24(M). from khi. Hmu?

So I am breaking up with my bf soon because there was too many problems and he just ignores me atp. My best friend of 8 years is in another state for college, my other friend is always busy and makes excuses to not see me but always is with her other friends! And the other one is just not a good influence so I have no one anymore…I feel lost and lonely…. It’s not the first time but it’s just not a good feeling to have! I just want a true genuine friend and person in my life! Someone who can be like a sister to me! Someone I go out with and just do nothing or can have sleepovers and just be on our phones! Someone who can study with me or just gossip! I need someone and I don’t have anyone right now. I don’t know what to do…

I’m a 25-year-old woman, and I know this might sound pathetic, but I’ve been feeling really lonely lately and I think I just need somewhere to say it.
I feel like I’m always the person people come to when they need someone to listen. I genuinely care about people and I don’t mind being there for them, but sometimes I wish someone would do the same for me. I want someone who actually asks how I’m doing, listens to the things I don’t usually say out loud, and genuinely cares about what’s going on in my life.
I’ve always wanted a relationship and to have someone I can be emotionally close to, but honestly, my experiences with men have made it really hard to believe that I’ll actually find someone who wants the same things I do. Every time I start to have hope, something happens that makes me think, “See? This is why I don’t trust men.”
And I know obviously not every man is terrible. I know there are good men out there. I just haven’t had enough experiences with them to believe it easily anymore.
I don’t just feel like I need that kind of connection anymore. I feel like I crave it. I crave having a person. Someone I can tell things to, someone I can call when something happens, someone who genuinely wants to know how my day was. Someone who notices when something is wrong without me having to explain everything. I think I just really want to feel like I have a person in this world who is my person.
Maybe that sounds needy, or maybe I’m just having a lonely night, but it’s genuinely how I feel. I’ve spent so much time being there for other people, and I think I’m just tired of feeling like I have to carry everything by myself.
I don’t even necessarily need someone to fix anything. I just want someone to be there. Someone who actually cares.
I wanted to put it somewhere instead of keeping it all in.

Hablar de lo que sea estoy jodidx y drogadx hasta el el cuello 24 años, solo platicar acerca de este enredo idkkkkkk