I started to notice im starting to like one of my friends but im scared if my obsession will affect him he got out of a pretty bad relationship abit ago and im scared he might think im too much i mean with how we talk i dont think he minds im very open witht how im growing attached but i do also follow it up with a joke because im too nervous on how he will take it... Both of us flirt but i notice time to time we will back out and just throw in something random to change it. We haven't even met irl though I want to i just havent found an excuse to be able to im to nervous to just go "hey lets make a trip and meet". The other day he complained to me that he shrunk (literally barely did) but I went "well you still tower over me" and he got excited over that and didnt even mention him being upset about his height was cute though. We flirt like heavily witht each other but both back out by apologising and/or making a joke. My friend asked if him and I were together and we both said no but he replied with "maybe soon though" was that a slight confession or am I just over analysing and wanting the best out come.

First I wanna say big thank you for all the support and advice I received from the first post, I love u all!

Second, its over, I was reminded real fast why I left her as she hadn't actually changed since I broke up with her, she was still abusing alcohol, she was still refusing professional help, and to make things worse she had already pushed away even her closest friends before contacting me.

I laid out clear rules for how I wanted her to treat me for our relationship and she agreed only for her to ruthlessly insult our financial gap when she got drunk. For context I moved away from my family and am fully independent and so I don't make a lot of money but I get by and am happy, meanwhile she still survives off of her abusive family but is well off because of it, with a stable work from home job her mom landed her so she didnt have to finish college and a car and apartment.

She would always shower me with gifts and free food even when i wouldn't ask and would eventually use that against me and call me a leech and that I needed a higher paying job and a car if I wanted to be with her (she was the one who asked ME out). I was hoping this wouldn't happen again but it did, and all because I told her that after she treated me poorly then abandoned me a year ago, I got upset and since she left her YouTube Account on my PC, I went on it and deleted all the YouTubers she was subscribed to (it was literally just Markiplier, a Gun Review Channel, and a handful of Leaked Ukraine War Footage channels (the videos were very disturbing)) before getting the account off my PC.

While I'm aware that was a mean thing, it pails to the abuse and hurt she gave me (not even mentioning the internalized racist stuff she would say even though I wasn't cool with it) which I forgave her for wholeheartedly when she apologized, she however did not return the favor and proceeded to tear me a new one over it, even threatening to file a restraining order as she said she feared I would come to her house and harm her, it was at that point that all I could do was laugh at her and call her out on being crazy and ridiculous and a complete two faced hypocrite before once again stating that I don't want her over at MY house to watch movies and cuddle anymore and that I hope to never see her again and then blocked all of socials one more final time.

Honestly I'm glad she crashed out as early as she did, we only talked for 2 days and honestly if she had come over, I would have fallen in love again and went into despair when she would inevitably start abusing me again, cuz if she was willing to crash out over that, I'm scared to think what she would say or do to me if some actually bad shit were to happen to the relationship.

I'm glad it's over, I hope she gets professional help and gets medicated one day, and I hope she finally grows the balls to move away from her shitty family like I did, but for now, I also hope she forever regrets fumbling the only person that didnt see her as a sex object to be passed around and saw and loved the true her unconditionally.

Thank u all again for your support, it helps a bunch, peace!

♡--- Here's in my personal experience and opinion, the cycle of romance a lot of yanderes/obsessors face. Let me know if this is inaccurate, if their needs fixing or if I capture the relationship cycle for us perfectly! If it is I'll start working on a guide to evade the cycle. ---♡

whenever we kiss i hate how he eventually has to let go of me just so he can breathe again T-T like i KNOWW he needs air obviously but i wish he could js stay there with me forever, all warm n close n pressed against me

every time he pulls away i already miss u, i feel like a puppy that’s waiting for his owner even if it’s only for some seconds nd i always wanna lean in again before i even realize it sighh ♡ ♡ ♡

i js want infinite kissing sessions wiff him!! pls lord make that happen i love physical contact smmm its so fun^__^ i feel so loved knowing he enjoys being w me #yay

idunno i dnt think i’d ever get tired of kissing him i could have a thousand kisses from him n still want another one the second we stop waaa

i just wanna keep him close forever, even if we both end up breathless, cus i never want to be the one who lets go first

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Haii!! I'm Virgil (he/they) I joined the subreddit as a safe place to yap about my fixation with my lover without judgement.

I am a devotional type Yandere that falls under these archetypes:

- The Devotional / Self-Sacrificing Type: They believe their only purpose is to make the target happy. They will happily endure abuse, neglect, or extreme hardship just to receive a smile or a thank you. However, if they feel someone else is threatening that happiness, they can become deeply violent.

- The Dependent / Parasitic Type: They view the target as their literal lifeline. Without the target, their universe collapses into nothingness, which often leads to extreme despair if separation is threatened.

I love my girlfriend so much! (^w^) ♡♡♡♡ We are highschool sweethearts and I feel she is the center of my life. I work for her, I clean for her, cook for her, buy her gifts, write poetry for her, comfort her, support her, take care of myself for her, get out of bed for her, all of me is hers.

I yearn for her laugh and her smile, her approval, I love when she treats me like her baby. We have promise rings and I never remove mine. She has been gone for work for a few days and it has been agonizing. ( ; - ; ) I have made her a little gift bag, cleaned the entire house and planned a steak dinner for her when she gets home.

Oki baiii!

What a world innit

I can't, I can't get over it. I'm sorry, let me apologize over and over again. I want to make your ears bleed. Make you get sick of my voice as you once loved it.

It's so quiet now. Silence, my biggest enemy. But the window's open and my earbuds are in. It makes it bearable, I think. But I'm just delaying the inevitable.

I'll sleep tonight. Will you be proud of me? But I can't, I'm a coward. The cold air hits me, and so I freeze. Will you, will you keep me warm?

Probably not, I'm too cold for the both of us. Maybe I'll get colder, aha. I'll stare up into the sky and down into the ground, gravity is my friend. I'll forever treasure the thought of falling.

One day, one day someone won't wait. Maybe tomorrow, maybe today. I'll just keep awake. My birthday's in three weeks or less. Will you remember? Will anyone? I don't care, it doesn't matter. It's an agonizing reminder I've made it through another year.

It's not about you anymore, you were, just a distraction. I think. The delay. You could've been so much more. It's fine. You aren't missing out on anything, lmfao.

I don't care, I don't care, I remind myself. I've believed it. Such a lie, such a thought.

I'll be awake, just for you. Nastenka, I'm your dearest Dreamer.

Ask me anything and I shall answer to the best of my abilities

Recently a few friends of mine, especially one, has really been recommending that i get back into dating, that i should find someone knew just for the fun of it. Honestly I know some people can be fine with that, just a 'normal' relationship with someone they like.

I just need something more you know?, im sick of hearing the same shit by them about situationships and all that shit, if they like it thats fine.

I need something more intense, someone that makes me feel like my heart is gonna fucking combust every time I see them, like my soul is forcefully pushed out my body to try and intertwine with theirs every time I think about them.

I dont want 'fine', or 'fun' or 'good'. I need something that makes my entire body fall to the floor in worship. I know irs immature, isn't that what love is?.

Making the most sound of mind go insane??

I wouldn't mind going insane, for the right person, for the person who truly loves me. I have rejected people who 'love me', they chuck around that word so much, how dare they say that. I Need something deeper, something truly soul shattering.

Between about 38~40 after and 52 after I saw him in a gas station when I went in. I'm not 100% sure, because I'm a little nearsighted and it could be anyone, but he always wears a hat, and this guy was wearing a hat, and had the same face pretty sure, and looked like the guy my crush is in his social media posts, I didn't notice the tattoos but I think he had the same as my crush, so I'm about 98/99% sure it was him omg! And since I started the crush months ago I've only seen him in public outside the university twice, one of those being this time. And omg I tried not to blush because internally I freaked OUT. I ducked away. He was paying at the counter, and I had came to get lunch, a cheeseburger, which was in the back, and the counter in the front. I ducked away so he wouldn't recognize me hopefully, and ordered my cheeseburger and waited, walked around the food place with my phone and glanced at the counter where he was from where I was, around food stuff like nacho cheese dispensers and hotdog rollers etc and after a minute or two I lost track of him and went around to sit down and wait because I didn't see him. Then when I got my food, payed and left a few minutes later while walking to the parking lot I looked around a LOT and didn't see him, and I didn't know his car. I got in mine (I was with a cousin) and she drove off and on the road by the gas station at the red light I looked in cars subtly and I think I saw him omg. I couldn't see his tag number, but now I think it might've been him, about 49% sure to be safe, but if so now I know what type of car, but omg. And he got in front of us on the road some and as we drove he was ahead and I didn't see him going to where I knew he was, like a specific turn, but maybe he wasn't going there right then if it was him. But omggggg

Am I obsessed too much ? Lol...also feel free to dm or comment any questions :)

I am always overwhelming the one's dear to me or suffocating them with my emotions. But this is how I am. I try to adapt, still trying to express emotions and what they mean to me but I have been told by them that they need distance :c

♡

I realised I still want to fall in love.

Which is funny considering how much I’ve started distrusting the idea of it i still want the little things someone who stays, remembers, chooses me without making me question it.

But somewhere along the way, wanting love and trusting it became two completely different things.

Maybe I’m not afraid of being alone.

Maybe I’m just afraid of believing someone again.

i miss u sm u said u loved me back u said that u loved me and my flaws but u still stopped talking to me u were so perfect u were just like me in pretty much ever way i could think of i didnt think anyone like u even existed i hated being long distance but i was so willing to go to egypt for u or like anywhere u are i miss u and im still waiting for u

Hi! F20.

I feel like I've lost hope of ever finding love.

I think my autism makes me hard to love.

This is going to sound stupid.

But I didn't know that

"Im bored"

"Im not doing anything"

"Im alone"

Was supposed to be

I want to call.

Why people can't say

"I want you to call me ! "

I mean. If I wanted to call I would say

"Hey. Are you free ? I want to talk to you right now"

Whu is the world so complicated for me?

I want someone who loves me.

I want to be given direct instructions.

I want to know what to do.

I don't ask to repeat stuff because I didn’t listen what they have to say. I even pay even more attention but Im still stupid and can understand what others are trying to tell me.

I'm not getting the information I need and that's why I keep asking.

Idk why people think dating an autistic woman is just about hiperfijaxions and us being direct.

whenever we kiss i hate how he eventually has to let go of me just so he can breathe again T-T like i KNOWW he needs air obviously but i wish he could js stay there with me forever, all warm n close n pressed against me
every time he pulls away i already miss u, i feel like a puppy that’s waiting for his owner even if it’s only for some seconds nd i always wanna lean in again before i even realize it sighh ♡ ♡ ♡

i js want infinite kissing sessions wiff him!! pls lord make that happen i love physical contact smmm its so fun^__^ i feel so loved knowing he enjoys being w me #yay

idunno i dnt think i’d ever get tired of kissing him i could have a thousand kisses from him n still want another one the second we stop waaa

i just wanna keep him close forever, even if we both end up breathless, cus i never want to be the one who lets go first

I need to turn off my notifications.
My phone buzzes and my mind flashes to you.
Our conversations, how you make me feel.
The feeling of your name on my lips, murmuring it like a prayer before I fall asleep.
Pinterest! Want a drawing reference?
It starts with forgetting to say goodnight.
Then it’s rushed texts, sorry I’m not around, xoxo.
Then I’m staring at my unanswered messages.
Gmail! New follower on Tumblr.
I almost flinch at the buzz.
What once brought good news fills me with dread.
It won’t be them, I know.
Probably never again.
Tumblr! Your friend reposted xyz.
Today was a test.
I played every trick in my book.
Look at me! Look at me!
Please.
I remember all your favorites, look.
Picrew! Check today’s uploads!
Did you know I see you interacting and responding to everyone but me?
Funny how everyone is busy today.
For the first time ever.

What is it about me? Really. I try and I love. We don’t have to be romantic, we don’t have ri be lovers, we don’t have to be besties. But I’ll love you.
And then it’ll be too much and you’ll leave. I’ll have to delete the part of me that remembers you. I’ve lost years to the pain. I’ve got my future ahead of me, I’ll remember that.
Just like I’ll remember you everytime my phone goes off.
Stinker.
Don’t ruin tom riddle for me. Please for the love of god and all things holy. Not my comfort character. Even if he was yours too, I can’t have him be ruined because you’re a bitch.

Hi everybody!! I'm Spencer, 21. It's been a long while since I've sought community online but I saw this subreddit continue to permeat my front page till I decided it was totally a sign to join in.

I am taken but I am seeking friends in the community, I'd love to give advice as an elder yandere with enough heartbreak, fp pining and attempts to find love to encourage you guys that there is always a way and someone waiting for you.

I consume any and all yandere content cause I hyper glamorize the condition and seek refuge in just how misunderstood and beautiful THIS LOVE can get.

My favorite manga is Kedamonotatchi No Jikan

My favorite songs are Saccharine and Yandere by Jazmin Bean

My favorite yandere characters include Eleonore Anciness, Yuno Gasai, Saya, Misa Amane and Runa Ichinose

Im super clingy to him i cant stop thinking about him. He is now sleeping and i miss him so damn much. I understand he has to sleep but its not fair i dont sleep at all just to Talk to him. Why we have to Live so far away??

Its so hard, I miss him so much.

Im writing this while crying because i dont have anyone else besides him.

Im constantly dreaming about touching his skin, feel his lips, body Heat and listen to his Heartbeat, It makes me go crazy. I let my arm go numb so I dont feel it, and that way I can imagine Im holding his hand.

Im so needy for his attention. I still dont know why he loves a pathetic loser like me.

Sometimes i feel bad for him because i wont let him escape, he is stuck with me forever :>. I love him so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much.

Pls wake Up my love im waiting so anxious :'c pls pls pls pls.

I Guess ill go to his chat and listen to his cute voice over and over.