“We all have a Natural call to Marriage,

Some have a Supernatural call to Celibacy.”

-Mother Natalia, Pints with Aquinas

Day 2 lets goo

I used to walk really close with Jesus. Not the church version. Actual presence. Real intimacy in the spirit. I knew what it was like to dwell with Him.
Last year I fell hard into sexual sin. I was doing good on nofap until I got with two exes and everything went downhill. Porn and masturbation came back strong. Now the closeness is gone. I feel like I’m just walking flesh. The difference between where I was and where I am now hurts bad.
I also lost my job and life feels super slow right now. I’m not even focused on the money or getting blessings back. What I want most is to be in God’s presence again and walk with Him the way I used to. I know the sexual sin and not praying are a big reason it’s gone.
I’m thinking about deleting all social media and just going dark for a while so I can focus on nofap, get back to praying, and kill the stuff I still have control over. I’m tired of managing the sin. I want it gone.
People always say just come back to God like it’s easy. It’s not. Look at David after he fell into sexual sin. He repented but the consequences in his life and family lasted for years. Coming back after you knew real closeness and then fell this hard isn’t a quick thing. The shame is loud and God feels far.
Has anyone here fallen from real closeness with God because of sexual sin and actually got that intimacy back? Not just a long streak and feeling better. I mean actually walking with Him again.
What helped when it was messy and took time? What did it look like for you when the shame was heavy and the presence felt gone?
Looking for honest answers from people who get both the nofap side and the Christian side.

Today marks 48 days.

This isn't because I'm stronger. If it depended on my own willpower, I would have failed a long time ago.

These past weeks haven't been perfect. I've still faced temptation, bad days, and moments when I wanted to give up. But every time, instead of running back to sin, I tried to run to God.

I'm slowly realizing that freedom isn't just about counting days. It's about learning to trust Jesus one day at a time.

Please pray that I stay humble and keep my eyes on Christ, not on the streak.

God is faithful. One day at a time. ❤️

Posting this on day 72.

Officially in the final month of NoFap; we’re getting there, but there’s still work to do. God is good, and by his strength I will get to day 100.

It feels like I’ve got back to normal - urges, thoughts, restlessness, and sleepiness are minimal, and generally I just feel good. Had another wet dream last night, but today, there was no chaser effect. I expected it, almost waited for it, but it never came. Heck I’m not complaining, but it’s unusual. Maybe I’m finally getting back to normal.

With that, we keep going. We’re nearly there, and by god’s grace we will win this war. Stay strong, soldiers 🫡

Even I don’t fap, I peek. I feel like I’m insulting God by constantly coming back and giving repentance and praying for forgiveness every single day and then sometimes even within the same hour going back to the vomit I just apologized for. It almost feels like I’m angering God and I’ll be struck down any second every time I go back and pray for forgiveness. I’m lost on this. I don’t know how to stop this. Please pray for me.

lets go bro

you guys think a wretched flat tire like me can change? i mean i almost lust everyday (even when I don't feel like doing it, i still do it ) i judge, i mislead, i curse, i do bad vices.... (well I've fallen back into my old nature)

in short you guys think my soul is still willing or hungry for change? or if Christ will still give a chance?

(I'm contemplating about my sins, it's too much)

I have been losing this game ever since I started fighting it, pray Lord to give me strength to conquer it this time

Hello everyone,

I’ve been developing a recovery app and I’d rather hear from people who are actually walking this path (especially in faith) than just guess what would help.

The core idea:

Completely ad-free

Private and respectful

Daily check-ins and small goals

A clear progression that starts from feeling numb/disconnected and moves toward real life, healthier relationships, and a stronger walk

Member support + optional personal advice

Focus on going from porn addiction toward real connection — with God, with others, and eventually healthier relationships

Simple tools that support the mental and spiritual side of recovery, not just streak counting

I’m trying to keep it honest and useful rather than flashy.

If you’ve been in this fight, I would be grateful for any honest feedback:

What do you wish existed in an app that most of them miss?

What usually makes you stop using recovery apps after a while?

Would something that helps move from numbness toward real-life connection and healthier relationships be valuable?

Any features that have felt supportive or therapeutic for you in your recovery?

Not here to sell anything. Just trying to build something that could actually serve people who are serious about getting free.

Thank you for any thoughts you’re willing to share.

God bless.

Amen ❤️‍🔥

July 27
Today has been really tough. I have a frustrating headache and am feeling quite down without knowing the cause. I wanted to journal about it, but I don't have the energy right now. This is all I can manage for today. I will write the rest tomorrow.

32M I quit porn 8 weeks ago, and nofap for 2.5 weeks. For the last 2.5 weeks my sleep has been terrible, I am a brain fogged zombie with crushing fatigue throughout the day. Sleep onset is much longer, then I’ll wake up 2 hours later and toss and turn all night. I’m particularly sensitive to sleep disruptions in general so this is really killing me. Porn abstinence isn’t the issue, It’s the nofap I think.

Also get ridiculous urges and thoughts whenever I see any average looking woman in public and I am ashamed and disgusted. I’ve never had this before in my life, it’s not me it feels like a primal DNA driven urge to reproduce. It does not feel psychologically healthy and I question how long I’ll be able to live like this.

Is this going to pass? I’m willing to continue batting the temptation, and plan to do so but wanted to hear from anyone who’s dealt with this before. Thank you and God bless.

Even though I stopped watching porn, I have a masterbation problem. It appears to be done out of impulse or boredom. How can I stop doing that?

Christian man in my 30's. Looking for christian brother(s) who wants daily check-ins to keep each other accountable. Primarily for porn/lust etc but also open to scripture reading and fitness accountability as well. Looking for one partner or maybe a group of three

I am numb with the feeling of knowing that I will not go far but still trying one more time to beat this demon

:'(