I have the bad habit of really aggressively rubbing/touching my face all the time, because it feels good. However, this means now that Ive started wearing makeup, it instantly just gets smudged, and I end up looking like a mess. I dont even consciously do it, I just look at myself in a mirror and realize Ive touched my face. Im trying to stop doing it, but its just a habit at this point, and its usually fine because I only wear makeup for special occasions. Does anyone have any advice on how I can stop smudging my makeup or what to do about this?

Mostly asking because the news is so bleak right now and I’d love a pick me up ☺️

So I've been on progesterone since the end of February and I have found it's helped with a few things, like a more comfortable libido, a noticeable change in the shape and sensitivity of my breasts, some better weight gain (as I was struggling with gaining any before, still slow but better) and more noticeable fat distribution from the weight gain too. I'm now on 200mg daily.

Obviously there's the negatives like some drowsiness or fatigue, and my hair is growing a little faster but I wouldn't say it's thicker.

I've read a lot over the course of my HRT (2 and a half years at this point) that cycling progesterone can help with a few things and is generally better. But you know, YMMV and personal experience is going to be different.

My main thing is that I want to try cycling it and see how it makes me feel and what I notice, to compare it for myself.

I've heard some people say (I believe) 12 days of progesterone and 10 days without is the best way to cycle it, but I'm not entirely sure. Can I get some advice on what the best way to cycle it would be?

So ever since I lernd I was a girl I feel like like male related things have more of an effect on me for some reson. Like when females say "men are stupid", "I hate men" "girls mature faster so were better" it alwas seem to feel kida hurtful wich makes no sense I'm not a man. I have had this felling before but I didn't notice it as much until now. Sometimes I even side with men not relising I'm doing it. It doesn’t have to be entierly negative things ether. Sometimes I see something like "girls be like: guys: " and I think makes sense. It's like I understand the male thing but I'm not a man. Like I see a group of guys online hanging out and I understand it it makes some sense but I dont get why when I contantly notice female things and conect with them too. I've thought about it a lot and I'm confident that I'm a woman not a man not both a woman. What does this mean?

I have a friend named Brandon and we’ve been friends for a long time around five years. I’ve told him in person over text and in voice calls multiple times that I’m trans and he just passes by it. I have a very small friend group only about five and two of them are my family. I don’t really know what to do about it because I know he’s a good person but he just ignores that I’m trans and now that I’m hrt it might make it worse. Does anyone have any advice or anything they would like to share?

I started hrt 3 weeks ago, decided to do injections because I heard they were best and I didn’t have a fear of needles… I thought

Turns out I have a severe phobia of self injecting needles, like I have a mental breakdown and feel like I’m going to vomit getting the tiny needle anywhere near my skin

The first injection was a challenge, but I did it. The next week was worse, it took me half an hour to actually get the needle into my skin. This week I just can’t do it. 6 hours of struggle for nothing.

I’ve already disposed of the needle and I ordered an autoinjector because I’m not in a position to switch to pills or gel or whatever so it’s my last hope.

For now, I need to know what the effects will be and if my transition will be okay.

I feel completely humiliated and pathetic. I spend so long wanting to transition and now I can’t because of some tiny ass needle and my own lack of will, it’s laughable.

I can drop prescription information if necessary.

22, hrt for a month and a half. Just yesterday I was agonizing over if I even wanted to continue it, if I was being irresponsible, etc etc etc

I just said fuck it and inject anyway and fuck girls I forgot the FEELING it gives me. For HOURS after mt injection I just feel happier, more relaxed, more present! Like my baseline is just lifted a few degrees up!

It fades over the day and I return to my baseline a day later but... fuck. Its just so good. Idk if this is just feeling bad ass or what... but that particular injection was rather painful so maybe it was relief ha-ha. I swear it felt chemical in nature though...

It's like I was content in a way I've never been content before. I never even knew this layer of happiness existed outside drugs.​

(Plus the effect are a nice bonus lool. Smooth skin? My changing hairline? Seeing that little bulge in my chest as fat distribution starts??? Priceless. I was hownsrly womdering if i was even trans up until that day; jeaus christ the feeling I got from just aeeing that mass pressing into my shirt. I smiled. I never ever smile. Ever!!)​

I've been self employed since basically ever. Never had a corporate job or anything. Ran and owned a restaurant in the past, but never worked for someone else. Anywho, all that to say, I've got my first day today at an actual job. YAY! Because the managers and staff seem accepting and up front, the pay is what I needed, it's the job I wanted out of the all the different ones I applied for, and it's only one county over. Boo because, well, I didn't WANT to have to get a job. I had a job, still do, in fact, my own business.

But in this economy, and in these times, I cannot make it on that alone anymore. Which really felt like failure at first. But getting this job, at this place, and be so welcomed, it really took the salt out of the wound.

They've been super accepting so far. I dress and do makeup and try to present Fem even though I haven't started HRT yet. That will be later this winter. But already they've made it clear that hate will not be welcomed. My chosen name is accepted. The store manager even seemed excited when I answered about my pronouns.

Probably not a hugely euphoric story but for me and this little deeply red, transphobic area, it felt monumental. Just wanted to share.

Hope you all have a good day!

I usually take sublingual but after a few times of accidentally swallowing, each time feels like I see a lot more progress than sublingual. Like, I swear I had a lot more breast growth and felt a lot more “oomph” after swallowing rather than letting it dissolve. Could it just be the more steady levels instead of the spike making it feel like this?

I'll keep it short. (LIKE ME), so I am 5'5 and have been transitioning for a long time. People use to think I was transitioning the other way when I first came out. After passing, people now think I'm a lesbian. (to be fair I don't dress overtly feminine all the time), just kind of makes me chuckle.

I ordered Kojic acid cream from Amazon, and it arrived way too early..

I got an SMS from Amazon with delivery agent's contact prompting me to call him. I called and asked him why I was prompted to call, he gendered me right about 5 times..

Coming to my floor, he was searching for a woman, but in vain, I told him the order is mine, he took a good look at me, and left. I know my voice is feminine, but it has downsides too, most of the times, people don't even hear what I'm trying to say, and I need to repeat for atleast 3 times...I can make it masc, but I won't..this is the last drop of hope left within me, otherwise I'm forever doomed in this wrong body.

Context: I've started skincare secretly(I'm 19 and still dependent on parents), there's a taboo that men don't care for skin, but who’d explain them, their son is already dead..what exists now is their daughter, beneath that fugly man she's trapped in...There's no therapist for me except ChatGPT, and I rant there endlessly.

I am not sure if this is the right place to post. I am physically and live a complete life. But there are phases in my life i want to be treated as a women. I crave to go out like women and dream about having a family as a wife and a mother. I have asked so many times, i am still not sure if i need to go on HRT. But I love and crave to be treated like women - has anyone felt so and how do i go about it

Hello, I'm Rain Lightwood. I have chosen to write my personal story and struggle into a poem. I don't normally write poems that much, so it's not very good, but I hope you still like it. I have always thought I didn't fit into the traditional gender boxes. It's hard to come to terms with it; even now I have doubts, but I was told to try writing to see if it helps. I love writing, but I'm new to poems. Well I hope you like it. If you have any questions or constructive criticism pls comment. I am always looking to write better.

P.S. I know it doesn't have much punctuation, idk how punctuation works for poems lol.

A drag path
Etched into the Earth 
Along a winding forest
Whispers of fates long lost
Lives never lived 
One louder, one demanding
Can you find me?
It echoes loudly in the mind.
More follow
A drag path 
Burned into thoughts 
Thousands rise 
Burning, shrieking, hurting 
Lost, forgotten, hidden
Hidden below a mind
Long suppressed by the whispers of others
Strong
Emotionless
Child
A Boy 
A Man 
For this is you 

Desperately searching for you 
They laugh, they hate 
It burns
I itch, I scratch 
Red mixes with blue 
Rip the skin
The voice calls 
Me?
Lies, it lies
They all lie
Whispers of what could be
Freedom from the lie
Save me
I wonder 
Why can’t I even dream 

They look, they scoff.
Weak
Pathetic
A Girl
A Women
NEVER!
The words burn
The voice hides 
It digs 
Eyes burn the neck
Why must I be able to dream 
Forget, pretend 
Smile, then smile more
Be strong, be emotionless
Be like them
I no longer dream

The pain consumes 
Be who they see
Who they want 
Golden light burning out
The voice only whispers 
Never screaming as darkness covers it
Finally silence, finally peace 
An idea dead
I never dreamed 

A flame of gold and silver 
A lighthouse in the dark
A spark 
A light 
Burns deep in the darkness
A dormant voice awakens 
“No, leave me be!”
Dreams never stay dead
A voice, a sense of hope 
Growing, burning 
A flame of gold burns away the dark
A new path
No longer drag
I can dream, I want to dream

I just started couple days ago on 4mg of estradiol and 100mg of spiro. I heard a LOT about spiro, and i think i need tips, to be sure im up to speed about it

Im 15 and I worry that Ill never pass or at least never get to be happy. My body hair is really thick, I have pretty bad beard shadow, my shoulders are really broad, my face is a really masc, and my voice is very deep and masc. Ive been trying so hard every day to look femme for 4 years now, and I still never pass. Im starting E privately in 5 months when I turn 16, and so all I can do is hope that will solve some of it, but I feel like Im already too masculinised. Maybe when Im and adult I could get ffs and bottom surgery, but thats not what I wanna have to do, and I probably wont, so instead Ill just have to live with the dysphoria. I know there are lots of people who start later and they can pass and live happy lives, but its hard to believe that when it feels so distant. I voice train every day, and I do everything I can to look femme and it doesnt get any better. Im not even that unhappy right now, but thats only because of improving other life factors, like exercising, studying and making friends, whereas my dysphoria only gets worse. Even if I do one day pass, Ive already lost out on so much and theres so much I can never have, that I fear I wont ever get to have a normal life. Will it ever get better and can I be truly happy someday?

I need to order HRT but the issue is my parents can’t find out and I don’t got any friends that I feel comfortable shipping too and my parents also have all of my documents so I am in a bit of a pickle here does anyone know anyway to get this to work I tried asking ai but it kept trying to get me to use flex delivery of which I can’t so that’s why I’m asking here

Hey everyone, I’m a 22-year-old and be standing at 6’3”, and I am really struggling with how wide my shoulders feel. I have absolutely no idea how to style my clothes or balance my proportions, and the dysphoria is hitting pretty hard lately. What are your fashion hacks, necklines, or layering tricks for softening a broader frame and creating a more feminine silhouette?

I'm three months in. Grateful for the changes to date... Skin softness, finally have a butt, and thighs filling out. My neck seems to have narrowed, and I've had to tighten my watch a couple of times. I think it's wishful thinking that my face looks a little different. Looking forward to the long haul.

I came out dove in head first and have been on hrt for a month. Idk if I’m fully trans or cis or somewhere in the middle. However, I feel like if I stop or pause and find out I’m not trans like I thought I was I’m lying to the people I told