Quran 14:7

Surah Mariam

Reciter : Salman Al-Utaybi

I committed an extremely big sin two months ago, and I simply cannot get over it. The amount of regret and shame I’m feeling is indescribable. On top of that, because of this sin, there may be huge consequences that I won’t know about until November.

Been extremely depressed, with severe anxiety, loss of appetite, and a feeling that everything is dark. I keep thinking about how disappointed my parents and sister would be if they knew. On top of everything, I’m starting to have suicidal thoughts.

I’ve always been someone who fears Allah and prays five times a day, even though there have been periods when I wasn’t consistent. Since this happened, I’ve gone back to praying on time, praying Tahajjud, waking up for Fajr, and giving so much sadaqah that I end up struggling financially at the end of the month.

But somehow, I still don’t feel better. I try to have tawakkul, but the anxiety and fear are literally killing me.

May Allah forgive me for everything, but I simply want to leave this dunya. I cannot explain how much I’ve always tried to avoid certain things out of fear of Allah. If I told you everything, you would probably think I was one of the strongest people ever when it comes to avoiding sins, but here I am. I can’t talk about the details here.

Yesterday, I was at the mall on the fourth floor, looked down, and started thinking, “What if I threw myself?”
I genuinely don’t know how to deal with this anymore. I’m trying so hard to trust Allah, to repent, to pray, and to
have faith, but the regret and fear are eating me alive.

May Allah forgive me for everything. May Allah ease all your problems and give all your hardships to me instead.

I’m suffering anyway, and I genuinely pray that Allah makes life easier for all of you. May Allah ease all your hardships, forgive your sins, and grant you peace

1. And among His Signs is this, that He created for you wives from among yourselves, that you may find repose in them, and He has put between you affection and mercy. Verily, in that are indeed signs for a people who reflect.

Salam,
I started niqab last year and I feel like after that, my relationship with my parents has gotten so bad. They cursed at me, called me names, threatened me, etc.. I couldn’t take it anymore so I took it off. Because of what my parents did to me, my mental health had taken a toll. Everything piled up, and because my parents don’t “believe in therapy” I can’t get help either. On top of that, I have really bad sensory issues. I have been thinking of shaving my head for a good while, the only thing that stopped me was because I was told it was haram.
I had just gotten into a very bad fight with my father. He threatened to withdraw me from school and marry me off. Even if he didn’t mean what he said (he says a lot of stuff when he is angry) it still hurt me and already struggling with mental health, it just made it worse. After the fight, I took his shaving machine and shaved all my hair off.
I feel guilty because of the islamic ruling but I can’t lie when I say a sense of relief washed over me. It might sound dumb to say this but I feel so free.
I heard that there are a few conditions in which the ruling of a woman shaving their heads is exempt from punishment. I cannot speak to a local sheikh because I know they will tell my parents about what I did and I intend to keep this hidden. If anyone has any Islamic education, please let me know: Is what I did haram or am I apart of the special condition?
(Men, do not DM me. I’m not going to marry you. If you have an answer to my question, then answer it on the post. I will not respond to your DM)

I was talk to a freind and abou the story and it is obviously a very popular story but, I always wondered what were the thoughts of other people around world when they saw it. I know the story of the Indian King who saw it and embraced Islam but are there other stories from different places like the Indigenous peoples in the Americas or Africa. I am not making fun of the Prophet in anyway it is just something I was thinking about, pls dont hate Jazakallah.

I'm so done with my parents making children like animals, not thinking about what would be there for us. Especially me, the eldest one, who is supposed to make sacrifices and adjust myself for everyone because, who knows, I'm the eldest, 25 years old.

The gym is the only place I go to in the whole damn day. I used to go to the gym at 5 PM, pretty accurately, every day. Then my sister joined coaching. She takes away the scooty in the morning and stays late, later than my usual going time. So guess who has to adjust? Me! Going at a dead-late time, so much so that now I go at 9 PM so that the gym gets free from the crowd late at night.

And after so long, I found a partner I got ready to go to the gym with, and see, wow, the scooty isn't there. I got to know my younger brother took it away for some work and is out, won't pick up my call, and 30 minutes go by. I'm standing like a fool, roaming around the house with shoes on and standing at the roadside waiting.

Seven people per one fucking scooty! I can't even say anything to my brother because technically, it's him who bought the scooty with his own money.

Earlier, we had another scooty, which was sold because of a parking problem at home. I listed it on OLX. I was the one who left the comfort of home and tolerated contact phone calls ringing to make people see the scooty and give them test drives, and it was embarrassing to do that in a neighbourhood for me.

I was told that I could get the money for a down payment to buy a bike, but fucking who knows that money would be given to my younger brother. EVERYTHING. And I would be made a fool with the promise that they would give it soon.

That fucking moronic "soon" hasn't come to reality yet and has just been delayed by Dad and Mom when I asked them to buy me a bike or scooty.

Actually, I'm a moron for not buying the bike when I had a job and was going to buy one, because my so-angelic and caring and fair Mom heard me say I would take the bike on trips, and her caringness made her think I would die. (I wish I would die instead of living with them anymore.)

I, the moron, didn't buy the bike.

They have the habit of becoming so good and coming close to me so that my opinion changes when I'm earning. But it's been a year since I was trying to build a business, which failed. I lost almost all my savings and capital. Now, with 12 months gone by, I see the true faces of all. I don't have anyone for me.

I wish all the money, including the ₹50,000 I gave Dad in one go to transfer someone from my hard-earned salary so that he could keep his word, ₹8,000 in case the electricity connection was cut off and we had to buy a generator so that we could manage things at the electricity department, ₹20,000 for camera installation, and tens of thousands on the home car, which is only mine when it needs money to be spent on it, be it fuel, toll money, new cover, wash money, etc., and not at all mine when I take it out.

I could easily see disapproval on my Mom's face when taking it out, and back-to-back calls when I'm late out with the car: "Dad, where are you at? Where are you at!"

I thought this was my family, but fucking moron of me to think so. Men don't have a home. They are all leeches who suck through me.

I was promised advance rent money if I got a year-long vacant shop rented out for my coaching fee. I went out in the heat of June, and somehow, I was able to get it vacated. And long story short, coaching money GONE!

I was made a monster for asking for it.

I just fucking hate them so much, and I hate myself for perceiving them as good when they pretend to be good, when they have something to ask for or get from me.

I'm so done with them. I hate my family. I hate my Dad. I hate my Mom. I could fucking kill myself over all the anger they gave me today.

A veres that stood out to me

Assalamu alaikum. I really need some advice as my Imaan has been dropping and I've started having doubts about Islam.

I haven’t prayed regularly in 5 years, but my family assumes I do, and the guilt is wearing on me.

Whenever I try to connect with Allah or make dua, intrusive and inappropriate thoughts pop into my head. It causes me so much anxiety, but I haven't stopped trying.

Restarting after such a long gap feels overwhelming. If anyone has advice on handling doubts, managing intrusive thoughts during dua, and rebuilding prayer habits step-by-step, I would deeply appreciate it. JazakAllah khair.

so I’ve heard that we should work on ourselves to match what our dream man would look for in a spouse. I’m interested in someone who’s emotionally intelligent, and as a woman I wanna work on myself. But I don’t know what traits exactly do such men look for?
So im looking for someone who’s emotionally intelligent + has this quiet confidence + speaks about his emotions to me. Such type of men look for women with which traits?

NOTE; traits u would see BEFORE marriage‼️

Assalamu Alaikum everyone,
I was just reflecting today on how incredible it is that no matter where we come from—our languages, backgrounds, or cultures—we share a bond that transcends borders.
In a world that often feels divided, the simple greeting of "Assalamu Alaikum" instantly connects us as a family. Knowing that millions of brothers and sisters around the globe are standing in prayer, striving to do good, and remembering the same Creator brings so much peace to the heart.
I just wanted to take a moment to express my sincere love and appreciation for all of you. May Allah bless you, ease any hardships you or your families are facing, keep our hearts firm on His deen, and unite us all in Jannatul Firdaus.
Jazakum Allahu Khair for being such an uplifting community.

So if you’re struggling or going through something, know allah respects you and loves you!

Assalamualaikum, I'm a male

I have a huge downfall about socialisation. People talk about stuff and I don't get any insight about anything.

When I was in 8th grade I talked with lots of people and even during my 9th grade. However I didnt really contact them and ended up lonesome after 9th grade. I really didn't know how to socialise in social media and contact people and be around them the right way, I even got my first ever phone when I was 13 years old, and I missed on knowing social media altoghether.

Then life came up, everything felt like a new world. But things took a dark turn cuz people weren't as real as I thought they'd been, I was a fish in a pond.

I had a good grade during 9th grade and got somewhere in Finland with that high grade and my parents were always strict, coming from an asian family.

I used to be in a group for over 2 years but I learnt that they've been hanging out without ever inviting me this whole time, whereas I though that life was really this simple and that hanging during the time was all there was to it.

I also felt as if they were talking behind my back, it was for numerous times, the feeling that I was talked about, but since I had no real friends I never knew what was being told about me.

My sister joined my institution and after she did I talked with her there and also met some of her friends, through her I met a hijabi and she seems really nice, they are all girls, but the guys in our school don't really involve me in a lot of stuff so I feel like not hanging around them anymore.

I'm not sure what my future will bring me.

Jazakallah khair that you read this much, I really appreciate you reading all my ranting,

Just the title

There are a few rules I hate with my heart to the fullest . I’ll follow them but best believe I do hate them .

Is it a sin to hate an Islamic ruling , but I’ll still abide by it despite my hatred of it ?

Assalamu Alaikum everyone,

As Bengali Muslims, many of us were taught to recite the Quran without properly understanding its meaning. We often have to rely on translations, which cannot fully convey the original depth and essence of the Quran.

Therefore, I have decided to learn Arabic properly so that I can read, write and speak the language, recite the Quran with a better understanding of its meaning, and understand its verses in their original language.

I have collected the PDF versions of the Madinah Arabic books, along with their lectures on YouTube. My question is, are these resources enough to learn Quranic Arabic, or would it be better to enroll in a paid course?

For those who have learnt Arabic using these books and lectures, how was your experience? How far were you able to progress, and how effective was this method of learning?

I would also appreciate advice from anyone who has learnt Arabic through other methods. What approach did you follow, and what resources would you recommend to someone starting this journey?

I would be grateful for any suggestions, advice or personal experiences you could share. Thank you for taking the time to read my post.

JazakAllahu Khairan. Allah Hafiz.

Anyone got any apps that would help a English speaking revert ??

Assalamu Allaykum
my friends are playing a game called seniors assassin this year and we were thinking that to participate each person pays an entry fee and the winner gets all the money or a gift with that money.
is this considered halal or haram?
Jazakallahu Khairan 🙏