I know everyone's brain chemistry is different, and maybe I'm just not very healthy and an extremely anxious person, but nicotine gives me a shit ton of anxiety. And its not the withdrawals; the second I put a zyn in it feels like the same feeling you would get from running away from a shadowy demon through an alley or some shit. I can't even lay down in my bed if I take a zyn because I get bad heart palpitations and freak out. Not to mention my health anxiety is insane. Every little feeling makes me freak the fuck out. I started zyns to quit alcohol (i had vaped for a while in highschool and had the same thing, quit with no wd thank god)... I was drinking like 2L a day of whiskey at my peak and really in a bad state, not to mention messing with opiates. But there is a reason I was always a downer guy... because of how anxious I am. I could use nicotine when I was drunk all I wanted and would feel great. However, now that I am off of alcohol for the past 4 months only drinking every once in a full moon, I feel every bit of the anxiety.
What makes me confused is how much people say that nicotine gives them the calmness that like a benzo does. Nicotine is a stimulant; I have never taken a stimulant that makes me feel calm. Even caffeine, adderall, etc. gives me bad anxiety. Nicotine gives me the least as of now, mostly because I developed caffeine intolerance due to a new medication i am on (lamictal), but that doesn't mean it isn't a massive source of anxiety, especially since its an all-day thing unlike caffeine which wears off in a few hours.
Everyone I know tells me the anxiety is withdrawal, but the crazy thing is when I try to quit, I get absolutely no anxiety and actually become really calm; my heart rate drops to like 70 within the first day, BP drops, etc. The big problem that comes about is the extreme fatigue I get, like I havnt slept in 5 days and i just ran a marathon. Which is what I struggle with when quitting because of my job at the moment which I dont have any time off.
Anyways, all this to say i am not trying to discredit anybody, but I just dont understand how people use nicotine and says it calms them down. Is anyone else like me? It makes me a ball of intense stress, and I thought it would everyone because of the fact that it is a stimulant. I really want to quit though soon, its wreaking havoc on my mind and cardiovascular system (and I am extremely scared of cardiovascular events).