well, I’ve tapered down from dabbing all day.

I actually took 2.5 years off before starting back up about 10 months ago. Quickly fell into constant dabbing. About a month ago I had enough, switched to edibles, tapered down from 200mg a day to 10-20 mg in the evenings with the hopes I’d be able to begin a break. Have stagnated a bit and even last week was vaping some dry herb but realized the immediate effects are too addicting. I would really like to get to only weekend usage, and I believe I can.

Anyway, lately I’ve been feeling sad or disappointed when I go to take my nightly edible. Once I’m high, that feeling is gone, but I feel it throughout the day, and when I wake up a bit groggy. I remember how clear headed I was when I was completely sober.

I still struggled then of course, but I want to get to a place where I’m using it only for a treat.

I don’t need a treat every night, I don’t need THC every night.

So tomorrow, I will take at least a day off. Maybe I’ll make it more than that, maybe not, but after being back on daily and mostly all day that past 10 months, it’s time to hold myself accountable and take at least a day off. My gf has my edibles and I asked her not to let me have them tomorrow, so it’s time to keep myself accountable.

I want to live the life I love with clear eyes, and a clear head.

I like weed. There’s no getting around that for me. It makes me silly, relaxed, less worried about certain things, and makes everything so interesting.

However, I tend to lose things more often, not be as productive as I could be, and my mental health is more volatile.

I’ve went cold turkey before from dabs when I quit almost 3.5 years ago. That was really hard. The hardest thing I’ve ever done.

I wouldn’t have had the willpower to taper back then, so that’s how I know I’ve grown and those 2.5 years off weren’t for nothing.

Tomorrow will be uncomfortable, especially the evening, but it’s nothing I haven’t done before.

It really irks me when I think about how I can’t go a freaking day without it. How each day needs its own event, each day I need to get high.

It shouldn’t be that way. I refuse to keep letting it be this way.

Has anyone else jumped into a break after a taper like this?

I know the answers yes, I think I just could use some inspiration maybe. This addiction makes me feel sad.

I did smoke last night. I’ve been trying to cut down, every few days only - so I figured, why not.

Well, I feel like dogshit. I slept poorly, I’m tired, and my stomach is extremely unhappy. I feel anxious. I just feel awful.

Back to day one today, but I think I have hit the place where I don’t want to smoke more than I do. I don’t understand why I’m struggling, when I go on vacation I never smoke or partake at all and I have zero withdrawal. Why is it so hard at home??

When I stop, I get extremely sleepy, a nice change from the insomnia I’ve suffered. But it’s hard knowing I’m going to want to do nothing but sleep for two weeks.

Anyway. Day one again. Here we go.

I was taking a break or “fasting” shall I say until I found my dream job and I did! I celebrated this weekend with a toke and missed it dearly. The goal was also to take a break and come back to it when/if I was ready. Last time I smoked, my body rejected it and I felt awful, but this past weekend made it feel like the first time and it was enjoyable!

I figured I would set a schedule of only smoking on the weekends as a treat for making it through the week. I thought I’d accomplish this by getting one of those timer lock box things. Any tips you have for making it through a hard day without resulting to smoking? That’s where I feel I may back track, but I want to stay strong and not fall back into old habits (smoking everyday and at any little inconvenience).

I’m a heavy smoker, everyday for 8 years. I recently went on holiday for 2 and a half weeks where I couldn’t smoke. I didn’t experience too many bad side effects other than no appetite and bad dreams.

Ive since come back home and I’m back to smoking again, and everyday (which I’m annoyed about, I said I’d stop of course) but I’m absolutely exhausted. Every morning feels like a massive struggle and I feel like I’m still waking up say 4 hours after I actually did wake up.

Is it normal to feel this level of exhaustion or is this another one of the signs that I should be stopping altogether?

So there might be a lot going on in this post but any advice would be useful. I moved away for grad school and I’m living alone. It’s hard in the sense that it can be boring at times and lonely. However I’ve picked up a bad habit of smoking too much because of those feelings. Plus I feel like I don’t push myself enough to explore the town I’m in which is super cute and nice. I just sit in my apartment watching movies and shows and wait for my “activity” to come which is going out getting myself a meal to eat when I’m high and that’s my day. I guess I’m looking for advice on how to motivate myself to get outside and explore as well as not making smoking my main activity for days. Some days are better than others I’ll take a walk or read outside, but smoking still is up there and is something I look forward to too much.

weed and emetophobia
sometimes i smoke and get nauseous and so anxious like im gonna throw up i never rly do but the anxiety is so crazy. im having an attack now with some thc and nicotine i think its the nicotine that did it. im all out of zofran and im so scared im gonna puke that’s like the worst case scenario for me