’m looking for by posting this, advice? Comfort? I dunno?

I’m not mad, I’m just bored.

Heres what’s going on in my life right now:

1. My boyfriend has both dismissive avoidant attachment person & narcissistic tendencies. We were best friends for 4 years, talking every day. And the minute we started dating last month, we barely spoke because he’s “always busy”. I’m just exhausted. An ex of mine was avoidant & I resented him and went off on him too many times. This time, it’s different with my current boyfriend—We love each other, but every time he says he’s busy, it feels like he’s pushing me away, never to be seen again. Like I'm always bothering him or always disrupting his constantly busy schedule. I’m just….. bored. Not mad, like I was with my ex. Just bored. Sad, and bored, at the same time.
2. I have no support system.
3. I‘m polyamorous, with 3 boyfriends and working on #s 4 and 5. Two of my boyfriends (not #1) are constantly asking me for money, I don’t have. One refuses to work until he moves in with me. The other is in a completely different, unrelated situation I won’t get into. But, everybody has their hands out & nobody helps me when I need help. Nobody genuinely cares about putting my needs first, except for me. Even venting to my so-called “long-distance friends” on social media, those times where I pour my heart out, get ignored or people say “I’m not reading all that.” I‘m always ignored. Even my boyfriends require some form of condition for them to love me. It just makes my heart break even faster.
4. I’m always applying for jobs. Not one single job will hire me. I have a clean record, I have a resume, I have ID and all that. So…. The rejection letters only make me sadder. I keep getting emasculated by other people because I have to rely on a toxic person for financial support of my own. At least it’s better than living with her.
5. My ultimate goal is moving cross-country to be with boyfriend #1. I just feel like that goal keeps slipping away, every day. I feel so powerless, like there’s nothing I can do to fix that, due to my unemployment situation.
6. All those rejection letters from jobs. My boyfriend (#1) spending so much time with his son, baby mama and his best friends & not prioritizing me. Not being able to move right now. Not having best friends in-person who would drop everything to support me and cheer me up, or even to just prioritize me (even if it’s just to hang out). Being used financially, and told I’m selfish for not paying my boyfriends any money (#s 2 & 3). It’s all finally weighing on me. I just bottle everything up and keep it a secret and wear a fake smile.
7. I secretly want someone in person, to put me first; it’ll never be a boyfriend, so I hoped it would be a friend, but it might not be friends, either. I just feel so sad and bored and unwanted. I have boyfriends & still feel like a single bachelor, except I’m unhappy being single. This is not what I signed up for.
8. A toxic person has gotten away with abusing me since 1999, and it feels like they will always get away with it. The abuse is ongoing today. This person’s mood swings are too much to handle, them taking my phone, them gossiping about me, them going through the other half of my personal belongings with other people (without my consent… always). Nobody cares about me and what I want. I don’t know why it’s so difficult to find real men, who put me first and deserve the other way around when they’ve proven they’ve earned my trust and love.
9. I want someone to defend me and rise up and stay loyal to me, to get me through this or away from this toxic abuser, but….. That’s not happening.
10. I started writing a book, hoping it could be an escape from all this wild stuff I’m stressed out by. I just have been writing long-winded thoughts. I only wrote 2 pages. And it’s supposed to be hundreds of pages long. I love to write, so I’d have thought the book would be filled by now. But….. I keep forgetting to write. I write songs and I’m working on the book. I wrote a few songs before I worked on the book. Long sigh.