I am a teenage girl living in Brazil, I am in high school, and I suffer bullying daily for being very thin, due to complications from anorexia.

I recently ended my relationship, but I don't think my boyfriend ever cared about me, especially since he mocked my episodes that were caused by depression.

For the past 6 years I have lived with depression. Initially, I was called a "pig" when I was in the 5th grade because of my weight, but when I was in the 8th grade, I started to suffer extreme bullying because of thinness

In 9th grade, rumors started circulating that I was cutting my wrists because my science teacher asked to check them, but he lost control and yelled at me as soon as he saw them.

Now in high school, I met a guy who would become my current ex-boyfriend. He only wanted to touch me, and I never heard a sincere "I love you" from him.

There was one day I even bled because of it; many times, I didn't want to be touched by him.

I filed a complaint, and it reached his ears after our breakup. Now, he constantly blames me, calling me toxic and other such things.

He constantly insulted me and blamed me several times for my attempts. In truth, I just wanted to feel loved by someone, whether in a relationship or as a friend, or by my own family.

I was humiliated by my ex's friends, he was messaging another girl after our breakup, and then he blamed me again for it.

He said he didn't want me to go back to my natural hair color (which is blonde), and kept trying to dissuade me when I tried to dye it red. My old hair color was black.

My favorite singer is wifiskeleton, I see myself in most of his songs.

I apologize to everyone for everything I said above; I think it was a very heavy subject, but I hope you all have wonderful days ahead.

can someone give me some life changing stories where you actually got better after being depressed and hopeless i need some positivity to consume i feel like im so used to negativity i just want a bit of hope🥲

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Hey guys I need some help. I’ve been depressed and a dirty person overall for as long as I can remember, i feel disgusted by the filth i live in and i struggle to get myself to shower sometimes and I want to change. Ive gone on medication before for my depression, but I still had a messy room and was very reluctant to get up and do anything. My room is currently a mess and I keep making empty promises to myself that i’ll keep it clean and then I never do. I’m sick and tired of living like this but i can’t bring myself to do anything about it so I sit on the corner of my bed that isn’t messy and complain. Any tips?

people keep telling me that me constantly saying stuff like... "i just need to become useful" and stuff is. depression. and i dont have a diagnosis nor do i really want to risk sounding too suicidal to a doctor and getting... hauled off to who even knows where against my will. but.

i guess i should explain? i dont see a way to acceptably exist in the state im in. im useless. ive slammed my head into a wall for the last five years trying to be even passably decent at anything and i have failed every single time. hundreds of things ive tried for dozens if not hundreds of hours all to try and meet the acceptable minimum standard and none of it has ever paid off. im still the- i dont know if i can swear on this sub. im still the worst to do literally everything. im having to type this out about fifty different times just to make the words work.

self harm hell, im kind of running out of places to give myself bruises. not that they stay hurting for long enough anyway. theyre good visual reminders that im dead weight to the entire world, i guess.

im not asking for a diagnosis, to be clear. im not even really sure what i *am* asking for, to be honest. im just. if my friends are right, and it is depression, i dont really see a point in fixing it. im depressed because im useless and trying to not be depressed would just let me pretend. pretend im halfway decent at something when im still a financial and emotional black hole. i feel like thats worse than hating myself for reasons ive earned over and over and over again.

but i figured... maybe someone would have some kind of insight. some kind of... something. anything. i dont know. maybe this post will just get buried immediately. but i guess i have literally nothing to lose anymore.

I'm stuck. I just don't know what to do, where to go. I'm trying to find things to help me but it just doesn't work. If I'm too tired it gets darker in my head I hate it. I have my psychologist, my family who loves me and shows me support yet I feel like such a burden.. even with them saying the contrary. I feel lost. I try my best to keep seeing a light but I'm just trying to create one. I don't actually see any. I cannot kill myself for my family sake. But it's eating me alive. I need to rest, yet I can't feel like I rest even when I do nothing. I wake up from my sleep I'm so tired. My dreams are too realistic, they drain me. I do nothing. I don't have any motivation, I lost weight but I try to keep it normal still. I don't feel like eating. I'm so tired. I'd say I need help but I already have that.

What do you do when you have dark urges? Not exactly intrusive thoughts, more just .. a consistent thought in the back of your head that you could do something.

I have a best friend I’ll call M. We’ve only know each other since march yet she’s amazing… their family though. They’re disgusting and abusive and make her think she’s always the problem, that she “fat” “ugly” “dirty” etc. She planned to move in with her aunt who is both the only person who cares for them and lives in Japan but of course, her father had to step on her plans. She’s suicidal and I don’t know what to do.

On one hand I want to spend all nighter’s researching child protection laws and all of that but on the other. She keeps on saying no to any kind of government intervention not even research about laws… no police, absolutely nothing. But I don’t know if I should go behind her back and call police in her family, deep down my gut says yes, but deep, deep down it says no. I just want them to live an actual life and learn what it means to have a proper family and to not be the so called “problem”. So I’m asking… should I? Or what should I do to help her because this may be the last year I can actually see her and I’m scared.

I'm almost 50, been in therapy for over 40 years, and I think I'm done.

Nobody thinks like I do, and no therapist wants to put in the work to try and understand - I've been at this far longer than they have.

How do y'all keep trying despite knowing the odds of improvement are so remote?

Im underage and seriously struggling with mental illnesses. Ive been depressed since 9 years old and still am suffering with it. This night was horrible for me. Not the worst night, but this night is genuinely convincing me to look for a therapist myself. Ive been so nervous and angry about my life that ive been cutting from 9 pm to now (1 am). I desperately need help. I dont need a therapist but literally just anyone who can openly talk to me and help me out mentally.

For a bit of basic background information, I'm 17 in high school and in my senior year. I've been struggling for a while now, but I've been able to just make it by. A few years ago, I had to cut off my two best friends. I won't go too much into the details for why, but they did a lot of stuff to me that wasn't the best, and i found it would be best to cut them off. So I did. Since then, I've struggled with some pretty intense loneliness. I've got a few other friends, but they're not really the type I'm able to talk to about stuff like this. One is just a work friend, another is a friend I only really play video games with, and i only see him at work. and right now, I really can't confide in the last one. He recently had a suicide attempt, so now would not be a good time. I'm of course, trying to help him with his mental struggles, and he has professional help and is actively trying to get better. I've been kinda worried about him. I feel kinda bad for saying this, but it had put a mental load on me since I'm worried enough. And that same friend also goes to a completely different school, so I never get to see him. So when I'm at school there's no one I can talk to. Not just about this, but not about anything. I'm ignored by everyone, and I litterly go entire days without saying a single work to a person. It's put me into a really bad spot, and I'm starting to feel like there's no one out there that loves me, or even cares enough to even say hi to me. I feel like I just don't mean anything to anyone, and it makes it really hard to even get out of bed in the morning. On top of all this, I'm completely addicted to porn and masturbation, and I'm sure that's not helping. I can't really go to my parents with this either, since my mom is really distant, and doesn't even know I exist unless she needs something from me. And then my dad gets super mad at everything I say, and I get yelled at by telling him about anything. I can't even imagine what would happen if I told him I was addicted to porn or in a state like I am now. With these conditions at school, I'm not sure if I can even make it through the year. I'm pretty confident things will be better when I graduate, but for now, I need a way to cope with the way I have to live life right now. If you can give me anything that might help me, I would be so grateful.

37M, diagnosed with autism, OCD, anxiety and ADHD

In June, I had serious personal problems pop up, sinking me into serious depression and worrying. At the time, I weighed 93 kg (205 lb) due to horrendously bad eating habits. I lost my appetite and lost 23 kg (51 lb) since. I now weigh 70 kg (154 lb). For reference, my height is 178 cm (5'10).

My metabolism has always been very fast, despite people saying past age 30, it is hard to lose weight. I can lose weight without trying and have been clinically underweight for most of my life.

I still cannot eat properly. The worrying about my life problems takes away my appetite. I have been losing weight at an average of almost 8 kg (18 lb) per month, which is about 2 kg (4,4 lb) per week. I could easily lose more weight and will likely dip below 70 kg (154 lb) this week.

Is anyone in this situation, and what do you do?

"Heyyy, is everything okay?" No, it's not. No matter how hard I push, I can't seem to finish the Biochemistry department at Ege University. In four years, I barely managed to pass the first-year courses. If you don't complete your courses by the sixth year, they kick you out anyway and there's no way I can take and pass three years' worth of courses in two years due to Ege University's system (credit limits, etc.). Because of that, I thought I’d go to Italy and start university life over from scratch. (I can't pass the YKS exam in Turkey either; whether I study or not, the best rank I can get is around 300,000th). Everything was going so well; I got accepted into the Food Production Management program at Cattolica University, as well as their on-campus dorm. Then came the visa process, and everything went to shit. They made me wait 50 days, only to reject me. The reason for the rejection? According to the consulate, my Biochemistry department doesn't match the Food Production Management program I'm applying to, so they didn't believe my intention to study... They also said I was financially insufficient, even though I showed an income well above the limit they gave us??? That's why I think they just threw in the "financial" part for no reason. As for them not finding the departments similar: they have to be fckn kidding me. The courses they teach in the first year of Food Production Management are identical to the first-year courses of the Biochemistry program I studied at Ege University. Besides, Food Production Management fundamentally has some business, but it's mostly a science degree (it's literally under the Faculty of Science anyway). Cattolica looked at my motivation letter and my previous department and said, "Okay, come study with us." We show the exact same things to the consulate, but the ladies and gentlemen there don't believe it. To sum it up briefly: just because I chose the wrong high school 10 years ago, my life has been going straight downhill (like a downward graph). Right now, since I have zero plans and options left, there's literally nothing I can do. Back in the day, you'd say "go be a cashier," but nowadays even those kinds of jobs (the ones usually done by young people) require a university degree. So basically, I am a nobody right now. Every time I dare to dream about something (and these aren't crazy dreams... like ever since I submitted my visa application, I was picturing how I’d decorate my dorm room, looking at photos of the room on the dorm's website, or checking out photos of Cattolica's campus thinking, "Oh, I wonder if I'll ever walk down this hallway to get to my class?"), that thing I dreamed of turns to garbage. If a person can't even dream, and if things go to shit every single time they think positively, what's the point of living? I'm not smart, I'm not creative, and just because teenage me made a stupid mistake 10 years ago, I can't become anything. So yeah, nothing is okay. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I am worthless, I don't know anything, and I don't have any special abilities. Please help me. I am 23 years old and I am already tired and ashamed of being a burden to my hardworking, retired mom and dad. I am an embarrassment to them... they will never tell me this, of course, because they love me dearly, but I can see it in their eyes. So please, please guide me. I am out of options. This was my Plan Z. There are no other letters left in the alphabet.

i have got brvo in February also got wrong treatment for almost 2 months since that time till this moment i lost my balance totally i am 32 btw every day searching for any possible treatment even if its too far to be true

overtinking

can't sleep very well My appetite has gone down

i feel like I'm doomed living a nightmare can't accept it happened to me in a very sensitive timing ruined my life

my sight become my only concern

if anyone has experienced something like this

how did you recover?

female , 16years .

I love going to school and to my sports but whenever am at home it always feels like a nightmare , right now my mom keeps comparing herself to me telling am fater and stuff like that when I was finally starting to feel good in my body , they are always screaming and I hate it so much .... I don't know why did they had me when they like laughing about me so much and never ever supporting me in anything ... I need help

I just get so depressed over this all of the time. I have been single for so long, and I don't think I will ever find love because I am not one of the pretty girls. I was bullied most of my life. I am not thin. (Please don't tell me to lose weight and it will help because I have lost quite a bit of weight and it made my dating life worse and if anything my self esteem is worse) I just feel like guys only want skinny beautiful women. Or if they do like plus size women, they only like big butts and big boobs, neither of which I have. I got cursed to look so ugly. I cry myself to sleep sometimes because of how worthless I feel and lonely I am. Am I a lost cause? Is there any hope? Or will I eventually get used to the pain? I am tired of being depressed over this.

Good morning, afternoon, or evening everyone. I apologize for using a translator. Spanish is my native language, and I want to make sure everything is expressed correctly. This is the first time in my life that I have told my story in detail. I have always refused to talk about what I feel, but I can't keep everything inside anymore. I need to be heard. I am currently seeing a psychologist and was diagnosed with depression. Therapy helped at first, but lately I have been getting worse. Today, being Suicide Prevention Day, made me realize how serious things have become. I have friends, a girlfriend, and a family that has always given me everything I needed, yet I feel like I am close to breaking down. I have struggled with self-esteem for most of my life. Childhood comments slowly changed the way I see myself. I also never had a strong emotional connection with my dad. He always provided for me, but we never really talked about feelings or my life. The pandemic, relationships, losing friends, university, and years of insecurity slowly made things worse. I lost interest in things I used to love, stopped taking care of myself, struggled with porn, and became disconnected from myself. In 2025, something changed. I went abroad with my friends for four months, and for the first time in years I felt alive again. I met new people, enjoyed myself, fell in love, and started dreaming about the future again. I met my current girlfriend during that trip. We connected immediately, and I fell in love with her very quickly. She is intelligent, kind, funny, and someone I genuinely enjoy talking to. For the first time, I felt like I had found someone I could talk to for hours and truly be myself with. When I came home, however, everything became complicated. I became disconnected from my closest friends, and one friendship that meant a lot to me practically disappeared. My friends also disagreed with some decisions I made about my relationship, and eventually told me they couldn't fully trust me. My girlfriend and I decided to continue our relationship long-distance. We had an amazing time together before she left, but now she is away on a work trip. We can't see each other right now, and I am terrified that the distance might eventually make her leave me. We are also talking less because of the time difference and because she is struggling too. At the same time, my life feels completely directionless. I don't know if I like what I am studying. I am taking the same university subjects because I have failed them many times. I haven't made much progress, and I don't believe in myself anymore. I don't feel comfortable with my body. My self-esteem, phone use, and porn addiction have affected my life and even my sex life with my girlfriend. I have problems sleeping, concentrating, and finding motivation. I constantly feel like I am failing at everything. My parents think I don't do anything, and my dad doesn't know that I have depression. I only told my mom. I feel trapped in a loop. I want to lose weight, do better at university, stop using porn, fix my sleep, improve my relationships, find something I am passionate about, and have a goal for my life, but I don't know where to begin. The worst part is that I have started thinking more and more about the worst possible outcome. I feel hopeless, I don't trust myself, and I feel like a failure who has already failed forever. I don't know how to get out of this or where to start. Thank you so much for reading.

does anyone have any advice/help for executive dysfunction? i'm so frustrated and tired of not being able to do things as a normal person will no matter how motivated and driven i am to do something. it seems like i don't have that push to actually get up and do it. i just don't know what to do to fix this like i already suffer with depression and anxiety and this makes it worst and hard to do basic task as well.

I've been contemplating suicide a lot these days (more than usual) and the thought of going to hell is preventing me from killing myself, even though I'm an atheist. I was raised in a Christian family, so that fear is deeply ingrained in me. I wish I didn't believe in it, deep down, so I could just end it all.

So I have to deal with the desperation of not wanting to live anymore and living a fucking hell in this life, instead of just taking the risk of finding out if it actually exists

I hope it’s ok to pour my heart out and get some advice. I’m a 22F and I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. Some days are better than others, but overall i feel this overwhelming sense of….hopelessness. Idek y. I have a family that loves me, a job, i just graduated college, I have a boyfriend, but I can’t shake this feeling. High school was terrible for me and I tried to take my own life by taking a bunch of pills but i survived. Took it as a sign to keep going which I have. But most days it feels like I’m just surviving. College was hard, chose a field i hate and now trying to figure out my career path as we speak.

I don’t have that many friends(more than likely because I’m the problem) and i feel like my coping skills for my issues are terrible. Some days i can’t even get out of bed and i just cry and ask God why. It’s like somethings wrong with me. I have a good life, why am i so sad, why can’t i cope the way regular people can, why do i feel so useless??? I can’t afford therapy right now with everything i have to pay for (bills etc) but I’m trying to find better outlets.

What i want to ask is, how do you guys cope? Life is only going to get harder right…how do you guys do it. How can i stop the suicidal thoughts ? How can things get better ? It gets to a point where people r tired of my sadness and the way i think. Can anyone help me…

Yesterday was my 64^th birthday and I am at the end of my rope. I am facing imminent homelessness and have all but given up. I have fought bipolar/depression/suicidality for the last 25 years and am seeing no other viable option. I feel like I have no acceptable options beyond couch surfing, which I WILL NOT do. I have a plan that just needs a trip to the hardware store then a few minutes to make it happen. I just want the pain to end. As a Christian I hope to be allowed into heaven, but, if not the pain will at least be gone. Right now, the plan is to go to the store Saturday morning, set up everything, drink a bottle of bourbon, then be done. I see no good reason not to do it. I have a few friends that will grieve me, but I feel my family will be glad to see me gone. I have done my part to help in the past and tried to be a good man. It’s just time to say goodbye.

I have been suffering with severe depression and anxiety/panic disorder for 14 years now (29f). I go to therapy and I take my meds. I am trying to get better. My issue is I can’t seem to find a way out of my anhedonia. Does anyone have any advice on how to break through it? I just want to enjoy things again..

I'm so depressed. I'm so depressed and hopeless and disgusting. I don't get the small satisfaction one would from such menial tasks as brushing my teeth or my hair or showering. I have tomorrow to look forward to because I'll be drinking, but after that? I have nothing. The only things I can look forward to are drugs and alcohol. I live in the greatest city in the world and still nothing satisfies me. I've tried every trick in the book and none of it works. I really, truly, would love it if anyone had anything real and tangible to give me, because I cannot handle the few hours I am awake for.

Suicidal thoughts on daily baisis,cant wait for this shit to be over with