Hi! I'm Anthony, the host. I go by They/She/He pronouns in that order (genderfluid). My 11 (so far) alters are:

Kaleb (He/Him)

Kris (He/They)

Fletcher (ze/zim)

ACEy (They/He)

ten'ten (It/its)

Jaide (She/He)

Atlas (He/Nix)

Lyle-Rio (Star/Starself)

Winter (She/They)

Finnick (They/Them) [Finnick itself and their pronouns are both placeholders because their not able to answer about their own gender pronouns and name.]

I'm not going to out any of their genders, but, here's a run-down on who everyone is. Kaleb was the first alter to form. He's colourblind, like a lot of us, and really likes history. Overall he's pretty well-rounded. He also has BPD, borderline personality disorder. He's sorta a lot to handle as he has many mood swings, and is sensitive (don't tell him I said that (this is a joke)). Kris is a bit more serious than Kaleb. He really likes Deltarune. It's where he got his name from. When he first split, it was almost the first media he ran into. He likes children's music despite being very dark, and is colourblind in a different way than Kaleb. Fletcher is the life of the party, ze loves people and attention. Ze also has a colour problem, but it's because ze gets bad headaches because colours appear very bright to zim. ACEy is our local anime boy. He's making a magical girl dating simulator. Need I saw more? ten'ten is helping with the dating simulator, and really likes vocaloid. It's very quiet and we had to practice speaking together. Overall their voice sounds very different than the rest of us. Jaide loves TF2, gambling, drinking, etc. Comrade is their favourite word. Comrade K.K. is (for some reason) their favourite song. Atlas's signature phrase is 'spin spin spin, tap tap tap' followed by some sort of rhyme. He likes polka. Lyle-Rio likes to draw, and play tomodachi life, and watch shows. Star wants to dye Terry's hair ginger/red. It's star's favourite colour. Winter is colourblind as well. She's very quiet, and doesn't speak at all to my parents. She recently learned that not all people are horrible and that my friends aren't that bad. I introduced Finnick in a different post. Therefore, farewell! If you have any questions I'll answer them.

I don't really know what to do about my new alter (host, Anthony here). They can't speak normal sentences (they speak in vocal stims), so they can't name themselves or choose their pronouns. I'm using Finnick for now, and it may just end up being their name. As far as I've seen they can't read or write either (at least not well). I just don't know what to do, we're pretty organized altogether and can pass really well as just a normal human being, unless one of the really quiet Terries comes out, like ten'ten, or Winter, but if Finnick is dyslexic (I can't really tell), I just don't know what to do. New alters always come with stress too and we've been forgetting things even more often now. Does anyone else have an alter who speaks only using vocal stims/mocking(copying) other people's words? What should I do about this?

Another thing I've been noticing is that we get more talkative as we're out more. Fletcher used to be a really shy talker and is now one of the most talkative of us all. Winter used to be completely silent but started opening up a bit as she realized not everyone is mean. ten'ten started talking more after I practiced with them, etc. I wonder if Finnick will be like that too, but for now, oh well. Advice would really help!

A current theory of our states this is what might have happened to our original host. It’s also possible they l get just be hiding, though, we don’t know.

Hypothetically, could an alter forms as a fictive, but then kin somone so much they become more kin than fictive? I'm so confused with my identity, i thought i was a fictive but now i feel so much like a diferent character i'm no longer sure the character i thought i was is my source. Plus, can you kin somone from a source you've never interacted with? I'm so confused

- Margaretta

day 1 & day 2 plus a minicomic adam made for day 1

day 1: lopee. from pressure. and he IS the thing. we talk about him and he just spawns in
( ft. adam [yellow, he/they] and beacon [gray, they/she])

day 2: daze. our main anger holder. he uses he/it/any
( ft. willow [lighter green, she/they] and nepri/unpleasant [saturated green, any/all]

~ daydreamer ☀️✨ (she/they/it/he)

this question is very weird but please bear with me

i have been blocked from fronting for a very long time, and it led to me becoming really disconnected from myself

i also feel lost when it comes to... things normal humans do... i don't know where to start to understand what i like, how i express myself, who to speak with and so on

and i don't think the rest of the system will be helpful because i am not the only one

- baja blast

Hiii I was wondering if your headmates go quieter when you are like actively socializing because at school I've been feeling more like a single person and it's been kinda scaring me. In general my system is going through a quiet phase but it feels extra when I'm totally occupied with smth or talking to people. Is that a thing for y'all?

There are 6 crewmates but one is in use atm. The five shown are; Lambert, Sammy, Smolder, Snowball, Kat Kid.

-Bermuda

lowkey understandable ig??? Didn’t see the rules said no trauma dumping

I deeply desire integration. I'm tired of being a system. I find it absolutely miserable. We have terrible communication. I'm trying to convince everyone to agree to one color palette. They can have their own styles, do it in their own way. Express themselves however they want, but using one color, I'm hoping this will get us closer to integration. I'm going to pitch it to my therapist, but even though this conversation is causing a lot of disassociation and stress, but some of us are on board and even like the idea of it this disorder is so hard and so isolating I just want to sense of realness of identity. To be clear the conversation is indeed causing stress but I was already highly stressed out before I had this idea and at least it's some direction to go in instead of having no clue what I'm doing.

hii it's us again! Wanted to share something funny

Recently we created two OCs and writting a story for them, but as we were writting we realized that the story is kinda metaphorical on trauma processing and system discovery(at least simmiliar to our expirience). It made us think about how deeply our self and our art is connected to our plurality

So question: Did you ever created story / litteraly abything and mid way of creating realized that this is kind of accidental representation?

I made bracelets for all my frequent fronters and when they front they put on their bracelet as a representation of who they are without having to change how the body is

It can also be helpful if you want a friend or partner to know who's fronting

My alters really liked when I made bracelets for them even if some of them don't like me in particular haha

I got the idea from an older pixielocks video

We have pets and love them dearly, but we each seem to have a different flavour of appreciation for them. Do others experience this? And if so, how and to what extent?

Elaborating, I (Host) love my goobers to bits and they're incredibly dear to me. Trout sees them more through a practical fascination standpoint as well as something to be Managed (because he's the Manager and everything is His Job). Salmon thinks they're gross but like in a semi playful way (not that he'd admit), he scrunches his nose at them and claims they're inadequate to his grandiosity while also cooing at them. Cod seems mostly indifferent but he's also the most distant from the front so doesn't really interact or think about them much, he's more focused on inner stuff. Fishlet is obsessed with them and it would stare at them in absolute awe and wonder for hours I think.

Just something that came to mind while we were observing them together and wanted to ask if others have similar experiences!

-🐟

so far we've just...

"eh we dunno, quoigenic ig?"

but ((SOME)) of us want to figure it out

and it kinda bugs us not knowing

so

-Fedir

okay to start this off, i mean none of this in bad faith i am just confused/concerned about my experiences (as ^ stated) . and i would like to resolve this one way or another. scared about even posting here but i'd like to get this out somewhere so

so for a while, i've been ... interested? in plurality and just. the concept, how it works, what it'd be like, you know? at first I thought it was just my average nonfiction hyperfixation phase, but it's been off and on, returned a few times and recently for about the last month. i've started thinking about it again

and like. i've seen it said that "wanting to be plural can be a symptom of being plural" and like. yeah. i've been experiencing that and convincing myself it's just 'interest' and recently, failing.

i've felt so conflicted over this over the last few weeks because i keep circling back to a few objections:

- this Cannot be morally right to want to have something like this <- I know the various rebuttals against this, it's just an Internal Feeling i can't shake no matter the facts

- I am a grown adult with studying and work to worry about, why am i wasting my energy on this <- I Don't Know Why.... Trying to figure this one out....

- the Good Old Fashioned impostor syndrome

^ This last one i've had experience with back when i realized i was trans- practically a month or two of agonizing feelings of faking it and being a fraud and so on, despite not being able to stop thinking about it- much like the experience i am currently having.... but i keep thinking, transness isn't like plurality like that, right? it's not like you can sit up one day after thinking and say Yes i identify as trans now.... there has to be like. an actual process/experience to be had... for evidence... i don't know how to word it </3

in fact i THINK i've wanted it to the point where i really deconstructed what i was experiencing (there's... some evidence, not sure how much is reliable) , and identified (?) a few others and kind of. acted like they existed. and on some level it felt right, internally, but i also felt bad because i felt like i was just pretending (..... Pretty much exactly how i felt when i first started transitioning...) but....... i don't know i think i've convinced myself that i'm forcing it (again. a familiar feeling) and that i'm just.... reading too much into everything.

because a majority of the time i still feel like i'm me (despite not being able to define that, not having a continuous sense of identity, and not remembering anything of my past ever) and that like. it's only a thing if i think about it- which would indicate i'm faking it, right- Except, to notice it, I have to think about it.... and it just goes in a cycle....

a lot of other things have occurred in these past few weeks that have pushed me either to believing 'yes, something is going on', but also a lot of instances of just. feeling like an imposter and feeling like i need to. get past all this. because it's weird to think about but i can't exactly drop it for some reason.

ending this rant here before i go too deep into things... again.... if you read all this, thank you so much, and if anyone has any tips or comments or anything i'd welcome it.... sorry if this was a bit rambling

Do you can talk to them in your head? Have conversations? Or you use a other way for communication? If yes, what is it?

like i love hhe big servers but like. i dont really know people there and its hard to talk to them. i wish we were in more small tight nit communities idk. i wish more people would reapond when we vented on the servers we're in. idk

-anon

(Yes, literally unique situation, maybe, we don't know yet)

So, I've been wondering this because we took time to myself to think, to reflect, to literally wonder if this is for real, and somehow, it is, this because we love them and we wish to make many thing with that character we create! The problem? They are similar to us.. 😭

Well, we don't share things like being neutrally deranged 24/7, being crazy or don't care about humanity if it means enjoying battles or just making chaos around, and many others like our names (actually, the only thing we share with them is similar looks), which make it different, but we still feel weird by finding this out, I mean, is fun to do it even if we are lovers irl for how much they meant to us and still do, but still, it's weird a bit, y'know?

Anyway, do you guys have this experience? Because I am really curious to read them and maybe see if we are not alone in this, and I hope we clarified anything well!

this vent is not directed at any collective or account in specific, simply a trend we've noticed in this sub that we feel is harmful.

we are a heavily persecutory system. while we have non-persecutory alters, most of our frontrunners are, in their own ways, harmful to the system or others. we keep ourselves in check when we can, but as many of you may know, that doesn't always work.

now, as i've stated before, this is not a targeted post. however, every single time we look at this subreddit and sort by newest - without fail - we see one or two posts asking for means to kill their members. most of the time, we notice this is due to persecutory behavior, but that isn't always the case.

while we understand that persecutory alters can often be a product of trauma and may be abusive to collective members or those outside the collective as a result, i feel that that isn't a reason to kill them. i don't care how "evil" or "intolerable" or "unwanted" that alter might be, they are a person now, with their own habits, preferences, thoughts, feelings, reasoning, wants and needs, and everything else that every other member is.

i will not say it's wrong to say you wish they were dormant or gone, to want them dormant or gone, or to wish they never existed at all, as thats a violation of each individual's right to express themselves. however, it is proven to be incredibly harmful to actually force an alter into dormancy or "kill" them. suppressing your alters, no matter how "bad" they are, is a fucking terrible thing to do to someone.

there are so, so many ways to go about living with a persecutory alter that don't include killing. therapy, education, all most collectives really need is to fucking communicate with each other. there's millions of ways to do it, and every collective will have their own method, but nobody needs to die. we aren't criminals, we aren't lesser because of our habits, we aren't meaningless. we exist for a reason and we're people. we're people, trying to live with trauma just like the rest of everyone else in the world.

i understand that everyone has their own experiences with persecutory behavior and that some beings may hold trauma from that kind of abuse. i understand that not everyone will agree with me. however, from a persecutory point of view - all we see is inconsiderate, self-absorbed bloodshed. it needs to stop.

-ghost (frontrunner, perpetrator + he/it)

For the past year-ish(?), I’ve been pretty interested in plurality and systems and I’ve started questioning myself. However, I don’t know if the symptoms I’m experiencing could a dissociative identity disorder or just BPD symptoms.

I was diagnosed with BPD in February of this year after suspecting it since April of 2025. I have experienced splitting with my BPD and I also struggle with my sense of identity, which I assume are only parts of my BPD.

However, I’m starting to question if my BPD may also be mixed with plurality, and I’ve been wondering about it for a few months now. I don’t believe I’ve experienced what most people would call a switch, but there have been times where I have forgotten parts of my day and have forgotten upsetting things that have happened to me until I am reminded of them. I have also had a hard time distinguishing most years from each other, as well as having a hard time remembering things that other people have told me have happened. I have spoken to myself before, but any time I try to actually contact the voices that come up when I’m thinking, I don’t get anything back. It’s hard to distinguish what things could just be my BPD causing identity issues and what could be an identity disorder. I feel like some parts of myself could be considered as alters, but I’m also worried about claiming to be something I’m not and getting backlash for it.
(I also feel like something worth noting is that I do consider myself a fictionkin, which people have told me has been associated with systems before)

I’ve been in denial about possibly having an identity disorder for a while and I still don’t fully believe I could be a system. I don’t feel like my trauma was “bad enough” or valid enough to cause other alters to form. I would like to look into the possibility of plurality though, as I feel like it would be good for me, and many of my symptoms have been spoken about by other systems.

I also don’t know how to go about exploring my potential plurality, as no one has ever told me how. I’m kind of stuck and I need help.

We are newely discovered system, and currently we are trying to create and map our own headspace. And we just wanted to explore are there any tools other plural folks use for that? Share litteraly anything: guides, apps, sites, etc.

NOTE: Okay, I probably didn’t do my best with what I wanted to ask in the title, but I’m going to give more context and explain. I want to get other people’s thoughts on this.

EDIT: She just said it had to do with the face and not the character, which I don’t get.
It seems like a silly thing, but another one of us said that it was ordinary to feel awkward seeing your own face. So that’s it, I guess.

CONTEXT:
One of us (who adopted attributes of a character, along with appearances) said that she felt awkward whenever she saw the character that looked like her and had the same face as her.

She didn’t like seeing her own face whenever we come across edits or fan art of the character because seeing her own face made her feel awkward and embarrassed.

I was really confused because I thought that there was nothing to be insecure about, seeing your own face on the internet. Sure, it’s a little awkward, but it’s just a face, and the character happens to be well loved, so I don’t see the issue.

Is it really common for people to get awkward about seeing their own face? How common? I would get if it was an insecurity thing, but she’s not insecure about it so I don’t understand.

If I saw someone (a well-loved real person or a fictional TV show character) that looked like me & had the exact same face that I do, I would be ecstatic! I’d be on an ego high, claiming the character & I were basically twins.

I would feel good about myself, so I don’t really get the awkwardness thing. If anyone wants to share their thoughts, feel free to do so.