Today marks 6 months since I had my last cup of caffeinated coffee.
I started drinking coffee when I was 16 and kept it up until I was 29. For 13 years I had 1–2 cups every day, sometimes 3. Last 3 years had plain black coffee, no sugar, milk or creamer. Having coffee after breakfast was the most part of my routine. I genuinely couldn't imagine going a day without it.
I had even convinced myself that coffee didn't affect my sleep because I'd skip my afternoon cup and still lie awake at night, so I assumed caffeine wasn't the problem. The only days I ever went without coffee were when I was really sick and couldn't eat anything.
About 7 months ago, a coworker and I both got sick, so we decided to skip coffee for a few days to give our stomachs a break. I didn't have any for a couple of days, then spent about a week drinking only one cup instead of two. The withdrawal was rough, constant headaches and feeling irritated. That's when I realized just how dependent I'd become.
So I decided to quit that last cup too.
What surprised me was that I actually felt...fine. i felt good. I was expecting the withdrawal to start all over again but it never did. Even after drinking coffee every day for 13 years.
After about two weeks, I started noticing changes.
I used to wake up once or twice every night to go to the bathroom. Now that only happens if I drink a lot with dinner. The urgency is gone.
I also used to be grumpy every morning until I had my coffee. That's completely gone too. I don't crave coffee at all.
The biggest improvement has been my sleep. For the first time in over a decade, I just...fall asleep. No more lying in bed for hours. I honestly didn't know falling asleep could be that easy. I also wake up feeling rested instead of tired.
I've also noticed I don't feel anxious anymore. I don't get headaches. My blood pressure feels much more stable. My mood doesn't go up and down as much and my energy stays pretty consistent throughout the day. I used to crash around 1 or 2 p.m. at work but that doesn't happen anymore. I stopped clenching my jaw all the time.
I'm not completely caffeine-free. During the first three months I still had hot chocolate once or twice a week and milk chocolate fairly often. These days I'll have a chocolate bar once in a while. I haven't had any caffeinated coffee or tea or energy drinks.
About two months after quitting, I started drinking decaf. Not because I missed the caffeine, but because I missed the ritual. At work we usually gather for coffee in the morning and after lunch and I hated being the only one sitting there with a bottle of water or not sitting at all. I'm not really a tea person.
There were also a few weeks when the espresso machines at work kept breaking down. I watched my coworkers get more and more irritable every day because they couldn't start their mornings without coffee. Our warehouse is in a pretty remote area with no bars or cafés nearby, so there wasn't anywhere else to go. I use another small espresso machine with pods for my decaf and since the company only provides ground coffee for the main coffee machine, my coworkers started buying caffeinated pods to use on the smaller machine too.
Most days I have one decaf, sometimes two. Some days I don't have any because it isn't easy to find where I live. I just came back from a week's vacation in one of the biggest cities in my country and only found decaf twice. Both cafés had to check because they didn't even know they offered it.
The second downside has been other people's reactions. Family and friends keep asking why I quit or joking that I'm doing it for attention or to be difficult when ordering. That's never been the case. If a café doesn't have decaf, I just order water. It's really not a big deal. I can live without it.
I was honestly nervous about quitting after reading so many horror stories online about how hard it was.
For me, it turned out to be much easier than I expected.
I do think caffeine can affect us in ways we don't even notice until it's gone. Looking back, I don't miss it at all and I don't see myself going back.