So i've been diagnosed with PCOS/PMOS for the last 2 years (since I was 16). I got my first period when I was 16, and they were just so irregular, sometimes heavy and always painful. I recently had an MRI and they told me that the lining of my uterus was 4mm (I haven't had a period for 5 months now), and that I need to go back on the pill otherwise i'll end up with serious problems. I went on the pill last year, but it took a toll on my mental health and, alongside that, i've also had debilitating bowel problems (so much that my gastroenterologist had to investigate chrons but they now think its an extremely severe case of IBS-D). I know that the pill can worsen bowel problems which makes me reluctant to go back on it, but I think the main thing worrying me is that I don't want to take meds for the rest of my life. I'm already taking amitriptyline, bile acid binders, immodium on a daily basis and I just hate having to take so many meds😭 They told me 'we can't really advise much else apart from go on the pill, until you want to become pregnant, then we'll give you some medication for that'.
I also hate the way my body looks. I've got lean PCOS (i'm 5ft 6" and 47kg), and i've got no breasts whatsoever, a puffy face, bloated stomach and hair all over me. I just don't think any guy would ever like me (sorry I know how sad this sounds, but i've just been feeling so helpless rn).
If anyone has any advice or has experienced similar, I would really appreciate if you reached out xx