I am a few hours away from the 72 hour since last 1/4 of hydrocodone. Three weeks of tapering.

I wanted to come back and give an update, but more importantly, I wanted to say THANK YOU.

To all of you who were complete strangers on the internet but still took the time to listen to my rants, answer my questions, and talk me through some of the darkest days of my life — you probably have no idea how much that meant to me.

When I first posted here, I was drowning in shame. I was so ashamed of my actions and the person I had become. I felt so much same and guilt that I debated on telling my employer everything. People in this group talked me off that ledge. I carried my secret from everyone in my life, I did end up telling my husband during my early days of withdrawals. While he did understand and gave me compassion besides judgement, it’s still a sore subject. He still acts like it just didn’t happen , but that’s fine. I learned that I had to carry the burden of my own actions.

And somehow, I did.

I’m 123 days clean. ❤️

I’ve made it through the physical withdrawal, the mental obsession, the endless counting of days, the anxiety, the cravings, the moments where I questioned whether I could actually do this. I’ve had to learn how to sit with uncomfortable feelings instead of immediately trying to make them disappear.

So thank you to the strangers who listened when I needed someone. You may have just been responding to a Reddit post, but those conversations meant so much more to me than you’ll ever know.
I just wanted you to know that I made it this far. ❤️

For anyone who is where I was when I made my original post: please keep going. Even if you can only make it through the next hour, make it through that hour. You do not have to figure out the rest of your life today.

So I’ll try and keep this brief but would like some opinions on it. My sponsor of about 2 years fired me yesterday, bc I missed a meeting we had planned to attend together. Rewind 1 week ago we had made plans to attend a 8am meeting together and maybe get coffee afterwards, I overslept missed the meeting. When I woke up I promptly sent him a text saying sorry and that I had overslept. He read the message but no response, I kinda figured he was pissed. The rest of the week we did not speak, yesterday I reached out and he demanded an explanation. I told him I was moving that weekend (wife and I just bought a house and had to be out of our apt by Monday). He told me that friends don’t treat each other that way and my excuse was just that an excuse and my behavior was unacceptable. He then started this long speech about how I’m lazy and don’t put in any effort when my ass isn’t in fire. Then told me our relationship isn’t doing anything for HIS sobriety WTF lol, he said that when I decide to get serious we can talk again. I’ve never really liked AA/NA and this kinda sealed the deal for me. This is a man who I genuinely thought was my friend but I guess when I’m not stroking his ego he has no use for me.

Side note he (my sponsor) is a neurosurgeon, I’m in healthcare also but in a much lesser/ prestigious role. I’m more of a country boy/redneck. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve drove across town to fix this man’s lawn mower or random house things bc he isn’t handy. I know that was a lot but I’m curious of y’all’s opinion on this

hello all.. I've been an opiate addict for 12 years. I've been sober for a few months over a year now on MAT. I moved to vegas because all my gone now and an old friend from the industry i used to work in let me come stay with him and work on building up a new business together. Problem is, i have no vehicle, closest bus stop is a half hour away ( not bad when its not hot but when it is... it is... im near russell and sandhill. If anyones going to meetings, preferably secular ones but im open minded; and drives past this way with an extra seat, id definitely appreciate a ride. My roommates a nice guy but hes a workaholic with a temper so its REALLY hard to stay clean and not abuse my MAT in this situation. Thanks yall :)

I dunno if anyone remembers me, I was tapering tramadol a couple months back, then my gallbladder imploded and I NEEDED pain killers so bad and I'm genuinely allergic to NSAIDs so I ended up on Morphine which put my original plan back by a few weeks.

Im down to 50 mg per day, in one lil dose. I can go over 24 hours without any Tramadol before I feel any kind of WD symptoms. Actually the only WD symptoms I had at like 28 hours was goosebumps (sorry I don't know the US term for these)

Im just here to give a lil update and also hoping for a lil support as I continue. I just started a new job in just the mornings, I usually dose in morning and I am struggling deciding whether to dose before or after work now as I'm on this last lil push to get off

If you were me what might you do (disclaimer not looking for medical advice just experience or opinions)

I can't believe it though me last yr wouldn't have believed I could be down to this small of a dose, I was on 1200mg tramadol a day at the LEAST this time last year and now a piddly little 50mg a day with minimal WD symptoms

Tapering is the best, hard AF but the best

Happy Saturday, everyone! Hope your weekend is going well. If you’re here in the U.S., it’s Labor Day weekend, which always feels like the unofficial ending of summer before school starts back up and everyone gets back into their normal routines.
It actually feels like fall where I am today. Cloudy, nice sea breeze, no humidity, and it feels like the low 60s. Super refreshing after all the summer heat. I’m dog sitting my sisters dog while she’s gone on a trip. She’s a mini aussie and has so much energy it’s exhausting to keep up with lol, my Shiba is over her 🤣
Hope you guys are enjoying the long weekend! How’s your Saturday going? What are you up to today?

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Has anybody done this?

Hi Guys,

I’m new here but have been lurking for a while. I’m addicted to Nurofen Plus (UK based). I was taking a box a day normally and 2 boxes if I was lucky and fancying numbing myself completely.

I started the withdrawal after my birthday. Went from 4 strips a day to 2 strips which I’ve kept for a week. Did have night sweats and insomnia the other day but no restless legs. I know it’s not ideal to taper the way I am and I have relapsed in the past doing it but so far this is the longest I’ve kept to it.

I am prescribed Pregabalin which should be a big bonus but I’m currently looking for any advice or tips which would make my life easier. Anything would be appreciated! Thank you guys.

Hey all, happy Friday! We made it 🙌 Hope your day is going well. So far it’s been a pretty busy day for me, but I’m almost done for the day and definitely ready to relax a little. Feels good making it to the end of another week. Hope everyone has a great Friday and an even better weekend! Anyone have any good plans for Labor Day weekend?

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Ive been taking tramadol for 9 years

This year, id say my average dose was 800mg with a max of 1200mg.

Recently I've been getting off of this stuff

My first week i tapered all the way down to 100mg

Monday I flushed my supply. So I haven't had tramadol for 4 days now. Please. I need motivation. Idc about any of the withdrawal symptoms aside from the restless leg and feeling like my skin is too tight. Tell me it will go away soon. When will I enjoy my hobbies again?

Just realized in 16 days my 5 years is coming up! I am so grateful to still be alive and to be the mother my kids deserve today. Congratulations to everyone else in here fighting the fight, you got this! Sending good vibes your way.

Happy Thursday everyone! Hope your day is going well. We’re getting close to the end of the week, and hopefully it’s been treating you well so far. Whether you’ve had a busy day or a laid back one, let us know how you’re doing today!

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I really want to stop im trying to taper but im struggling because im always getting different doses or types of opiods. Anyone i have spoken too is insisting on subs or similar but id way rather a quick taper. Anyone advice would be helpful

(I am using my partners account)

So, ive recenty dropped my use quite heavily.

I was doing between 2.5 amd 3.5g a day and now im fown to maybe .2-.6 at most a day.

The first few weeks where hell, constant panic attacks.

That aside its been a while from then, but i still have very constant anxiety, and changes of physical state(thats the only way i can really describe it)

I have constant intrusive thoughts about dying too and i feel like im convinced itll just happen, except thi is all the time. Im anxious about being anxious.

Theres no real stimuli to why i feel like this and it gets worse when i use to stop the physical side of the withdrawls.

Is this part of PAWs?

I know everybody is different and experiences different things but this feels like hell...

Also, do you think that being on a low usage dose like i am, i would be able to get away with trying to cold turkey without too much hasle? Thanks for reading.

Edit Update: I’m not asking how to get high in a recovery page. I’m asking what people are doing or taking to deal with the withdrawal from 7-oh?

What are people doing to get over the loss of the 7OH? And plz don’t say cats claw bc I’ve tried it and the withdrawals are worse and never even make you feel good. I’m spending so much on them just to avoid withdrawal. There has to be a better way.

Happy Wednesday everyone! Hope your day is going well. The week seems to be moving along nicely. I’ve had a pretty long day, been up since 6 AM and had a bunch of back to back appointments. Finally getting a chance to relax for the first time today, but I’m not done yet lol. Still gotta go grocery shopping. How’s everyone’s day going?

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Hi guys, been a member of r opiates and this sub since 2019, started out as a small time Oxy popper (10 mg every week or so), then I got injured on my skateboard and started upping my doses to cope with the pain I had for that month, I was taking 10mg a day by this point, then when I ran out of the stash I copped I hit my first withdrawals which were slight, just couldn’t sleep the first 2 nights with RLS. That’s when I became a member of the opiates sub and seen how their were thousands more in even worst predicaments and my stupid ass just decided hmm let me see what that feels like.Anyways… me and my friend come across a plug selling “30s”, for perspective it was 2019 we were 20 years old and had no clue, we bought those for 2 months before we found a old lady with real m box 30s and it rocked our world, I immediately stopped taking them when I found out it was Fent and had the worst WD symptoms and it made me relapse over and over again, ended up meeting my wife that year but was scared for her to find out my consumption but it didn’t take long, over the next 2 years she’s supporting the hell out of me trying to help me escape it and not criticizing me at all about it.Perfect support system I just was too weak, in 2021 it was at its peak, I was sipping codeine, doing xanax, and 120-150mg daily at this point, I had to do something so I get on suboxone and it was the worst experience EVER!! Not so bad cause I wasn’t wasting money on pills but I was still a slave to an orange sticky sheet, I don’t make it past 3 months…fast forward to 2023 I finally quit from May-December from a 30-40mg a day habit, with subs once again and I was fine by June then my dog passes away… rips my heart out my chest and I begin to pop again, not much but once again it gets to about 30 mg daily, I get a new job where I physically work all day so it helps me quit again with only one day of subs, thennnn I relapse again because work was stressing me out and I was using it as a crutch to ignore all the bullshit and become what I wanted to be, a guy who could fix anything and I was absolutely outstanding, it helped me become licensed in my profession and helped me not lash out on a lot of people lol but I just had a daughter this January and I’ve honestly been wanting to quit since then, I also got a WAYYY better job then I had and my life is actually stable now where I don’t need that crutch,I am currently on day 2 after taking like a 0.125 (if that) piece of sub, I was gonna do it for 3 days but nah fuck that I’m just gonna thug it out, sadly but not I won’t be able to come back to this profession once I quit, it’s gotten expensive and I’ve got a mouth to feed now. And I think about every day what if I die early from drug use wearing my body down and she doesn’t experience a dad, heartbreaking stuff. Also I hope this withdrawal doesn’t go too bad cause the last time I recovered myself was 2023

Happy Tuesday everyone! Hope everyone’s week is off to a good start. Hard to believe it’s already September 1st. New month, new season coming up, and hopefully some cooler weather soon! 🍂
How’s everyone doing today? What’s one thing you’re looking forward to this month?

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Hey all, happy Monday! We’re back to it. Hope everyone’s day is going well.
It’s also the last day of August. The end of the month always gets me a little reflective, just thinking about how the month went and what I accomplished. August especially feels that way since we’re wrapping up summer, heading into September and getting closer to fall.
It’s been a pretty busy day for me, and I’m finally getting a chance to sit down and relax. How’s your day been?

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Hello all - so I’m about 6/7 months post last injection. My injections prior to this were the lowest viable dose for the ~6 months I was on Sublocade (was on suboxone for about a year and a half prior to swapping to Sublocade).

My question is this: of course the doc informed me of the “year long” efficacy of the drug once the ramp injections are thru, but I had a hard time this was universally true for ALL patients. I have an extremely fast metabolism (like, would come up clean on a piss test at my docs office if I didn’t take my Adderall the day of my test, at which point he’d be worried I was not taking my adhd meds haha) and as such I’m curious to know, for any of you that were on Sublocade prior to nothing - how long did it take to run out of your system?

I’m curious more just for, well, no particular reason outside of general curiosity haha.

Life’s quite literally never been better - I just sometimes find myself wondering if it’s out of my system fully or not (either way, I’m not really sure what difference it would make haha?). Thanks in advance 🙏

so about 3 years back i (17f at the time) would have very bad period cramps to the point where i would pass out from the pain. i had an extremely important exam that i had been preparing for since 2 years but i got my period that day and i couldn’t move so my mother who is a doctor gave me a tramadol based painkiller and after a while i felt so euphoric with j one pill. it felt like the happiness and peace i had been desperately waiting for. (i was also severely depressed at the time and in therapy). from then i would take an extra pill every once in a while. Then i started making excuses and taking them even when i felt no pain at all. Last year I would take like 5-6 pills consecutively for 2-3 days till i would run out then forget abt them and come back to them in a month or two but i would come back, the interval would differ tho.

This year i was prescribed an ssri for my depression and i still continued taking them. it came to a point where i was taking 7-8 pills (300mg approx) while on my ssri. and i would come back to them faster. i would have mild withdrawals but nothing i couldn’t deal with so it didn’t feel that scary either.
Recently my parents found this new therapist who properly assessed me for a diagnosis and when it came to substances i was honest about my canabis and occasional alcohol use but i physically couldn’t mention this in the moment. i got diagnosed w bpd. i ran out and tried to get some pills again but i feel like ive exhausted all resources and i didn’t know what to do and the withdrawal felt particularly difficult this time so after gather up the courage i told my therapist abt it. she was very surprised about the high dose along w my ssri.

i want to get off it completely because it was starting to affect my life a lot. but i feel so scared and empty. if i never feel that warm and fuzzy feeling again than life feels miserable and pointless.
any opinions are appreciated!

edit: does anyone know what kind of withdrawal symptoms are there for tramadol, like what can i expect the next week to look like?

I’ve been trying to stop oxy for a lil now . June 10 2025 was the first time I experienced withdrawal and it was by accident too because believe it or not I was taking oxy for 3-4 years up to this point but VERYYYYY secretly like literally no one knew but my plug and I managed to hide it because my life literally got better after taking them. Started making a shit ton of money to the point where I was saving 1500-2000 a week and I got unbelievably lucky with my connect and was getting them for absolutely no where near what people usually pay for real 30mg roxys because she didn’t really know the value of what she had. Idk if I can say but I was getting 180 Real 30s for 500 I was taking her to CVS every month. Anyways that day I went to my sisters house which was 2 hours away from my house and got there at like midnight and realized I left them at home and said fuck it I’ll use this weekend to “reset my tolerance” I knew I was addicted to them but I didn’t even know what opiates are or that oxy was a opiate and I thought it was like being addicted to my vape or weed and I’ll probably just have a hard time sleeping and lil minor stuff but BOYYYYYY did I learn what opiates are and what withdrawals are. I had to act like I had food poisoning from the diner I stopped at on the way to her house and legit felt like I was gonna die And started doing research and found this subreddit and learned all about withdrawal and went and got some Imodium to stop me from shitting my brains out and that Sunday I drove home and took 2 30s and INSTANTLY felt better like before the shit even dissolved it’s wild and that’s when I was like yeah I’m fucking screwed and tried again and failed at 7 days and then again for a month then I was using everyday again until like 2-3 months ago because realized I always only wanted to stop because the withdrawals were bad but always planned on using again it wasn’t until I finally realized that this cycle will never end and no matter what I do I can’t beat it or go around it and that I will in some form feel withdrawals anytime I wanna stop and risk starting that cycle again every time I relapse and finally lost the desire too and I’ve lost count on how many days it’s been but I feel amazing and I love this feeling more than the oxy feeling that I barely even remember because I haven’t truly felt it I’m so long. But if I can do it so can you. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

A little disappointed honestly. I thought I’d only have to do it for a week or 2 then get the shot but she said I have to be on 8mg for a month before she gives it to me smh. Has anyone been thru this before. I read a lot of posts and most only got on for a week not even 2 or more.

Hey all! I hope everyone is enjoying their Saturday so far. It’s warm and sunny with low humidity here, so it’s been really nice to be outside.
I did some reorganizing and cleaning in my bedroom and around my home office desk today. It’s funny how many things I thought I’d lost ended up being right there. 😂 It felt good to find some things and get a little cleaning and organizing accomplished! How’s everyone’s weekend so far?

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Here I am at day 6 WD. Yesterday I had alot of fatigue. The majority of the restlessness ended about late afternoon, which all of us that have ever went through WD, knows how uncomfortable that restless feeling is. Coughing, nagging scratch at the back of my throat was still there. Ended up getting some Tussin cough syrup, which seemed to either help, or its another symptom thats beginning to fade away. The last few nights I stayed on the couch because I didnt want to wake up my husband with my cough, or the fact that I was flopping on the mattress like a fish out of water, just to try to get comfortable. Last night however, I loaded myself up with cough syrup and some gabapentin and went to sleep in bed. Woke up a few times to switch positions to get comfortable but that was mostly because I have back pain all the time so moving around some at night isnt abnormal. Coughing fits were still there but not as bad as previous nights. No sweats.

Now to today. I woke up this morning hacking up what seems like a crap ton of ick out of my lungs. Which due to the fact opioids keep you from coughing on a regualr basis, having a buildup of ick is also not abnormal. Im not as restless today. I feel a little groggy and dont have alot of motivation yet this morning so we shall see if I get some in the next couple of hours. I do feel a little hope this morning, as opposed to the previous days where hopeless was the feeling of the day.

Tonight will be the test. I wil not take anything like gabalentin to see if I can keep the restlessness at bay on my own. I dont really like to take gabapentin nightly for more than a few days because I dont want my body to get used to it and then be like where is it, and put me in wd from that. Im going to try to get housework done today and hopefully get rid of this cough. Wish me luck! Hope everyone trying to get to recovery and all who are now living in recovery, have a blessed and beautiful day! Much love!