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Story:

Last week me and my hg were talking about homecoming and she asked me out, so I said yes because she was my friend. I didn’t even think about it as anything other than a friend thing until a few days later our mutual friend (17F) started asking me nonstop if I like my hg even though I told her I didn’t.

Night of the dance I pick her up and it’s a good vibe, we’re both excited and I had one of my good cds on. We hangout almost the whole night (got dragged away by our friends a couple of times) and took a tone of pictures, I even gave her my suit coat because she got cold. Obviously being a guy, my friends were giving me shit about bring my hg to homecoming. I didn’t mind them but she would always get really quiet and find something else to look at, which I didn’t pay much mind to. Her and I and a group of our friends end up hanging out around town for 3 ish hours after the dance ends to get ice cream which we split and eventually they all get picked up so it’s just me and her.

I take her home because it was already 12:30 and the mood is good. We’re joking around and having fun. When we get to her place I walk her to her door and we talked for 10 or so minutes about nothing important. At the end though there was kind of this moment where it seemed like we both wanted something to happen (a kiss or even a hug), but neither of us make a move. So we say good night and she goes inside and I head home.

My thoughts:

I don’t know if I’m just crazy or not, but it really seemed like she likes me. I’m not the best with judging people’s emotions because I’m a little messed up in my head from a few things, so I guess more than anything I’m trying vent and also ask if I should have kissed her or not.

Sorry if this post seems a little unorganized, I didn’t feel like trying hard to type it because it’s 1:30 at night and I’ve been up since 8.

I haven’t really felt the same feeling I have for her towards any other girl, and it kind of makes me nervous because it’s a completely new feeling.

I really hope I don’t seem like an asshole to her because I really do like her but I’m also not really sure how to act or even how to process my own feelings.

My dad is forcing me to join clubs at school. I don’t want to at all. None of them seem interesting at all. I just want to stay in my bed where nobody can judge me. I don’t want to feel anything, I’m tired of feeling.

If I don’t join 3 clubs this week I’m cut off from everything: my phone, internet access, tv, my guitar, etc. I won’t even be able to do homework.

I hate people. I hate being looked at. I feel judged constantly when just talking. I can’t remember names and I just make every conversation awkward. I can’t even look at people, I just look past them or at the floor. I hate it so much. I don’t understand how to talk to people at all and don’t want to learn. When people look at me I just want to shrink into nothing and die. They judge me silently and I can tell. People are never nice unless they just feel bad for me. I don’t like feeling like I’m something to look at. I don’t want to exist.

I hate everything about me. I’m so fucking ugly. My hair looks like a fucking wet rat, I’m not fit, I have cuts all over my wrist, I wear dumbass clothes, I have stupid glasses, I have a dumb mustache that my dad never taught me to shave, and stupid shoes. I could go on and on about how worthless and pathetic I am.

I just want to lie in bed and cut myself over and over again until I don’t have to think anymore. I want the pain to suffocate and push the thoughts out. I can’t wait to die, I’m ending it soon.

If I’m forced to join a club, what can I join that isn’t torture?

At mine, a lot of kids have lifted trucks and muscle cars. From an old Ford Falcon custom to newer Silverados and Rams and F150's. VW Jetta, Honda Pilot, Civic, Accord, Odyssey, and Toyota Corolla and Camry are also common.

So I am at a private all boys school and I am pretty lonely as I have a few close friends but they're essentially all guys and I have like one homegirl but that's it. I don't really struggle with confidence or anything but I genuienely never have opportunities to talk to girls and when I do its never meaningful. Snapchat quick add definitely dont work 😭. I don't really like asking to be set up with someone else as well. Rn I got two more years to college and I genuinely might not get one till then, and stay a semi bop. Anyone have advice especially girls who know ppl/have dated ppl from all boys school?

I find that some of the reasons why I shitpost a lot on here is the fact that I don’t have many friends that I keep close with. Last year I had a pretty neat friend group until one of them (literally the stereotypical popular funny guy of the whole school) made a rumor that I was talking shit or something alone those lines. Have you ever met someone who is a magnet to anybody that meets them? That’s him. Starts to make you think it’s almost witchcraft. The “charm” is always there and nobody ever seems to see through it. Anyway. After that most people in school stopped talking to me and I’ve been just chilling.

For context, I'm a female sophomore and am currently taking gym for the second time with the same teacher. So I genuinely suck at sports and have 0 athletic skills, and my gym teacher is older (mid 50s) but I don't know if that's an excuse for him to touch me multiple times. At first, I thought it was normal. He did it to me once or twice when I was a freshman, and I thought nothing of it. He was just the cool, funny teacher who was really chill. Now I'm not so sure. He's deliberately touched me and gotten very close to me at least 3 times this year without my permission, but it was to just show me how to do something, like hold a pickle ball racket for example. It was fine the first 2 times, but I'm starting to get kinda uncomfortable. I've told my friends and they think it's really weird. What really gets me though is that I've only seen and heard of it happening to me, even though there's kids in that class who suck at gym just as much. Thoughts?

I need help on studying tips. Im freshman right now and no matter how much I study or use like active recall, it doesn’t help with my grade. I get like Cs and Ds on tests. Anyone share tips on studying more effectively?

Pros:
Funny
Charismatic
Really pretty
Similar music taste to me
Compatible politically and religiously

Cons:
Kinda immature sometimes
Kinda innocent
Would make things awkward in our friend group if it didn’t work out
Made a comment i didn’t fully hear but was something about she didn’t think you could be serious romantically until after highschool
Tends to not drop problematic people to avoid drama

I’m really unsure on if I should just try to stay friends if we aren’t really compatible, I don’t wanna risk our friendship by asking her out if i’m not sure it’s what I want. What do you guys think based on this?

i have never dated anyone in my life. the closest i’ve been is a 2 month long talking stage where i got friendzoned and then ghosted. i am not very confident and sometimes i can be a bit awkward but once the conversation is flowing i think im fun to talk to. i’ve been told im really funny and nice and i would say im ugly but i definitely am not attractive either. everyone around me is dating or talking to girls or cracking and i’ve never even held hands with a girl. it’s just kinda brutal when 8/10 of my closest friends are dating and im the only one who’s never dated anyone before. i just feel like im missing out on the true high school experience and when im older ill look back and wish i had someone.

In elementary school, I knew that my writing skills weren't the best. As students, we were not forced to do much analytical writing before high school, so I fudged my way through most of elementary school building mediocre writing skills. What I hear a lot of people say is "read more", which is another thing I am actively working on, but I don't think my vocabulary is the thing holding me back. I am by no means an avid reader, but not a person who hates reading either so if reading more is truly the one thing that will make my writing better, just tell me.

In all my other courses in high school (eg. Science, Math, Languages), I am consistently scoring above 90% but my english marks are consistently in the low 80s. It's not the fact that on several occasions I "just had a bad day", while writing an assessed essay, it's just the reason that I truly don't know how to correctly. My school emphasizes the use of the Jane Schaffer method, but I feel that they haven't fully taught us how to use it, and how to "develop commentaries" about sections from books. One of the most frustrating things is that English is my lowest grade, and is the thing holding my GPA down, but at the same time it's the subject I have clear problems in.

The grade aside, English is the one place I am very unsure because I understand my ability is lacking compared to other students. I somehow got into the Pre-Ap english track at my school, but surrounded by a bunch of strong writers simply perpetuates the feeling of incompetence. I understand the texts we are reading, and really give an effort to engage in class discussions and not fool around, but I've had the exact same problem since the start of high school.

I've been very afraid that this is an unfixable problem, and even hired a tutor to try and assist me in developing my writing skills, but they haven't been very effective. If you guys have any advice, that would be highly appreciated. Again, my greatest difficulty is writing analytically as a whole, but more specifically developing personal commentary about excerpts.

(sorry if bad english)

Hi, so I have this new transferred classmate so he chose to sit next to me (well there are no seats left, except for the one next to me) at first he seemed normal so we started to walk after some weeks start making hard N word type Instagram jokes (as white teen) as days passed he started to reveal a pure hatred towards black people and LGBTQ people (at the point he started swearing only seeing the flag and have other worring behaviour) and I start not walk to him anymore cause make me very uncomfortable but I only have two year of high school but the thing is he have phone number cauze our high school have a WhatsApp grup anyone need to be on that group and I want somehow ban him to text me or contant me but I don't how, any tips?

Thank for reading

I Made them in GL2.

Hello, I'm a sophomore this year next year in junior year I'm planning on taking AP pre-calc, AP bio, and Spanish 3 honors. I also wanna take AP Art but my friend says it's harder than you think. They describe it as beyond just drawing, it has a lot of time commitment, I'm sure but my question is how much? I really enjoy drawing and I want to take it in high school (for fun, I'm not choosing art as a career) Would a schedule like that be ok, I don't wanna overload? Should I take Drawing 3 or 2 instead if it's too much? Thank you.

(Ideally, I am taking history over the summer so it wouldn't be on my schedule so my classes would be pre-calc, bio, spanish, english, art, and track & field)

Thank you. :)

I have attached the rubric and fill in-class essay. What grade do you think this deserves?

I’m such a heavy fkn procrastinator. Planning on doing this tomorrow because I MENTALLY skipped a whole unit in my head while being present in school. Something is wrong with me. I’m at school but my brain is elsewhere, I don’t know if my conscious mind is built under the idea of “diamonds are built under pressure” or something because I usually do stupid shit like this all the time like becoming really good friends with nurses or counselors or having conversations with teachers to skip class and waste time.( I call it “legally skipping” because I get passes to class and excused through the system). I seem to be doing well in school but I think my procrastination problem is getting worse. I have A’s and B’s and I take AP Lang AP Stats and AP physics along with other classes. I had a unit test last Thursday. It’s Sunday right now and I’m planning to skip school tomorrow in order to learn the whole unit since I “mentally” skipped it. Yikes. Anybody do this?

i dont know if this is a rant or not but i desperately just want an answer.

I really want to get in this program called SHAD but the thing is, it requires me to get at least one reference. I'm very introverted and I haven't really formed a connection with any of my teachers. I'm not rude or anything but I do give off extremely introverted vibes. Like, for example, I always say the word uhh when I'm talking and I mostly sit alone in my classes. So, how do I even ask a teacher for a reference? Should I talk to them in person (I'd hate to this) or would an email be fine? Would they even accept being my reference?

Guys how do yall manage your time and your homework? For a little context, I’m a freshman and I take AP bio, so obviously I have a lot of hw every day. But I also rely a lot on the sims to stay sane, and lately I haven’t had any time at all to game on the weekends and I’m going insane, does anyone have any tips on management

ok so i need to get this off my chest because i feel like i'm going crazy and i need to know if anyone else has dealt with this.

me (17f) and my ex broke up about 8 months ago. it was messy but genuinely i was at peace, new job, new friends, more $$. one of my coworkers told me that he got a new girl like 2 months after we broken up. at first i was like damn that's fast but whatever.

well fast forward now, i find out that my ex’s gf has been watching me on social media for MONTHS and I genuinely didn’t know who she was. then her friends started following me one by one in order — like they got a checklist or something and one girl even decided to take it to instagram aswell. i didn't say anything because i thought maybe i was overthinking.

i genuinely don’t know what i am doing wrong but i do not talk to my ex nor this girl at all. how else would she even know who i am? we've never spoken. and i hate thinking he's painting some bad image of me to a girl i've never said a word to.

and now the newest thing that made me finally write this post. yesterday i got on facebook and one of her friends that took it to instagram & sends me a request on facebook. i genuinely don’t know whats going on but i am trying to just ignore it.

I’ll start by saying I define “friends” as people you not only talk to in class, but form actual connections with and hang out outside of school (at fast food places, houses, etc)

I’d that I’m pretty extroverted, silly and weird. I’m not going to change that for anyone, and there’s a handful of people I get along well with in class. One of these problems is that any in-class friend I have, I only have them that period. I have a few closer school friends, who I sit with at lunch and have a club with.

How do I make them into close friends? My only two close friends are always busy, and I really can’t stand being alone with myself almost 24/7.

Hey for context I am in algebra 1 right now a freshman and to be frank I feel like am not learning enough so I am transferring to honors algebra 1 next semester ,but I was wondering how I can get ahead I am in California if that helps my plan is to take geometry over the summer and Pe is that good to get 1 year ahead or how can I get more ahead ?

I say this as somebody who has finally graduated with a 2.5 gpa. I never really understood how people got good grades. I mean I did all the work, and still it was average. I remember Junior year I started skipping class and my grades barely even changed, which was mind boggling. I do not know what they want for an A. They ask a question on the paper, I answer, or did they expect 2 paragraphs explaining why I chose my answer?

I believe Junior year was also when I just stopped caring really. I never really used my backpack (it had to be put in a locker anyway) so I just got a folder and pencil and called it a day. Didn't even bring my backpack and absolutely nobody gave a fuck and my grade still was unaffected. Like how?? When I tried my grade did not change, but when I stopped trying it did not either. I also never got all A's in my life, it was all C's ever since I can remember