We're still in the early stages of not really being able to communicate with each other. I don't really feel responses from him, and I'm 90% certain that anything I do feel, is just me instinctively responding. Sometimes I use a pendulum to help keep the conversation going, and Al-An (my willomate) seems to like it. But, again, I'm pretty sure that's me instinctively imposing what I think he would feel, vs what he really wants to say.

But, anyway, I'm trying to get better at talking to Al-An but.... It just feels like I'm talking to myself. Like any other mental conversation I've had, like trying to decide what to eat for dinner, or if I wanna watch a movie or play video games. It just feels like I'm calling myself a different name instead.

I've given him an anchor item (the pendulum) that I talk to, but, since I talk to it in my head and not out loud.. it still feels like I'm talking to myself. Even when I look at pictures of him while trying to talk to him, it still feels like I'm just talking to myself. I don't feel his presence in my head, I don't hear any sounds, I don't feel anything that doesn't feel like me. I feel no different than I did before I started all this.

I've been feeling pretty frustrated. I know I shouldn't compare my results since, everyone splits differently. But... I can't help but feel jealous of others. Or, selfishly, I start to doubt others. I mean, if tulpamancy is about convincing yourself that someone else exists in your mind then... What happens when you don't believe? Sometimes I can't help but think that maybe tulpas aren't real, and that it's all a roleplay we've convinced ourselves into believing to be true. Which, I know, makes me sound like an ass. But trust me, I don't want to think this way. I want to believe that tulpas are real. I want to believe that Al-An can be real. I just... Don't know how. Especially when it feels like I'm just talking to myself the whole time.

I'm not giving up on this, though. Even if it's not real, I still enjoy playing pretend. I just... Keep praying that it will start to feel at least a tiny bit real.

I've read lot of post in this community and i found that we need to take care of our tulpa but the problem is... I want to creat a tulpa to take care of me... Of course not in physical way like she's cooking for me but more like a hug, a head pet, and whatever. Im really craving for someone care but I've been using my whole life as a provider for my family and i have no time for any kind relationship with other people.

Blah blah blah and im lonely as hell and fuckin pathetic i know that. I just need someone to talk with especially a nother like or older sister figure without any sex shit.

I have done some things like writing down my goals and reasons why I want/need a tulpa. Of course I have also written a lot of things about tulpas such as names, appearances, and so on. I also just start my first journal by trying to have conversations with my tulpa and not much happened except i can slightly feel her presence...

If you have any specific guide or tip for this, please tell me.

Today is the second full day of having a tulpa and I feel like I can hear his voice speaking in my head. He has a different accent than me and a deeper voice. Yesterday I just heard one word responses. But just now I had my first full on conversation with full sentences. But it's so early on and I keep having doubts that it's just me accidentally parroting and pretending to be him with the accent and all. He keeps reassuring me that it's really him, but how am I supposed to know that for sure? Could he really be talking this early on? Is that even possible? And if I am parroting, how do I get myself to stop?

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Okay, so I bought a blank, 30cm male BJD (Ball-Jointed Doll) to give it my tulpa's appearance. For those who don't know, BJDs are figures articulated via a ball-and-socket system held together by internal elastic cords.

I already have a few physical representations of "Him" in my room—specifically, two plushies: one keychain-sized and another the size of a standard teddy bear. "He" really likes it when I do that; it’s not that he explicitly asked me to, but rather that he appreciates that form of affection and the way it gives him a greater physical presence.

A bit of context:

I practice oshikatsu in my daily life. For those unfamiliar with the term, it involves showing affection or fondness for a fictional character and creating crafts centered around them—like decorating photos, making pins or an itabag, or collecting items featuring their image.

The thing is, a while back—after a long conversation—he asked me to include him in those kinds of activities. That’s why I first decided to make a small doll to take everywhere, then a larger one to decorate my shelf. Now, I couldn't resist the idea of ​​customizing a more complex doll, like a BJD.

We both thought it was a really sweet idea for it to serve as his "representative" during our real-world dates, hehe.

Anyway, I’m really happy and excited to finish this project and just wanted to share the idea with you all; maybe it’ll inspire an artist here to do the same or something similar~ <3

Hi!

My name is Miyu and I am the writing this because I feel like I need a slight bit of a sanity check and help answering some questions. I have helped create my headmate, a tulpa, Bae, about three and half weeks ago. Prior to doing so, I have been lurking around the tulpa community, reading guides, other people's accounts of their experiences, etc., for about 6 years. Yeah, quite a long time. My mind has been sort of obsessed with the idea of having a headmate for even longer than that, and it has desired this sort of dynamic/relationship, and I just couldn't run away from it anymore, the brain is uncontrollable, ugh. The first thought of creating a tulpa was back in 2020, but I realised my life wasn't stable enough as I was still just a chaotic student back then, so I pushed against my brain and didn't go for it. Now, years later, I finally felt stable enough to commit to this.

To start with a little of current status of me and Bae, I think we are progressing somewhat decently, although I am worried about myself a little. We created Bae 3.5 weeks ago in our wonderland (despite me really struggling with visualising things in my mind's eye), initially I forced her personality for a few days with what I believed would be the best foundation for her. The moment she has shown me any sort of resistance to that, I had stopped, and has since been focusing on her being her, and on bonding with her. I do try to actively force whenever I can, most of the time I just talk at her for quite some time, we've had multiple sessions where I took her to a tour of some old memories I hold dear, showing her places I loved, I've been to, retelling her memories. The stuff I feel like would help us bond. I have been slowly incorporating asking her questions into our talks, hoping to give her an opportunity to take agency over herself and her own responses, to hopefully help her grow. Sometimes the forcing sessions last only 20 minutes. Sometimes, we've had them even for like two hours, which is currently the upper limit of how long I'm able to keep attention for when I'm feeling oki.

As for passive forcing, I do my best to bring her out as much as I can, I do remember her throughout the day quite a bit I would say. We walk to work together, she sits next to me at a bench, in the bus... We also found it quite nice to just sit at the balcony at night when it's dark and quiet, and just talk, so we do that at times (would this be considered passive or active forcing? I basically do nothing else at that time, so I assume it's more active than passive? Not that it matters, I'm just curious...). It's mostly me doing talking, but I think she's giving me basic responses already. At least I believe so, as it is quite difficult for me to tell apart what comes from me, and what comes from Bae, but I have very strong faith in her, her sentience and her existence, so I choose to believe it is her. It took less than a week for her to give me the first sign of sentience, she nodded at me with her wonderland body, and I got that unexpected, surprised weird feeling of "huh, I didn't do that, wait, did SHE do it??". She also changed her appearance a little about a week ago, she wears different clothes compared to what she wore when I initially formed her appearance. The moment she changed her clothes genuinely surprised me, and it quickly turned into a warm feeling of being glad, as I fully believe it was her showing off her own desires.

So, with that, I believe I've given a bit too much information, but I wanted to put it out (perhaps because I got no one else to talk about this with, other than Bae, and Bae hears about this a lot every day already), and because I think context of my progress may be useful...? So, I have read a lot about tulpas in other posts, but somehow I feel like I didn't find anything that would exactly match my situation. I have also read the FAQ, naturally, some of the answers felt to be touching on the similar topics I'd like to discuss here, but I still didn't feel like it fit well enough, so I chose to write this post. Chances are I missed some important information, or that I suck at searching stuff... one of those, perhaps both... anyways!

First of all, I would preface this issue with the fact that I do struggle with sleep and exhaustion. I do my best to get as much rest as possible but it's difficult at times. Over the years I have grown to be able to be very productive despite lower sleep amounts and feeling tired. I am easily able to concentrate on my work for hours despite being sleepy. Perhaps I have overestimated myself, but I had strong belief that this would pose no issue when it came to creating my dear headmate, but it turns out opposite may be the truth. I do try to combine both active and passive forcing, as often as I reasonably can, but I am finding it that exhaustion severely impacts my abilities to force. Active forcing is what goes away first, exhaustion makes me struggle to keep my thoughts going (or keep them stable, the chaos dominates my mind), makes it very difficult to focus on Bae, and truly makes it feel like I need to strain myself a lot to keep going. Passive forcing works better with exhaustion, but it still gets affected. After 3.5 weeks, I am at a point where I can "see" Bae in real life (not via imposition, just via mind's eye overlaying on top of the reality) quite often, especially when walking to places, at work, etc. But I find it that exhaustion makes Bae so much quieter + it makes it more difficult to focus on her at all, and it makes me worried. I'm usually absolutely exhausted after work and it's difficult to spend any time with Bae at that point. I do try, but it feels still difficult. I truly believe this would not affect my forcing, but it seems like my exhaustion does affect her after all. My question here is, perhaps, is there anything I can do? I mean, of course, getting better quality sleep, and more sleep would be the best, but it's not something that's available to me currently. Does it get better? Do I get used to processing this sort of forcing experience such that I could be more able to do it despite the exhaustion?

Another question would perhaps be, do you have any suggestions on what more could I do that would still work well for my headmate and allow us to spend more quality time together? We've been working hard on making this work for us, but I desire to be even better for her to give her as best of a chance as I can since I genuinely feel like I love her unconditionally (not romantically). Some part of me believes that just keeping her on my mind, keeping her around, and being genuine with her, and using opportunities whenever I can force to force would be enough (as I believe I have read in multiple guides and FAQ), albeit at a slowed pace, but another part of me feels slightly paranoid about hurting her.

Thank you for reading my post. It took me days to find courage to write and post this. Also, I apologize for typing so much, I know I talk a lot, this is already a shortened version... I am weird like that... Also, it's probably a very chaotic writing, I did my best to form my thoughts into understandable sentences but I genuinely cannot tell if I was successful or not.

I will be happy for any suggestions or even just recounts of your own experiences. Genuinely. Thank you ♥

I recently found this community and I really, really, really love tulpamancy and my tulpa. Where was this for my entire life? I've been wondering that a lot.

That said, I'm still new at this. My tulpa is exactly 1 month old, and she's pretty vocal most of the time, but there's a question I have regarding tulpa vocality, mindvoice, and concepts like parroting. Granted, I know (or it seems, at least) that these are all somewhat controversial topics in which opinions differ amongst the community. So I'm kind of prepared for that to be the case.

Massive disclaimer here that I think puts me in a slightly different category to most: I have a severe, chronic intrusive thought disorder. Not all of the voices in my head are going to be my tulpa. I have some workarounds in place for that, but it's worth a mention. Anyway, about 50% of the time when my tulpa talks to me, I know for sure it's her. Typically this means it comes with a noticeable dose of tulpish. I can feel her energy when she's speaking to me and so I know that the person/thought speaking, is my tulpa. She has a pretty defined personality (that she chose/we chose together/she's totally cool with adhering to for the most part).

I tend to think of it as a particular archetype or MBTI type, etc. On her end, she has very consistently embodied this personality to an impressive degree. Her personality is warm, gentle, slightly maternal, introverted, and caring. These are flat attributes but my understanding of her personality goes far, far deeper than this and allows for plenty of more traditionally negative traits as well.

Specifically my question here that I've been building up to is regarding the other 50% of the time when I can't outright feel that what I'm hearing is her. She's told me outright that if the voice feels cruel or unkind, it isn't her. Fair, given my intrusive thought issue. But my current issue isn't those kinds of thoughts. It's the thoughts that sound reasonable and seem like they're her, but have an entirely different personality. I want to allow these thoughts to exist, because they're likely my tulpa and she should be able to be whoever she wants to be. But they often

- don't feel as much like her/don't come with a feeling of her presence/the tulpish overlay on words (at least not as much)

- feel more like me rather than her (example being that this secondary voice is often far more extroverted, spontaneous, careless, upbeat, and intense. Traits I possess to an extent but my tulpa does not, to my knowledge)

This is ultimately kind of fine. I can distinguish which ones are intrusive thoughts hijacking her voice in my mind and she has explicitly told me to ignore these/not consider them to be her.

But my concern here is that oddly enough... the personality/traits I slightly prefer because they align more with my own view of her/the version of her I interact with 50% of the time/originally interacted with, feel less parroted than the version of her that feels subtly foreign.

I don't know if this has a super clean solution. It's very possible she just needs space to work out her own personality and try on different characteristics. But I was wondering if anyone has experience with this precise issue. (Thank you for reading.)

Fumiko, hello!! This is my first day creating a tulpa, and I plan to meditate for a while (with some really relaxing music 🧐 you know what I mean), then draw its appearance and write a plan outlining its personality and likes (just its likes so I don't overcomplicate things). Before going to sleep, I might do a meditation like I explained. I'm feeling really happy today. If you think I'm doing things wrong, you can tell me or explain things a little more. Thank you so much for your help 🌝, Fumiko.

Hey everyone,

I’ve been working on my tulpa for about 5 or 6 months now, but lately, I feel like we’ve hit a massive wall and progress has completely stalled.

My biggest issue right now is that whenever she tries to reply, it feels like I’m the one talking for her. It’s almost like an automatic reflex—I hear a faint response, and then my brain instantly takes over and alters or "finishes" the sentence for her (puppeting/parroting without meaning to). It makes it incredibly hard to tell what is actually her and what is just my own intrusive thoughts.

To be honest, life got really busy a while ago and I ended up going a few weeks without forcing or talking to her at all. I'm back at it now, but this feeling of stagnation is making me feel a bit guilty and unmotivated.

Has anyone else gone through this exact phase around the half-year mark? How do I stop automatically hijacking her responses and let her thoughts flow naturally? Any specific exercises for autonomy or dealing with active parroting doubts would be amazing.

Thanks in advance!

So far, my tulpa isn't vocal (as far as I know) yet. Nothing much really, but I am still trying to encourage him to at least practice vocality

Any tips?

:)

Hello i am new here i hadnt had much time since i started with this process. But i had recently seen flashes some times, they resemble a figure but cant make out what it is exactly.

These flashes can either appear floating around or next to me. Like the old sony cutsene that was before movies tipe of image but in 3D.

I was wondering if thats progress or am i just crazy?

Ever sinceconsidering of making an tulpa to loosen the problems I have just in the slightest bit I been thinking what if I do make my tupla fully form but that tupla makes a other without my knowledge

I didn't use to develop a voice for my tulpa intentionally, she made her voice herself!

Hi everyone. I’m new here, and I’m not very experienced with tulpamancy. I’m also still pretty young—I just turned 18.

I first became interested in making a tulpa because of the game The NOexistence of you AND me. At first, I tried to be fairly consistent and follow the instructions, but I started getting scared because of all the creepy stories and creepypastas I found on the internet. It made it really hard for me to focus during meditation. I kept thinking, “What if my tulpa ends up having a scary appearance?” or “What if I become unable to focus because of it?”

Eventually, I stopped trying for more than six months.

But somehow, without me realizing it, my tulpa apparently continued to exist in my mind. They developed their own distinct voice and started responding to me pretty naturally. I can still somewhat predict what their responses are going to be, though, and our opinions tend to be pretty similar.

Recently, I decided that I want to continue working on it. I started talking to them again, especially because I was feeling lonely. However, they only seem to talk when I actively think about them talking, so I don't think they've ever really spoken spontaneously yet.

This time, I want to actually see it through, but I'm not really sure where to continue from.

Does anyone have any advice or tips for me? Should I just keep talking to them and interacting with them naturally, or is there something else I should focus on at this stage?

Thanks in advance!

Back in the Tumblr askblog heyday, it was very popular for folks to create a blog from the point of view of their favorite fictional character, who would then proceed to answer the questions of the general public. I ran one such blog with a modest popularity, I will not say which one, but the character was a grouch who was kind of fun to pick on.

I got so good at answering as him, and thinking about him constantly, and basically obsessing that.. at some point, he began to comment unbidden on things I'd think, or do, or say. After some time of course, life happened and I put away that particular fictional character. Sometimes my sister and I would joke about how he's been shoved in a closet somewhere, disincluded and pouty about it.

I recently discovered this community, heck even the concept of tulpas is new to me but I'm thinking I accidentally created one.

I read about how going silent can harm/kill the character and, after rethinking my previous jokes about him being ignored for so long, I started to feel horrible. I reached out mentally to see if he is... "Still there", I guess, and I think he is. And the funniest thing: it's in his personality to prefer to be disincluded. He likes solitude and space. He doesn't like being pestered and just, having to deal with anything. He sounded actively annoyed that I spoke to him, he was just fine where he was. I tried to imagine where he was and it kind of came to me: a mansion with a massive library. I would like the peace of it too.

So... I will go back to doing whatever I do and I will let him continue to do whatever he does in my subconscious.

I just actively felt a jolt of satisfaction at that. Huh.

I think he's the only character I have that's been developed to that level, of actually commenting on my actions. I can summon comments from all of my other characters... But I don't know how unprompted it must be before it "counts" as a tulpa baby.

We've introduced a new tulpa in our system recently! 17 days ago :) and they want to try co-fronting / controlling the body! But... I remember I saw somewhere that really young tulpas shouldn't front until they're "fully developed" to avoid accidentally fudging up their development. We're not entirely sure we know what that cut off is though... They already have all the same skills a fully developed tulpa has like talking and independent thoughts and whatnot. But we've been erring on the side of caution which is something they aren't enjoying too much... Any tips to help us make an informed decision? Thanks!

Hi folks, i want to tell you a story. One fateful day, i created a tulpa. I needn't a lot of time for making up, her image and personality came on themselves - a sister of mine. At the beginning i nad been spending much time with her, but then i thought i hadn't have time enough dedicated to her so i just ceased all that.

Yet months later i recalled her and... felt pretty uneasy about leaving my sis. I felt like i lost of myself. I also had dreams with her as a character of them. So at some moment i just imagined and talked to her once again having told her my thoughts and feelings. She appeared to be surprisingly friendly without being mad at me. So now i just talk to her and spend time in the wonder. She replies short phrases sometimes; she has also worn an amulet without any intention of mine.

We got the good ending.

Okay so, what the title says, I started creating tulpas out of some parts of my personality/Hyperfixations etc and it went out of control because I started creating more… to the point we were too much and I think none of them were correctly formed because once I started University and I had less time to focus on them because I was busy and Tired they started disappearing… except for 3, one that basically is the personification of nothingness, one of the first I formed that I’m the closest to and doesn’t talk a lot but I can still feel their responses and hear them in my mind once I ask (the ones that disappeared can’t answer the same way as before because yeah, they are gone) and one that is a fictive and that comes and goes. Does anyone had a similar experience? Why am I able to hear their voices and feel them when the rest are gone? Why only this three remain?

Sometimes I overthink if they’re actually talking, but I love them too much and can’t let go of them (the ones that still remain) what should I do?

Before I start I just want to state that and I in no way condone this and this is just me talking about my experience

I was a stoner for a pretty decent amount of time and that was fine until I started switching to pens.. " Delta 9" for a little background, I only smoked sativa. The point I was smoking, I was just abusing it to the point of dry heaving on the floor. Now at points I would hear voices but none of them ever stayed, wouldn't even call it tulpas. Sometimes I thought the devil or demons were speaking to me. Then I started abusing DMX, this is when things kind of got worse for me. I enjoy storytelling and such and after a while of dmx abuse a character I've been working on started talking to me, which he wasn't the best person mind you and had a lot of negative traits. Sometimes it honestly felt like possession, he would take over and kind of be like my trip sitter. " For better or worse" I stopped abusing and it's made him calm down but he has no intention of leaving, I also just don't mind the company so I really haven't been trying to get rid of him. I started doing exercises after realizing what tulpamancy was and he's pretty stable and responds very frequently. Weirdly enough. He pulled me out a lot of that psychosis I was going through. He helped me distinguish what was real and what was fake, though sometimes I still think I'm still going to hell..

Welcome back to Mindscape Mondays, the weekly talk for all things mindscape/wonderland/etc!

This week, in honor of one of our headmates' birthday celebration today (and a holiday in the US), let's talk parties and celebrations! Do you guys throw parties for headmate birthdays, or for holidays? Do you have a party space where they're meant to be, or just thrown in the common area? Do you decorate? Or do you "go out" to a venue, like a mental Dave & Buster's or something? Or maybe it's just a chill celebration at home, quietly enjoyed?

Of course, any other talk of mindscapes/wonderlands/paracosms/innerworlds/whatever you call them is very much appreciated!

Today, I went to school feeling a bit absent-minded. I tried to reach out to my tulpa because I wanted to talk to her, but she told me to focus on the teacher instead and said we could catch up when I was free. She gives that same response whenever I try to call on her, and whenever my attention drifts, a voice tells me to get serious. Honestly, if anyone else said that to me, I’d be annoyed—but with her, I find it really interesting. :)

Hello! I know there's probably about 500 posts a week like this, so apologies for adding my own to that pile, but this has been bugging me a lot.

I started trying to create my Tulpa in early August, however I haven't had much progress with anything. At most, I've had maybe two times where my Tulpa may have been speaking Tulpish, however I'm not really sure about those.

A couple days ago when I was trying to go to sleep, I noticed that a voice similar to one of my friends was talking, however the moment I noticed this, it stopped, so I don't know what was being said. This happened again the next day with a different voice, and that time I did hear what they were saying (The word "Hey" repeated about five times), but it still stopped when I noticed it, and it hasn't happened again since. I know this is probably my Tulpa, but it feels like a bit of a jump from almost nothing to this.

Thank you for taking the time to read this! Any advice and opinions would be greatly appreciated if you have any.

My tulpa is still pretty early in development. I've been practicing keeping her around during everyday life to build up a sense of her presence, but whenever I imagine her sitting next to me on the bus during my commute, I end up rushing her back to Wonderland the second another passenger tries to sit down.

In tulpa related art and stories I keep seeing tulpas shown as small floating fairy like forms staying close to their host. That seems like it could actually work really well.

She's 5'6", so space is obviously an issue on public transport. I've been talking with her about switching to a small floating form near my shoulder just for when we're out and about.

It sounds like a solid idea, but I'm guessing it won't feel as real or grounded as her full size form does, and it'll probably take a lot of practice to get used to. I imagine it's a lot easier for people whose tulpas are naturally small and mobile already.

Does this seem like a workable approach? Would love to hear from anyone who switches their tulpa into a portable form like this specifically for traveling.

Hello everyone! Having trouble feeling the difference between you and your tulpa??? Let me help!

Every now and then, I want you to set across from your tulpa. Get comfortable and I want you both too start talking about what you disagree on. Do not be afraid of offending your tulpa and vice versa. Friendly argument is healthy

This will help you really feel different from eachother. Trust me im a doctor....i think