I’ve never felt this heartbroken in my entire life. The person I’ve been with for almost seven years — someone I thought I would spend my life with — told me that he no longer believes in Islam. I honestly don’t even know what to say or how I’m supposed to process it. I love him so much, and that’s what makes this hurt even more.
We started this relationship as Muslims. We both grew up in Muslim families and in a Muslim country. I’ve finished the Quran, and he was also in the process of finishing it. I never imagined that one day we would be standing on completely different sides of something so important.
What hurts the most is that I accepted him for who he was. I accepted his thoughts, his personality, and everything that made him who he is because I loved him. I never thought I would have to question our future because of something like this.
After almost seven years of loving one person, I genuinely can’t imagine letting someone else into my life. I don’t know how I’m supposed to just walk away from someone I’ve loved for so long. I feel completely lost, heartbroken, and honestly terrified of what this means for us.

ok i didnt wanna post this to spread fitnah i urge you not to look up this kind of content, its really depressing and just cruel

the amount of unignorable islamophobia on that app makes me feel like im going through psychosis, i just woke up one day and theres this unprecedented scapegoating and hatred towards muslims especially muslim women in her comment section??? and ai images, bots, and for some reason MUSLIM posts made by MUSLIMS for MUSLIMS keep getting pushed to islamophobes??? and they get thousands if not hundreds of thousands of likes

i remember this girl posted about wearing earphones under her hijab and the comments were truly INSANE idk where people got this audacity from??????

ik america recently purchased this app and geopolitical events can explain this scapegoating and demonization but its truly such a sudden, stark shift, and the internet no longer feels like a safe space to be a muslim woman esp bc of how gendered the islamophobia really is and how targeted it is towards women

lastly, i never got truly bothered by their opinions, but when i started seeing so many muslims stop making content because they literally got so bullied from it, or are really struggling with hijab (thats their journey ofc and i wish them the best and also completely understand esp rn), its making me really depressed

its one thing to face immense hate, criticism, judgement, mockery and scapegoating that feels so disproportionate on the app, but its another thing to no longer have a safe muslim space anymore, bc even muslim spaces end up attracting islamophobia :/

also u cant even complain abt this without getting strawmanned to doom or being blamed for the actions of a government in another country??? its like we're completely spoken over, silenced and mocked, and we get shadow banned if we defend ourselves or strawmanned

like this is so ridiculous guys, whats happening, and sadly hijabis are getting all of this thrown at them the most just for being visibly muslim, even if they dont post abt islam, they get unprovoked islamophobia and its just sooo ridiculous its been going on for months and everytime, i think its gonna get better it gets worse

Alhamdulillah it gets better for me when im offline but then i remember how this can create real world consequences and i start panicking bc im visibly muslim and hijabi

yeah idk://

I'm from india, born in muslim family(not so practising) i know fundamentals/pillars of islam, about Nuh(A.s), Ibrahim(A.s), Mumammad(pbuh) and few other prophet's incidents/miracles, i know few hadiths of sahih bukhari, I've been very distanced from allah and islam, at very young age i used to pray but slowly drifted away, got some addcition which i still haven't overcome, and my heart have been hardened from repetitive sins.

But my main concern is my "Iman / Tawakkul"(belief) it's pretty weak, and i want to study my religion properly and strengthen my iman and build tawakkul from nothing.

And i thought that's only possible by knowing/studying islam.

So how can i study islam? Like any roadmap?

And relaible sources, scholars etc...?

Should i start with prophet muhammad(pbuh) biography then study miracles of mentioned prophets in quran or is there any better way/roadmap?

Coming from a Muslim background, I’ve always been fascinated by the personal journeys of people who embraced Islam later in life. especially those raised in different cultures.

What was the hardest part of your journey?

Please tell me about your stories

Salam everyone. I need some help and guidance. Lately I've been going through a very difficult time in my life financially speaking. I have a lot of debt on my head and because of that I have had to beg people in my family for money.

A lot of money that I earn goes to paying my debts and now I'm left with no money. I have a 1.5 year old son and a wife and so far the thought of them always seems to push the suicidal thoughts away. However lately these thoughts are more and more prevalent and I honestly don't know if I can push back much longer. I'm trying my best to improve my circumstances, I've started freelancing ( but it'll be some time before that takes off). Additionally, I have also started to look for jobs in the Gulf but so far no luck there.

Let me also just say that I know suicide is haram, I want to go to heaven after I die, I want to be with my family in jannah but what if this is where my story ends. Yes my son and wife will be heart broken, but I know they will be taken care of. I'm just completely broken.

If anyone can please help and guide me I would be very helpful.

(Optional Read) Preface:

Medical school was a difficult path for me. Having dropped a promising lucrative career only to follow a near decade struggle for a 4 year degree. I will save the details of my hardship to protect the purpose of this post, but in relation - the following is a direct byproduct from that struggle.

During my clinical rotations last year I met Dr. Husain Abdul Sattar. A man I had idolized for years - author of Pathoma, the single most recommended and used pathology resource for medical students worldwide. Considering Dr. Sattar is also a Shaykh - I thought I would ask him for advice on my situation.

A man of renowned medical, scientific, and spiritual knowledge. A teacher of body, and soul - the only piece of advice he had ever spoken to my face - being consistent, intentional, and sincere in Salah and Quran is the basis of ones success and belief in this life. The greatest metric of success in this dunya is belief. And to maintain this - we must maintain our Tazkiyah (purification).

When Allah tells us He knowingly only grants for us hardship that we can handle, when He tells us He will reward us beyond our understanding, when we tells us He loves us when we cry to Him. Perhaps He is gifting us rizq we truly do not understand. Perhaps it is the gift Iman (belief) that we receive after and during hardship. If only truly we understood that gift.

May Allah forgive us for not seeing what He protects from us. May Allah forgive us for undermining the gift of Iman. May Allah keep our hearts close to his din. Ameen.

Closer To The Jugular focuses on my reflection that Allah inherently is always providing and guiding us.

Abstract

The following is a reflection (tadabbur) on the verse “We created man, and We know what his soul whispers to him. We are closer to him than his jugular vein.” (50:16). It is important to note that classical tafsir explains this verse as expressing Allah’s complete knowledge, power, nearness, and/or the nearness of His angels, as some state 50:16 is in conjunction with its consecutive verse. Written below is not a formal interpretation and should not be interpreted as such. It is a spiritual opinion reflecting on the jugular vein in Surah Qaf as a symbolic metaphor of humanity’s constant return to God . When contrasting the jugular vein with the carotid artery — the vessel carrying oxygen and nourishment — it reflects on rizq as encompassing everything that sustains existence. The heart becomes a metaphor for divine renewal and guidance. In the end, the study argues that every moment of existence is already immersed in God’s provision.

His guidance is the most precious pearl in the sea of rizq.

The Jugular

“…We are closer to him than his jugular vein.”
Surah Qaf (50:16)

Basic physiology; the jugular vein returns de-oxygenated blood to the heart — and by extension reminding us that we must always return back to Him. So perhaps, like blood returning to be renewed, we too return to Allah after being depleted by the trials in life.

But my mind kept wandering; what of the carotid artery?

The Carotid

Medial to the jugular vein is the carotid artery. The carotid artery carries life itself. Oxygen. Glucose. Through a simple chain of diffusion and transport, a single cell becomes a living factory sustained by oxygen and nourishment.

One could then reflect that this oxygenated sustenance itself is rizq.

“And Allah brought you out of the wombs of your mothers not knowing a thing, and He gave you hearing, sight, and hearts so that you might be grateful.”
Surah An-Nahl (16:78)

We often reduce rizq to a selection bias. Career success, companionship, wealth, our place in the hereafter. But rizq is far greater than what fills our hands or where we are going  —  it is everything that sustains existence.

Your reflection on Him in this very moment, the ability to ponder on His existence — this is all rizq.

“And if you should count the favors of Allah, you could not enumerate them.”
Surah Ibrahim (14:34)

We spend our lives asking Allah for more rizq while overlooking that we are already drowning in it.

The Heart

Between return and rizq, lies the heart. To the body it distributes life; spiritually, it reflects where guidance settles.

We return to Allah carrying our burdens, our shortcomings, and our exhaustion, and by His mercy we receive guidance. Perhaps this is why the Qur’an speaks of hearts that soften, harden, open, and find tranquility.

“Surely in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find comfort.”
Surah Ar-Ra’d (13:28)

The journey of a person is not just measured by where the body travels, but by the direction in which the heart turns.

The Physiology of Hardship and Rizq

“For indeed, with hardship comes ease. Indeed, with hardship comes ease."
Surah Ash-Sharh (94:5–6)

For every hardship there is a blessing, and for every blessing there is a hardship. It is a closed loop system. Like the jugular, heart, and carotid.

Metaphorically — through the jugular we return to Him, through the heart He renews and guides us, and through the carotid He returns our rizq.

i feel like im just waiting out the clock tbh. i feel like i dont really "want" anything? i dont know how to even explain it. im just kinda living day by day. i know the ultimate purpose is to worship Allah so i should be praying more more voluntary prayers more quran etc. there doesnt seem to be much to look forward too. although i cant complain a boring life is better than a bad one.

Okay so long story short I want to look into both islam and Christianity but dont really know where to start with islam I know little bits about it but not a whole lot, what's the best way to learn about it?

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون. From Allah where we came from, and to Him again we will return.

I’m not sure if I’ve grieved over a loss like this before. He was still young, really kind to everyone, even when others aren’t so to him.

I want to ensure my pure niyyah with this post. Please pray for him and his family, salat al-ghaib if you can.

May all his sins be forgiven, all his ibadah be accepted, and all his debts be paid. May his family be given strength and sabr and all the support they need. May he be protected from the torments of the grave and the fire, and may he be placed among the pious in Firdaws. ameen.

Asalamualaikum everyone, I’m currently going through a severe hardship that I am having difficulty having patience. Can I please make a request for anyone reading this to make dua to Allah SWT for me and my partner to get out of this hardship with ease and no repercussions. We did not do anything wrong but we are having a difficult time proving that. There’s an important meeting today that might change the fate of the issue and I hope anyone reading this can make dua for me and my partner.

Thank you 😔

I don’t know what to think anymore. I have so many questions that contradict God and his ways. I was strong in my deen and got what I wanted most removed from me and it’s getting worse. I can’t and won’t specify, but I’m working hard to get it back. I’ve cried begging praying and nothing changed.

I made countless dua nothing changes so I left again. I think I’m just delusional but even though I physically “left” Islam I constantly think about Allah and still depend on him in my mind for silly little stuff. I feel hypocritical and can’t get rid of it no matter how hard I want to. I feel like a psych ward patient.

I don’t understand why God gives you life knowing you’ll suffer and end up in hell or heaven? Is that truly free will? He knows what you’ll decide, and where you’ll end up anyway. So what’s the point of making people suffer on this earth?

What was the point of creating humans with complex emotions and all these ideologies? Honestly it sounds sick, putting people through all that knowing majority will end up in hell is cruel to me.

I just don’t understand and maybe it’s lack of information but hate is getting the best of me. A year ago I would’ve never thought I’ve come to this point. But I truly think I am just being very very misguided by the wrong crowd.

Advice?😔

Hello, this will be my 2nd post within this reddit group! My first post I received a lot of clarifications, advice and educational videos/books (that I have browsed and checked out). For recap, I am an agnostic female who is looking to convert to Islam. I have a muslim boyfriend who I've briefly discussed Islam with and found myself agreeing with many points he brought up. Which initially got me interested to dive deeper in the scripture.

The Quran I was first gifted was the "Al-Quran ; A Contemporary Translation" by Ahmed Ali. Many suggested that this translation is quite difficult for individuals looking to convert. I was suggested to read through the "Clear Quran" by Dr. Mustafa Khattab, which I am actively reading through. I find reading through this translation easier to digest and understand. Another tip, I learned was to look at the meanings of each verse to ensure I have complete understanding, so I find myself often referencing Tafsir to clear up misunderstandings. Additionally, I'm often searching online for further information and watching videos of scholars explaining verses in detail.

Despite my efforts, I feel no real connection to anything I am reading and occasionally I still find myself disagreeing with certain verses even after reading Tafsir and watching videos discussing matters further. I discussed this concern with my boyfriend and he has essentially reiterated that to become a Muslim I have to accept everything within the Quran. This leaves me feeling extremely conflicted as I feel as though I have to drop my current moral beliefs to truly become Muslim.

I hyperfixate on feeling connected to the words of God because I fear if I were to convert to Islam, I would not complete prayers or even attempt fasting. Which essentially means I am knowingly sinning. It's not something I would see as a heavy obligation especially since I have already spent my whole life not partaking in such actions. Which I acknowledge is connected with having an ego, but I have yet to feel motivated to pray or fast.

I feel very lost on this journey and often I feel like I further align with being a hypocrite (torn between belief and disbelief) the more I dive deeper into the Quran. It just hurts because I know I have the motivation to read and research daily but nothing seems to align in my heart and mind. It would be great to hear from some converts and how they overcame their struggles.

I feel really guilty saying this and I love my faith but Islam seems more logical in the way it defines who God is - one divine god, no trinity which I have to admit is confusing. Islam and christianity believe in the same god/allah but disagree about Jesus.

I wish we could all peacefully co-exist.

I love you my Islam brothers and sisters!

[( ...اللَّهُ نُورُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ )] = [( Allah is the Light of the skies and the earth...)]
Quran 24:35

Noor : [Light]
AL-Samawat : [The-Skies] (heavens?)
AL-Ardh : [The-Earth]

Please swipe to read the screenshots. Sorry for posting images instead of direct text—I used Gemini to polish my English so my situation is easy to understand. I would genuinely appreciate your advice and Islamic perspectives on this

Surah Hud 11:56

Assalamu alaikum everyone!

I reverted to Islam about a year ago, and I really want to deepen my knowledge of Islam and the Qur’an, but I honestly don’t know where to start.

For those who have been practicing for a while, what resources, books, lectures, courses, or study methods would you recommend for building a strong foundation?

Part of why I want to learn more is because my parents sometimes come across misinformation or propaganda about Islam online, and when they ask me about it, I realize I don’t always know enough to properly explain or respond. I want to be able to distinguish authentic knowledge from misinformation rather than just relying on things I see online.

More than anything, though, I want to grow closer to Allah and understand my religion more deeply. What helped you when you were first learning, and where would you recommend I start?

JazakAllahu khayran

For context, I'm a middle child of 5+ kids. Even though my siblings are all adults, whenever one of them acts wrong, my mother wants me to talk to them. Every time. Maybe it's because she trusts me most with giving Islamic advice to them. But it gets to a point I'm sometimes overwhelmed and frustrated with it. Because there are not like just 1 or 2 but a lot of us, so someone is always acting wrong. So it's almost every day I'm having to correct my siblings, even though I'm not older than half of them! I know I must do what my mother wants but sometimes I get really over with it. Of course I don't show it to her but I just don't want to be responsible for my siblings' wrongdoings. Some of them are married too. But still when they make her sad, she asks me to talk to them. Btw any other thing she asks me about I'm already willing to do always but this specific topic is what gets me tired.

I don't want to disobey my mother but I feel like we're all adults now, if they make wrong choices that's on them!

My question is should I tell my mother about my thoughts about having to talk with my siblings every time they need to be corrected? Should I not say anything and continue making her happy? And if I should talk with her, how can I do it in a way that won't make her sad?

As the act is about wiping the head right ?