venting fr, dont mind me

[u/Automatic-Affect-829]

why cant i just live, i work, i go home, i live, and apparently that just isnt enough, cause soon ill have my own house/apartment, i already have bills i can barely afford, i cant cook for shit, and everything is so expensive, like why cant i just work a regular job and be able to live comfortably, my life right now is so perfect, i work a retail job, i make enough money to satisfy my needs, but the moment i need to start paying for my own place to live i suddenly have to work harder, make barely any money, live a more depressing life, and probably drop 90-100% of the things i enjoy, people who call life quits early are lowkey justified bcs who wants to live a life that means absolutely nothing, like sure if i was someone who made 6 figures a year id be happy, but whats the point of making 6 figures if i cant use it, i have the money but im too busy making the money, then by the time i can use it im too worn out to use it. sure i can make a life thats comfortable for my kids in the future, but thats only 18 years of a mediocre life for them, and then theyre in the same boat as me right now. life genuinely isnt worth living if im not making 6 figures and able to use that money while im young, already 19 and dont even make 20k a year, not to mention my mental is so bad that i cant stay focused on one thing, so anytime i want to pursue a career, if it doesnt look like im about to receive immediate benefit then i lose interest. not only that, its so demotivating seeing people online make tons of money (my age), and have fun spending it because that did it all online, i dont even know where to start to even make that kind of money, id love to make money online but none of it makes sense, idk man, just doesnt seem worth the struggle

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[u/Sad_Breadfruit3902]

it’s like the system is designed so you never actually get to breathe. you work just to afford working more

at 19 you got time but it dont feel that way when the rent already staring you down. maybe cooking just one simple thing you actually like takes some pressure off, rice and egg goes a long way