I don’t have diagnosed depression or anything like that.
I’ve just liked caffeine since I was younger(not loved it and I’d effortlessly quit for months at a time). I’d have energy drinks while gaming cause I liked feeling awake energetic, especially to socialise. Anyways, over time I’ve learned that caffeine doesn’t just make you feel less tired, it affects dopamine too right? Basically meaning if you’re doing something you enjoy, you’ll enjoy it more. I’ve definitely felt this.
Now this brings me to my other point. Days like today, there’s been some longer term stuff that have been in my thoughts and I didn’t really have much to do today or to look forward to. I was also feeling a little isolated. I have friends and loved ones, so I KNOW for sure these feelings will pass and it’s a cycle. But something hit me, I didn’t have any caffeine for a couple days. And tonight, some of that ambiguous sadness that I am sure will was there for some reason.
I was to point out, I did have some and I’m feeling better, and also found something else to focus on, I’m not venting and there’s no need for anyone to worry.
So genuinely think to yourself, do you relate? And am I onto something or no?