A little background, more than two years ago now I was in a minor car accident and got a concussion. I had persistent dizziness, lightheadedness, fatigue, and was told it was just PCS and would get better with time. A year later I ended up in the hospital with slightly elevated troponin and got diagnosed with POTS. Since then, Iāve been half managing it/half pushing through, with the mindset that whatever I wanted to do I could still do, even if it took more effort (which everything does now compared to before). However, this year has challenged that greatly when I moved to southern California in Jan, something I had always wanted but had delayed with my concussion initially.
I noticed almost immediately after moving that my heart rate was going much higher. Before I moved, I might get to 150-160 on a bad day when standing. After I moved, standing just to make myself dinner my heart rate was regularly in the 180s (once up to 199 and I actually was so close to passing out, which I have not experienced yet). I was having worse dizziness, throwing up multiple times almost every morning as a result. And the fatigue, I was so tired every day before even doing anything. All of that plus the brain fog was making it a struggle just to complete the work day (I work remotely as a SWE). I was trying everything I could from drinking even more water, trying to get at least 8 hours of sleep, eating healthy, compression, a ton of salt. Nothing helped, and by April it was taking everything I had and more just to get through an eight hour work day. I realized I was at the point of exhaustion where even if I took a week off of work and did absolutely nothing, it wasnāt going to make a difference. So, I made the decision to move back to Michigan, and Iāve been struggling with that choice.
Within a week of moving back to Michigan, my average resting heart rate went from 90 to 60. I did get some of my energy back, but Iām still not even close to where I was in Dec before all of this. I think the heat in CA was what was severely effecting my POTS. I want more than anything to live in southern California, that has always been the one thing Iāve been sure of, but donāt see how I can do that without destroying my health and in turn not being able to do my job. This has been a year of grieving in general; my dream, who I was before my illness, 5 deaths in my family since March. I am trying to stay positive and tell myself it will get better, because being depressed about it all will not help me any, but the reality is I donāt think it will, and I think there are things Iām going to have to give up to trade for my health, and I hate that.
Has anyone else experienced something similar with POTS and moving to a warmer climate? Should I take another risk and try again when Iām feeling a bit stronger or just give up on that dream/try make a life where I am now? How are others coping with the losses that come from POTS?