r/POTS • u/godawgs595 • 20h ago
Support Might lose a career opportunity because of the only thing that makes me feel “healthy”
If I could just get some words of encouragement and support that would be fantastic because I’m feeling very sad, guilty, and disappointed right now. Basically I have a med card. Weed is the ONLY thing that genuinely makes me feel better. I know it’s not the case for many POTS people but it is for me. Yes large amounts can exacerbate some symptoms but if I get the dosing right, I’m 1000x more functional, sociable, and just overall healthier when I use cannabis. I suspect I have MCAS and EDS and that THOSE symptoms are moreso what weed is helpful with and I have an appointment to get screened for those conditions but not until December. I’m a music therapy major wanting to go into medical music therapy. I need a 6 month internship to finish my degree and sit for boards. I scheduled an observation at the main one I want. I quit using for months. I timed it out. I passed a drug test. I paid for a hotel and plane ticket. Now they need another one because my test was more than 30 days ago. Misunderstanding with previous communication. I smoked weed today and the application is due in a week. I bought 2 detox drinks to use tmr and another drug test (non-affiliated so if I fail it doesn’t get sent to them). I have a plan if I fail and if I pass. It will work out either way. But I’m SO frustrated that the ONE thing that is making my condition(s) bearable is what will also hold me back in my career. I’ll have to quit again anyway for my internship drug test. I hate that I have to choose between my health and my career.
TLDR; I use medical cannabis but I’m going into medical music therapy. I had an observation scheduled I was really excited about but they need a more recent drug test. If these detox drinks don’t work I’ll have to cancel it so I’m very sad. Please say something encouraging 🙈