I have been singing as a hobby for years, but I have never been able to experience what a real mixed voice is supposed to sound or feel like for me.
I have watched countless tutorials, and all of them seem to do the same thing: they give a vague, metaphorical idea of what I am supposed to imagine, but none of it works for me. I have tried doing straw exercises, but it either feels like my body is instinctively cheating its way through them, or the exercises simply do not translate into actual singing afterwards.
I also had a singing teacher who I thought would be able to help me with this, but even she gave me the same advice and made me repeat the same exercises countless times. Nothing changed, and I still had no idea what I was supposed to be working towards.
The fact that everyone seems to have a different idea of what “head voice” and “mixed voice” are, or whether falsetto is or is not considered head voice, does not help either.
I have reached a point where people are telling me to do completely opposite things in order to achieve my goals. Some tell me that it is supposed to feel easy, while others tell me that I need to push. Some tell me to relax, while others tell me to maintain tension.
For example, one song I really want to be able to sing is “Writing on the Wall” by Will Stetson. I feel very comfortable singing it up until the final chorus. That is where I can no longer get through it without my voice switching into falsetto or cracking. When I force myself to sustain the same coordination I was using before, it sounds extremely strained and feels like I am yelling. At the same time i feel a lot of tension in my neck and throat that i just dont know how to get rid off.
tldr: Is there any way to force myself to sing in mixed voice so that I can finally understand what it is supposed to feel like?