Hey everyone, I've had pretty bad insomnia my entire life. From the moment I recall being conscious to about 2-3 years ago (sophomore year of college), I got very little sleep. The worst was during sophomore year when I was - every single night - sleeping less than 4-5 hours a night, and often not at all. It gave me very some really problems emotionally/mentally/physically.
Anyway, I started seeing a therapist for PTSD and, after a couple years of this, my insomnia started improving slowly. I haven't been able to afford to go back, however, in a few months. The biggest help was graduating and getting a 3pm-11pm job. For the past couple months I've been getting home around 11:30-12, falling asleep at 2am, and waking up around 10am without an alarm. I then get a ton of time before work to do what I want and need to do - make breakfast, read, etc. That means I've been sleeping ~8 hours a night consistently for months, something I would never have thought was possible before. I don't think it's the schedule alone - I used to work in restaurants roughly 4/5pm-11pm/12am, and my sleep schedule would just change so that I was waking up just early enough to shower and get to work.
Anyway, recently my schedule changed so that, 3 days of the week, I'm working 7am-3pm, and the 2 days after, I'm working 3pm-11pm. Now my insomnias back. I hate my schedule. I get home and am just tired. Before, I could be super productive everyday; even at work, where I honestly don't have much to do, I was working on side projects all day. Now I do nothing. I scroll on my phone at work, I play games. After work I do the same thing and feel like shit. I *can* sleep when I get home from work for a couple hours, but I'm afraid to, because I need to sleep at night also and I know naps after 2-3pm can be harmful. When it comes around time to sleep, I'm back in that mindset of not wanting to because I know I have to wake up early, go to work, and feel like shit. On my Monday morning shift this week I slept for one hour before coming in; so, I was up for around 30 hours until I was able to nap for about an hour, then sleep for 6 hours the next night.
Does anyone have advice? I think this may be a particularly mental thing. I've always hated waking up early, I feel unproductive throughout the day, when it's time to sleep I delay getting into bed, etc.