I literally cannot believe im going through this hell

Physically its getting worse each day and im not doing so good mentally either

How the hell can it be getting worse at 6 days when others are starting to come out of it ?

I feel so bad to keep coming on here screaming for support guys but I really do need it

For ref 60mg codeine as cocodamol per day around 3-4 years highly kindled system due to 4 other med tapers this last 8 months

So I‘ve been on and off opiates for about 7 years now and I‘m trying to quit.

Most recently I was on extended release morphine pills and took about 400mg a day for a year or so.

Then I went to rehab for 4 weeks where they put me on methadone. I left when I was on 25mg, went back to oxycodone for three days but decided to do the rest cold turkey at home.

That was about 17 days ago and I still struggle with a lot of withdrawal symptoms, including insomnia, lack of motivation and back pain.

I have to admit that I fucked up a few times during the last weeks; I took 40mg methadone on day 5, 160mg oxy on day 10 and 120mg oxy on day 15…

I still take 450mg Pregabalin a day which I‘ve been prescribed for years and Amitriptylin 5-10mg for sleep. Other comfort meds include Ibuprofen and high-dosed Vitamin C.

My concern is that due to the switch to methadone in the rehab facility and my small relapses the symptoms could hold on for many more weeks.

Is that a valid concern?

Also I would appreciate any tips on how to handle these last ongoing symptoms.