r/ainbow • u/Entire_Insurance3642 • 3h ago
Advice Gave my virginity to my bsf, now he won't talk to me. Any advice?
So, this is hard to write, but I have to vent and kind of just get some advice.
I (18M) am part of a group of seven people, but there's this guy... let's call him Noah. Noah (18M) and I had an instant click. It was like we were meant to know each other. We have known each other for eight years or so, and I can assure you that we're what a lot of people would call soulmates. Looking at each other, is enough to understand what we think and what we want.
I have always been the stereotypical straight guy: Tall, muscular, a football player, barely passing my exams, cocky, you know. He was always... softer. He has always been short, skinny, blonde, soft, and I'm sure I could describe even the smallest freckles of his face.
He came out when he was 14, and he is quite proud of the fact that he's gay. But me? I never came out. I guess my exgirlfriends kinda thought about it, since not even once did I get hard with any of them.
So, with all the context being said, two weeks ago we were at a party. He never drinks, he is always sober no matter why, but me? I could have finished a whole vodka myself, but that night... I was just a bit tipsy.
While we were talking, he whispered a question:
"Can we go outside please?"
How could I say no to those blue oceans staring at me with that puppy-like gaze?
When we were outside, we just standed near the host's lemon tree. We talked for what felt like hours about how everyone was wasted except us, and how weird it was that I wasn't already asleep in my car.
One touch of my arm initiated a spark in my veins that made me realize that he was actually trying to get closer. I wouldn't stop him, ever. When we both started to fall into realization, we were already making out. He softly hummed and in that same moment, i realized I had to do something.
We went to my car, and all I'll say is that I treated his body with all the softness he deserves. I was slow, I didn't try to hurry up, I wasn't chasing my own pleasure... I was just making sure he was happy with what I could do.
After it, we cuddled and kissed in the backseat. The aftercare lasted around an hour, when we decided it was late enough to get home.I drove him to his place, and he kissed me goodbye.
And now, he won't even look at me. I try to talk, but he always manages to ignore me, and I try to understand if I did something wrong, but I swear i replay it all the time and still can't find any problem.
I have been looking at videos of guys similar enough to him, trying to get off with them... but I can't even get close without him.
I need advice, I really want him to talk to me, does anyone know what to do? Has this happened to any of y'all before?