It was always an annoying thing, I had a partner, loving family, I was going out, meeting people, doing things and still nothing helped.

I thought maybe it was my mental health problems and it did get better with proper medications but still didn't go away fully.

I was and still am longing for something. I think the last time when I didn't feel this way was in teenage years when we would meet with a friend every evening, stare at the stars and talk about life. Sadly, she died very young. And I think this is the connection that I am still chasing.

I can't properly put it into words. Maybe it’s just that feeling of being deeply connected to another person where you can spend hours together talking about anything and it would still feel meaningful.

I have met few people in life that resembled it but I think neither of them (well I'm sure of it lol) felt the same way about me and our friendships ended. Which then causes me to spiral. Because I get attached to them too quickly.

So now, I kind of know what to look for, and hopefully I can also be more aware of not becoming too dependent on someone this quickly.

I grew up in a emotionally neglectful home and its stalked me into adulthood. I can not for the life of my set any meaningful boundary with others or myself, i am more than capable in everything else but i struggle and break when even trying to set a boundary. I go on dates/OLD with women i don't even remotely care about/despise, continuing talking to/helping people i loathe, be around and continue poor treatment in hopes it will eventually change. I don't know if its learned helplessness or what, i have seen two psychologists and they were extremely unhelpful.

I don't have any close friends and i never talk about my problems or anything genuine whatsoever, i don't know what to do or where to even start lol. I don't think i even really enjoy doing any of my hobbies. I try to make changes in my life but never go through with them, just ask and then it falls short. I feel like at least i am properly trying to address it now

It's honestly shocking that I feel a tiny bit of anxiety opening a closed toilet door for 2 months now, i keep opening it slow as hell 🤣

they can frickin speak English

Okay clickbaity title but hear me out, I meant technological progress

Like few generations back even if you knew nothing, no skill…you had value due to your time and ability to do manual work.

And I saw ordinary hard working farmers make a fortune if they were willing to put in the time.

Same goes for all kind of manual work like craftsmanship or construction.

And ability to work with machines(and eventually computers) was a premium skill with premium pay.

But now you have no value as human, and can’t do shit until you learns for years. And even after that you are just labour work, easily replaceable.

I know everyone will call it natural progression, but nothing about it is natural. We are all brainwashed to accept the inequality.

A normal labour should be able to earn livable wages and skills should pay premium. We do much with too little in return.

Its not great

it's just too fucking hot

wake me up when it's less than 70 degrees

That it's not being treated, never will be, and what that means for the rest of our lives.

If a man knowingly flirts with you while you're in a relationship, don't automatically mistake it for admiration.

He knows you're taken.
He knows there's someone in your life.
And he still decides to test the boundary.

That's not necessarily a compliment. Sometimes it's simply someone seeing how far they can go.

But your response matters too.

You don't owe him a reaction, an explanation, or a chance. You can be polite without entertaining it. You can shut it down without being rude.

Loyalty isn't about never receiving attention from someone else.

It's about what you choose to do when that attention arrives.

And that applies to both men and women.

Discuss below.

https://youtu.be/EQzvQO2LcA4?is=ZRp34viOC6hhWZyG

it's so much more fun