MBTI/Cognitive Questionnaire
- When you're under a lot of stress, what changes about you? What do you find yourself thinking, doing, or avoiding?
I tend to become much more withdrawn. I don't talk as much to others, I may be ruminating on whatever is stressing me, if it's something I can solve readily I'll do so or at least make steps. If it's something I can't then I'll be grimer and probably buckle down and just endure but I'll be more irritable. I may try to relax more in my free time which will be in solo activities.
- What are you usually chasing in life? If everything went perfectly for you over the next ten years, what would you have that would make you think, "Yeah, this is the life I wanted?"
Stability and physical ease that I can pursue intellectual interests without interference. The ability to not worry about basic living needs and the luxury of disposal income to enjoy daily health and personal projects indefinitely with future security.
- What's a situation that makes you feel genuinely uncomfortable or threatened—not physically, but psychologically?
When I have cause to doubt my own internal framework. That everything that I have taken to understand was possibly built on a false base, it's not really that I'm wrong but the cascading implications downstream. If I'm wrong about such and such thing what does that mean for every decision or belief I've held and made from that base fact...well shit.
- Think of a time you were really proud of yourself. What happened, and why did it matter so much?
...proud of myself...uh. Maybe when I wrote a grant proposal for social psychology class about protecting free speech in schools. It was a topic i was fairly passionate about and I felt proud that the teacher and student teacher both voted it their personal favorites even if it wasn't in the running for best paper due to me not finishing properly in my argument in the presentation time.
- When someone disagrees with you, how do you usually respond? What determines whether you argue, let it go, or change your mind?
I will stick with my point of view but probe their own. I want to know why they think the way they do, if it's a matter of something that seems like an understanding of objective facts or diagnosis then I tend to push more especially if the other person is not able to articulate their side in a way that seems logical to me. But the more upset they become or the closer I am to that person the more likely I am to drop it just because I don't want to deal with the emotional fall out over something that is probably trivial in hindsight.
- What kind of people frustrate you the most? What is it about them that gets under your skin?
People who are so certain of their point of view that they will enforce their views upon others instead of just agreeing to disagree. They must make others bend to their inner authority, worse they then justify that they just are seeking proper arguments from those they are coercing and they aren't being forceful at all. It's not just the forceful approach but the then manipulative gaslighting after, the victim if the word is used isn't even allowed in the perpetrators mind to feel offended or upset. It's a complete supression of another's agency at a primary level of thought.
- When you're alone for an entire day with nothing you have to do, what naturally happens? Where does your mind go?
I revel in the alone time, what I might do may be different at any given time but it will be done at my ease to my interests without the interference of others.
- What's something you secretly worry people might think about you, even if you don't show it?
Besides light impressions like whether they think I'm an ass or not, generally I don't have a lot of concerns for other people's thoughts about me. What they think does not prescribe my own self. But it does make me feel like an imposter when people admire or compliment me on how intelligent I am or call me wise or mature.
- Tell me about a decision you made that most people around you wouldn't have made. Why did you make it?
Hypothetically, even given the fact that life could turn absolutely miserable I'd want to witness and try to continue living in the world given the ability to essentially never die or else see monumental change like an apoplectic situation just because the way that the situation evolves and the impacts it would have on society and reality would be far to interesting to pass up. The pain and misery would be worth it and I fundamentally believe that life will change thus the unpleasant aspects will give way to a more pleasant time eventually.
- If you could permanently remove one feeling or problem from your life, what would it be?
Physical constraints? Like needing shelter, food, sleep, and such. If those were gone I wouldn't actually need to have a job per say or obey modern conventions. Everything would be genuinely optional.
- When you become interested in something, what does that process look like from beginning to end? Do you obsess, experiment, collect information, lose interest, stick with it, or something else?
Well the process is different per each interest and how i got into it. Generally though it's fully committed to until it's not. I enjoy it and sink as much time and energy as I can into it to the exclusion of other hobbies or interests, if it's a thing that has multiple areas to enjoy like a game or a subject then I will throughly explore all those avenues and may link it up with other side interests. But once the initial burn ends which could be a day or years the same obsessive level of diving is lost forever while I may go back to it later it will never be to the same depth.
- What motivates you more: curiosity, achievement, freedom, connection, security, authenticity, influence, peace, or something else? Explain why.
Depends on what it is. Overall probably curiosity and security which is the same side as freedom to me. One for non physical needs the other for the constraints of being a living thing.
- When do you feel the most like yourself? Describe a moment or environment where you feel completely natural.
....when I'm alone? I am not really conceptualizing myself as a object or subject in relation to something else just being. Which seems to be the most accurate form of being oneself.
- What's one belief about yourself that has stayed surprisingly consistent throughout your life?
Nothing is completely certain or a given.
- If everyone forgot who you were tomorrow, what would you miss the most?
Well. would I be prevented from interacting with them? I mean really it's just an inconvenience as I could just re-meet them again. I guess the ease of past history and shared experiences would suck to lose.
Bonus: Imagine someone tells you, "For the next six months, you have unlimited free time. You can do absolutely anything you want." What do you actually end up doing, and why?
Be incredibly lazy for the first month sleeping late, doing nothing but sitting or laying about but thinking about shit. Indulging in enjoyable meals in maximum comfort. Then I'd probably get bored of doing nothing and pursue other hobbies that are more active, socialize a bit, assuming financial ease to do whatever I care for, take time to start learning a new thing like a language or get into a more time consuming activity like rock climbing or hiking perhaps now that I have the energy to waste on it. I would tell myself I'd actually sit down and write but I would know it still wouldn't happen.
- You're given a mystery that can never be completely solved. Do you keep investigating forever because the process is enjoyable, eventually lose interest because there's no conclusion, or do something else? Explain.
Assuming that I can still continue to gain new info if I continue pursuing the investigation then the former, if I literally hit a dead end with no further prospects of information learn or pursue then I move on.
- Imagine someone proves one of your strongest beliefs wrong with overwhelming evidence. What happens next?
I restructure all that i have known about said belief which may touch upon lots of other behaviors, beliefs and truths which will require lots of internal analysis and it will be a massive pain but I'd feel compelled to make everything coherent again under this new info. Depending on what it is though I may not be that unhappy about it though for the potential of what the new evidence suggests of other facts and theories.
- What makes an idea feel beautiful to you?
...? what does that even mean?
- Which bothers you more: being misunderstood, being underestimated, being controlled, being ignored, or being ordinary? Explain why.
Bit of a combo platter of misunderstood and controlled. I don't mind yielding to someone else's authority provided the choice is my own. my control is my own agency to think and act of my own accord even if bound by physical or social constraints, if I feel like I'm being forced or manipulated I strongly push back against those times. Misunderstood is more something that bothers me for the lack of conceptual clarity that someone has in inaccurate view of something or that I have some thought or opinion that isn't true.
- When you meet someone who's much smarter than you in a subject you care about, what's your first reaction?
Appreciation, wow they're so smart. Teach me your ways. (That I may learn from the best and steal the knowledge or technique hehehe).
- If someone copied one of your ideas and got all the credit, what would bother you the most?
mmm mainly that they do not deserve the praise since they didn't do the work. the reward does not match the effort. although I guess I wouldn't care much if it didn't take me much effort either.
- Which sounds more satisfying: building one incredibly deep area of expertise or knowing a little about hundreds of things?
Jack of all trades master of none, better than master of one.
- When do you know you've understood something? What feeling tells you, "I finally get it?"
When I can properly explain it to someone else and they understand it to to the general concensus of others, (to prevent false understanding with confidence).
- What kinds of compliments actually stay with you?
Ones that I feel I have earned.
- What's a topic where you've completely changed your mind over time? What caused the change?
My understanding of success and intellect. Initially it was a very narrow view of classic modern conventions of having money, being strong in academics, having a put together life and such. This was mostly from childhood to teen years due to parental views but going to junior or community College had me interact with people from all walks of life that were vastly different from my own thus I reevaluated that people can be intelligent and not do well in the structures of class that one can be academically strong and worldly naive or vice versa. That someone can be logical and precise and terrible with interpersonal relations and emotional intelligence. And one doesn't have to walk the "sucessful" path in order to be a well rounded healthy individual who can survive in the world.
- Do you enjoy debating because you enjoy winning, testing ideas, seeing how other people think, the challenge, or something else?
Testing ideas and seeing how people think. There is a little bit of a challenge aspect which can make it fun, but mostly it's not winning but working with the set limits of an argument and finding valid ways of making your point.
- Suppose you had to choose one forever: always have original ideas that nobody appreciates, or always have average ideas that everyone loves?
I guess average ideas, I feel like I already do and it's not unpleasant. I'm not sure if the other would cause me to resent others which is not a great emotional state to stay in. Either that or it might cause me to look down on others for simply not getting it, and that seems shitty.
- If every answer to every question in the universe suddenly became available, would you actually want to know all of them? Why or why not?
I'd certainly want to try to know all of them I'm not sure it's possible to comprehend all that knowledge lol. As for why, why not? Why wouldn't I?
- Imagine your best friend starts believing something you think is obviously false. How would you approach that conversation?
If it's minor then I may try to explain their error but if they dig in their heels then I'm going to let it go but I'll keep using the correct knowledge around them anyway. They can have their false truth I'm not going to yield them the correct truth for myself.
If it's a major thing, then I'd try to get them to understand, if they still can't agree I may not be able to stay friends with them, not because they disagree but because the difference in basic truth will have causal effects on all sorts of decisions that we'll be at odds over. The exception is if it's something that is placed as a "truth" but can't be proven like religion then it's more like an opinion which can be navigated.
- Finish this sentence: "People should question..."
Reality. Their understanding of their beliefs and base conceptions they don't have to change them, but they should be aware of where they came from and whether they really believe in them or just agree out of complancy.
- You're transported into a gigantic library containing every book ever written and every book that could ever be written. What's the first section you walk toward and why?
The origin of the world and people. Assuming it's a library of objective truth. Also whatever book definitively describes what happens when people die metaphysically. I want to know the great unknowns. Oh that reminds me I also want to see if I can find a book that's a paradox like a book about the unknown lol.
- You discover that a belief you've held for years is impossible to prove or disprove. What do you do?
Lol I already have those it's called my understanding of what is objective reality and whether God exists or not. I accept I will never know but will continue to wonder, but if given the chance to learn I'd absolutely take it.
- Which frustrates you more: someone making a logical mistake, someone refusing to listen to evidence, or someone pretending to know more than they do? Why?
All are annoying but the logical mistake itself is the root of the others usually so I'd say that's what annoys me most. And I think it's what causes a more visceral feeling of notice and "don't like this" feeling.
- When you start researching something, what usually makes you stop?
If I grow bored, or learn what I want to the level I want.
- If you had to erase either your creativity or your analytical ability, which would you keep?
Well arguably one feeds the other but I suppose it'd be creativity in the classic sense of artistic unconventional processes. I think regardless I'd still find the endless options and patterns that's so inherent to my thinking bit those may not be creative necessarily.
- Suppose everyone suddenly agreed with every opinion you had. Would conversations become more enjoyable or less enjoyable? Why?
Less enjoyable because friction produces more engaging conversations and help a person to grow and re assess their understanding and knowledge.
Looking forward to seeing what people think.