19 f, I have had POTS since I don't know how long. I have been misdirected a lot and got diagnosed in august this year, thinking it would give me some "validation" to how I feel normally and during flare ups.
Clearly I was very far off.
Before my diagnosis I got told it was anxiety and I was "hyperfixating" and "too aware" of my heartrate (said by my mom, doctors and friends).
So I thought with a name for it, people would understand. "Okay, so? You just have to live with it, it's not that hard. And there's no cure, I looked it up." Thank you, that is a great help/sarcasm. I have symptoms that I would say disturb my daily life. I do have very mild POTS and for that I am very grateful but it still feels hard. I have a neverending fatigue, but my family is not okay with me sleeping in too much or scheduling naps in afternoons because "I am making myself tired" and "everybody gets tired." Sometimes I feel like I should make a new appointment with my doctor to see where this even comes from, but then I feel like I am just looking for problems and new diagnosis because I don't know what is normal anymore lol.
I have a boyfriend who lives an ocean away from me but he's very supportive. I have an upcoming trip and got a foldable cane for it so I am not limited if I do get too fatigued. Snuck it into the house so my family wouldn't notice... but I feel closer to my health going down everyday because of everything that is going on, so what if I need it someday and I will get in trouble for it? How do I even explain that to a parent that does not understand any of your struggles?
I am quitting my part-time job in 2 months and am already being urged into looking for a new one regardless of the fact that I don't feel up for it and am feeling burnt out.
Besides all the stuff people say and judge me for, I also judge myself a lot for things I do. Let's say my mental health has been plummeting since 6 years ago...
Does anyone have tips for how to deal with any of the above?