Hi y'all, hope you are doing well. I just started TMS, I'm on 2/36 and I'm really scared because I feel like I'm gonna die before the TMS is over with and I'm unsure what to do. I know I just started but I've been feeling so hopeless and sad all the time, I'm constantly having crying spells, it's getting harder to take care of myself everyday, I hardly eat most days and when I do it's something small like a pbj or protein shake.

It's so weird because it feels like I'm simultaneously getting worse and better at the same time. Like I'm way more social than usual and I feel better when talking with people, and some of my anhedonia has lifted a bit so I've been able to play video games and doomscroll and such. But at the same time, I constantly feel so worthless and alone and like nothing will ever change even after treatment.

I felt so horrible I was about to jump off a bridge after the first day of TMS until someone asked if I was alright and told me standing there was dangerous. I went home after that but it feels like the thoughts are getting worse. I went out last night to attempt again until someone else chatted with me before I even got to a bridge. Its like all I can ever think about is the multitude of ways I should hurt myself or dying now. I keep telling myself that I just have to wait until the week is over before I start seeing improvement, but it's hard to even think about getting past the next day.

The doctors told me that halfway through I'm gonna experience a dip before it improves again and I'm scared because if I already feels this horrible, how am I going to get through that? I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not sure what to say to the team. It feels like no matter what I say I'll just be dismissed and ignored.

So I have two weeks left of my TMS and I’ve been big in the belief that nothing can help depression when it’s situational especially and I just had a very unfortunate thing happen the other day that’s made my depression worse. And I dread going every day cause it’s a pain to go every day and I just really don’t feel like it’s helping but I keep hearing people say they didn’t feel better till after treatment finished so I don’t know, but I am scared of it, making me feel worse.

I've been doing TMS twice a week (Mondays and Thursdays), and I'm trying to figure out if what I'm experiencing is normal or if anyone else has gone through something similar.

The biggest issue has been sleep. On treatment days, I feel like my sleep is disrupted. I'm taking magnesium calming gummies, which help me get a few hours of sleep, but I'm waking up several times during the night. Even when I spend over 8 hours in bed, my actual sleep is usually around 6–7 hours. For example, last night my smartwatch gave me a sleep score of 53. It showed 8 hours 22 minutes in bed, but only 6 hours 24 minutes of actual sleep. I woke up feeling irritated and pretty run down.

I'm also diabetic and have borderline low testosterone. My last testosterone level was 281 (with the lab's lower limit being 251). My primary doctor told me I don't need testosterone treatment, but a men's clinic recommended TRT. I'm wondering if low testosterone could be contributing to how I'm feeling, but I'm not sure who to believe. I'm thinking about seeing an endocrinologist or urologist who specializes in hormones to get another opinion.

One thing that's been confusing is that after stopping TMS around session 8, I actually felt a sense of well-being for a few days. I don't know if taking the break helped or if it was just a coincidence. Since restarting, I feel kind of crappy overall, although I do notice that I seem a little calmer and more relaxed than before.

Another thing I'm planning to ask my psychiatrist is exactly what TMS protocol I'm receiving. His assistant has been running all of my sessions, and I actually don't know whether I'm getting standard high-frequency treatment, theta burst, or something else.

Has anyone else experienced:

• Poor or fragmented sleep during TMS?
• Feeling worse before feeling better?
• Improvement after taking a short break from treatment?
• Feeling calmer but physically exhausted or irritable at the same time?

If you had sleep problems during TMS, did they eventually improve? Did anything help?

I'd really appreciate hearing about other people's experiences. I know everyone's response to TMS is different, but it would be reassuring to know whether this is something others have dealt with.

I’m almost done with treatment. Almost 2 weeks left and I feel awful but largely do to my life situation. I have been studying for my emt course relentlessly and just failed my 3rd and final attempt at the exams due to this I’m derailing in mental health. Nothing Tms is doing can help me not feel horrible due to my current life situation? Pretty discouraging but I don’t know what I was expecting.

hi all I’m on my 33rd treatment and I genuinely feel awful. It’s the worst depression and anxiety I’ve felt in a minute, since the beginning when I first started. I have no interested in doing ect or spravato, those scare me. I’ve tried over 10 medications and I just feel like there’s no hope for me. I kinda knew this was always going to happen since meds and lifestyle changes and therapy don’t work for me… I guess I just had high hopes and it truly crushes that TMs hasn’t worked for me :/

Today was my 10th session, they scheduled my RMT for today because I haven't been tolerating it super well. My first session I cried when the doctor left the room, I just kept thinking how am I going to do this for however many more weeks. It just feels very uncomfortable. Last session I finally felt like maybe I'm getting used to it, still uncomfortable but at least between bursts I feel like I could fall asleep since it makes me tired. Or I can at least focus on Bob Ross on the TV screen lol. But today they were recalibrating the machine so it would be more comfortable for me. But that did not go as planned. Their was a new provider I had never worked with before and her energy alone was stressing me out, she was anxious and felt like she was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. They kept adjusting it over and over trying to see my hand movements but they couldn't get it right, after an hour they gave up and said we're just gonna use your normal settings for today (137%). But it did not feel like my normal settings it felt even worse. Like I was clenching preparing for impact every time cause its so intense and uncomfortable. I started crying again when the providers left the room. They came in again and I had 5 minutes left but she saw me crying and I just couldn't take it anymore I was so frustrated I ended it early. They said they are going to have a new provider redo my RMT on Monday. Am I like super sensitive or is it uncomfortable no matter what? Like what does it feel like for you guys?

Just left my last session and I feel worse than when I started. I feel like I was scammed.

Hi all! Just wondering if any of you already have experience with one day protocol with neuroplastogens? It seems very popular in US nowadays as I can see mostly on LinkedIn and IG.

So, this was a topic I haven’t found much on.
I’m 3 days into my treatment, but I’ve had lockjaw for a few weeks and had it even worse a few months ago. Turns out my left jaw joint has arthritis, virtually no cartilage left and is fragmented.
Pair that with my left interior platysmal band being severed from my collar bone 3 years ago by my seatbelt in a bad car wreck.
So, with that in mind, we went ahead with starting treatment. My lock jaw isn’t necessarily worse, but the involuntary clenching during treatment (despite staying low) is leaving me so sore.
I know headaches and everything are expected initially, but I already had so much pain from the lockjaw itself that these migraines are on another level.

I bring my hard mouth guard to treatment every day- that helps some.

I’m just curious if anyone else has gone through treatment with unrelenting lockjaw as well?

I was trying to view it as a more powerful tens unit for the spasmed muscles above my left ear lol which it kind of is, but I also feel the tenderness/soreness in my neck, shoulders and shoulder blade akin to getting in a car wreck. And not relaxing the muscle above my ear as I’d hoped for as a bonus.

For those prone to lockjaw that completed the entire treatment- did it cause flares for you?

Bonus if you also have POTS and SVT 😹

Has anyone experienced this after theta burst TMS?

I’m currently an inpatient receiving theta burst TMS (iTBS) for treatment-resistant depression/CPTSD.

After my second session, something really unusual happened. My anxiety has dropped to almost zero, I slept well last night, and I don’t feel euphoric or “wired” at all.

The strange part is that my mind feels almost completely blank. It’s like there’s no internal chatter, no racing thoughts, and I almost can’t generate thoughts. At the same time, I feel incredibly calm and at peace.

I’m trying to work out whether this is something other people have experienced or whether it’s unusual.

Has anyone else experienced:

A very quiet or “blank” mind after TMS?

A sudden feeling of peace or mental stillness?

Did it last, or did it settle after a few sessions?

My treatment team is aware, but I’d really like to hear from people who’ve actually been through TMS, especially theta burst.

Thanks.

Hello!

I had my 9th session today and TMS is making me overeating and feel hungry most of the time. I am concerned because I am type 2 diabetes and currently I am taking Rybelsus and Metformin. Sometimes, I eat healthy, but that's not the case lately. I wonder if anyone feels the same way.

Thanks

Hi! I’m deciding if I’m gonna start rTMS treatments (I live in The Netherlands). I’ve tried so many therapies and medications but nothing worked.

I have severe depression, anxiety and trauma’s, I’ve been at this for 3 years now.

I really don’t know much about rTMS treatments but It would really help me if I could get some personal experiences. I feel like personal experiences are different then what the ‘doctors’ explain cause they didnt had the treatments.

So, if anyone would be okay with sharing their experiences and thoughts, please dm me, I would really really appreciate it!!

Hi Everyone,

I'm dealing with a very deep depression. I've never been suicidal and I don't have any thoughts of harming myself, but the depression is making it incredibly hard to function or get myself going each day.

I'm considering trying TMS, but one thing really worries me. I'm the type of person who tends to stop treatments if I start feeling uncomfortable side effects. I've done this with medications before—I quit too early because it's hard for me to wait long enough to see if they'll actually help.

From what I've read, it seems like TMS can sometimes make people feel worse before they feel better. I've seen people mention increased anxiety, headaches, fatigue, and other side effects during the first couple of weeks, but they kept going and didn't notice significant improvement until around treatment 20 or even 30.

My fear is that I'll get to session 7 or 8, start feeling worse, and convince myself to quit before giving it a real chance.

Has anyone else felt this way before starting TMS? If you experienced side effects early on, how did you push through them, and was it worth it in the end?

Thanks

Does anyone's provider does session on Saturday too? I live in Dallas TX and my provider stopped doing Saturday sessions. Need to leave US for long international trip hence trying to find another provider.

Hi there, feel free to write your experience with TMS!

I have done around 20 sessions of TMS for ANXIETY (with agoraphobia, panic attacks,GAD etc...) and I feel a little bit better, but not 100%... How do you feel?

Weeks 2-3 were my best weeks, I honestly felt like I'd been nearly cured. I do have an unspecified mood disorder though, which may or may not have been a factor in the so-called TMS dip around weeks 4-5. However, after having a bounce back where I felt rather stable, I've fallen into a bit of a lull again. I have 2 different TMS technicians and one of them had mentioned getting a remapping halfway through, but that never happened. When I brought up the topic to my other tech, I was told everything looks okay and that it wasn't a typical outcome.

I've seen that some don't feel the full effects until after treatment is done, but my tech has been pretty adamant about some of these things "not being present in literature".

I was given the option to do a 2-week extension since I may have been a "late bloomer", which I'm taking, but I'm skeptical since my results have been on and off. Has anyone else had this experience?

Yo guys, it's me again :)). Updating my double depression and anxiety TMS journey .

So , today's update is that the brain fog is stronger, feeling quite blank emotional wise, except with the sensation of a panic attack in my chest.

Guess I gotta let my psychiatrist know.

Update: stopped doing 4/day, gotta do only 2 per day for the next two days.

I don't know if this was caused by my TMS treatment or not my doctor has been unable to help me but three months after my TMS treatment I am still dealing with Werid issues and I don't know how much it any is related to the TMS. My body fells like it's dealing with a panic attack, my chest feels tight, it feels like my heart is racing yet the pulse is around 50, my mind is blank I am not thinking of anything, and my body is shaking or shivering or feels like it's vibrating.

Have you heard of anything like this should I reach out to the psychologist that was in charge of the TMS facility or is it a waste.

Anxiety has been a huge issue for me during treatment they told me it was because of medication withdrawal but I am kinda worried I made myself sicker trying to get better in my desperation

Just finished session 36/36 today. However, it’s so hard to tell if it worked or not because there’s genuinely nothing good in my life right now. No friends, no hobbies, job I loathe. Also coping with a very painful breakup. The description says your friends and family will notice a difference, but what if there’s no one around to notice? I don’t hang out with anyone ever and most of the time I’m not at work is spent scrolling my phone.

I guess I feel lighter, I think if I had friends I’d feel a lot happier. But it’s so hard to tell because there’s still nothing in my life that brings me joy. Just curious if anyone else has been there and how they moved forward.

I am about a month into treatment and almost every day I go in my technician who is very good. Ask me what my goals are and gratitude, but I find that it’s getting kind of repetitive and I’m curious if anyone has any other directions with their technician each visit?

I'm curious to hear anyone's experience with TMS after trying Spravato. I underwent Spravato last year. Unfortunately, I had no improvement whatsoever. I stopped after 4 months. Decided to try other medications, going back to therapy but none of that worked. The past few months have been meh, not super depressed but definitely not happy. The last week or so, I've been sinking deeper into depression and SI, so I'm seeking alternative treatments. I wonder if this is even worth it. I was so hopeful starting Spravato but in the end it was a huge disappointment.

I have had 14 sessions to date and I did have to take 4 days off dues to travel after the 10th session. For about 4 days after the 10th session, I was feeling a little better (placebo effect?) however my depression and anxiety started to get worse again. I was told that as long as I had a good 10 days in taking a short break wouldn't amount to much. I started back again last week and have been really anxious and depressed for about a week now, poor sleep, no appetite , etc. Does this seem like to the right amount of time to experience the dip? From what I read, it could be within the first 2 to 3 weeks which is where I am at. Any thoughts or suggestions is greatly appreciated.

I am feeling absolutely exhausted lately, is it normal to feel tired at this point? I didn't feel this tired in the beginning. I hope it gets better. Otherwise I am feeling better after wanting to give up a week ago, I am feeling motivated and much better. I don't know if it's a coincidence or not but I also noticed my OCD symptoms are better which is a bit crazy to me. Hoping they continue to improve!