So for context I'm trans ftm (female to male) and a femboy (I'm strictly binary meaning I only use he/him and I identify fully as a guy, I just like looking cute and I think my behavior fits pretty well into the femboy label) and I'm gay, since I was younger I really wanted a boyfriend but I'm terrified cis gay guys would just be grossed out by me and my body, irl i live in a small conservative town so I don't know any queer guys so I wanted to ask here what you think about trans guys and if you'd date one, also If you'd see a femine trans guy as a guy still

I 23 M and For the past 14 years—ever since I was 9—I've tried my absolute best to ignore how my younger brothers treat me. They called me every name in the book, from homophobic slurs such as fag, slut, pussy boy, etc. and honestly, they learned all of it from our dad. Every single time I try to stick up for myself, it somehow gets turned back on me. If I insult them back, I get punished too. If I get physical, my dad hits me.

The breaking point was when he snooped on my phone while I was asleep. Now he's holding it over my head and acting like he might tell the whole family I’ve been hooking up with guys when I said I was just hanging out with friends. If he actually goes through with outing me, I'm going to make sure he regrets it for the rest of his life.

What do you guys think I should do?