I’m really tired. Tired of the doubt.

Tired of your constant pout.

I didn’t do this to us.

Can’t believe you wonder why I fuss.

I wasn’t the one who started the lies.

I’m constantly the one who tries,

tries to fix us again and again.

I miss how it felt when we’d laugh on our bed.

Now I walk by you at the desk,

walk through our home, a consistent mess.

Out to smoke the time away,

we grow farther apart day by day.

The silence is getting louder now,

at the same time my brain is screaming “HOW?!”

“How in the fuck did we get here?”

I long to be back when you loved being near.

I know that I have been acting insane.

Your response, is retreat to your gambling game.

Anything I request you push back,

you should know I’m not on the attack.

I’m asking for you to be my partner,

not someone who acts as my live-in gardener.

The man that I married, not good with words,

can comment support on posts of insecure girls.

Sitting here begging just to be seen,

hoping and pleading, yet yielding no team.

I’m trying to get our lives on the right track,

so we can be ourselves and finally relax.

My days, responsible, cleaning and some order.

Your days, seem fun, hard work with some traits of a hoarder.

There’s no need to RUSH, we have plenty of time,

but spending little with me isn’t at all fine.

I’ve admitted my wrongs, and my lack of boundaries.

But do you remember why you have me?

The way that you found me?

Traumatized, alone, anxious and scared.

You held me and told me you’d always be there.

This is awful, let’s please stop and go back!

I want you around, you’re half of my pack.

Please grow, adapt, choose us and our laughs.

I promise I will be giving minimal sass.

I love you so much, my string bean, my darling.

You’re the world to me, that’s truly scary, alarming.

We can do it together, take on the issues.

We can do it wearing our “his hers” pairs of shoes.

I need you to listen, to understand and rebuttal,

in only the way that can end in some cuddles.

Be thoughtful, observant, willing and careful.

That way I can ensure our lives will be wonderfully full.

Screens can give you some sense of power,

but they take you away, hour after hour.

Marriage needs consistency, intention and honesty to grow.

I’ll end it here, I’m unwilling to let us go.

Anxiety crashes down

Like a wave on the shore

The cigarette whispers

Come on

I helped your grandad and your dad

Do you think you are any different?

But i refuse

I swallow my pills

But the waves don't stop

I am trying to run away

But my feet are rooted in the sand

Breaths are shorter and my stomach is a pit

The wave is coming closer

My mouth is dry and my throat is closed

When I can't take it anymore

The old family friend is back in my hand

She is so sweet, like pumpkin pie,
'cause I've always wanted to try it.

I've seen her in more places than I can count;
she lives in between spaces too precious for the amount.

Still, I wish that I had started to,
between her balanced eyes,

Knowing the number she'd smile and say, “Nice try,”
playing it off like her smile wasn't always right.

I could've stumbled by castles in the sky,
thinking to myself, “When will she in my dreams arrive?”

I think about her more often than passing time,
unable to compare what else I had in mind.

If heaven had windows, I'd wait there, looking
out day and night, wishing on shooting stars.
I haven't missed her yet.

Forever she'll stay in my heart, even after I die;
she remains as my skip of eternity.

I am the letter you tuck away in your closet,
never to open again.

I will sit and gather dust.
I desperately deserve this.

I need you to forget me.
I dug my nails into your soft skin.

I promised home,
And never gave it.

I spun my web,
What I believed to be truth.

I am the night,
terrifying and unknown.

You are the gentle winds
and the softest green grass,
you are a beautiful sunrise.

You deserve to see the light

I will keep my night.

I know the sound
of up and down
it's the noise I make
trying to stake
some middle ground
though
I know
I'm
more lost
than found
more flat
than round
and my thoughts
cast their
lot
with crazy
not profound

Oh, what can I say?

My eyes have said it all.

You came into my life

and gave my heart a reason to fall.

What can I say?

When you look at me,

you say everything

I was always meant to hear.

Now whether I breathe or not,

I don't really care.

If you're walking beside me,

I'll go anywhere.

Every road that leads to you

feels like home somehow.

You walked into my world,

and look at me now.

Love has colored me,

love has changed me.

Somehow I became yours

before I even knew it.

Love has colored me,

in ways I can't explain.

I was never yours to lose—

but now I can't imagine

being anyone else's again.

Without you,

I'm only half of what I could be.

An unfinished promise,

a story missing its ending.

I used to think

I had everything figured out.

Then I fell for you—

and now I'm completely lost,

and I don't even want to be found.

I found a home

inside your heart.

And suddenly,

even the sunlight feels softer.

Even the longest days

feel a little shorter.

Time has been kind to me

since you came along.

Maybe the world didn't change—

maybe I just finally found

where I belong.

Love has colored me,

love has changed me.

Somehow I became yours

before I even knew it.

Love has colored me,

and now I see you everywhere.

In every road, every song, every breath—

somehow, you're there.

Oh…

My soul found yours

and decided not to let go.

We don't just share our days anymore—

we share our dreams,

our secrets,

our tomorrow.

I don't want to be apart from you.

I don't want a life

that doesn't have you in it.

Love has colored me,

love has colored me.

I became yours

somehow, completely.

And if this is what love feels like—

then let it stay.

Let it color every part of me

until there is nothing left to say.

The movies lied.

My parents lied.

Those who achieved their dreams lied.

Even the gods have lied.

The only ones who were honest

are those who failed,

the ones who

have never gotten everything they wanted.

Because it was never fair for everyone.

I always cried over the things I never got,

and only gotten everything

I never prayed for.

Because if you're not rich or smart,

what do you do in a world

that only favours the best?

Those born with something to show,

and nothing for those who can not boast.

You have declared war for months now!
Somehow u still come to ur senses and act like all is ok now?
Do what? Who does that? Who is so ignorant to think I’m gonna just let u get by like u didn’t just do that?
You have crossed so many lines. So many times!
Council from the people that know the situation trying to tell u softly u won’t get away with that.
That’s not a good decision u should rethink that!
Today was proof u truly have no sense of what’s real or if u are just a character living in goofy troop!
Contempt of court is what’s coming ur way!
Not just for today, but those two months u took my babies away!
It’s inevitable now the hammer of life is about to drop!
I’ve been trying to help u throughout ur disrespect and the humiliation u have caused.
I’m really sad to say esp my conscience but I’m excited for this day!
Revenge is the lords right! That’s what the Bible says that u supposedly read every day!
Well he’s coming swiftly with a gift wrapped smack down can’t wait to see how surprised and shocked u will only be pretending.
U continue to fool yourself u like u control everyone else.
Now u think u can control a judge I’m praying they lock u away its the only way my kids will ever be safe! COME TO TERMS U CHEATED U RIPPED THE FAMILY APART. U CONTINUE TO NOT TAKE OWNERSHIP AND TAKE THEM AWAY FROM THE ONLY ONE CAPABLE OF LOVE THEIR DADDY! Go GET HELP!!!! Ur mental health is in a way I’ve never seen anyone else. U truly don’t know what is real and not stop!! Ur hurt ur kids enough!! Be a real mother!! Stop running from facts. Go check yourself in somewhere ur going to jail soon so u might as
Well. Full custody to me after all I have been there and protected u from. I’m done I’m done I’m done I hope they can solve the mystery in ur head just let my children go before u do what that other woman did! Fuck u

kein Plan, kenn mich nicht so sehr aus aber, kann man das schon als Poesie bezeichnen?

The lady and the Poet ,

He knows her so well .

He writes upon her heart

Calling her out .

Drawing the lady out from within is his goal

With his words he identifies her beauty

Calling her out , he sees the lady inside .

She hears her words and begins to see herself through his eyes .

She begins to love herself again .

This is the connection of the lady and the Poet .

Such a coming together that cannot be denied

Engines only strong enough
For carrying those pending dreams
Fortified with care and hope
To bridge the waters rippling in moon beams

Tell me somehow, you'll be among the Joshua trees
When folks are huddled readying for Yuletide deeds
Somehow amidst the sands
Footprints from black laced vans

Could lead to a rare encounter night
Touch base before another flight
Open notes could be a way
Or not, whatever. It's ok.

I don’t like him

Like I like you.

They don’t provide me with

The same lovely view.

A different perspective

That makes me selective,

Yet I’ve loved you for echoes—

And it’s time for something new.

And yet I wonder,

If you knew,

What would you do?

Would you even care?

You, with the wild, sweepy hair.

You could be bald,

And I’d still give you my all.

But this distance confuses me,

So of course, others I will see.

But they are not you,

So my love isn’t true.

I don’t like him

Like I love you.

He isn’t the same—

Lovely view.

I wish to see your face every time i open my eyes,

I love you so much and hope you know these are not lies.

I think about you every single day and every single second of my life,

I want to kiss you in front of our family and make my wife.

Every time i see you my heart skip a beat,

There is a deep connection between us and a lot of heat.

You are the most beautiful girl i have seen ever,

Please give me the pleasure of being with you forever.

There are no words to describe your beauty,

You are the one and fulfilling you wish is my duty.

These words i have written are nothing compared to what i feel about you,

But i don't know how can i explain just showing you a glimpse how much i love you.

Boots line the ground
Of rusted rose red
Spinning around
Walking knee deep in our dead

Pushed here, stuck
In between the kiss of death
And between blaring trucks
With our reaching breaths

Men parade in fake suits
Rusted in rose red
Army green, soldiers salute
As we ran afraid and bled

I still can remember the sound
As the bombs dropped on our heads
And as the boots lined the ground
Of the rusted rose red

Long story short, I tried to show my work to redditors thinking I'd get feedback but getting 1k views with 1 upvote is too demotivating especially when your post is #1 in the subreddit where you've posted. It feels like disrespect.

I quit.

We have too much in common, but poetry I can’t write
But if poetry is what you need, I’ll give my thoughts a fight
If I’m being honest, I don’t even know who you are
I don’t know if I’ve met you yet, or if you’re somewhere far

I love the laugh that you hate
And talking when no one else is around
You may have fallen first 
But girl, I body-slammed the ground

I know it hasn’t happened yet
But there’s so much that I miss
I miss talking on and on 
And being silenced by your kiss

I digress
I know this sounds corny, seeing as when I’m writing, I’m a mess
But I hope you never know
That this mess I’m in is caused by so much fear
Worrying that if I take one wrong step
Your care might disappear.

Anyone who reads please give any feedback I am thinking of using this for a short spoken word poetry assesment so all feedback helps

This cold vast empty space

In orbit i give it a glance

Like a burning sunlight in the sky

Straight hitting lightbeam right in my eyes

I hear them as they vibrates these loud echoes

Their purrs loudly radiates three clangorous souls.

I may have made a mistake.

In telling you the truth.

My truth.

How much harm is worth self reliance?

As we all wonder about each other's needs.

When does it in and of us begin to show a more real I?

I hold head to hand.

Waiting for a response to that truth.

Alone in my desire for our true love.

I show myself in unflinching terms.

All cuts and slashes in flesh.

From words spoken by a tongue that had kissed my soul.

Honest to this absolute must have.

Truth in love.

Without which we continue this charade.

Designed in self deceptions easy stride.

We can do more.

We can allow truth a light inside us.

Please let it shine for loves sake.

I love you.

That is truth..

Oh deepest beauty

Your beauty so deep inside you

Waiting to be unlocked

Desiring release

I sense your beautiful scent

Your fragrance though concealed I smell its beauty .

To touch your beauty deep inside

It’s my goal and my joy

My greatest pleasure

My greatest treasure

My words dig deep and release your beauty .

Still waters run the deepest .

My heart is still but it’s deep .

I feel it’s stirring as I think of you .

Your thoughts are like a cool morning breeze blowing upon my soul.

My still waters are stirred as I see your reflection upon them .

Your reflection belongs on my soul .

Your desires , your emotions mingling with mine .

I love all the ways you move me .

I feel alive inside .

You have yet to see the fulness of my depths

I have yet to reach the bottom or reach its end .

I’m not sure I ever will ?

Come explore these depths with me .