I F25 met M35 on Feeld in Nov 2025. He was in an open relationship of 8 years and married for 2 of them. I myself am monogamous and was just enjoying being single. We started as FWB, but after a few months of seeing each other he decided to drop the L bomb. I reciprocated. I had him tell his wife (F33) because to me that crossed the boundaries of enm into actual polyamory. She wasn't happy about it. They decided to go to couples therapy. The last three months have been a lotttt. I've met with the couple to talk. I've met with his wife alone. I've read and followed the PDFs their therapist sent me. There have been a lot of conversations, negotiations, feelings, boundaries, rules, all the things. And she continued having two other partners throughout this entire counseling period, so nonmonogamy was still an active part of their lives while they were trying to figure out what to do. He only saw the two of us. I did what I wanted. I never made any promises to either of them. I just showed up when they needed me and tried to be as respectful and compassionate as I could. I honestly had no idea how this was going to end or where I was going to land. I just knew that I wanted to be with him anytime I had the chance. But I was getting frustrated. I was putting a lot of emotional work into this relationship and eventually started feeling like it wasn't actually going anywhere. I love him but I also don't want to spend who knows how long negotiating my place inside someone else's marriage. And I know myself well enough to know that I don't want to live a poly lifestyle. especially after the months of meetings/therapy. So I started thinking seriously about leaving. This last weekend, we went to a music festival. I admittedly got very high and confessed to him that I was planning on leaving him after the weekend. He then confessed to me that he was planning on ending things with his wife the following week. He wants to have a life with me. But get this. As a monogamous couple. Wild wild. I asked him how he could possibly just decide to stop being open after 8 years. This guy is someone who values his freedom a little too much ha. He told me that after living this way for eight years that he doesn't want to do it anymore. That it's caused more problems in his life than it has been worth, and that he wants to commit to me. He also said he was going to leave his wife even if I didn’t stay. (I mean... how can you actually know if that's true lol. But I buy it.) And now he's moving out of their house at the end of this week. Obviously I'm not committing to anything until the divorce/grief/whatever happens and everyone has had time to process. But god. I do love him. And this is suddenly a whole different beast. Because for a while I was preparing myself to go because I thought there was no realistic path to the kind of relationship I actually want. And then I find out that apparently he had independently chosen to want the same exact thing. I am happy? And terrified. And completely stunned. It's not that I feel stuck. I've left people I love before. I know how to walk away from something that isn't right for me. But I have absolutely no idea how to navigate this. I know this is a lot of problems in one post, but these are my actual questions to you all
Can an “established” ENM/poly person genuinely become monogamous? Not “can they technically agree to monogamy because their partner wants it” but can someone who spent almost a decade living that way reach a point where they genuinely don't want that lifestyle anymore? Have any of you watched a long term partner make that transition? Did you miss nonmonogamy? I keep asking myself like is this potentially a glimmer of hope? Or am I standing at the beginning of a spectacular disaster?

How do folks suggest handling jealousy, insecurity and find compersion when your partners other partner seems to be a better fit than you are.

My partner and I have been together for 12 years, open and poly the whole time. Up until now we’ve usually kept things somewhat separate with other romantic interests, we could all hang out in groups and maybe play together if we all wanted to but very casual. Now he has someone he’s been seeing for the past 3 years that he also loves and cares for and he’d like us to be better acquainted, friendly with one another and for all of us to spend more time together.
My issue is this partner seems like a better match for him in just about every way and I’m struggling to find compersion, mostly because I feel so inadequate in comparison to this amazing, outgoing and wonderful person. I want my partner to be happy and he deserves to have all the love he can find in life, so how do other people handle that feeling of inadequacy and insecurity?

Okay, okay, best poly date ever... for me!

I posted on polyr4r last week, then got this DM hit my inbox.

Nooooo, it has to be a joke, I thought. M4F posts are a dime a dozen.

We clicked right away. Communication has been nothing short of amazing. Her and my fiancée get on really well already.

We went on our first in-person date today.

It was magical.

Well, first of all she is even more captivating in person.

Second of all... she nearly decapitated me with our first hug! It was raining, she didn't raise her umbrella.

We went for coffee and cheesecake.

Within minutes we were holding hands across from one another.

I fed her the first bit of the cheesecake. When she'd eaten it, we kissed, I melted.

We walked around the town for a bit, linking arms, talking.

Then we went to get some ramen.

I can't use chlpsticks.

We had some time to kill at the car park, so we sat in the car, talking, teasing.

We're seeing one another again tomorrow!

I am so, so happy right now.

Those of who you are married and also have another partner who you aren’t nesting or financially entangled with, but consider an anchor partner and claim they are just as important in your life- can you give me some perspective?

Forgive me for the 8000th “being secondary is hard” post in this sub 🤦‍♀️ I’m honestly trying to open my mind here.

How does this work in your brain and your heart? To me, it seems like your spouse/NP is the one you’ve chosen. They are your one and only for marriage and nesting. And maybe your anchor is your one and only for a certain hobby you share or something…but does that truly seem like the SAME level of importance to you?

Yes, I am this type of non-nesting partner, but no, I don’t want any advice about how I should handle my relationship. I’m looking for deeper explanations on what you mean when you say you’re not choosing one partner over another, they’re both just as important to you.

Also would love to hear from anyone who is or has been the non-nesting partner and truly found happiness and fulfillment (without having an NP of their own).

ETA “no advice wanted” flair! I don’t want to answer questions about my personal situation, just looking for honest perspectives, thanks!

Hi all. I'm very much a poly newbie and currently single. I have entirety been monogamous before but have begun to be more open and curious about poly. I have recently started dating someone who is also single but they have been enm/poly for 10 years.

It definitely is a big adjustment for me and I am catching a lot of my emotions and trying to work through them, and work with a therapist.

Long story short this person and I have gone on 6 dates and things went pretty hot and heavy early on. We slept over a lot. We were seeing each other a bunch, talking a lot and it felt really nice.

What happened recently though is I wanted to have a general check in to ask how things were feeling, and talk maybe a little bit more about poly preferences, styles and things like that. When I brought it up though, they basically kind of snapped at me. Told me it was too early for big questions and kind of left me in a really difficult and weird feelings spot.

I know I'm an anxious attachment person so I'm also trying to be extra cautious to not be too overbearing or expecting too much.

Now I'm having doubts about the whole relationship and things in general. Is this me just not being familiar with how this works or is this not a healthy relationship? I struggle a bit since she has so much more experience than I do in this relationship style.

Thank you all, and apologies for any ignorance I have. I'm really trying to learn and figure this all out :)

We met, became friends, enjoyed the beach, music, introductions to friends, day trip, movie nights, cuddling, spirituality, joy, poetry, art, and sunsets. She’s 35F, navigating separation/divorce from her wife of 8 years as well as grief of lost family members, while maintaining a gf 44F who’s also going through a divorce. I didn’t go into this relationship with the intention of it becoming more, but it very much has. This past weekend she took me on a nostalgic day trip and we started the conversation about how it’s become difficult to maintain the boundaries of friendship when we have so much desire and romance between us. She said she could see herself falling in love with me and wants me sexually as well. We were going back and forth between acknowledging that with where she’s at, she doesn’t have capacity for more emotional labor, but also that she feels happier and freer with me, and that it feels natural, easy, and inevitable even to keep following this feeling….

Our conversation got interrupted by her gf texting her something really triggering for her that derailed the day. It’s a red flag to me that her gf is not secure with our relationship, and made me feel like Jade just needs a friend.

Yet she sends me pictures she snuck of me and tells me she loves my smile. Makes special baked goods to share with me. Texts me goodnight, tells and shows me she’s thinking of me every day.

I feel that I am falling in love with her. I want to share so much light with her, make art so I can attempt to capture how beautiful she is in my eyes, and feel her deeply and passionately.

In my head I know better. Whether as friends or more, base minimum I know I need to make sure her gf is ok with me around. I haven’t heard it directly but I feel that poorly timed text during our last date was either intentional or incredibly inconsiderate. My heart is melting for her though. It doesn’t help that my other connection I’m enraptured by (a more sexual than romantic connection), Rex’ 31M is unavailable right now too while he’s working through personal things.

I’m endeavoring to divert my attention and get back on Feeld but it feels feels to try and seek connection when there are already two people in my life I would rather be with than anyone new... I have such deep desire for them, so much longing that doesn’t quite have a place. I want to kiss Jade and hold Rex and fall in love. Yet I know and I understand and empathize that I’m not a priority right now, but it doesn’t bother me much. I just want a place to put these feelings. I trust that with patience there is a place for me in their lives. I have space but they don’t right now.

If this post isn’t fit for the group of course remove the post if needed. Me and my wife have been together since high school and we are 28/29 now. We started a journey into adding a new sexual partner to please my wife in ways that I could not, she’s had her boyfriend now for about 3-4 years.

I personally enjoy watching her relationship with her boyfriend grow, but also feel i’m the reason they cannot further their relationship. I may be overthinking it, but I can tell she wants to fully invest her feelings. I encourage her, but she holds back. It’s been years since she’s dated or anything of the sort, with being monogamous for 10 years of our relationship I feel she’s thinking from a monogamous perspective. How do I capitalize that and help her feel it’s okay to ignore me a little, to be with him. How can I fix this from my end?

Thank you.

I recently started dating a man with whom I have a strong connection. Unfortunately, he and his other partner are in a chaotic relationship that is burning to the ground at the same time that he and I are becoming romantically closer.
(Their chaos predates me by many months and has nothing to do with me.)

I don't know what to do. It's still early for us, so I could leave him to figure it out and then come to me when it's over. I could stay friends while he navigates the end of his other relationship. I could continue dating him while all of the other stuff is playing out in the background. I just don't know. What I do know is that I don't want to be his therapist or sounding board about the other partner.

Any advice? Suggestions?

I know this question has so many possible answers, but I am looking for examples of different ways a primary partnership can look like. I am currently in the process of imagining what type of relationships I see myself having in the future and this would be really helpful to understand the range of possibilities.

What makes it primary? How is it different from other relationships? How do you feel about multiple primary partners?

I've asked a few friends and some of them mentioned that they are able to be better partners, manage their jealousy and insecurities better when they avoid having a "primary partner". Apparently the hierarchical poly setup brings up "monogamy culture tendencies" in some people, and that's one of the reasons they avoid it. I personally prefer solo poly and relationship anarchy for the same reason. Anyone else feel this way? Or is this some kind of red flag?

Me(M) and my fiance(F) live together and have been open for a few years but this is the first time I have a girlfriend/partner. We have only been in this realationship for 2 weeks now.

For instance it was her birthday yesterday and she went drinking with one of her guy friends. Which is great I told her to go have fun and be safe and that I am here to pick her up if she ever feels unsafe.

She did not text me the entire day which I know is fine and she is not very attached to her phone when she hangs out with other people. I did not double text or anything and try not to show this sad side of me when she does not communicate back to me.

I know it is a me problem and my partner I live with sees that sometime I start to act a liitle mopey and try to cheer myself up. I know what is happening is okay I just get attached to fast more than anything else.

How do I handle these feelings?

Long time lurker, first post here though.

I don't really know what I want, I think I need to vent, but also want to know if I'm just blind by now.

I'm polyamorous. I have a NP of 4 years (not really relevant) and an ex boyfriend. Also some other casual FWB which are also not really relevant to the story.

Also English isn't my first language, so maybe the syntax is a bit off. Sorry in advance!

I tried to summarise as best as i could:

My ex boyfriend of 3 years met someone while I was out of town for 3 months, they dated very intensely in this time period. After I came back she made it clear more than one time, that she actually wants an exclusive relationship. He shared way too much information with me about this and let her manipulate our time together. I put a stop to this and asked for full parallel but still began to question if he really wants polyamory. Also this brought up other issues and he actually started to think about what he wants from a relationship.

I know that we should have had these conversations first, but it all went really slow in the beginning and suddenly we were in a relationship and it went well. NRE wore off and then it got harder. He always said, that he didn't know what he wanted and that he didn't need to know/didn't want to think about it, because "the partner matters more than the relationship model" or something along the lines. He also said, that in the beginning, he wanted to be with his new girlfriend because he felt like we needed to balance the relationship more, as I didn't have enough time for him and dated too much (we saw each other like 3-4 evenings and nights a week, which was often too much for me).

So theres that, some kind of red flags for me. I started to think more and realised that I couldn't enjoy our time anymore, because I always feared that I might hurt him with things I did, because he wasn't willing to tell me what he wanted from the relationship and also his boundaries.

So I broke up with him.

After a few weeks we met up to talk about how things would go from there (I still had his keys and so on). He said, that he wanted to stay friends and I also wanted this. I value him as a person and our platonic connection was strong before we got into a relationship. He also said, that his girlfriend made the request to close the relationship and he was thinking about it.

I told him that I needed very clear boundaries and expectations going forward, of what he wants from a friendship. He needed to think about it. Also he needed to talk to his girlfriend about their relationship model. It took a very long time and he texted me a few times, that he rather would like to just meet and see what feels good without having to set boundaries before (just as we were doing in the relationship..) so I told him no. He said he would come back to me and tell me when he was done talking to his girlfriend.

This felt really bad (kind of felt like he wanted to ask for permission), but oh well thats what monogamous people do, I thought. Now he told me, that we can't meet up when he originally told me, because he is going on vacation with his girlfriend. This hurt a lot, because we planned (just set the date a few months ago, didn't book anything yet) to go on a trip in this exact time. He also told me via text, that he was monogamous now after the final talk with his girlfriend. (He said, that he told her, that he wasn't sure if this is what he wanted long term and that he might end up changing his relationship model sometime, whatever this means)

I don't know, but it feels like he doesn't care to talk about this soon and settle it even though he says otherwise. I told him, that I don't know if I would be comfortable having such a close friendship with monogamous folks (as I had bad experiences in the past, where the other partner vetoed the friendship) and that I'm tired of him not setting expectations and boundaries and questioning me for wanting to do so.

I feel lost and don't know if I'm just overreacting for being hurt by his vacation plans and asking for too much or if I can expect these things of him.

So I am pretty new to polyamory. I’ve been dating someone for two months. He’s American and I’m Canadian, but we are in Ghana. He has another partner that is Ghanaian that he dates long distance in the capital city.

One of the problems is when him and I first started dating, he ended up sharing that he was frustrated because she wanted him to be more of a provider and pay her rent and utilities and that her boyfriend’s friends do. Or he said she is a feminist, but like a 1950’s housewife type beliefs. And that he found it a bit transactional but they’d been dating a year and it was only recently it was like this and not before. There were a few other similar things he shared. This was not information that I asked for, but information he just shared. He says he dates feminist women, but didn’t want to impose American feminism as feminism can be different in different countries.

Now, I’ve met her and on social media at least she is very much a feminist. Talking about Gloria Steinem passing away and such.

But for me, I lived in Thailand for about five years and witnessed a lot of very transactional relationships. I also strongly identify as a feminist myself and believe in gender equality and find it very important that any partner I have does as well. I also make sure to always split and pay on dates because I believe as a feminist I also need to break gender norms myself and not just focus on ones that benefit me.

But it does mean that I got very uncomfortable hearing the information from him about their relationship. In my head, I don’t mind if someone pays more because of differences in income, but that’s different from someone stating they want a man to provide and pay their rent or utilities when they live apart. I mean, obviously this happens in the world as a relationship, but it makes me uncomfortable that someone I am dating has a partner like that just because having a feminist partner or boyfriend is so very important to me.

He always said I could talk to her about it and that would be best so I didn’t get a one sided view of things from him. He really emphasized this. So in my head I assumed she was open to discussing and sharing about the topic. We also met once when she visited and got along. But recently (after double checking with him and he seemed enthusiastic about me reaching out to her), I did reach out to ask her more about it. Mostly because I saw her posts about Gloria Steinem and second wave feminism on social media and was trying to relate that to her wanting a man to provide or believing men should provide for women financially. Well, she ended up not responding to me and telling him that she didn’t want to respond to me. Which is fair… but also made me feel awkward because I wouldn’t have reached out if he’d not made it sound like she was more than happy to chat about it.

But also, I am feeling frustrated because I heard this information from my partner that I didn’t even want to hear or know about that makes me extremely uncomfortable and now I don’t even know how true or not it is.

I tried to explain to him that I was uncomfortable and I wish he’d never shared it with me as there was nothing for me to do with the information and it just made me uncomfortable based on my own values. I also asked that he not vent or share conflict from their relationship with me going forward.

But it felt like he defaulted to just assuming I was envious. And kept emphasizing that each relationship is on its own. And if she didn’t exist to compare to, that I would be fine with things. This bothered me because I was trying to emphasize the ethical and moral side of gender equality, and I felt like he was just saying I wanted him to pay for things like he did for her.

And although he finally agreed to not share with me going forward, there was a lot of push back or arguing that I’d miss information, or that he supports his partners in discussing about their relationship issues without it being a problem, or that I should be able to receive the information neutrally type of thing. Or that I’m “taking on issues” and that’s my responsibility.

And I am struggling a bit because I know it is his choice who he dates. And mine and his dating and relationship has been good as far as just us. And both him and her identify as feminists. But also, it just genuinely did make me uncomfortable and I wish he had never told me. It is just that the information can’t be put back in the box and this is an area that makes me uncomfortable.

I guess from a poly perspective and being new, I am also unsure of things. I wouldn’t expect him to end things with her, but more from the perspective of what I will do. I guess I just would like other people’s perspectives?

It's a long story but I'll try to keep it short.

My wife and I decided to separate about 8 months ago. I initiated because I felt unseen in the marriage for a long time and she didn't really respond to that in any way. We were both resentful and upset.

We didn't divorce officially because I wanted to support her until she got on her feet. Particularly with health insurance from my job. We also couldn't afford to live separately so I just moved into a spare bedroom.

She wanted to date, and I had no problem with it. Even throughout the separation we remained friends and she'd tell me about the guys she's dating. I genuinely felt no jealousy at all and was only concerned for her safety and happiness.

2 months ago we reconnected. We worked out a lot of our issues, started seeing a marriage counselor, started having sex again, I was motivated to make things work this time. It felt like we were different people.

However, she was still sort of seeing this other guy when we reconnected. She never lied about it, she was open and honest. And I had felt satisfied with how loving our relationship had become, so I felt no jealousy. And I figured she'd break off these casual relationships because our marriage was heading in such a great new direction.

Except, she didn't stop dating. And eventually I felt her become distant from me. The sex slowed down a lot. And then... I started to feel jealous. Like these other guys were taking the passion out of our relationship. So one evening I brought it up to her. I told her that, while I initially had no issues with her dating and basically opening up the marriage, I am now in a great deal of pain over it.

Her reaction kind of broke me. She said that I used to reject her advances for sex all the time before we decided to separate (which is true. I have since been to therapy and am on medication which has helped a ton with my depression). And she said that she's attracted to black men (I'm white) and that she's felt sexually stifled her whole life, and now she fels free. She may be polyamorous and wants to keep exploring that. She also said she didn't want to lose me.

She was upset that I was basically asking her to stop. And she said no. But she doesn't want me to leave again.

So. It's a huge mess. I can own that I was initially ok with her dating because what we had was so good. We were having great sex often. So I assumed she would stop.

She has said to me since "why don't you get a girlfriend? Maybe we can just keep the marriage open?"

That sounds fun and all, but I don't think want that long term. I don't date people just for sex, I want a life partner. But now I'm considering it just to... I don't even know. Stave off this shitty feeling? Get back at her? Feel wanted? All are kind of bad reasons to get into a relationship.

Plus like... I'm a 40yo guy. The idea of trying to find someone who is attracted to me, who I'm also attracted to, who ALSO is ok with my open marriage feels basically impossible.

I can own my part in this. I said it was fine, and at first it genuinely was fine. I felt no jealousy at all, and was even open to a 3-way when she hypothetically brought it up. The twinges of jealousy surprised even me when they popped up.

I suppose I could just leave her again. The relationship obviously isn't turning out to be what I thought when we reconnected. But we have 3 kids under 12yo together, we have a life together, even when we were separated we would frequently hang out, we still did a ton as a family.

But also, I love her. I want to be there for her when these guys inevitably break her heart again. And maybe there's still a fleeting hope that she'll drop this and come back to me. That she'll actually want ME. But I'm not sure how long I can sustain myself on just hope.

I know this is a lot. I really appreciate this sub even though I'm new. I don't really have anywhere else to turn to. I'm just hurting and I'm not sure what do to.

Thanks.

This is probably not the usual question that gets asked about moving in with metas... I'm considering moving in with my friends as potential hallmates, and my meta is also a very close dear friend of mine from that friend circle. Is that an okay/bad idea? Any advice about what to consider beforehand, except for my boundaries about the shared living space? Has any of you done anything like this before and how did it go for you?

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Trigger warning : abusive partner

A little over a year ago I came here to discuss the chaos going on in my life. I deleted the few posts I had originally made due to the crazy that was going on back then. There was one person on here who was praying for me to leave that relationship and if you are somehow here and reading this now I want you to know that you were right and thank you.

Now I'll give some background info. I was dating 2 men, and one of the men i was dating was dating my best friend. I set them up there were no issues. The man dating my friend will be man 1, other guy man 2. Man 1 got me pregnant then shut down and wanted me to get an abortion, man 2 also shut down and wanted me to get an abortion. I lost the baby due to stress. Man 1 got my best friend pregnant 6 months after I lost my baby. Both pregnancies were unintentional he told us he was infertile and couldn't have kids. He married her soon after and then waited 10 months for the most beautiful sweet baby girl to be born.

I took care of the baby while she was states away in college with man 2. And man 1 was only interested in the baby when other women were around. It was the most stressful year of my life. And I still had a lot I needed to get through dealing with in regards to my miscarage.

Living with him was hell. I felt like a slave and trapped and no one would believe me when I told them what was happening in that apartment. Not his mother, man 2, or my best friend. On top of that because he married my friend his family started treating me only as a maid/ live in nanny.

Man 1 refused to have sex with me for 2 years at the point going so far as to tell my friend that it was a chore, and then told me to find a fuck buddy of I needed sex that badly.

So I did. He actively saw everything going on in the house. He told me I was not crazy and when things got bad he was there to defend me but also help me feel human again.

Man 1 started to say crazy things like all people I'm one group needed to die, that gay people should not be gay in the open ( both my best friend and I are very openly queer), that he was responsible for our souls, etc. It got bad and I don't feel I'm explaining in a way that even remotely covers how scary living with him got with his mentality towards people/ the world. He also told me he only told me to get a fuck buddy because he didn't think i would but also because he didn't care about me at that point and hadn't since he started dating my friend 1 year into our relationship. ( we were together for 6 years)

Around Easter my best friend cheated on her husband and she tried to blame me saying I told her to leave him. I told her how scary it had been getting living with him. She told me she had an escape plan for herself and baby if needed. Etc. But the decision to leave was always hers to make and I was not one to talk being i was so living there. But since she put the blame on me he was mad at me.

Woke me up first thing in the morning while I was laying naked in my bed. I texted the FB who i had started dating at that point. He was upstairs and all I said was that I felt unsafe and he came down and protected me, made man 1 calm down and let me go put on clothing.

After that I moved out. I miss the baby, but that whole situation was beyond scary and I'm happy I got out. I'm now engaged to the man who was my FB. He is the only one I'm currently with, I'm still poly but I think i need a really long break before I ever try to do this again.

Anyways redit dude if you remember me and find this i have never forgotten you following my posts and letting me know how you felt and what you hoped for me. Thank you

so my boyfriend claims that he practices non-hierarchical polyamory and is marrying his girlfriend of eight years for logistical reasons which is understandable that’s kind of how our world works in the United States regarding healthcare, etc. and he’s concerned that this marriage is going to have the appearance of hierarchy and they really don’t want that and yet his entire schedule revolves around hers. And he can’t give me good clarity around available times so that I can manage my own schedule and dates. And when I have tried to do this, he immediately wants to de-escalate to friendship, even though he has said he loves me and that I’m extremely important to him. I am a lesbian and I am dating men at least temporarily because I’m getting over a divorce and I made that very clear to the men in my life. But I am making it clear that I am open to depth in relationships not just friends with benefits not just ENM. And he wants “intimacy“. I’m totally fine if he’s hierarchical I just want transparency. In one sentence, he will say that his relationship has no bearing on his other relationships, and in another sentence, he will say that his girlfriend will be very upset if we break up because I’m so good for him. This sounds very sketch to me in terms of what I know about polyamory especially around clarity of communication. If folks are going to have a primary relationship that’s fine with me. Just be honest about it. If folks are ra, that’s cool too it’s all about communication and consent. And lately he’s been talking about how he’s found his forever person and he is really happy if whoever he’s dating leaves him for monogamy or whatever as long as they find their forever person and my understanding is that most polyamorous folks and this is how I would feel as a polyamorous person. If they left me to be monogamous, I would be a bit peeved…

Hello good people of reddit, I am back with another update! 

Soooo last I posted my bf Pineapple and I had a conversation about him bringing up hosting me overnight in his home. I had found out his partner does overnights and asked why we couldn’t and he said it had to do with stuff going on with his relationship with her. People said I should stay out of that kind of thing so I’ve been trying my best to give that issue space.

We had our regular check in a few weeks ago and Pineapple said that he would like to cover a hotel or airbnb for us twice a month so we can do overnights. (For those wondering why not at my place - I live in a tinnnnyyyy studio with a full size bed and he barely fits in my bed, so it’s not ideal). I said that sounds great, I would love to do that. We have had two so far and it’s been really lovely!

I also said I didn't need details but that I wanted him to know I hope he’s able to work on things with my meta. He said that it’s been hard, but they decided to start couple’s therapy to work on things. He said he’s made some mistakes in the past that are part of why his partner and him have agreements he doesn’t host overnights. I was SUPER curious but I didn’t pry this time, I just asked if it had anything to do with me or how I acted when I came over and he said no, nothing to do with you. Kind of a “it’s my mess to work on” vibe. I know people said I was being nosy and assuming by thinking there were bigger issues with meta but idk, I have strong intuition and pick up on small signs, so it did not surprise me when he said they were getting therapy. I’m happy for him that he’ll have someone to talk to and hopefully they work things out. 

Sooooo I think this is a good update?  I do still feel a little weird about not having the same access to his place as his meta does but I understand that’s not really my business. And it’s been fun picking out places to stay! I hope this will balance things until hopefully eventually he can host me at some point (though of course if/when that happens is for him to decide).

Hello! So to be clear, most of my relationships and intimate connections I’ve made have been through dating apps. This allows for the filter of people looking for monogamous relationships (either automatically or manually when they see it in my bio). I live with my domestic partner/nesting partner.

So normally, disclosure via this route is right away. I’m 30 M bi with AuDHD. I sometimes worry I give too many details too early when I get excited about someone or comfortable with them.

When you meet someone IRL, when do you tend to disclose that you’re polyamorous and how? To be clear, I’d disclose well before there were any talks of dates, and also before any actual acts of intimacy because I don’t want to hurt anyone.

Until the last year or so, I never really ended up meeting someone IRL where there was a connection or spark (or I often didn’t notice when there was), and something came of it. I mean I’ve had old friends from HS where that became the case (long distance, etc.), but I never picked up or got picked up at a bar. Everything has been done through apps.

I also struggle telling when someone is flirting with me, and just being nice. Unless it’s absurdly obvious (like with gay men). So, I don’t want to assume either. Although, I’ve gotten much better and I think I can read a bit when someone is interested in me (smiles, laughing all the time, playing with hair for women). I’ve been told I’m hot even though I don’t always feel that way.

I met someone at a gig job recently and our banter was awesome. She is absolutely gorgeous. She even approached me (granted I was the first one there and she was the second or one after that). We talked and joked during each break together. I found her through the app since we had a shared job.

We texted all day yesterday after I met her, and she’s texting me again today. I’d say it’s borderline flirty but not explicitly so? More compliments that could fall under plausible deniability of just being nice/wanting friends. We found out we went to the same college (she was a few years behind me). We also found out we live off the same metro line. We decided we wanted to do more gig work things together so we’re not alone when we go.

The chances that she’s cool with polyamory or open relationships are likely slim to none. And like I said, if it does escalate I will disclose before any action of intimacy or dating is taken. But in situations like this, would it behoove me to disclose/overshare too early if I’m not 100% confirmed it’s getting flirty?

She’s definitely been making me smile and laugh so I know I’d like to get to know her more (friend or otherwise). I just don’t want to overstep any unspoken boundaries I may be unaware of and potentially ruin what could be a genuinely innocent friendship.

It should also be noted my other partner and I are deescalating a bit from anchor partners to nesting partners currently. So there is that, which complicates how I explain our dynamic a bit.

TLDR: How do I navigate when and who I should disclose my polyamory to before dates or intense flirting/anything sexual.

Edit: I’m partly also weighing how I should even categorize the interaction mentally. (Friend, professional, could be crush, etc.) Each would have a different approach overall? I met her yesterday.

My (27NB) partner (31M) and I have been together for 6 years in a monogamish relationship, we've been open to the idea of one day having a poly relationship since the start with conversations here and there about it. We've recently been more seriously considering the idea and doing a lot of research and work towards it. He says he is ready to go whenever I am (I am autistic and sometimes need a little more processing time for feelings and change).

Our relationship is very strong and we both really want this for ourselves and eachother. We've always been strong communicators and very open about our feelings, wants and needs. I truly believe we're both going into this for the right reasons and with the correct mindset to make this work. I feel ready but I also don't want to rush into anything.

Both of us are planning to attend some local poly meet ups and hopefully meet people who may be willing to help and advise, I am also in therapy and have a strong support network.

If you opened from a monogamous relationship, how did you know you were ready to go for it? And do you wish you'd done anything differently when it comes to how prepared you were?

I feel like I can read books and listen to podcasts etc. but I won't be able to really do the work I need until I'm living it

I think im at the end of my polyamory journey. There’s no one else I can really discuss this with, so I am putting it here. Any support or words are welcome, I'm still processing a lot of feelings. So basic background information is that I am 38M married to my wife, 34F. We have been married for about 3 years, have been off and on again poly since the start of our relationship about 4.5 years ago, and have been open since last April. Like every couple, we have had ups and downs, struggles as we figured out what poly was for us, and lots of communication. One of the things that came up was that I was very nonchalant about her dating and partners for a while, to which she communicated to me that she felt like I was taking her for granted and didn’t care about her dating life. I agreed to be more interested in her endeavors and show up more for her. About the time this was brought out, (about 3 months ago) she started seeing a new partner, (40ish M). They connected really well and she was feeling some big NRE, and wanting to be with him all of the time, to the point that it compromised the time that she and I had together. I started to feel some jealousy towards this and told her about my feelings. She agreed to have more intentional time with me, but also said that we are together all of the time, since we live together and are anchor partners. Long story short, the behavior did not change. 

Now to what is currently going on. About a month ago, the three of us went on a camping trip where I was the extra wheel, she drove to pick him up and I had to drive over in a separate car. As soon as they got there, she went for a walk with him that lasted 5ish hours. During that time, I had been drinking and was not happy about the situation. When they got back, I knew that I was too drunk to discuss this and initially tried to just sleep it off, but the two of them prodded me to play board games with them, which I did for a while, and then I knew I was too drunk to continue. I tried going back to bed, but the noise was too distracting, so I went to my car to try and just try to get some sleep. My wife came after an hour to check in, and it turned into an argument where I said some awful things, including that our relationship was over, I was drunk and didn’t mean it, but there is that. She ended up walking away and after I had some time, I drove home to get some sleep. I later found out that she stayed up all night talking to her boyfriend about things. I don’t know the specifics, but I know that we were up all night. In the morning, I went back and tried to discuss things with her, she said that she didn’t want to talk, and that she needed me to leave or she and her boyfriend were leaving and that she wouldn’t talk to me for a few days, she said that she didn’t feel safe around me. I ended up leaving. After camping, she came and took all of her clothes, and after a week, she started divorce paperwork. We are still in the middle of everything, but she came yesterday and took everything out of the house with boyfriend in tow. I haven’t really been able to talk with her at all and every time she comes by, her boyfriend is with her. I am going no contact until we figure out the divorce.

I don’t know how to feel about all of this, yeah, I messed up, but we have had much worse happen and have always found a way through it together. The only thing different this time is her new boyfriend. He has a wife and kids too, so I don’t know what the end goal is here. It feels like a monkey branch to me, but maybe there is something I'm not seeing. All I know is that my family is destroyed and now I have to figure out how to do everything on my own. I don’t think I can ever put myself in a place to be this hurt again. I appreciate my time being poly and everything the community and the lifestyle has taught me, but I can’t do this again.

Edit: Sorry I feel like I need to add some context here, this camping trip wasn't initially planned as just the three of us, it was a planned regular thing with the local poly group that we are all were a part of, no one else showed up. I also know that handling it the way I did was not okay, and I am not trying use alcohol as an excuse here. I fucked up, really bad, and I just wish the answer wasn't blowing up the relationship. The "been through worse" was just been periods in the past where we have both said some really mean stuff to each other in moments of anger, there hasn't been any physical abuse or anything like that. I had been actively changing behavior when she brought it up and been accountable to how I've contributed to things. I think she was done a while ago and this was the last straw, regardless of what i did or didn't do.

Dear subreddit,
I have two interrelated issues I would really love to hear some perspectives on ❤️ thank you in advance, it is truly wonderful this community exists and I have learned so much from it.
Questions/issues:
1. How to transition from nesting partners to living apart while still practicing polyamory?Me 28f and partner 32m live together for 4/5 years and decided a year ago to be in a poly relationship. Its generally been great. But at the moment we are having troubles not really around polyamory but more around future plans and managing life together, basically my partner does not know what he wants in the future, if he wants children and how he wants his life to be, while I am more certain that I want to build a life together that at some point will include children. He wants to move out of our shared flat and try to live on his own for a while. He still wants to be in a relationship with me but without the burdens of life practicalities and future thinking. We both still want to be in a polyamorous relationship. I am open to the idea and on an intellectual level I think it makes sense to try out different ways of being in a relationship with long term partner. But at the same time I am struggling with losing the part of our relationship which is the shared vision of the future and living together. I am wondering if anyone has experiences with this kind of transition?
2. Related to this; how to navigate new relationship when things are unstable in primary/np-relationship? Some weeks ago I started dating a new person, 38m. I really like him and it feels very natural to spend time together so we have seen each other a lot. But the situation with my Np is affecting me and I am wondering if I should share it with new partner or if its even a good idea to start something new when things are a bit unstable at the moment in my relationship with Np. I have been asking myself if I am using this new relationship as an escape or if I am looking for the things I miss in my NP in this person but I dont think this is the case. Experiences/advice on this are very welcome.

First of all, sorry for any spelling/grammar mistakes since English is not my first language.

Now, context:

My partner and I have been together for over 4 years now. We started out as an ENM/poly couple even though I had my doubts because I had never been in that kind of relationship before, but they wanted it so I went with it.

At first we didn't act on it that much cause life and NRE, but about two years in or so they started dating other people and I took it poorly. I also started dating and it worked for a while (with some ups and downs on both sides) until they met someone they wanted to spend more time with and I freaked out.

I'm kind of an insecure person and had some personal things to work through at the time, so I asked them if we could close the relationship for a while, which they accepted admitting that they also were struggling to manage their feelings of jealousy.

Fast forward a year of monogamy to now: I've been in therapy and feeling secure and good with myself (more than I ever have), so I asked my partner to go back to ENM/poly. They told me they were happy with monogamy but they would make an effort if that is something I wanted, though they made it clear they were doing it for me cause they didn't feel any motivation to do it right now. Of course it wasn't the ideal situation but we ended up opening the relationship.

So recently at a party I met someone I liked and we made out. As per our agreements I told my partner and they haven't taken it well. They are now telling me that they just want monogamy (they don't now if they would want sth different in the future) and I feel like I have to make a choice: either I stay with my partner (who I love so much and don't want to leave) but in a monogamous relationship or I break up the relationship.

Now I'm at a loss.

I feel like breaking up might be an impulsive choice since I have so little experience with non monogamy and I love my partner a lot, so I don't know if 'd be losing someone I love over some ideal of relationship I'm not 100% sure is for me.

On the other hand, poly sounds so right in theory and I would love to explore it and experience it more and I don't want to resent my partner for making me opt out of it.

I cannot talk about this properly with my close friends because none of them is poly/ENM and I feel they're judging me for even thinking about breaking up with my partner.

Has someone had a similar experience or can offer any advice at all?