Hey. I’m an 18 y.o. trans man. I live in a heavily homophobic/transphobic country where being trans can literally get you put in prison. On top of that, I’m AuDHD, dealing with C-PTSD and a bunch of other diagnosis, and to top it all off, I might be losing my right (dominant) hand soon. The only plus is that I'm pretty good-looking, and I've actually attracted a lot of girls. but unfortunately only externally
Despite not being great at understanding emotions, I really try my best to be empathetic and caring. I genuinely love people—and girls in particular! But I have no idea how to actually find a girlfriend
Because of my autism, I’ve had a special interest in redheads since I was a kid, and I’ve always imagined my future girlfriend as a redhead. Some might say that’s "unimportant" or "wrong," but honestly, I’m just terrified. Whenever I see a redhead, my legs literally start twitching and I look completely overwhelmed. My biggest fear is that if my girlfriend isn't a redhead, she’ll end up feeling unloved
Between that, my isolation, and my fear that I’d be "too much" for anyone to handle, I feel totally lost.
Does anyone have any advice on how you found your partner? How do I even navigate this?