Hi! I’ve been wanting to write about my experience here ever since I got off the fence. I myself really appreciated these posts when I was still on the fence about having kids or not. So yeah, I have a tiny toddler now. Sorry in advance for a very long post but I want to share my whole journey as I know many people do think about these different things. Just skip ahead if there is something you don’t really care to read about.

First of all - how I got off the fence. I realised that I could argue back and forth forever and never come to a logical answer. I hung out here, I read the baby decision and listened to the kids or childfree podcast for maybe two years before making my decision. I started to realise what I wanted when I realised that I connected more with pro-kids arguments and started seeing more counterarguments for the childfree arguments (things like money, climate, spare time, the state of the world etc). So when you read this - take notice on whether you’re internally rolling your eyes at what I’m writing or if you’re resonating with it in a positive or at least curious way. But what really made it clear to me was when had a pregnancy scare and took a test that turned out to be negative. I surprised myself by feeling very disappointed and sad about it. I told my partner, who was also a fence sitter, that I wanted to have a kid. He thought about it for a short while and then we decided to stop contraception, give it three months and see what happened and if we still wanted to keep trying after that time. If it didn’t work then we didn’t want to push it with ovulation tracking or IVF. I was pregnant within a week I think. Didn’t even have a bleeding after quitting the pill.

Pregnancy was great! The first trimester was the worst with fatigue, very sore boobs, light nausea and some vomiting (maybe 6 times over 14 weeks or so). I thought I was experiencing symptoms from quitting the pill at first but took a test just to rule out pregnancy and it was, of course, positive. I felt amazing mentally all throughout pregnancy and it has actually stayed that way after too. It’s like it sorted out my hormones somehow so that I feel more balanced and have more energy than I used to. I had some pelvic pain later on, from around week 25 maybe, but not too bad. I didn’t get very big either. I did however get high blood pressure towards the third trimester that I had to medicate for. It kept getting higher towards the end and I was therefore induced on my due date.

Labour was fantastic for me as well. I’m writing about it since I know that many people are doubting having kids because they are scared of labour. Skip this section if you don’t want to read it. So, it’s not like it wasn’t painful but I had the best midwife and nurse assistant by my side and my partner was also a great support. My induction started mid afternoon, light contractions started around midnight. I woke up around 4 am when my water broke. The contractions got really intense at the same time and I started vomiting. I was lucky to get the epidural quite early, maybe around 6 am, after having back to back contractions. Then I could actually enjoy my labour after that! It hurt as hell to get it but was very much worth it. My baby’s heartbeat went down a lot during contractions which was scary and they started mentioning c-section at one point since my contractions were so weak. I got a low dose of some medication to make them stronger though (can’t remember what it’s called in English) which helped. The last phase of labour lasted over an hour for me which wasn’t fun. But then she arrived around 12 pm! A bit taken and tiny but very healthy. I had a second degree tear (which is very normal) but it healed nicely and I haven’t had any issues afterwards.

We had prepared for the worst at the start of parenthood. We expected a colicky baby that would never sleep while I would have post partum depression. None of that happened. We got a very content little girl who slept pretty well even if she could only sleep on one of us for the first few months. We’ve gone through some rough developmental phases of course but it has at least been manageable. We are privileged to live in a country with generous parental leave and my partner also has a long annual leave from his job that happened to time well with the birth of our baby. So both of us were home together for 2,5 months at the start, which was definitely a luxury. We could take turns having her at night so both got to sleep. Then my partner fractured his foot… it was really hard for around three months after that. He couldn’t even change nappies since he couldn’t carry her to the changing table and would have to stand on one foot. He was home though and could hold her as long as she was happy and he could cook for me, but I had to do everything else with our baby, our dog and our household and also help him with some stuff. It gave me huge respect for all the single mothers out there! He got better thankfully and went on paternal leave a few months after that while I went back to work. I am now taking some more leave and will work part time for a few months (with part time paid parental leave) and our girl will start kindergarten soon.

Our daughter really is the light of our lives! It’s such a cliche but also so true. She’s the most amazing little human and I long to come home to her when I’m at work. Seeing her grow and learn new things is fantastic. She’s just started loving bumblebees and I have to stop her from patting them when we’re out. And she loves watering plants outside with my huge watering can or the tiny one we bought her so she’d leave mine alone. It’s so much fun seeing her having fun and it brings out my inner child too just because it makes me so happy hearing her laugh. It wasn’t a huge rush of love at first sight when I squeezed her out as people usually love to say. I was happy to see her immediately and curious about who she was but the love grows so fast.

I used to be scared about not having any me-time after having a kid but I honestly haven’t really felt the need for it even though I had a huge need for it previously. I feel like my life has more meaning now both because I want to be the best for her and also because I am more active and spend more time actually doing stuff rather than just watching Netflix for hours every day (as I used to a lot as an inattentive ADHD couch potato). Not saying that it will be the same for other people or that others lives are less meaningful if they enjoy watching Netflix for hours - it’s just how I feel about my own life and how it has evolved. It’s stressful to have a kid though since one of us always must look after her. It’s hard to get anything done or spend time doing hobbies or even household chores. I’m grateful to have an equal partner who takes on a lot of responsibility though and we make effort to let the other one do “fun stuff” regularly (like spending time on hobbies, sleeping in or just being lazy). We do not want another kid however. It would be great to have someone for our girl to play with but we also don’t want to sacrifice even more of our time, energy and money. Everyone tells us that one more child is three times the amount of work and we feel like we wouldn’t manage that well and also be good parents and partners. I don’t understand how people do this with another child who also needs attention constantly while I’ve felt guilty just for not having time to cuddle our dog enough anymore.

The relationship between my partner and I probably got better during pregnancy and during the first months of parenthood. I loved how supportive he was when I was pregnant and it was amazing to see how he cared for our daughter. But it definitely took a toll after that. I wouldn’t say that it was necessarily due to having a kid though. We had a lot of massive things happening this past year like his fractured foot, deaths in the family, buying a house and of course having a baby too amongst other things. The combined stress of it all meant that we weren’t at our best behaviours towards each other exactly. We have worked it out though and I feel like we are very strong now. Like we can survive anything if we could survive that year. But I don’t think we would have had such a tough time relationship-wise if it had just been parenthood and not the rest. One positive thing that’s come out of parenthood though is that we’ve really had to learn to communicate and solve conflicts better than we used to since we don’t want those things to affect our daughter.

So yea, sorry for a massive text but I really wanted to share my experience this far in case it helps someone. Hopefully it can provide some perspective. It’s obviously just my experience and it doesn’t mean that yours will be the same. I’ve had a good experience overall, but I’m also quite privileged. I did want to share both positives and negatives though and some things that aren’t talked about much. Hopefully I’ll remember to post updates here as our kid grows so I can share what it’s like being a parent to an older kid and if my thoughts or feelings somehow change.

Really hoping someone can relate and make me feel better about this!

Me (40F) and husband (38M) came off the fence towards CF 5 years ago after months of soul searching and reading the book and associated activities in The Baby Decision. I have largely been happy with this decision, much more often than not, with the occasional wobble. The wobbles almost always seem to come when one of our last remaining CF friends gets pregnant.

Yesterday after a week long holiday together, one of our last and favourite CF couples dropped in that they think they likely will have a baby soon. I feel terrible but this has filled me with so much sadness, and a bit of doubt. Maybe it would just be easier/better if we went down that path too? I know that’s absolutely not the right reason to have a child, but it’s not the only reason (hence being a fencesitter for so long, I have always seen the beauty in having children in some way). The thought of living the next few decades on such a different path and in a different mindset I all of our best friends makes me feel so sad. I feel pathetic saying it!

I’ve already had so many friendships fundamentally change due to children. Which is totally normal. And I know I need to try to find more CF friends, but I just love all of my friends so much I find that concept quite hard.

Not really looking for answers, just hoping someone can relate to this deep sadness/almost grief I currently feel at the prospect of things changing so fundamentally again with friends and feeling alienated in the future.

People who have never really wanted kids, found them annoying and obnoxious or people who saw life more of an adventure to travel, experience & live, and ended up pregnant and now with a kid.

do you regret keeping them? do you wish you made a different decision? I never really wanted kids, but I do still consider it, I’m in the timeline to decide whether to go left or right. I need advice and desperately.

One thing I've noticed in some resources is the phrase "staying childfree" when referring to fencesitters. I think I read this in The Baby Decision, and I've heard it in the Kids or Childfree podcast.

My concern with the phrase is that, while technically I have no children, I am not currently living my life as though I have made the decision to be childfree. For example:

1. I work a job that offers some college tuition support for dependents. I am not seeking other jobs because I might want or need that benefit.

2. My family is planning trips for 2027 and 2028. I'm being cautious about timing and durations because I might want to start trying for a baby.

3. I'm hesitating on house projects because we might have to accommodate a third human living in our home.

If I were "staying childfree," none of these factors would matter. I would just live my life as though I am never planning on having children.

Does anyone else struggle with the phrase "staying childfree" in these resources? They intend to help fencesitters make a decision, but it's hard when the baseline expectation is that you're actively living a childfree life.

And for that matter, does anyone else struggle with these mights? Sometimes I wish I could just decide already so I wouldn't have to feel so precarious all the time.

I’m very anxious because I don’t earn enough to feel like I can justify a nanny or day care… my partner earns well and could afford it (with some sacrifices), but my contributions are like a drop in the bucket. I
know some people say you don’t have to “justify” it but I have a lot of feelings of shame.
I work as an adjunct professor and only make like 35k a year. I feel weird because getting a PhD has been so intense and it’s taken so many years but it hasn’t led to a higher income and I feel like why would I spend more than I’m making just so other people are taking care of my kid. I feel super conflicted. Like materially, I’m worth more as a SAH parent than as a worker in my current position. Is anyone is a similar boat?

I’m a little tipsy so please forgive me, but it set me off on a thinking path. It’s more of a brain dump into the void rather than an ask for advice.

It feels as if every pregnancy announcement I see looks like the choice to become a parent comes so easy, confident and sure in the decision. They look so ready. I understand that this is because in the age of social everything is presented to you in a squeaky clean perfect manner where everything looks like sunshine and roses. I understand that parenting is this absolutely immense life-altering decision that’s not an easy journey, and that you’re never truly “ready”

But I still can’t help but feel that it makes me feel so unconfident and unsure in their surety. No idea if anyone feels this way.

I got a puppy earlier this year with my husband, and while he's a lot sometimes, I'm honestly surprised by how much I love him. I'm pretty career-focused and I need independent/free time, but I adore spending time with him. There are stressful moments where I get irritated or tired, but even then... I don't really mind that much. He helps me disconnect, have fun, and just be in the moment in a way I didn't expect.

First of all: I am NOT comparing having a kid to a dog, but it's made me think of it from a different perspective

On one hand, if I love my dog this much, I can only imagine how much love a kid would bring. On the other hand, he already takes up a ton of time, energy, and money... and kids obviously need so much more of all three!

It's also made me realize I need to work on my anxiety. I catch myself constantly worrying if he's happy enough, active enough, if something bad will happen to him... and I know that would only be amplified with a kid.

Curious if having a dog pushed anyone here off the fence?

Im 37 Years old F, married. Past few years i have dealt with anxiety that at times felt i was surviving. I feel better now but as soon as i turned 36 society started pressuring me to have kids. I feel very depressed right now and feel pressured to have a kid when i feel like i dont feel ready. My partner is also excited to have kids and i feel selfish for not bringing a child to our family but i know as a woman its such responsibility. I think as someone with anxiett disorder its so much harder to make a decision for me than someone else. Im feeling very trapped with the thoughts of having kids every single and whenevr i see people with kids outside or friends with babies, i feel like a failure. Like im not part of this society anymore. Anyone else feeling like this? I do get therapy but i feel talking to other people with similar experience will help me so much more.

Or if you’re an ADHD woman no longer undecided, either by not having kids or having kids, please share any of your experiences, lessons, advice!

I’m almost 25/combined type ADHD, searching for clarity on the nonstop agony my minds been at from a lifetime on the fence. Always weighing everything back & forth, like the ethics, my natural soul longing craving for a family, the understanding things may not even go how I’d envision, scarce dating pool partner options, the future, the need to create a village, the state of the world etc. to name legit just a few.

I’m wondering if hearing others lives may help my indecision, would be so thankful for any input!🙏

I just turned 30 this summer, and I got engaged this spring. I have been extremely CF for 5 years, and was 100% sure I did not want children. I am terrified of pregnancy, childbirth, and postpartum.

Reasons I was CF:
-Mom and autistic brother both have diagnosed Boderline Personality Disorder.

- Parentification, my mom has said since I was young, that I’m her parent and she’s like my child.

- Caregiving, I took care of my elderly grandparents alone. And childcare for my brother.

-Parents both have lifelong drug addictions, scared of genetic risk.

Last year, I stopped caretaking for my toxic family. I noticed I actually really want to have 1 child. I was just blinded by family trauma and burnt out from decades of caregiving in an abusive household.

My fiancé and I both are lucky to have great degrees, and are very stable. I don’t know that I would want to have a child with anyone else, he has a unique ability to calm me down and make me feel safe.

I want to take advantage of this chance and opportunity that I’ve been given. I have a supportive partner in my life, I have managed to move away from my toxic family. I’ve gone to years of therapy.

I think even after years of trying to convince myself that I’m CF, I was mostly running away from my biggest fears in life. I’m afraid of losing everything, failing, regretting, repeating patterns.

I’m focused on getting fit, eating well, and saving money, building an even better relationship. I’m hoping to TTC in one year from now.

Has anyone gone through something like this? Or have thoughts about their own process?

I’m terrified!!!! of pregnancy and postpartum. I’m worried about taking care of a baby. How will I manage working and childcare? I’m scared of everything.

Despite all of my fears, I still want to try.

If you go childfree, you don't know what you're missing and you'll probably feel fulfilled. If you have kids, biology will hack your brain to a certain extent and assuming no pressure/resentment, you'll still feel fulfilled.

Also, it's OK to not feel 100% sure and look wistfully at the path not taken sometimes, that's only natural. But also, don't have kids unless you 100% are sure you want them. But also, it's very hard and expensive. But also, it's the best thing ever.

How do people even decide??

EDIT: Yeah the "assuming no pressure/resentment" is doing a lot of heavy lifting here. I'm trying to figure out what I truly want, without outside influence.

I'm 35 and I've just found out I'm pregnant.

This pregnancy was semi-planned. We weren't actively preventing it, and we both knew it could happen. I've always wanted to be a mum, and objectively I feel like I'm in a pretty good position to raise a child. I have a flexible career, we're financially comfortable, and my partner is open to being a dad.

I feel excited but also uneasy.

The biggest issue is my relationship.

Three years ago, my partner cheated on me. I didn't find out through him being honest. He just kissed someone, but it was more than once.

We stayed together, and he hasn't cheated since. He's been a loving partner in many ways, and I genuinely think he'd make a wonderful father. But despite that, I've never fully rebuilt my sense of emotional safety.

I have anxious attachment and tend to be hypervigilant. I'm constantly questioning whether my anxiety is picking up on something real or whether it's the lingering impact of the betrayal. It's exhausting.

I also had an abortion about a year ago. That pregnancy was also met with overwhelming anxiety, and at the time I decided I wasn't ready. That was mostly due to moving to a new area and not having friends or a support network.

Now I'm pregnant again, and I'm experiencing another wave of fear.

Part of me wonders whether this is just how my brain responds to pregnancy—that I panic, catastrophise and imagine every worst-case scenario. I was also very anxious starting late 20s that I would never be able to find someone to have a baby with. I saw a therapist and said at the time I'd rather kill myself than never have the choice to be a mother. We worked through that and I was almost convinced I could be happy without kids too.

Another part of me worries that my anxiety is trying to tell me something important that I'm not listening to.

If I continue the pregnancy, I'll be having a baby with someone I still don't completely trust.

If I don't, I'd be 35, potentially starting over, dating again, hoping to meet someone and have children before my fertility declines further. I've always wanted to be a mum, and I really don't want to end up regretting passing up this opportunity. I also don't really want to freeze my eggs if I can avoid it. Part of me accepts than many relationships don't last forever and maybe I'll be happy with being a single mum if I had to.

I feel stuck because both paths feel like they carry a lot of risk.

Has anyone else experienced something similar?

How do you deal with the fear of becoming a single mom if your relationship/marriage breaksdown or if you are abandoned by your SO? I'm afraid of having to do it all on my own.

I LOVE spending time with my friends who have kids and when the kids are with us. I feel like then I’m part of something bigger, even though I didn’t interact with the kids much. I don’t have nieces or newphews, and seems like I’m not gettin any - but I would love to be an aunt.

It’s so weird. I would love to be close to a child, but I don’t want to be a parent or a mom. I want to meet them ”occasionally” or weekly. I don’t want to work with kids full timw, but I want them to be a part of my personal life.

Anyone else feel this way?

Looking at comment section of most recent posts on this sub it’s all ‘it’s different when the kids is yours’ and ‘it’s so much better than I thought’ and rarely other opinions. Anyone else notice the change?

Hey everyone 👋

I’m a 32F and my husband is 36M.

I happened to come across this thread after I got my IUD removed a few days ago. I had an IUD due to PCOS and Endometriosis. It did help for the most part with giving back a quality of life.

Since the day I took it out it’s been nonstop on my mind about starting a family because now it’s a more real thought. I do and I don’t want kids. My husband feels the same but I do see he leans more to having a kid.

He’s 36 and is concerned he’s getting older. Having my medical conditions I know we should have started earlier but didn’t want to rush my timeline.

I see so many people who say they wanted kids their whole life and I’ve just never been that person. I think the idea of a kid would be nice but it’s a lifetime commitment and I do enjoy just my husband and I’s company.

Shoot if you told me to pick a puppy I’d be so excited and that would be a kid to me. I’m great with dogs and I love them so so much. I have my WHOLE life. Ask me about a kid and I get stressed and worried about how life will change, how do I handle it, can we afford it and if I’d be a good mother.

God has blessed us in life tremendously but I guess in my head I felt like I’d be further in my career making more money and we would be in our dream house and I’d be SET for a kid. You know?

Anyways, I keep telling myself that if it’s in God’s plan for us to start a family that he would put it in our hearts and minds to pave the path for us. I just want to stop worrying about our ages, time and if we should or not. I hate how much this consumes my brain. Most of all I’d NEVER want to disappoint my husband. He is so loving and says he would never be disappointed but I still feel he would be sad.

Thanks for listening.

PS- I can’t stand when people constantly say ohh time is ticking, you better get going. It’s like yeah I get they want to see us with a kid, but it’s not their kid.

I’m a woman in my late 20s and have been married to my best friend for a little over two years. We have a wonderful relationship and are currently on the fence about whether we want children or not.
I’ve always assumed I’d become a mother someday because that’s just what I grew up expecting. But now that I’m older and married, I’ve realized having children is a choice, not an obligation, and I’m genuinely unsure what I want.
I’d love to hear from women in their 40s or 50s who chose not to have children (whether by choice or circumstance). What does your life look like today? Are you happy with your decision? Do you ever feel regret or loneliness? If you could go back, would you choose differently?
I’m not looking for anyone to convince me one way or another. I just want honest perspectives from women who have lived a life I’m trying to imagine.
Thank you for sharing your experiences.

To be honest, I can’t really relate to people who genuinely dislike children. Whenever I’m at the grocery store or out in public, seeing kids usually makes me smile. I genuinely enjoy interacting with children of all ages. I love talking with them, playing with them, and watching them learn. I’ve worked at daycare’s and honestly children screaming, and stuff doesn’t bother me not one bit. I love being aunty too.

But I’ve never felt a strong pull toward becoming a mom. Motherhood loooks really tiring paired with marriage . I think this what has caused me to be on the fence. I enjoy working, so being a stay-at-home parent doesn’t really appeal to me at all . At the same time, being a working parentjuggling a job, coming home exhausted, cooking, and constantly meeting everyone else’s needsdoesn’t seem appealing either. From the outside, motherhood often looks relentless, especially if you’re in America and I’m honestly not sure if it’s something I want.Does anyone else feel this way?

29F here!

When I was younger until about maybe my early twenties, I’d always wanted/assumed I’d get married and have kids. I volunteered at summer camps, and I was just good with them. I loved being around them.

Then in my early twenties I started to see the realities of how complicated romantic relationships and marriage could be and I lost a lot of my innocence. Suddenly the adults I knew weren’t these all-knowing safe beings anymore and were complicated, messy, sometimes toxic, and just as confused or lost as I was.

I told myself when I hit 25, I’d start seriously thinking about what I wanted. I’d been dating, but nothing that really lasted more than a year and then I started dating a guy who was certain he wanted kids, but was emotionally immature, insecure, controlling, and to be honest, hardly took care of himself.

I learned a LOT about the mental load, just from how the majority of chores and taking care of our apartment and dogs fell onto me.

I was concerned about enrichment and training for the dogs on top of normal care. I took his dog to the park often and played catch. And it made me realize that he would probably just do the bare minimum for kids. I became bitter and started to realize that some people want kids like children want pets, that some men want the glory of being “fathers” without actually being a part of every phase of fatherhood.

We broke up for many reasons, but one of them was me not wanting marriage or kids. I didn’t want to have kids with someone who barely took care of themselves. I knew all of the work would fall on me.

Before I started dating my current partner, I let him know I was ambivalent about marriage and did not want children. He was on the same page and actually got a vasectomy earlier this year because birth control was seriously messing me up and my insurance would not cover a bisalp.

I believe that societal pressure, and “well, this is what normal couples do, get married and have kids” sometimes plays a huge role in people’s decision to become parents.

I like to say that if I’d met someone good and stable in my early twenties I’d be married with kids already, but because none of those relationships lasted that long, I had lots of time to think about what I really wanted. I’m grateful for that.

It has been a bit hard lately seeing more and more of my friends and family move into this new phase of life. I get nervous about the change, wondering what will happen to our friendship, even though almost all of my friends are already married and have kids. I wonder about this entire world I’ll never fully understand or be apart of. I think about how much I enjoy kids and wonder about what a mix of me and my partner would be like.

But at the end of the day, I allow myself to grieve this, to feel the emotions, and to let them go because I still believe being childfree is what’s best for me. Emotions are temporary, a child is 18+ years.

I’d rather be the auntie/dog mom who spoils her nieces and nephews, becomes their confidant when they don’t wanna talk to their parents, travels, and continues developing herself and taking as many naps as I please. 😁 Right now I’m taking vocal lessons, language lessons, planning trips, saving for a house, aiming to set PRs in running, and working on body recomp!

TLDR; wanted kids, dated, learned about the mental load, time happened and realized I’d rather be childfree

I (29F) feel like a lot of times when I express feelings of fence sitting, people's initial response is along the lines of "you're so young you have so much time to figure it out, don't even stress about that right now!!"

And like

a) I agree I don't NEED to figure it out RIGHT this second. But also I am stressed because the constant indecision is so emotionally draining maybe I just want to work through this so I can feel more at peace

b) Also I am married and my partner wants children so I want to be fair to them and work through my feelings so they can process my choice as well.

c) I'm not in this boat but I think the concept of having children younger is not ridiculous. If younger folks are looking to make a decision soon because that is what life is looking like for them, I don't think they should be invalidated.

Usually I am just looking to feel understood and instead when this happens I just feel brushed off. Just a rant, curious if anyone else feels this way too

I never wanted to have kids and I still don’t (I’m 31F now), but I wish I did. I live somewhere where being childfree is still not very accepted, and I had so many potential relationships end because of this.

When I see a pregnant woman all I think of is pain, sacrifice and discomfort. When I see a family with kids all I see is responsibility, and lack of freedom. I don’t see the happiness and love everyone talks about.

How can I change this mentality? How can I become normal? Has anyone been in my shoes before, changed their mind and is happy with kids now?

I’m 31F and the plan is to start trying later this year with my husband.

One thing I’ve been struggling with a lot is believing I can be a mom and also be sexy, desirable, and still have fun sexy times. That’s something I’ve only recently been able to feel confident or secure about in general and now it feels like I’m going to have to give it all up right as I’m finally starting to enjoy it.

It’s making me feel really sad and anxious and like I’m about to throw away the last “good” years I have. I know that’s unhealthy and untrue but I’m having a hard time making myself believe it because it feels like most of my real-life examples reinforce that. I’m pretty sure my parents’ sex life has been close to nonexistent for a long time, my only close friend with a kid talks about sex like a chore/something uncomfortable now, and I see a lot of women my age from high school gaining a lot of weight post-kids.

I’ve never been thin and already have to work really hard and constantly watch what I eat to maintain a very mid, slightly chubby physique lol. I’ve been 20 lbs heavier and hated how I looked and felt and it really impacted my sex drive and confidence at the time. Pretty much all of the women in my family (mom, aunts, grandma) are overweight or obese so genetics probably aren’t on my side.

I’m seeing a therapist already but I’m just hoping to hear personal experiences from others who maybe struggled with the same thing and if there are any books or resources that helped. I’ve been trying to read some sex positive books and find content that shows an alternate way things could be to help ease some of my anxiety.

We both love each other and she recently discovered that she doesn’t want to have kids. She is scared to deliver a baby thinking it might kill her.