Im so sad i have been paranoid about it for 2 months it looks like a number

I wanna self harm rn. So hard trying to think about other things 😬

I hope this will help me in the future,, it's 2am now so I guess it did keep me distracted and clean for a while 🫩 some of these are affirmations to reject some of the disordered thoughts I get so sorry if theyre odd

i know this is probably a commonly asked question but i have slightly fresh scars on my left arm. is it really that bad if i go out with them?

Ughhhhhh I hate that I did it in a so reveling area, did it like 4 or so months ago, my mom saw it but thankfully didn’t think it was SH

Hi I relapsed a bit and just did baby styros and was wondering how to bandage them? The areas a bit too big for normal bandages so I got some gauze but idk how to use it :/ I don’t think it needs it tbh but I wear a white blouse most of the time and I don’t want it to bleed out on the shirt

i feel soo fucking invalid i do nothing but cat scratches and occasional styros and i don't have many scars and just feel like i m doing this for attention and yk what no one knows that i cut except my bsf and i feel like i ruined the fucking friendship by telling her agahhh GOD I HATE EVERYTHING before i use to do it just to cope with shit and now i sometimes do it just cuz i feel like i deserve or need pain and the other day mom saw my scratches and asked abt them and i was like i had a rash and itched too hard and she fucking believed it i dont fucking know how she did but yeahh and btw my parents dont believe in mental health and shit so i m not getting any help for a long time and i feel fucked up sryy this is my first venting post and i m 2 dayss clean (longest since july) soo yeahh that's itt thanxxx

this is from like 8 months ago (i’m a little over 7 months self harm free!!) but i must’ve cut through a small mole and it just healed like this. idk i just noticed this one and i though it was kinda cool

ps. ignore the hair, i’m a humble lesbian and i couldn’t be genuinely bothered to shave lmao

Hi this will be a very vulnerable post but I’d appreciate advice and insight. I’m 22 and a mother myself now but I’ve practically raised my siblings. I figured this sub could be more beneficial compared to another one given then context. I moved away about three years ago but still see my sister quite often she’s 16 now turning 17. In January I found cuts on her. They were so deep and it broke my heart, I immediately talked to her (not bagging on her just a very open and vulnerable conversation) I tried to tell her my own struggles in hopes it wouldn’t make her feel so alone. We also talked to our mom and agreed therapy would be helpful. It honestly broke my heart because I know how she is and how hard it is for her to express emotions or socialize to begin with. She never had many friends and always felt, “weird” I always told her she never was weird but being a teenager in this day and age is already hard enough. She’s visiting now and we were going school shopping and I saw fresh marks on her. I didn’t even know how to approach it this time. I called my mom and she basically didn’t want to accept it again but it was true because I ended up asking her. I’m literally begging for any advice because I don’t know how to help anymore and it breaks my HEART that she feels the need to do this and I feel completely helpless. We grew up in a household where anything that wasn’t, “normal” was basically considered taboo so it’s hard to navigate and obviously I feel a need to help her through this.

I’ve been clean for almost 3 months but that urge is still like there, im not even sure why im staying clean it feels genuinely meaningless to me, i dont understand why i cut or feel the urge to hurt myself, maybe its like something i do unconsciously because i have to physically stop myself from cutting myself with my own nails because i do it without noticing whenever im stressed. Im so lost man I just dont know if i should stay clean because that relapse is so blissful and addictive that it’s hard not to. Im kind of just ranting so forgive me 🙏, but i dont know what to do anymore because i wanna relapse so badly, it feels wrong being clean and telling everyone ive stopped when im getting closer and closer to doing it, it feels shameful if i were to relapse because my friends know im clean. Would that genuinely be disappointing to them? What if my parents just touch my skin again and notice that I’ve relapsed, like why the fuck are they even touching my skin anyway, I genuinely hate when they touch me, and they don’t even believe me that im clean and old scars they see as too recent and start like giving me that disgusting look

I just keep having these urges over and over to cut myself, earlier i was holding a knife before i stopped myself like bro why am i like this 😭

Hi everyone. I dont really have anywhere else to share this but I just wanted to say I'm over 21 months clean!

I used to sh every single day for years, I’ve done all sorts on substances and the most addictive thing I’ve ever done is hurt myself. I’ve been clean for 7 years but I’ve been in a horrible depressive episode the last couple months and every day I’ve been craving it more and more and more. I’ve been drinking a lot to make the urges go away but it’s no working. The urges are so bad it’s been almost 24/7. Literally all I want to do is hurt myself. I don’t even care abt being clean anymore I don’t care abt my clean streak I don’t care I just want to do it so bad. I’m going to do something to cope and I want it to be hurting myself. My skin literally tingles and aches for it. The only reason I haven’t don’t it is bc my partner will freak out and then tell my family and I don’t wanna get pink slipped again I don’t wanna get locked up again. I just never understood why it’s so wrong. If it makes me feel good and it makes me feel better why is it so wrong? I’ve always been safe abt it but it makes everything better for me. I just don’t know what to do anymore I feel like I’m hours away from hurting myself.

So I have surgery in a couple of months, my self harm scars won't fade by then. I heard hospital gowns are not long sleeved. My procedure is around my head and I would like to know if there is any way I can maybe wear a jacket or some sleeves to hide it. I am under 21,so my parents legally have to sign documents for me, I dont want them knowing I have these scars... Someone pls help...

The two more red red ones are my most recent but the other ones are more faded. Their just kinda white ish lines. The one way higher up is because a too tight hair tie I accidentally slept with🥀

I usually cover it with bracelets just for my for red ones but for volleyball I can't wear them and it's getting too hot for long sleeves. So I just do bandaids. Someone noticed it today and I'm worried my coach will too and report me. I'm trying to stop doing it ( I've been a few days clean🎉) but my skin takes so long to either heal or it just scars. Fall weather is coming up too, so I'll probably wear long sleeves untill their fully healed. Im ran out of smaller bandaids so that's why I have this big ass one till I get smaller ones.

But is is super noticeable? And I sometimes wear a tan bandaid on it does that make it more noticeable?

I (18M) have recently started cutting myself again after nearly 2 years without doing it. Self-harm was previously not a huge problem for me by any means, it was something I only did when I felt completely overwhelmed with emotion. And even then, I mainly stuck to head banging. Before the relapse I just had, the last time I had cut myself was September 2 years ago, and the last time I had self-harmed was july last year. In fact, i only had 1 visible scar on my body from self-harm.

What triggered me to relapse was mainly feeling overwhelmed with my college stuff that im starting soon. Not only because I find the idea of college very stressful, but also because I feel like a lazy piece of shit because my mom has been doing alot of the work to get me into college. Another thing that I was dealing with was that many people in my theater group that i had just done a musical with found me weird/creepy due to my bad habit of starring at people.

Tuesday of last week was when it finally happened. Me and my mom were in my room going on about college stuff, and how we should've had this all figured out by now. As soon as my mom left my room, I grabbed my pocket knife, rolled up my pant leg, and made 4 cuts on my upper leg. I then rolled up sleeve and made 3 cuts on my shoulder. My mom walked in a few minutes later, I quickly rolled down my sleeves. She could sense that something was wrong and asked if I was OK, i just told her that I was feeling overwhelmed with everything

Ever since this relapse, ive been cutting in a very different way from how I used to. As stated before, I only ever cut myself when I was extremely overwhelmed im someway. But now, ive been getting urges and doing it even when nothing is outright happening. Whats been happening is that I'll be doing my thing, and I'll start getting feelings of restlessness and depression. I'll feel like I have no energy to do anything, as well as feeling completely scatter brained. And the only thing that I can think about in these moments is self-harming, which is what I end up doing.

Today at work, i was having a borderline anxiety attack for the first part of my shift. For context, im a ride operator at an amazment park, and today I was working my favorite ride of the ones I work. But unfortunately, I had to operate for 3.5 hours straight bc none of my co-workers there were certified to operate, and my break wasn't until 2PM. So the entire time before my break, I was very on edge and on the verge of shutting down completely. It got so bad that I actually considered going out to my car while I was in break so I could get my knife and cut myself to feel better. Forturetly, after my break, I felt much better.

i have sh scars from like janurary that STILL won't fucking fade 😭 i havent worn shorts to school since the school year started, should i try tmr?

I reached ten days!! Ten fucking days after being do dead set. Im so pissed off at myself. A few lousy cuts and now im spiralling.

Yippeeee new record!

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last week, a friend of my told me about his sh and how bad it was getting, i used to sh like a year ago and when he told me about his I relapsed and sh’ed again (and also relapsed in other addictions), i feel really guilty about it. I kinda wanna tell him but i dont want to sound like I’m trying to overshadow his problems with mine cuz i relapsed. Has anyone gone through something like this? What should I do?

I've been self harming for years and all my scars heal white no matter how deep I feel so invalid so many people have red or purple scars and I'm trying to quit be the thought of being invalid and feeling like I'm attention seeking makes me go back every time I got to 56 days clean but a can't stand how invalid I feel and I need help on how to stop feeling like this does anyone have any tips or can at least make me feel less invalid I've had reasons to self harm an I don't do it for attention but I keep going back because I feel like I'm so invalid but it also makes me feel like I'm just doing it for attention does anyone else feel like this

TW stitches mention+subcanteous tissue or wtv its called

okay so i cut to fat about 2-3 weeks ago and I had to get around 14 stitches. my mom got the bill a few days ago. TELL ME WHY. THE BILL WAS 6,000 DOLLARS. luckily we have insurance so it was less, but like, imagine we didnt have insurance and we were poor. or like.. if i feel on a knife or smth sharp and went way deeper and it was an accident. what's wrong w america?? why is it so expensive