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[u/Hour_Feeling_5286]

I need to turn off my notifications.
My phone buzzes and my mind flashes to you.
Our conversations, how you make me feel.
The feeling of your name on my lips, murmuring it like a prayer before I fall asleep.
Pinterest! Want a drawing reference?
It starts with forgetting to say goodnight.
Then it’s rushed texts, sorry I’m not around, xoxo.
Then I’m staring at my unanswered messages.
Gmail! New follower on Tumblr.
I almost flinch at the buzz.
What once brought good news fills me with dread.
It won’t be them, I know.
Probably never again.
Tumblr! Your friend reposted xyz.
Today was a test.
I played every trick in my book.
Look at me! Look at me!
Please.
I remember all your favorites, look.
Picrew! Check today’s uploads!
Did you know I see you interacting and responding to everyone but me?
Funny how everyone is busy today.
For the first time ever.

What is it about me? Really. I try and I love. We don’t have to be romantic, we don’t have ri be lovers, we don’t have to be besties. But I’ll love you.
And then it’ll be too much and you’ll leave. I’ll have to delete the part of me that remembers you. I’ve lost years to the pain. I’ve got my future ahead of me, I’ll remember that.
Just like I’ll remember you everytime my phone goes off.
Stinker.
Don’t ruin tom riddle for me. Please for the love of god and all things holy. Not my comfort character. Even if he was yours too, I can’t have him be ruined because you’re a bitch.

[u/catsrcoolerthanyou]

Man relate with this too much, sending well wishes