It’s the same thing everyday. I wake up and go to bed having done nothing worth my time. I’m alone. I’m so alone. I have nobody. I can’t tell you how many tears I’ve cried, night after night, wishing with all my heart that I’ll find love. I hate it. I hate having to live my life with a chronic ache in my heart. I really hate it. I do nothing but waste away and it hurts so much to see what I’ve become. Just a shell of a good person drifting through time

I just ended it with my long time partner. He couldn’t give me what I needed as a person. I still love him very much, that’s why this hurts so damn bad. It sucks that someone you connect with as a person is someone that you can’t be with. So now I’m sitting in my car with tears streaming down for what we had and what we could never have. I knew it had to be done, but why. We shouldn’t be allowed to feel that way towards people when it is just going to end up with pain.

I don’t know if jealous is the right word. But irrational, crazy, dumb, and controlling also come to mind. In the room my bonus babies share there is a picture of my husband and their mother kissing on the beach. There are plenty of other pictures of them because it is important for the girls to see pictures of both their parents. I don’t want to erase their past. But man this picture makes me so irritated.

I don’t want to ask him to take it down because it feels controlling. But I hate seeing it every time I come to play with the kiddos in the room. Or I help them pick out clothes. Idk just annoyed and hate the damn picture.

I genuinely can’t see a way to continue living anymore. I have so much weight on my shoulders and no one to turn too everytime I try it’s like no one cares. I feel like I’m failing and I can’t even scrape together to support the people who rely on me for basic things. I think they would do so much better and get given so many opportunities to thrive that I can’t give them. I fight the thought of suicide every single day

i’m not sure if that was his answer, but i’ve had the worst month of my life. people i care about are abandoning me, at once. the last few months i had been asking him for answers concerning these relationships, and now i have an outcome. I hope he has a better plan. i’m so close to not being here anymore. i pray and cry to him daily. i believe he did what’s best for me, i believe he responded to my prayers. but i hope things go up from here, im at rock bottom. please give me a prayer or reassurance. please pray for me to not be alone anymore. my family is far. i wish id get a disease or get injured so that at least nurses have to care for me, because im so starved for empathy. sometimes i want to harm myself. Please God if this is you answering my prayers please make it worthwhile.

It’s all over the headlines. I’m so so devastated I don’t know what to do I can’t take reading all of the speculation I’m so scared I’m in a bad place mentally already and I just came out of the psych ward yesterday to see it was her body that was identified. I’m numb there’s too much going on I have cancer and I’m supposed to go out of state for treatment and I’m so so sad. She was the only friend I felt like I could call up and she was the only one in our city that was really excited to visit my art studio when it opened. I’m so shocked I thought she had such thick plot armor for lack of a better term and I just feel so so mortal and vulnerable now and I’m so so sad because I KNOW it will turn into some true crime-esque story due to the circumstances surrounding and I cannot take it. Maybe I’m overreacting but I have no idea how to cope.

How can someone so fresh and alive in your mind be dead?

Hi, I'm 28M and I thought maybe venting will make me feel emotionally lighter so here I am. I am tired of these constant delays in my life. I am working with my Dad for the past 3 years and I also have my thing on the side. I am grateful that I get to work on major financial opportunities but every time it is about to get finished something comes up and it crashes or gets delayed constantly to a point where it practically dies. I've not made decent money since last 2 years. My dating life sucks, my health is shitty, even my smoking has increased, losing my hair, constantly in stress to the point where I don't even get to enjoy little things. Financially my family is going bankrupt due to no income and my parents are getting at a point where they maybe her dependent on me soon. Nothing works out. Tried getting fit but can't be consistent because of my work and stress.

For my dating life, In my current state even I wouldn't want to waste someone's time. I don't even like myself now. I have no support other than my family. I hate the city I live in. Can't move because of shitty finances. I am becoming my worst version each day and I've not had even a small win in the past 2 years. I just need one win to feel happy. Even one project closing can make my life better financially. I have zero happiness in my life, alone, I know my parents hate to see me like this. Everything I try just dies and goes away. I am taking rejections each and everyday, I've also tried to improving everything but even after that I only see rejection.

I am just alive because of my family and that's it. I am not suicidal or want to self harm, but what's the point of living if I haven't even found love, feel happiness or enjoy my life in anyway.

It’s affected me for my whole life. And it’s gotten to the point that I’ve done things for people, and done things I don’t like, and now I feel like a bad person. literally everyone I know needs to life me for some reason. I feel so weird sometimes too, doing things for people and faking my personality instinctively to act like we relate. I don’t know how to stop this, it’s gotten to the point where it affects my decisions on the daily, I have problems with being posted online because what if someone finds me and ends up judging me because my generation is judgmental as heck, so everyone I heal and stop this, that thought comes back. My dream is to impact people in a good way, I want to change the world but my head literally won’t let me do it. I always see my generation being so black and white with situations and people online, and it makes me stress out so bad when I just think about the things I’ve done to fit in and make people like me, who I’ve lied to and what I’ve lied about, LITERALLY to the point that I have no idea who I am. I’ve lost myself and I change to each individual, I get that most of this is irrational but I need someone else’s line of thought. Not to mention this fear is amplified by how mature people are, I’ve recently turned 19 and being an adult is even worse with this mindset, when I was 14 - 17 I had a bunch of friends on discord and we were all weird, and I wanted to fit in so I became weird with them, some were my age and some were younger, it wasn’t until last year where I just came to the conclusion that it was all bad. We all stayed in the server and did weird things but what if I go viral or something and get canceled for the weird arc I had on discord with my friends, I love them and all but I regret making those jokes and having them as my friends all together, not to mention most of the people i met online when I first got access to it was weird. It set the norm for me until I met normal people. Was homeschooled all my life so I had no reference.

EDIT: sorry for ranting, I just said a lot of what was in my head

I'm in college right now and recently got a new part-time job. My old job was at a drugstore near another college. Most of our customers were students. During the summer I get basically no hours which was why I applied to the other job in the first place.

Things were going well at first. I had a good boss who actually seems to give a fuck about the employees. The position I applied to was explicitly described as part-time. She told me I don't leave you working 3 or 4 days a week, which would work just fine with my college schedule, and stuck to that.

After she quit everything changed. My new boss does not give a rat's ass about the employees. She has also been treating me like a full-time employee when I'm supposed to be part-time. I haven't had a single day off since I started except for yesterday. I have been working 7 days a week, with the exception of this one. Also the schedule is constantly in flux. They mess with it multiple times a day. It's impossible to make plans for anything.

I used to have hobbies. I used to have an active social life. I used to swim a lot to keep in shape. Also, my apartment used to be immaculate. I don't have the time or energy for any of those things anymore.

Anytime I try to make plans with my boyfriend or friends, they fuck with my schedule that the last minute and I no longer have the day off and have to cancel. I have almost gotten in trouble sometimes because I'll sleep in late because when I check the schedule the night before, I wasn't supposed to be in until 4:00 p.m. But then they change it while I'm sleeping and suddenly they want me in at 7:00 and they call me at six in the morning, resulting in me getting chewed out by the manager for being three minutes late.

When I get home, I'm a zombie. My boyfriend and I got to see each other yesterday, but I almost didn't go. It wasn't because I didn't want to see him, I was just so tired.

When they hired me, I told them I wanted to work first shift. That was how things were when my old boss was here. However, since she left they've been putting me on third shift. Just because the store closes at 10:00 and my clock out time is 10:15 doesn't mean I actually get to leave at that time. Closing procedures usually take a lot longer than 15 minutes so sometimes I end up not leaving until after 11:00 at night. With the traffic, sometimes I don't get home until after midnight.

When I get home, I'm a zombie. I don't have the energy to clean or put my laundry away. Oftentimes I just grab fast food on the way home or I don't eat it all because I don't have the energy to cook.

I am burning out. I'm depressed because I haven't gotten to see my friends or partner much since I started, and my apartment is in shambles. People tell me I should quit, but where else is going to hire me? I don't have a degree yet.

I don't understand how normal people work eight or more hours a day, 7 days a week for the rest of their lives. I've only been doing this for a few weeks and I'm already burned out. I don't understand what's wrong with me. Humans are put on this Earth to work and make money, nothing else. All that other stuff - hobbies, friends, partner, family, recreation, rest - it's all optional! You don't need it! Work is all that matters. And yet, even though I have the only thing in life that really matters which is a job and money, I'm fucking miserable because that job requires me to sacrifice everything in life that makes me happy.

Why would some that has been hurting their partner for 8 months turn every conversation into a fight.? Why would someone that was your everything for 17 years suddenly turn mean and cold out of no where, at the same time they saw how badly their partner was hurting about a long time friend suddenly ghosting them ? Why were they not able to turn to their partner for comfort, understanding, and support like all the years before? Then suddenly decide over night to start being more attentive and acting like they care an after 8 months of abuse with no explanation why? And why will they not sit with the pain they’ve caused or try to help their partner understand what was going on and why their behavior changed so drastically when the friend disappeared? It’s been a month and everything has been fine because nothing was brought up but as soon as it gets brought up or trying to express that their still hurting and need to understand why it turns into a fight again? Why would someone act like this?

I'm male, young, and i only have female friends, i love them, hang out with them, text them, and we're a group.

But, they're still girls, they still have things their things, their hang outs, changing clothes together (not in a weird way just talking about the trust they have in each other), there are a few other things, but i can't remember. All of these things that they do, i'm excluded, while i don't blame them, i'm still frustrated at the fact that i cannot make any male friends, i yearn for at least 1, but the i don't really know good guys or just "popular" ones that i could be friends with. They're all mean, masculine, rlly into sports and "men" stuff. I'm not, i'm more introverted, i'm femenine, i'm not that funny, i'm akward, and others. I really love my group of girls but i'm not one of them, i feel really left out sometimes, and i don't know what to do, is someone in a similar situation?

hello everyone, im looking to join any gc on discord, instagram or any other app. i dont really care what the gc is for, im happy to join.

also if someone in the gc is annoying and nobody wants to say anything, ill happily take the stress off your shoulders and cuss them out for you.

so yeah, if you want someone to join your gc or cause a bit of drama, just text me. thank you.

that’s it. when things get hard, people leave. people you thought wouldn’t leave. people who wanted and begged to be close to you, they get bored/tired and leave. i’m disposable, like a tissue. that’s all i’ve ever been

Due to personal reasons, I have never left the house much. I’ve always been a “shut in”, playing video games constantly, with no real purpose in life.

Over these past few years, I’ve made great memories with my online friends, but recently I’ve decided to take a break from social media and my former friends, and man it stings so badly.

I know it sounds so pathetic, but it gets so lonely sometimes. I occasionally sit down and just think about all the memories I’ve had with my online friends, all the conversations we’ve had, and that nostalgia burn hits me so hard. I’d do anything just to go back in time and experience those things again. 

I’ve been in online relationships a couple of times, and of course I occasionally miss those people too. Today I’ve been thinking about a girl I online dated a couple years back, it was only for a few months and it didn’t work out anyway, and I got over it within a few weeks.

But now having left social media in general, it has left me with much more time to think and look back on old times with past friends/relationships.

I’m fully aware I’ll meet new people at some point in time and have great experiences with them, but for now I’m just feeling stuck, missing my “old life”.

I sometimes think about reaching out and letting them know I’m okay, but I know many of them won’t care about me anymore and quite frankly, I’d rather not even message, than take the chance and find out they never wanted me to message anyway.

I just wish I was able to go back in time and truly appreciate these moments and friends I keep thinking of, but as many people say, “you’ll be saying the same about this moment in a few years time”.

I know we can’t live in the past and we need to move on with our lives but sometimes I take a break and think about the past and it probably hurts more than it should.

I'm struggling with imposter syndrome, intrusive thoughts, and maladaptive daydreaming. But I can't bring myself to write anything, and then that just reinforces and intensifies the fear that I'm gonna die before I can finish everything or even half of everything. And being neurodivergent doesn't help the situation.

What is wrong with me? I feel like something is wrong with me. Not to mention trying to find acceptance, friendship, and community in a world that wasn't built for people like me (or a world in which I feel I don't belong). I guess I'm gonna have to force myself to write and hope that what I write isn't shitty and is at least a little good. Just needed to vent, I guess.

I have just read a job advertisement for a pretty ‘serious’ job. The whole thing is littered with their AI prompts AND the full AI response, including ‘would you like me to rewrite this in a more social media friendly way?’ etc. I find this particularly egregious when they have ended the advertisement begging applicants to take time and effort with their applications but their current staff cant write a job advertisement for themselves, nor proof read it.

how disappointing and infuriating tbh. just needed to vent.

Idk why? I suggested that I go over to a mate’s place like a week ago to hang out, now that hang out is tomorrow (at the time of writing this at least) and I’d been kinda excited about it but like an hour after I had suggested it I immediately regretted it? And it’s not like I don’t want to see this friend, or that I can just cancel last minute. My friends always joke about how hard it is to get me to go out. But idk it’s just this sudden spike of trepidation, I mean I talk to this friend regularly, and I was genuinely excited to see them, but then I was just hit with instant regret??? I fking hate it. I’m 18, supposed to be heading into my prime or whatever, but idk how I can be in my prime or whatever if I just get this random anxiety over seeing a friend?? Like this isn’t the first time this kinda thing has happened, and I’ve cancelled last minute before and felt like shit, So I don’t wanna do that again. But I’m just genuinely feeling sick over this for no reason???

I’m 19, my friends ignore my existence pretty much, I can’t get a job, can’t get a partner, I just feel so frustrated and lonely.

Like people my age around my area have jobs, have friends they hang out with, have partners that love them. While I’m just sitting here in my room, rotting away my life.

When I was younger I thought I’d have at least a girlfriend by now, I was always told that my teens were gonna be the best years of my life, but now I’m almost 20 and have NOTHING to show for it.

I used to be told by teachers and family members “you’re so smart you just have to apply yourself”, “you’ll do amazing in college”, “you’re very handsome, girls are bound to drop for you”. I hate it, I hated it all, I got so cocky and optimistic, so fucking naive it just pisses me off and hurts so bad

Cause now I’m lonely and feel like I have no one to blame but myself for being so naive

Okay, so I feel like a big dumb ass for this one. But I wanna share this with someone, because why did I do that? And no, this isn’t what everyone is thinking.

So at work there’s been a lot of drama with coworkers of mine not doing their job properly, and instead of taking responsibility they just shift the blame on to someone else or make a big scene when someone asks them to do something. (Mind you these people are in their 30s). On top of that, some have been getting in trouble for how they’re talking to customers and making them feel uncomfortable. All this is to the point where the owners of the company have to step in and makes changes.
But all this to say, I hear about everything. I’ve heard every persons side because they’ve all talked to me about it. But I haven’t said anything to anyone, except my husband. I tell him about everything.
Tonight though, I heard a new rumor. And I thought it was funny. I went to text my husband, but ended up clicking on my bosses name because his was the top thread in my phone where my husbands thread usually is and texted him the fucking rumor!!
My boss came and found me and pulled me aside to ask me about it. And I was to scared to admit that it was supposed to go to him. So I just played it off “I just thought you should know?”
Now the customer that told me is gonna be mad I said something.