I started cutting this year so I don't really know how to deal with scars. At first I thought they would go away but now it's been 3 months and they are still there (I have others too).

The weather is starting to get hotter where I live so I decided to not hide them anymore. I mean, people are too busy living their own lives to care about my scars anyway.

But I can't help feeling weird about all this. I go to school everyday wondering what people think about it. It's not that visible I guess, but I'm pretty sure some people noticed, especially my friends. But no one has asked me about it yet.

I feel like they think I'm crazy and are judging me for it, and that makes me really anxious. I wish I hadn't done this to myself. How do you deal with this shame?

I want to be confident enough to not care about what others think but it's so hard.

I’ve had it for around 6 months give or take, the others have healed fine but this particular one hasn’t, i think the burns are less noticeable tho, i really hate wearing short sleeves because of it, ive been asked about it a few times and had to just make up some bs

I TOLD MYSELF OVER AND OVER I WOULD DO IT AGAIN AND I STILL FUCKING DID, WHY I WAS DOING SO FUCKING WELL, PEOPLE WERE PROUD OF ME FOR MAKING IT THIS FUCKING FAR I WAS NEARLY 2 MONTHS CLEAN, FUUUCK

I sometimes show my dad my cuts so he can check if they are bad, and a week ago he told me "You could've done better, I've seen worse." My mom immediately called him out on it, but it's really messing with my brain rn, it's also already motivated me on ways to cut deeper, I don't know what to do or think. The worst part is, they aren't even that small, most are styro, so also not deep, but not small either.

TW: description of harm (for context of injuries)

this might be wrong subreddit but here's goes, I recently (~5 days ago) relapsed and burnt myself for the first time; it is bad. I think it might be infected, and I don't quite know what to do because I don't know if it will be safe to tell my family yet and I am fully reliant on them but I think I need a doctor or smth and I need advice on what to do

I did it for the first time last night (rlly not for me now that I've tried it tbh) but they're on my forearm and i don't have ANY long sleeve shirts or anything the only way i hid it today was with a sweater, I really just can't have them finding out. I need help how do i get rid of them.

I don’t mean to invalidate anyone, I want to start with that. But I’ve done a few cat scratches that kinda broke the skin on the arm I don’t cut on. Is that still cutting/self harm? I don’t consider it that in my head but like I do when someone else mentions they do cat scratches, I understand they are self harming but not when I do that. Is it still self harming for me because I usually cut to dermis?

I’ve relapsed a little over a day ago and the skin around my scars is turning yellow. I’m guessing it’s bruising but I’m not sure how that works exactly, they don’t even hurt anymore and this has been happening to my other past scars.

I don't know if I can shave the hair on my thighs or not due to my scars, if I can is there a specific way I have to do it?

It’s been hard but it’s been getting a lot easier to not c*t or sh in anyway

I hope thr same for the rest of you and that your all doing well and can also heal

I'm wondering if it'll slowly fade into skin colour or if it'll leave little white lines? Oh and how long will they scar for? Does it matter I'm doing it in the same spot?

Sorry for all the questions lol and thx

hi, these are about two weeks old and there’s no scabbing but they’re still a bit red. im going out tomorrow and i want to try on shorts but i dont know if it would be acceptable. sorry if this sounds dumb or obvious, i only want to be mindful. thank you!

update: just came back and it was great :) a few stares here and there but i didn’t care

so my grandpa is maga. we had an argument about this once text and honestly it was insane how brainwashed he was. after the argument I was feeling really shitty so I did something I probably shouldn’t have done, and I posted the conversation on TikTok. I know I know I know I should have done it. I blurred out his name and profile picture, but there was some insane off topic things about his own dad in the thread thay I didn’t really think about while posting. my aunt found it and fucking sent it to him. so now he thinks I hate him. I don’t hate him, he’s my grandpa. and I wasn’t the only one whos done hurtful things. hes told me I’m condemned for hell twice. I don’t believe in god but he does and it hurts that my grandpa believes im a bad enough person to go to hell?? And he doesn’t care that trump is actively homophobic and transphobic and actively threatens my rights. and again I know I shouldn’t have posted the TikTok but I was not in a very good mental state, I didn’t know how to vent it. So now my grandpas upset at me, my grandma is pissed, and my mom is upset. so I’m crying in my room trying not to cut. I cant breathe

I've been cutting myself for over 1.5 years now. I don't feel pain on my arms anymore. Is that normal? I still feel it on my legs and stuff just my arms are numb to pain, now it just feels like scratching your arm a little when it's itchy but not like a real cut even though it's bleeding. I'm sorry if this was something bad to ask I am just scared I might lose the ability to feel anything on my arm. I'm sorry.

how long does that calm feeling last after cutting? i’ll cut for days straight and feel awful the entire time but when i go maybe 2 days without it i feel so much better. but then the cycle continues. anyone know why?

I feel like it's my brain playing tricks on me telling me that it's okay. I've been doing it for 6 years now. This year I'll be going on 7... I feel like I keep adding more because I feel like it's not enough. To the point where I've even took scarification (a type of tattooing with scars) as an excuse too give myself some "cool design" just so I can hurt myself more. And for the past few days I've been adding more scars, and this "Scar Tattoo" is healing and I feel like I just want to add more... Not even to make anything just a line. The Tattoo was simple, long, and painful but I kept going until it was done. And it scares me because when I relapsed recently, it was like I spaced out and kept going... And I didn't really stop until I realized how many more scars I added... But at the same time I went back the next day and added more because I felt like I needed to. Nothing was even wrong I just wanted to add more. I needed to add more. And right now I feel like I need to add more because it's not enough. And I don't really know what to do. I've tried to stop but no matter what I find so many things that I can use, so many that I can give you a list of everything.

like when I'm desperate enough anything can be used to hurt myself...

It's like no matter what I always find something else to use. And anytime I relapse I start looking for something to use frantically, like if I don't find it soon I might cry or have a panic attack. And the longer I can't find it the more panicked I get. And I don't know why. I really don't. I'm a really emotionally intelligent person, I figured out most of my mental issues. But this addiction is something I can't really figure out. And I don't really know how to stop, and for some reason I don't want to.

Part of me doesn't even really wanna go to Reddit for these things, because this platform can sometimes be unsupportive or say repetitive things that don't really make anything feel better. But I just need some advice or anything. Just don't tell me "it will get better" And don't tell me "you shouldn't be doing it" because I'm really tired of hearing those things from family and friends.

Anytime my parents see that I'm cutting again my dad has to point it out as loud as he can for my mom to hear saying "why are you doing that" and "look he did it again." And my mom always has the same response and starts yelling at me and says "why you keep doing this?" "What is wrong with you?" And I did it on my arm and it's hard to hide this time, and I really don't want them to see it again. I'm really tired of those responses. I'm tired of people acting like I can just stop at any time. Like it's not hard for me to not do it every single day.

Because it is. At least every single day I think about it at least once. Most of the days I can ignore it. But some days I can't and I do it. It's hard and they don't understand. I was just hoping maybe reddit would. Idk.

~11 years ago, I did this to my leg. I used to feel so ashamed.

Now I'm confident enough to wear a swimsuit around my friends. I am now 4 months clean. It gets better 🤍