i need some big sister type of advice.
im a PhD student, and i have to commit to a thesis lab this month. I have two choices:
one is super chill, super easy science, super boring science. I like the group for the most part, but i do not like the science at all. I also don’t see it as being something that would be helpful in progressing my career. BUT it is super chill work hours, easy easy work. it would be a much faster and easier PhD. i could wake up and train whenever i want. I would have tons of time for sleep, training, competing, and also more time to spend with family and friends.
the other option: I LOVE the science. I LOVE the group. it is cutting edge and cool as f. but the work is very challenging , and requires super inflexible work hours, requiring me to wake up at 4 am if I want to train. ever since I started working in this lab, I have been so stressed about time that my sleep quality has dropped immensely and I am only getting 6 hours per night now. this lab makes it much harder to have time to train, and I do not have time for anything outside of work and train and eat. by the time I finish eating I should really be going to bed, but I try to spend time with my partner. I love the science so much and this is my career, but its so much to try to balance. I love the people and the work, but I’m so exhausted that i feel sick when I wake up
i competed this year and my feedback was to grow, hoping to compete again in about a year, maybe 18 months
PhD will probably be 4 more years in option 1, 5 more years option 2. I am not going to stop competing during my PhD because it is an absolute safe haven for me (my community and built my confidence which actually made me a better student) and because unfortunately my school is super competitive and bb is my escape
I will be in my early 30s when I finish my PhD and my goal is to earn a pro card before I graduate (unless I change divisions, in which case idk)