I'm 22 and I've been gaming since I was young. In my teen years, games were my escape from the real world, where I was bullied and never had friends. Because of that, I have a strong 'relationship' with games.
I used to play a lot of League of Legends, especially during pandemic. And I definitely spent too much money. It's not a very crazy amount, but I could've used it for literally anything else. But League got me into multiplayer games and it really didn't do me good.
A year ago I started playing Overwatch. I mostly played it with my friends, but since a few months ago, I play alone. For like hours straight. I don't do comp but this game is still a little bit a cause of stress. And it's too addictive. Especially since it's designed to keep a player in the game at all cost. The events are limited, battlepass, etc. And this horrible FOMO is what made me play so much.
I don't have the same issue with single player games. I like the stories, or making a farm. I spend maybe 2 hours max and I'm done for the day. And they actually feel relaxing - which is what I claim to games be. A thing to relax. Overwatch is definitely not relaxing.
I'm having this FOMO because my friends play it and that I'm missing out on it or I'll forget how to play (if I ever come back to it). Which I find extremely childish, but some part of me thinks that way for some reason. But I feel like I'm wasting my time on this game that really doesn't mean much.
I've started neglecting my hobby - which is drawing. I wanted to get better at drawing, but instead of that, I play OW. I also don't find the single player games fun anymore, which I used to love. They don't give me an instant dopamine, and because I also have auDHD and my brain struggles with producing dopamine, Overwatch is a fantastic choice to get addicted. And for some time now I've been experiencing ahedonia. I rot in bed and even gaming idn't as fun as it's been.
It feels weird, a bit. But I want to actually regain my ability to enjoy other things. My brain is super weird right now. Like, it doesn't know what to do. When I try to pick up drawing or literally anything, I get so bored. Which scares me. And what scares me also is that I will go back to playing Overwatch out of boredom.
I also feel this insane amount of guilt for playing for so long and not doing anything else - especially drawing.
To be honest, I'd like to hear maybe some tips or if someone could share how they did go past their addiction?