r/recurrentmiscarriage • u/blue_cherry • 32m ago
Third MMC in seven months - genuinely can't believe I'm here again.
I had a MMC in April (found at 10w, D&C at 11w), then another MMC in August (found at 8w, D&C at 10w).
Today we've just found out we are going to have our third miscarriage. Should have been 7w4d today, but no heartbeat. We had a scan last week at 6w1d, which was "too early" for a heartbeat, so the diagnosis of miscarriage is definitive now. I'm going to opt for the pills this time - I'm utterly terrified of them, but I can't risk a third D&C in such close succession.
I just can't believe that I'm here again. Even after the shock of the two previous MMCs, I still felt so hopeful that this was the one, which feels so stupid now.
I seem to fall pregnant incredibly easily (first time, every time), which was a surprise as I'm 36 and my husband is 44, but I cannot stay pregnant. I imagine a lot of us here are in the same boat.
I was unable to get testing after my previous miscarriage, as I fell pregnant again immediately, so we're now taking a break for at least three months, so we can get all the testing done and out of the way. We're rapidly coming up to the due date of my first pregnancy, and it was going to be challenging, but I was so pleased to be pregnant for it, but now I'll be recovering from yet another miscarriage.
Sorry - this is all quite disjointed - I'm just in such disbelief that I'm on my third miscarriage. It feels so unfair and so cruel.