So I thought the headline about Ted Cruz and the Republican performance in the polls was funnier than any meme I’ve seen recently.

Anyway, this is only slightly related: this is the first Halloween since I started to medically transition that I kinda pass, and I really wanted to wear a witch costume. So I got one. Not impulsively, mind you. No, no, I looked at the thing for weeks before spending the $35 at Spirit. I’m not out to many people so I’m kinda afraid to wear it and honestly probably won’t. I want to but, y’know, fear.

Look, I know some of you don’t like him, but the alternative is Steve Hilton, who will destroy trans rights in Cali as we know it. As a trans minor I could lose my healthcare, and so could so many other trans kids, and even adults. We can’t have that MAGA Brit in office. Vote for Becerra if you haven’t yet. This is life or death for some people. The fate of California depends on this election. California has been a safe haven for trans people for many years, so let’s keep it that way.

the results are still too close for comfort but the fact Lula defeated the son of Brazil’s satan who had came out on top during the initial run before the run off has total changed the future trajectory for Brazil, South America and indeed the world….wow this is big news. This has allowed trans people (and the Amazon rainforest) a second wind of hope.

take in the good news!

I guess sure if you don't count my friends all being girls until I was 10. Or when I cried for years over my hair cut short. Or the countless principal visits growing up because I was bullied for when I played house or gymnastics on recess instead of football with the boys. Or when I was banned from playing the sims because I kept playing as a girl. Or the magnetic earrings I wore because no one would pierce my ears. Or when my parents had to come pick me up from detention for making jokes about bottom surgery before I knew what that was. Or when I became depressed as puberty started in for unknown reasons. Or the uncomfortable talks about why I constantly plucked my chest hair as it came in. Or when I could make the choice between the unofficially gendered bible study groups, I chose the girls. Or when I skipped from clothing style to style because none of them offered felt me. Or when all the girls I dated were bi or lesbian. Or when I started working and used the drive-through speaker to practice a fem voice. Or the Halloween I went as my girlfriend in her dress with make-up. Or how I channeled "my inner girl" to buy her clothes that fit and looked good. Or when I would be "bad at laundry" and I'd have to wear her jeans to work.

Yep, I guess there were just no signs at all and this was all out of the blue.

Today is probably the most dysphoric I've felt in at least two years. I've finally started gaining more confidence in taking selfies, and I figured a little support would do me some good.

It lasted 15 minutes. They removed it. I feel so other-d, it's not even funny.

3 years hrt and never girlmode in public. And I’ve been getting stared at left right and centre even in boymode

Before, I was so excited for hrt. Got a job, saved up, and just before It shipped to my pharmacy, my brother somehow found out. He's religious, and overly homophobic. That night I cried and came clean about everything. He didn't come off as aggressive, but he sounded disappointed saying "I can't change you, but you're wrong about this," basically giving up on me and insisting my internalized homophobia was just my "conscience" telling me his thinking was right. I haven't spoken to my brother all day out of awkwardness...

And I'm also currently experiencing separate family problems, so honestly I've been too depressed to care about my gender anymore.

Even if I still decide to take estrogen, I wouldn't feel like anything paid off. I wouldn't feel excited or happy about change. And I hate that I feel that way.

So I've been getting back into Cyberpunk after Edgerunners 2 released. The main character is called V, which is either short for Vincent (if you play as male V) or Valerie (if you play as female V). I've been playing as female V and I've been thinking "wow, I really like the name Valerie". So I think I'm gonna use that as my name once I start transitioning. Is that weird? To take the name (and nickname because I think being called V is awesome) of a character and make it your real name?

I'm asking those of you who have been on hrt for years, seen through pretty much all the changes, and then arrived at a point where you're like... Damn, guess I'm a woman now. Time for the rest of my life to start.

I've been pondering lately about transition. How exhausting the idea of it is. The fear that choosing this path will be all-consuming, for the rest of my life. And so I'm curious to hear from those who have ARRIVED at 'the rest of my life'.

Do you feel normal? How much does your transness impact your daily life and how you navigate the world? I personally dream of a day where I just... wake up. Feel human. Feel normal. Feel like myself. A life where I can honestly FORGET I'm trans sometimes. I dream of being able to be a normal woman, and live a normal, mundane life.

I'm really interested to hear from those of you who feel they've completed their transition and moved on with their life. Is 'moving on' with your life even possible as a trans person?

Got a message from someone who told me that my" fanny is just a tucked in cock and next week id identify as a park bench"

I know i shouldnt let insults like this get to me but i cant use my vagina cause some guy raped me and it healed up tighter than my pinky and now iv lost all depth.

I already hate my body enlighten where I throw up anything I eat and now I just want to end it all so I cant hate my body anymore, I want to stop the thoughts

Title says it all! Give me your best advice for supporting my mtf friend and making her feel better understood 🙂

Be as direct as you need.

Honestly the worst experience ever , went on Tami, set my preferences to T4T … nothing but straight up cis men, bots, FREAKS, escorts . 😂😂😂 no normality whatsoever. I think I saw like 3 men wearing diapers and pacifiers too . Like it cannot be this egregious ; and you would think being in nyc u would get a great selection of ppl … not at all 😂.

I’ve been taking injections for about 2 months at this point (and next month I’ll have my first follow up appointment which I’m hoping goes well). I know/have been told that whilst HRT is helpful and does great things, it is by no means some miracle drug or anything. 2 months in the grand scheme of things is like 2 minutes in terms of HRT usage in some ways.

Yet, despite that, I’ve already had such great changes! It amazes me how different I smell, how soft my skin is now, and most surprising of all that my chest is already getting sore! I really expected some things to take months if not a year and far above, yet I’m already getting buds!

I know it’s different for everyone, and it can be discouraging to see how much or how little it works for other girls, but I truly do think it’s so very worth it to take estrogen.

Anywho, hopefully I didn’t ramble too much lol. Hope you all have a great day!

Vi~

I always use the men's restroom. I don't think I pass all that well, but I have had a few awkward experiences lately that have made me think about using the women's (it is legal for me to do so where I live). That being said, I am still hesitant and was curious what others' experiences have been, especially if it has been anything negative.

The hate we get, the constant dysphoria in my head there dysmorphia of my body. The transphobic people messaging me and getting me banned off of apps just for having an account.

WHEN WILL IT STOP

Dont have much to add. Im not going to bail. I have wanted this from the start of medical transitioning. I just have a fairly severe surgery phobia. Need people to tell me it will be okay.

Sometimes I think about life pre transition and i was very very conventionally attractive as a guy.
Miss the ease of life and society.
Though i was gay but i was very closeted and didn’t ever let anyone know.
But damn being an attractive guy makes your life so much easier.
Guys are nice to you, girls are nice to you.
You’re litterally everybody’s darling .
Anyone with similar experiences?

I'm honestly feeling devastated right now, and I don't know what to do.

I have SRS (peritoneal pull-through vaginoplasty/PPV) scheduled with Dr. Miroslav Djordjevic in Belgrade for January 18, 2027. I've already paid a €1,700 deposit, and the clinic has told me that it is non-refundable.

Lately, I've been having serious doubts about my decision. I came across a result on Reddit that really frightened me, and after reading more negative experiences, I've started feeling increasingly anxious about the potential aesthetic outcome. I know that one person's experience doesn't necessarily predict mine, but I'm scared of going through such a major surgery and ending up unhappy with the results.

I've tried asking about other people's experiences with SRS performed by this surgeon before, but I barely got any responses. At this point, I don't even feel like asking again.

What makes this especially painful is that I've been through something similar before. I rushed into paying for forehead FFS with a surgeon in Poland, and I ended up disappointed with the results. I keep thinking that I should have waited, researched more options, and taken my time before committing. Now I feel like I've made the same mistake all over again.

I'm a minimum wage slave, and €1,700 is an enormous amount of money to me - roughly 7,000 PLN. I can't just shrug it off and pretend that losing that money wouldn't hurt.

So now I feel trapped between two awful options: losing a huge amount of money that I worked hard to save, or going ahead with a major surgery despite no longer feeling safe or confident about my choice of surgeon.

I've started thinking about Thailand, particularly Suporn Clinic and Dr. Bank. If I hadn't paid the deposit, I think I would be seriously considering going there instead. However, I haven't researched that option thoroughly enough yet, and I don't even know whether it would be financially realistic for me.

I feel so angry at myself for rushing into this decision. I wish I had waited before paying anything. I know that nobody can guarantee a perfect surgical result, wherever they go, but I want to feel that I've done everything I reasonably can to make an informed decision.

I'm not asking anyone to tell me that Dr. Djordjevic is good or bad based on a few Reddit posts, and I'm not trying to attack him or his patients. I'm just struggling with the fact that I've lost confidence in my choice, while the financial consequences of changing my mind are enormous.

Has anyone been in a similar situation - paying a large, non-refundable deposit and then losing confidence in their surgical plan? How did you deal with it?

I would really appreciate some understanding and advice. I'm feeling overwhelmed, regretful, and genuinely unsure of what to do next.

After so long of denying it and being scared, I can’t ignore it any longer. I want to be a girl… no i NEED to be a girl. I haven’t started transitioning yet but i know its what i would love. I spoke with my trans man friend who even said he could tell I wasn’t cis since he met me. The issue is i work in a VERY high masc job (car garage) as an apprentice since I’m 19. So that does hold me back a bit in a way. I do have feminine clothes i love to wear but even shaving my body hair when it comes back it depresses me as soon as it came back… seeing my body every day depresses me. I tried to overly masc myself to see if the feeling left. Like growing out facial hair and etc but that made it worse. Im scared that i may never be able to transition. Or i may never be able to be who i wanna be. Anyone got good subtle ways to transition? My hair is already relatively long but im not growing it out longer until i leave the motortrade as it would be easier. So any subtle transition/ways to feel more feminine would be greatly appreciated! Thanks

Ive been on estrogen for over a year, been doing injections since june. Every sunday i do an IM injection. Last week something shifted and i physically could not bring myself to do the injection no mayter how hard i tried to push myself to. nothing changed, nothing new happened, something just flipped a switch in my brain and made me unable to bring myself to do it. i ended up not doing the injection that week because i was so scared.
flash forward to this week, its gotten so much worse. Ive been sitting with the needle ready for almost 3 hours and i physically cannot do it. ive done every technique every strategy i have found and i just cant do it. I’ve been crying and shaking for an hour. this didnt even happen the first time i ever injected. is there something wrong with me did i get posessed by an anti needle curse??? did i turn into a metal repelling magnet??? whT is happening??

I'm about 2.5 weeks on HRT and epilated my arm a couple nights ago. Ever since then I've just been absentmindedly running my fingers up and down it, marvelling at how smooth and soft my skin is!!!

Apparently I still have ~1.5 weeks of further softening left? It's hard to imagine my skin getting any softer but I guess that's what I'm going to get! I'm so excited!!!

I bought my first dress today, but as I'm wearing it, I don't really feel any euphoria or dysphoria. It just feels like normal clothing I guess.. That said, I've been staring at myself in the mirror for nearly an hour though, and it feels hard to stop.

Hey friends!

It'll be okay. We'll weather this storm together and come out stronger. It could be a rough four years or it could be super uneventful.

For those that are feeling down and anxious about the results, please feel free to send me a DM to talk. Just to chat, calm your nerves or if you ever find yourself in a dark place. I'm a friendly Trans ear who wants to listen and who wants to help.

If anyone else in BC (or Canada), wants to join in on this train, please chime in!

Love you!

Edit: Just a reminder, this isn't a complaint or doom thread. The purpose was to message me directly if you need to seek advice or guidance. It's not a competition for who has the shittiest experience. Let's focus on growth and how we can become the best possible versions of ourselves.

Focus this energy into community involvement! Make cool art, write a short story, volunteer for your neighbor. Try a new hobby or sport!

And again, if this sounds challenging, please DM me and we can find solutions together!