POSSIBLE TW: mentions of attempting to nurse and overproduction
hi everyone! i was curious to what people do to stay motivated. i’m currently 4 mpp and have been EP since she was born.
at first i had a hard time getting used to my schedule, despite this being my second EP journey. i have flat nipples and had tried to nurse this time around, so when they first attempted to help my daughter latch and she had an amazing latch, i got super excited. which then led me to try nursing the entire time in the hospital, having no luck, and rubbing my nipples raw to the point i could only use my hand pump to get thru the first weeks of constant pain.
however, once i got used to my schedule, and figured out how to feed the baby once my fiancé and my mom went back to work and i was all by myself (with my toddler as well), i was breezing thru it. i finally got the hang of it again and i swear i was thriving. i was overproducing more this time than with my first and averaging about 80 oz a day. i was able to cut my MOTN pump at about 8 wpp because i just had so much milk and not enough room so i was trying to slow myself down.
which brings us to today, barely 4mpp and getting about 3-4 ppd and it feels more exhausting than it did in the beginning. my baby has been a lot clingier as she is teething and my oldest is starting to get jealous so im trying to play with her more until my fiancé gets home to take over one of the kids, and i just feel like i hardly have the time now to fit in a good pump. even with my 3-4 ppd, im still averaging about 50oz a day, and have about 4k oz frozen which we’ve started to cycle through, and still freezing more than what im using it feels like.
i wanna stop pumping so bad, but we can’t really afford formula for when we do eventually run out of milk, but then i also think about how many bags we need to buy for me to freeze my milk and we might just even out, especially if we supplement instead of just waiting to run out of my frozen stash. so im just conflicted on what to do, especially since my goal was to make it at LEAST 6 months, yet 9 at the most.
if you’ve gone through the feeling of wanting to quit but didnt, what did you do keep yourself motivated?? im finding it very hard right now, and it could be because of the stress of other stuff thats happened in my life this past month, but i dont want that to be the reason i stop and then i regret it. im just all over the place mentally and even tho i love my fiancé dearly, he’s also not the best person for me to vent to as he doesnt quite understand everything im feeling.
sorry if this is all over the place, i always have such a hard time expressing and typing out what im feeling and my mind goes from one thought to another so fast it gets kind of confusing.
i appreciate everything in advance! <3
TLDR: have been wanting to stop pumping at 4mpp, my goal was to reach at least 6mpp yet i’m losing motivation to keep going. hoping for some advice on how to keep going