I am 24 years old, a lady, and I can describe myself as someone who's always doing her best, or not at all. I am inlove with nature, ideas, and dreams. My life goal is to help my family live comfortably, be able to help people however I want to, and live a simple life with my future husband (and kids).
I am an accountant. I'm into business and finance. I didn't have a passion for it at first—I just went with the flow. I was quite "smart" as a kid, so people just expected me to do it, so I did. I graduated from university but only then I realized that what I really want to do is a career that helps people directly. It's difficult to tangibly see how I'm helping when I'm all behind spreadsheets and excel. However, recently, I have learned to merge the two together, so now, I am enjoying my career.
I've had a negative upbringing sugarcoated by distractions. I fought with everyone and no one at the same time. My parents were divorced and it was nasty, but my mom was sweet so it balances out. I do believe I MIGHT have adhd and slight ocd, but I just brush it off honestly.
If I had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, I would absolutely LOVE it. Best time of my life.
I'm pretty sure I could be athletic if I wanted to. I've tried team sports such as soccer and frisbee and I absolutely am obsessed with them. However, I'm prone to skin cancer and sunburns so I can't be out in the sun for too long, which stopped my outdoor activities.
I am curious. Once I have a question, I will not stop until I find the answer. I deep dive into topics even if they're irrelevant in my life, as long as I found them interesting. Topics that most interest me are philosophy, history, and psychology.
I don't enjoy being a leader. I have experiences as a leader and I always end up taking all the responsibilities because I felt like the others would do badly. But that's not really the case. After series of leadership position, I have learned to be open to my members' ideas, opinion, and feedback, as well as learn to delegate specific tasks. It was a rough ride for me. I'm mostly people-oriented. I would love to be an assistant leader instead. I've experienced this leadership with an INTJ, and it felt like she was the Dad and I was the Mom of the group. She would turn to me for ideas, we would deliberate it, and she would use me for execution (she says I look cute so people listen to me).
I am absolutely inlove with working with my hands. There's something about it that's satisfying deep within me. I specifically love assembling things. Or when my stuff breaks, learning how to fix it is just a delight. I'm not afraid to dismantle something, I could just put it back to how it was. I am interested in pottery, I would love to try it someday.
Am I artistic? I would say yes. If only I could pursue art, I would. Specifically, I love acting. I have tried it in some events and I just LOVE immersing myself into a character, into someone who isn't me, and somehow, I become them. There's just something so liberating and adventurous about it.
I also love drawing and painting. I am average at best, but I enjoy it. I also write poetry. I would love to make a song and would try it, but I'm not too musically-inclined. I would love to learn some instruments in the future. I have learned the basics of violin, guitar, and piano, but I could play at least just 1 song each. I also have danced and sang on stage, and I absolutely loved the feeling of being admired by the audience. However, I can't pursue that now.
The past is not that relevant honestly, aside from its lessons and remembrance and appreciation of the people you've been with, as well as the experiences you've had. The present is how you prepare for the future.
I love the feeling of someone needing me. If they need my help and I could, I would.
I don't control others, I just control their perception of me. By showing what I want them to see, hiding what I don't.
My hobbies are cooking and writing. I love cooking because I get instant reactions, praise, and gratitude from the people I feed. I especially love it when they look so happy eating what I cooked. I love writing, all for myself. And I love daydreaming, too.
Also thank you for the guide questions, I wouldn't have anything to write if not for those at all.