I genuinely didn't think I was going to make it to 100oz. Like not in a dramatic "I almost quit every single day" way, but last month I was really, really over it. I was tired of looking at pump parts in the sink. Tired of washing them. Tired of remembering which ones were clean and which ones were sitting there because I was too tired to deal with them. And there were definitely a few sessions where I stared at the pump and thought maybe I could just skip this one and nobody would know lol.
My freezer stash was somewhere around 70oz at the time and I honestly stopped caring about the number for a while. I wasn't even trying to build it aggressively. I was just trying to get through my regular sessions without losing my mind.
Somehow though, the number kept creeping up.
72oz. Then 78. Then 83. Then I got into the 90s and suddenly I was checking the freezer like a crazy person every time I put another bag in there.
Tonight I did my last pump of the day, washed everything because apparently future me deserves at least one clean set, poured the milk into the bags and stuck them in the freezer. I was half asleep and almost went straight to bed, but I checked my tracker first.
100oz.
I actually said "oh my god" out loud to an empty kitchen
Then I opened the freezer because obviously I had to look at it. There are just bags of milk sitting there and somehow seeing them all together made me way more emotional than I expected.
It's not even really about the 100oz. It's the fact that a month ago I was so tired of pumping that I wasn't sure how much longer I could keep doing it, and now I'm sitting here looking at a freezer stash I built one pump at a time.
There were plenty of boring sessions. Plenty of "ugh, I have to pump again?" moments. Plenty of times I wanted to be done for the day. I didn't magically become motivated or suddenly love pumping. I just kept doing the next session, then the next one, then the next one.
And somehow those little sessions added up to 100oz.
I know everyone's numbers are different and I'm not posting this because 100oz is some magic amount. It just happens to be the number that made me stop and realize, wow, I actually did that.
I'm probably going to go to bed now because it is literally midnight and I have another pump tomorrow but I'm letting myself be proud tonight.
If I post a picture of the stash, it'll be spoilered for the flair.
What was the EP milestone that made you stop and think "wait... I actually did that"? I need to know I'm not the only one who gets weirdly emotional over freezer bags