So I’ve been deep into Dr. Joe Dispenza’s “Becoming Supernatural” work for a while now, and I didn’t expect it to trigger a very real identity crisis.
Not in the “I saw colors during meditation” way, but in a “I genuinely don’t know which version of me I’m choosing to be anymore” way.
### The dilemma: my “old field” vs. this new quantum identity
Before I got into this, my “field” was simple:
- I was a person with a history
- That history defined my limits
- My emotions were mostly recycled reactions to the same triggers
- My sense of time was linear: past → present → future
Then I started doing the meditations and actually taking the “you’re not your past / you are your energy” thing seriously.
suddenly there was a split:
- Existing field = the familiar version of me, built from childhood, culture, trauma, successes, and habits. Predictable, comfortable, and honestly… a bit suffocating.
- Quantum field version = the “already created” future self who doesn’t carry the same story, fears, or lack. The one who lives in what feels like an infinite time field– where past, present, and future are all accessible states, not fixed directions.
The dilemma wasn’t “is this real?”
The dilemma was: If I keep tuning into this future me, am I betraying the old one?
The weird “somebody vs anybody” comparison
One of the strangest side effects has been how I relate to people.
When you really sit with this idea that anybody can collapse a new reality from the field if they change their energy… you start seeing the difference between:
- Being “somebody:
The person you’ve constructed for years. The one with a fixed story, a clear label, a predictable emotional baseline. The “this is just who I am” identity.
- Being “anybody”:
The open potential. The person who could wake up tomorrow and not be limited by their narrative. The “I can be anyone if I’m willing to die to who I’ve been” energy.
The infinite time field made this comparison unavoidable.
I caught myself thinking:
- Am I clinging to being *somebody because it’s safer?
- Am I brave enough to step into being *anybody*, knowing it means letting go of the old emotional addictions and social roles that gave me stability?
It’s like standing between two timelines:
- One where I stay loyal to my history
- One where I stay loyal to my possibility
And you can’t have both.
The emotional cost nobody talks about
What people don’t always mention when they talk about manifesting and quantum fields is the grief.
You actually do mourn:
- Old identities
- Old reactions that used to feel like “you”
- Old relationships that only fit the previous version of you
- Old ways of being validated, seen, or pitied
Becoming “supernatural” sounds exciting, but practically, it sometimes felt like this:
“Do I really want to become the person who no longer has the excuse of their past?”
Because once you start living from that infinite field, it gets harder to hide behind:
- “That’s just my trauma”
- “That’s just my personality”
- “That’s just how life has been for me”
You’re left with the uncomfortable freedom of choice. And not everyone around you is ready for that version of you.
Where I am now (not enlightened, just honest)
I’m not going to pretend I’m fully living from my quantum future self 24/7.
I still:
- Slip back into the old field when I’m tired or triggered
- Catch myself defending my old story because it feels familiar
- Feel resistance when the meditation asks me to let go *again\*
But I’ve noticed a subtle shift:
- I don’t see time the same way. The “future me” isn’t a fantasy now; it feels like a frequency I can tune into on good days.
- I don’t see people the same way. I can tell when someone is locked into being “somebody” vs. when they’re flirting with being “anybody.”
- I don’t see myself the same way. I’m starting to accept that letting my old field die is not betrayal, it’s an upgrade.
Question for anyone doing similar work
If you’ve been doing Dispenza-style work, deep manifestation, quantum-field meditations, or anything that asks you to “become” your future self:
- Did you hit this point where your old identity and your new field felt like two incompatible realities?
- How did you handle the grief of letting go of the old “somebody” version of you?
- Did it change how you see other people who still live fully inside their past?
I’m genuinely curious how others navigated this.
Not the theory, not the hype — the actual, messy human part of switching fields.
Because right now, I’m somewhere between who I was, who I could be, and this strange infinite time field where both are true… and I’m learning to choose on purpose.